Thread: 高欣妮的日记 Gao Xin Ni's Journal :)

Crappy dream recall today, I had so many dreams I only got bits and pieces, plus I waited until the end of the day to record it down...

White Dog

I see a white dog, he's kind of shaggy. All I remember is a curb and a black road.

I don't want to be a doctor anymore.

I am talking to my father about career paths, he tells me I shouldn't become a doctor anymore because majoring in Chinese doesn't go well with being a doctor. He says I should do law instead. I think about law, and decide to do it while also thinking that it's an evil profession and I really don't feel like scamming people. However, as soon as he tells me it's going to be harder to be a doctor with a major in Chinese, I decide to go for law anyway. I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders now that I am going into law and decide that I should look up the pre-law courses available at my school. Then I realize I have already signed up for Chemistry and Calculus II because I want to be pre-med and they might lower my gpa when I don't even want to go to medical school anymore. I decide I am going to continue to take them anyway, because I shouldn't go through college trying to take the easiest classes I can, instead I should challenge myself. Another realization I have is how easy I change my career based on what I hear from my dad.

The New House

We move into a new house and it only takes a short amount of time before our neighbor is complaining about a light coming through one of our windows. Apparently our next door neighbor comes over to tell us about the complaint he is receiving from across the street about a light coming through my window and how the blinds are constantly being pulled up and down. My mom tells him he probably has the wrong house and I explain to him how I have not touched my blinds all day and they have all stayed down. I then tell him that he is probably confusing me with the president who is actually doing some work with lights.Don't ask haha, I don't get this part. Later we go outside to look at the house across the street. They have lights on their front porch and my mom tells me how beautiful they are. They are plain white lights with a bit of red inside of them.

Haven't talked to him in 5 days...
I have a dream I am going to check my e-mail to see when my last e-mail was since I sent it to my bf right before he left to go to a rural part of Taiwan. I see an e-mail that says "Sent 5 Days ago" at the top. I feel like it's supposed to be three instead. Realistically my boyfriend has left to a rural part of Taiwan and he has really only been gone for 3 days, I have just been checking my e-mail every other second which is probably why I had this dream.

Wow, you're amazing at Chinese!
I am in my AP Enviro teacher's class, but he is my Chinese teacher. I start writing a paragraph in Chinese and just as I am about to erase it he reads it and tells me how amazing my writing skill is. I tell him I was about to erase it because I didn't think it was correct and another classmate tells me I shouldn't erase it because it a very advanced sentence. I feel like I just put a bunch of Chinese together without thinking too much about correct grammar, but they beg to differ. He then turns to the class and tells them that they better watch out for me and that I am starting to do a lot better than my sister. He then warns the students in the class not to take a class with me in the future because it was probably be very difficult. I am then talking to Zoe and Morgan. Zoe says something about going into a career and how people start competing. I tell her I wouldn't be like that unless someone else was majoring in Chinese (in my head I was thinking a minority who was majoring in Chinese and applying for Medical school) but I just tell her I'd just feel competitive toward someone majoring in Chinese and she sort of gives me an "I told you so" look and tells me about how going for a career and competition is bad when combined. I think she was trying to tell me that I should just focus on the career and not the competition.

Hey Doggie, Woah!

I am with my mom and some other people. Some other girl and I decide we don't want to do the next set of activities they are doing so we get a choice to go into the basement and watch a movie. The basement is finished and looks like another story on a house. The door to the movie room is made of glass and the room is really cold. I leave the room for some reason and go outside. Soon I see my neighbor Karoline's dog attacking my puppy. They are both small dogs but he is biting onto my dog's next. I take him off my dog and throw him on to the ground (hesitantly at first because I didn't want to hurt him, but when I think of what he was trying to do to my dog I fling him down anyway off of a few brick steps). The dog doesn't even whimper and gets back up quickly even though at first he lied on the ground like he was dead. I was afraid he was, but when he gets up I breathe a sigh of relief and bring him inside the basement. At first I was afraid the door would be locked since it locks on itself when you close it and I realize my mother told me earlier not to ring the doorbell because she wouldn't hear it since she would be in the basement, but luckily the other girl who was going to be watching the movie came out to see the dogs and she was able to get back in. So she lets me back in and the dog walks around the room. She starts to talk to me about birth control and asks me if I use condoms. I tell her I use both methods because it's as close to 100% effective as you are going to get. I believe she takes one from my purse.

