Yume.no.Ato's [d r e a m ♥ d i a r y]
I’ve been using a private Livejournal account & a notebook beside my bed to write all of my dreams in, but I can imagine this would be much more efficient since I visit this website anyway, and it might provoke me into updating more often & better dream recall.
Comments are of course welcome & if you find the font colors too bright to read I'll make them darker.
Okay! I’ve noticed some people using different colors to better illustrate their dreamstates. Here goes:
Lucid Dreams Are Pink
Non Lucid Dreams Are Blue
Dream Pieces Are Orange
Sleep Paralysis is Purple
Side Notes/Interpretations are Green
Other/Personal Commentary is Black
These first 4 posts are actually transcribed from past ones I’ve already written down, some of the most vivid/detailed ones I’ve had in the past year or so. Then I’ll start updating regularly…
Library of Characters that have appeared in dreams below---
Cody, Steffi, Josh, Colleen, Jesse, May, Saining - Best Friends
Colton, Mike Nguyen, Michael, Tong, Crystal, Fiona, Maya, Becky, Alex- Friends
Chelcy - My step sister
Dave - Mother's Boyfriend
Kyla - Some bitch I knew
Mr. Hughs, Mr. Mahalik - Teachers I've had
Mike & Jenn - Mike's a friend, Jenn is his girlfriend
Tom - My mothers ex
Tom Hanks - an established actor XDDD
Homeless Guy Daniel- Some homeless douche who used to date another douche I know. They don't wash )=
Paul McCartney - Main Composer, Vocalist & Bass player of the Beatles
Grace - Crackwhore who needs to gtfo.
Dakota - Ex childhood friend turned douchebag.
RuPaul - Famous Dragqueen & Model, also host of "RuPauls Drag Race" competition.
Will Farrell - Actor/Comedian
Jack & Meg White - Members of Detroit Garage rock/Blues Duo, the White Stripes
Kayla N - Crazy psycho bitch I only met once
Tyler Wheaton - An old childhood friend I haven't seen for years
Kyle R - A kid I knew for years, went to school with.
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Nov 28th 2008
My First Effin WILD
My First WILD should start my dream journal off, so…
I started with the dream notebook but my recall was already pretty awesome (which is what made me look up dream stuff and Discover LDs in the first place) so after about 4 days of journaling I tried to WILD. I laid there, visualized for a while and felt the tremors come on. I let it happen, but after they went away I wasn’t sure what to do. So I tried getting up, but I was paralyzed. Which pissed me off a grand amount since I was heard I could WILD without encountering SP, because I had recurring SP for years and it bugs the crap out of me. So instead of what I used to do, which was try and violently shake my whole body awake, I took a tip someone gave me to try one limb at a time. Well it worked a lot easier, and when I sat up I was very pissed that I got the tremors and everything and that I went through Sleep Paralysis for nothing. I did my routine morning RC and realized I could still breath through my nose. Which made me shit about ten bricks, because I thought I’d just waken up from the SP. I’ve had some LDs since but none have been quite so vivid as this.
I stared at the fabric of my blankets, hopped out of bed and looked at stuff on my shelves, just amazed at how lifelike it was. Then I remembered tips to make people appear, like expect them around a corner or something. So I made up a reason for why, oh lets call him…Bob, (incase he or anyone who knows him every stumbles across this) would be at my door, because like a very lame person I was going to have my way with him and waste my first LD. I didn’t even have to open my front door, once I opened my bedroom one he was there, but so was Cody : / So I asked Cody to wait in my living room, to which he said fine. Had my way with “Bob”, but since I know in real life that Bob is insecure and awkward despite cute, it was terribly boring in the dream so I stopped, left the room, and my mother was in the hallway. She was folding the laundry and asked me “Why do you always have the same underwear in the laundry?” Even though I knew it was just an LD I answered anyway, “Because I bought a package that had three pairs of the same kind, you should know that you were there when I bought them. Plus there’s like 6 other pairs in there” Weird, I know. I tried turning my cat green through forced will, and my body got heavy. Things got less clear.
