Short DILD with some missed dreamsigns
22.06.2009
Short DILD with some missed dreamsigns (DILD)
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID
Was sharing a room with a one-armed man (left arm missing) like the guy from Twin Peaks(TV). For some reason I felt oppressed by him, but then he was prety weird. Anyway I was being polite. I remember that in a previous dream that led to this one I was involved in some major building construction/demolition (common in my dreams - a dreamsign but I missed it this time)
I took some laundry to the laundrette and put it in the washer. My mother was there advising me about soap powder (another dreamsign I missed - she has been dead for years).
While leaving the launderette I was walking very fast and I had to step aside to avoid a young woman coming the other way, I think this made me more aware. As I was walking down the street I started to pay attention to my footsteps - they were a bit lighter and longer than usual (another of my dreamsigns) - I checked them more closely and decided they were pretty normal and I was not dreaming but then I decided to try to extend them in a floaty way and it then became obvious that I was dreaming. I flew up into the air to prove it.
I then proceeded to explore the dream world but I was not careful to increase lucidity and stabilise the dream, and after a short dream walk through some kind of festival I lost it and woke up.
Just a couple of Non-Lucids
23.06.2009
Just a couple of Non-Lucids (Non-lucid)
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID
Dreamed of being at a Dharma study group I go to. Venue is different (Dreamsign) also some students are different. Teacher was same. My girlfriend was there (she goes in Waking Life). She was talking about some work some builders had been doing (from previous dream (Dreamsign)).
An old lady student challenged My GF saying that it is meaningless what My GF is saying. My GF gets defensive and comes up with some defense that is pretty lame but a good effort - she is upset and I get the impression that people want me to take her side - but the old lady is right and she made some good points in the argument. I talk Dharma with the old lady for a bit. She is very sincere and determined, she challenged my GF out of compassion it is clear but she doesn't say so.
I go into another room and notice that my hair (which is quite long) is very wet and dripping with water (Dreamsign). I try to dry and tidy it but I have no towel - I do find a mirror, nothing odd about the reflection but I am concentrating on my hair. I do something else and my dream changes....
...Sometime later I am eating outside in some kind of large park-like area (Dreamsign). I am sharing food with a companion. There is a group of (other homeless people (Dreamsign)) some distance away I am looking at them accross a lawn. They seem to be inviting/challenging us to join them but I don't want to. My companion communicates with them and there is some interaction between all of us - I get drawn in to some interaction, people are curious about me and asking questions. I give short answers and try to make it clear I am being solitary. Some of them are more challenging than others but I manage to be friendly and they seem to get the idea I am ok but just want to be left alone.
A tall smiley loud Irishman who looks a bit like Johnny-Jack from the last series of Sapphire and Steel(TV) but genuinely charismatic and open - he is their leader - tries to draw me into thier group quite aggressively but also being friendly. He is testing me - asking me to do some makework/meaningless/menial task for him (something to do with pulling up grass?(wtf?)). I say no, he says why?(pushing). I look at him straight in the eye and put on a strong Irish accent and say 'Because I am not fecking Irish!'
He gets the idea and we have a fight. No-one is hurt and there is much amusing mutual piss-taking.
It seems we are more of a group now that we have established where we are with each other. We all share food. I am still being solitary but it is accepted now there is mutual respect.
I wake up.
Historically Important LD #1
NON-DREAMDREAM LUCID
Well, my dream recall has been zero over the last couple of days. I wake up and there is just fading fragments that are gone despite my doing all the stuff that normally works to get my recall going. I think that this may be because I have stopped sleeping with audio aids - binaural and/or suggestions - but it could also be stress (waking life has been turbulent and busy). Anyway I am going to not use any aids for a while to see what happens and try to get my recall back. I will, however work on improving my RC's and do some MILD practice in conjunction with programming myself to recall drerams.
Meanwhile, here is an accounting of a LD I had a couple of years ago. I pick this one because it is probably the most lucid I have been in a dream since I was a child, and remembering it helps me with my LD practice.
I am walking down a spacious corridor. It is constructed from sandstone blocks and well illuminated from sunlight pouring in through tall arched windows in the left wall. I am feeling pleased with myself as I have just acted in a very heroic way in the dream I am walking away from. Can't remember exactly but it was something to do with me having a choice to do something selfish or make a significant sacrifice to help someone else. Anyway I am thinking to myself 'nice one, that was really kind..., you are really quite some guy...' and feelings like these when I suddenly think,
'Hang on, this is just a dream you muppet.' :doh:
I immediately begin to appreciate my surroundings more and have that tingle that comes with anticipating the joy of a lucid dream.
I turn my attention to the sunlight streaming through the windows and the way it makes the sandstone glow and decide to look out of the windows.
There was glass in them but it has gone now that I am looking out (the act of looking past the glass made it dissappear) - the view outside is of beautiful rolling green countryside. The window is quite highly placed and the horizon is some distance away. The sky is blue and all the colours are more saturated than they would be IWL. I appreciate this but lucididy fades slightly so I decide to fly out of the window.
I now begin to have serious doubts about whether I am dreaming or not. I think that I really should be sure I am dreaming before I jump out of the window. How do I know I am not having some kind of trip? Maybe I am out somewhere and somebody spiked my drink or something (I consider this possibility because the scenery is quite trippy)
Thinking like this makes me really question the nature of my reality in the 'ok, who am I, how did I get here really' kind of way, rather than the visual way which I no longer trust.
Thinking like this I realise that I am dreaming, I am in bed in my room (I picture my room) and unless I die in my sleep I will wake up there very soon (I immediately stop thinking about waking up)
I fly out of the window and float down to the ground.
I consider my memory of my bedroom and think that actually, I have no certain knowledge that that memory is where I will wake up, It is just a dream memory and if I try to examine it in any detail the lucidity starts to fade so I stop. I pay more attention to my dream surroudings looking for some clue as to what my waking life may be like but I am pretty lucid and I tell myself that there is nothing in the dream that can tell me. I feel that the colours are too bright and that I don't live in some kind of large gothic building in the middle of the countryside. I think that even if I found a tunnel leading to my room it would be just a dream room and the only way to find out is to wake up.
I feel a bit sad as the certainty of me soon waking up somewhere that I feel is not as nice as this settles on me and the dream begins to fade and I wake up...
When I wake up I immediately have complete recall of this dream.
I am not in the bed or the room that appeared to be my waking life in the dream, that was my bedroom when I was a child.
The room I wake up in is my adult room.
The memory of that LD has stayed with me since as being the most lucid I have ever been in a dream. Especially the reality check mentality. I know that if IWL I practice reality checking like I did in that LD, REALLY trying to say, 'ok, I am assuming I am now dreaming, who am I when I am awake?', that type of RC'ing really improves my dream recall and frequency and quality of lucid dreams.
So I will try to renew that habit again..... :)
[This dream is not included in my LD stats on this forum because it happened before 22/06/09]