I went into the living room where Cody & Jesse were, Jesse was playing Skies of Arcadia and Cody was having a smoke. I took a drag of the smoke from Cody, and just became amazed at how realistic it all was. I could taste the smoke, feel it in my lungs, everything. Which made things more clear again, for a moment or so. I don’t know why Jesse was there, but next thing I know I’m in the actual Skies of Arcadia game. Somewhere between having the smoke and being in the game I lost lucidity, but not entirely. It was this weird in-between half aware state… anyway, I was following Jesse around when I came to a door. I grabbed the knob, but stopped and started staring at the wood of the door because it was so vivid…and suddenly I gained lucidity again.
I opened the door and was in Colleen’s house, and she started talking to me. I cut her off mid sentence and said “You know we’re in a dream, right?” And she paused, “… are we?” She said half sarcastically. I stopped to note how true to life even her personality was in this LD. “Yeah, I was practicing this weird dreaming stuff…anyway, you know, the bad thing is that when I wake up, you wont remember any of this.” “Maybe I will, hahahaha” “No, trust me you won’t. You’re actually just in my head.” “Well, why don’t we make plans to hang out tuesday. You can ask me then if I remember what we are talking about now” “It doesn’t work that way, I can’t make plans here and have you attend them for real on Tuesday” But she thought I was just loopy or being a jerk. I saw a girl standing there in her living room. She was dark skinned and randomly had some sort of ticket in her hand. She asked me to punch out the numbers with hole puncher. I still don’t get it. I woke up. The weird thing is, I told my mom about the laundry thing when she came home that day (with the laundry, too) and she got all incredulous because she said she actually was thinking that question when she was folding them that day. When I woke up I basically jumped out of bed and (after an obligatory RC) flipped shit about how awesome it was. I have never had such a realistic LD since.
The Next 4 Entries Are Select Vivid Dreams From the Past Year...
June 3rd 2008
Mouse Crush D=
I had a very strange dream last night. I was a mouse. A boy mouse, to be precise.
And, most of this took place in my grandmother’s house, though, my grandmother made no appearances. I think that it wasn't her house in the dream, nothing was the same, save for the setting. I was a mouse, and I kept running into this large rat. The rat now, resembled the bad guy from "The Great Mouse Detective" in some instances. He was pretty much a bully, and I tried hiding from him a couple of times but he always found me. He would tell me to run errands and do this and that. Eventually, I ran and climbed up a tree, skittering up almost like a chipmunk. He looked at me glaringly from across the lawn (he was by the patio). I tried hiding behind branches and whatnot, but it was futile, he knew I had climb the tree (obviously) and was watching me. I remember, there was a girl he liked, a human girl. And she was having some sort of party or something. She came out and stood beside the tree, while someone was taking her picture. That’s when I met her. I was on a branch that sat neatly beside her face and somehow, she wasn't weirded out by the fact that a mouse was beside her. We talked, and I think she may have told me to be quiet once, for the sake of the photo someone was taking. She was really kind and sweet, and talked to me a bit after the photo was taken. I was so happy that I had made friends with her, and began to develop a bit of a crush. When we were done talking, I painfully noticed once again, that the rat was still staring at me. Only now, he was seething. Furious, that I had even dared talk to his treasured girl. As far as I knew, he only watched her from afar, and had no more right to her than I did. Neither of us seemed to understand the concept that we were not human, and therefore could not have her...I ran down the tree, and went over to where the girl and her buddies had gathered around, chatting excitedly. They were close to the patio side, very near to where the Rat had been. I seemed to fit it, and once again no one seemed to care that I was a mouse. In the middle of everything, the Rat looked at me and threatened me, angry and jealous that I was getting closer to his love than he. For all this time, I could never figure out how it was that he came to love her, when it all started. I didn't care, and now suddenly more confident by the presence of my new found friends, told him that he should leave me alone and mind his own business. I followed the crew into the house.
The dream takes a slightly different turn. I am in the house now, but I am a human. There are people everywhere, who I assumed were the girls friends. The first thing I decide to do is use the washroom. When I walk into the bathroom I am disgusted to discover that there is a plastic sheet over the water in the toilet, and underneath it is something that looks like mold, fungus, and god knows what else. I begin to get extremely paranoid, because though I was cocky a few moments back, I know the Rat is angry and is going to have his revenge on me. I push back the shower curtain. Nothing. I check behind the toilet. Nothing. I'm ready to commit myself to the toilet, despite the grotesque layout of it. Suddenly, someone walks in on me whom I assume are party friends again. They don't shut the door immediately, they stare for three seconds. I'm infuriated, so I finish up, go out and in the the room they were all staying in, and begin arguing with them. I think I've said my piece so I go back into the bathroom to wash my hands. A girl I don't know, decides to follow me in, talking about her day all the while and things I don't care about. She also doesn't seem to mind the sketchy scene in the toilet, and goes about her business.
I walk out of the bathroom, and I'm a mouse again. I'm still nervous, waiting for the Rat to appear at any moment and do some horrible thing. I run over to the living room, and there is DreamGirl, lying on the couch, looking less than amused. I climb up and begin talking to her, again. I'm so in love with her, and I forget all about the Rat for a moment. Then, to my surprise, she begins telling me about the Rat. Images of everything she tells me flood into my head (because in dreams I suppose you can see others memories if you want apparently) I see a picture of her on the couch, lying the way she is, and a man lying beside her, his arm around her. I'm shocked to know that she does know him, but even more shocked to know that they used to be lovers. "He...used to be human?" I asked. "Yes" she said. She told me all about their past and how in love they were. I'm listening, and only slightly disappointed by this news. Suddenly, the Rat decides to make his appearance. I'm startled, worried, and the balls I had a while ago seem to have disappeared. I suck up to him, afraid of what he's got in mind to hurt me with. I start by telling him something I think will really please him, "She was just telling me about how in love you two were" "Hey!" She says, almost embarrassed, "Don't tell him that..." I suddenly understand why he adored her so much and tries to shield her from anyone or anything else. The question of how be became a rat in the first place however, never rises. I wake up to my alarm clock, and only remember this dream about 5-10 minutes after waking. Somehow I remembered a large portion of it, in great detail. Though I can't help but get the feeling that I'm missing something.
Oh well. So, that was my odd dream.
I have no clue what it could possibly mean D=
It was kind of fun being a mouse with a crush, though, hahaha
Last Old Dream before I make up-to-date entries =D
Mar 23rd 2009
A Witch, A Miscarriage, And...other random crap?
I had the most intense series of dreams last night.
My vision lately has been blurring a bit and making me worried,
And that's what I think spurred on this dream---I was in a giant pool of water,
in pitch darkness, wading around trying my hardest to find a ledge.
It was so alarming, not knowing what was in front of me or behind me,
Or even if I would end up drowning, but eventually, I grabbed into a ledge.
(This might've been spurred on by having watched Quarantine the night before that)
Once a light was flickered on, the pool was gone and the scene changed.
I was in my bedroom, and Cody was there on my bed half asleep.
Even with the light on, my vision was blurred everywhere.
I could barely speak, my throat felt constricted and I though I was going to die.
I woke Cody and tried my hardest to say, "Call 911" and I remember him hugging me.
I think I woke up right after that. I remember the utmost feeling of relief.
Then I went back to sleep. I think my next dream was related somehow with a mixture of modern and medieval times. I was in a high tech building, that had a pool on top, and for some reason there were women playing volleyball.
I forget why but there was something in Mikes house that we needed, in another part of my dream that was somehow attached. We knocked on his door, and I suppose one of the other faceless and vague people with me just strolled on in. I didn't notice, really, I just followed them in, looking for whatever it was I was looking for. I forget what that was, as well. Suddenly, when I realized Mike or his girlfriend Jenn weren't around, I said, "Did he...answer the door?" and one of them replied "No, I just went in" so I flipped shit and was like "Oh my God, we have to get out right now! Before he comes back and thinks I'm like some crazy stalker person, fuck!" We didn't find whatever it was we were looking for but in the end we forgot about it.
Then, there was an invasion of little creatures in this randomly high tech/medieval building that looked like kids but where somehow different, and they would come in and take something of yours and you couldn't stop them for some reason. So you had to convince them to take something of little value and trick them into thinking it was good. I told one girl I'd give her a crayon and draw a picture of her. She was content.
I also remember going to school late, which was oddly attached to this weird building, walking in late and having the teacher send me upstairs and telling me to wait. So I went upstairs, and the whole room was a drained pool, but the pool was so shallow that even if it was full you'd only be wet up to your knees give or take. It had no sides, either. The floor just began sloping at a certain point, and in the middle of the slope there was a drain. I was listening to my mp3, to some Justin Nozuka. The teacher came up, who was an odd mix of Mr Hughs and Mr Mahalik. He started talking to me, but then started...singing at me. Singing exactly the same lecture he was about to give me. When he stopped telling me off in song, I just laughed and said, "You sound like Justin Nozuka" and he got all upset as though he wasn't just singing.
Back to a scene from another part of the building, I am unclear as to my role in that medieval place but it seems as though I was trying to escape at some point, because I remember being in a place with wooden ledges, and a dirt ground. And as I tried to get out, a team of very vicious large dogs came out, and somehow I fended them off, though I remember pushing their faces away just as they were about to bite me, scrambling up over a wooden ledge with an adrenaline rush caused by trying not to get my feet ripped off in the process, and running my ass off.
Then, I remember being in the woods near the place, camping out with like, my entire family, friends, and people from the building. We were all eating supper, I think, talking excitedly. For some reason I walked further on down this path, and came across a group of people sitting, one of the volleyball girls was there, and to my horror there were two fetuses (I tried to spell feti, but Firefox keeps spellchecking it as wrong, and fetuses as right....) that were so small they fit in the middle of my palm, and the girl was trying to kill one. I grabbed one up, it was so...small, and fragile and red and ... horrifying, but I couldn't believe she was there trying to stab her own prematurely born children. She was determined to kill at least one of them, and I pretty much had to fight her off of the second child, but I failed anyhow. She'd crushed it with a stick. I felt sick to my stomach, and I ran back to the campground with the survived child fetus in my hand. I remember the rage I had at her, for just how comfortable she was with the situation and how determined she was to kill it when I could have saved it.
Then, we were in the city, and somehow I was some sort of...witch hunter or something.
We had caught this evil powerful woman and taped her to a board, so she couldn't move. I must have spent about 20 minutes of my dream taping. In fact, my dream was almost a lucid dream. Any clearer and I would have began to realize I was dreaming, done a reality check and tried to stabilize the dream with full awareness. Anyhow, I remember being so precise with this tape, I remember it folding at the edges and everything, getting frustrated with it when it peeled up, or when there wasn't enough tape to cover something properly, ect ect. Anyhow, some sort of overseer, some sorcerer dude with blond hair came down and asked us why we were being so nice to her. I was confused. He pointed down. "You taped her head down....with a pillow underneath it". "Oh! Did I?" I only vaguely remembered, which either means I was so focused on the taping I forgot I did that, or my dream created a random memory the minute he told me I did it.
We ripped it off and kept taping her face down, but the board began flying away. Which was fine because it was attached to a rope, which I used my magical powers to send electricity down. Odd, Gay, I know. But I know it was almost a Lucid Dream, because things I learn through Lucid Dreaming I remembered, the only thing missing was I wasn't aware I was dreaming, and so I couldn't take those last steps of control. But I remember thinking how hard it was to electrocute her, how much energy it was actually taking, and thinking vaguely, "Well if I think it'll happen, it will happen. If I convince myself it'll happen, and assert it, it'll happen" so the electrocution grew stronger. The wire was wrapped all around her and the board, so she got fried pretty good. Then, I remember dragging the board across the pavement with her face down pretty harshly, I must have scraped her nose clean off.
At some point, people in the building were being killed, and I can't remember if it was the witch who got free who did it, or some other force, but I remember worrying about all my people in the building like it was fucking Schindler's List or something.
Anyhow, that's all I can remember from last night.
I'm aware its an awful lot, but the reason this happens see,
Is my alarm is set weird and on days when I skip school,
I keep waking up on the hour or hour & a half,
which just increases the clarity of my dreams,
Makes them a little more rampant and makes me remember a lot of them.
I fall right back to sleep after the alarm goes off,
kind of like a DEILD without the Lucidity.