Stolen Money
I am outside lying on a blanket by the door near a mailbox. Inside the mailbox is an envelope filled with money. This girl Kim comes over and gives me the plan on how we are going to get the money. I am not really interested in getting the money, but I got along with the plan anyway. She shows me a hanger and tells me how I can get it to get inside of the mailbox to get the letter. We are apparently supposed to wait later for something, it has to do with water somehow. As she is leaving she turns into Angelica (from the Rugrats) some mother asks her what she is doing and somehow water is involved, possibly a water slide and the money slips out of her pocket into the water and the mother gives her a stern look. Somehow I am able to see my weight in this scene of my dream and it reads 131. I am confused because I was supposed to only get down to 135 so I figure since I feel I still have a goal to reach I will go for 125.

Brother and Sister?! Ew...
I see some scene with a brother and sister who find out they are blood related after one of them is adopted. They eventually make out and go at it until they get caught by someone who knows they are related... Awkwaaard, I know this came from George Lopez's show but in it he just finds out he has a sister he didn't know about who was adopted

Presidential Scholar
My parents tell me something about how being a Presidential Scholar with the highest gpa yields some type of benefit. I think you become the head of some committee. After they tell me this I check my e-mail and find out I have the highest gpa out of all of the other Presidential Scholars (a 3.9). I look at everyone else with close gpas and there are only a few, maybe about 7.

Modeling

I am watching a scene with what looks like the latina who won America's Next Top Model. She is in a tub of water/pool looking thing and is dancing around with some scarves on both of her arms while the photographer is taking pictures of her. She has a very long hair-weave in her hair. I am near two couches with 2 different people. One is a woman who works two 8 hour shifts. Her eyes are very tired and look red and she says she needs to go because she needs to get ready for work and she can't watch the girl take pictures anymore. There is also a guy there is talking to me about how he has to leave as well.

Good Times and the Dating Scene

I see Shirley near a small car. It's looks sort of like a beetle and it's dark outside. I believe she is dating JJ from good times. We go to play pool and some argument comes up about JJ liking me instead of her because of some e-mail. I straighten it out by telling her I definitely do not like him and do not intend on stealing him from her. Later I somehow end up in a classroom where some gang members that like me (a latina gang) send me a birthday-like card. Somehow the card is good to get some type of drug.

The Ants and the Dead Goat?

I am in what appears to be a small house or apartment with two men sitting at a table. I watch a bunch of ants crawl on the ground trying to get some food. Somehow they end up on a dead goat I believe and then in some gross looking cheese, the type that is sold with kraft mac and cheese (the powder stuff). Somehow the cheese gets inside of the goat and ends up on the floor. One of the men complains about how that is probably why the goat is cold now and needs to thaw. The goat's belly is slit open and you can see the cheese pouring out.

Dannables Yogurt

I am having a conversation with my dad, he tells me to stay about from the dannables yogurt because he bought it and found out it was a defective product

Facebook stalking

I am on facebook looking for Ke'an. I find some of his profile information but some of it is missing and not filled out. I assume I have to add him as a friend in order for the rest of the information to fill in.

Vegan Chicken

I am in a kitchen playing cards with Andrew. I am making vegan chicken nuggets. There are some other people there I don't remember but I know they were girls. His cousin comes in and I know in Asian culture it is polite to offer something to eat so I ask her if she would like a chicken nugget after she asks me if I made one for everyone. I tell her she can have one, but she turns it down. I assume it's because she doesn't want to try something of mine that is vegan, but instead she tells me it is because she is going to france. I then think that they must have vegan chicken nuggets in france. My ex bf is in this dream somewhere, but I am not sure how.

The C-Section

I see a scene with a woman who is holding her baby. She is telling someone (maybe me) how even though she stomach is in a lot of pain when she has to get up when she looks into her child's eyes it was completely worth it. She then goes on to talk about how her boyfriend is now a lawyer. I believe she had the child at a young age, and now she knows she can go to her boyfriend (a lawyer now) for support.

Music Video

I am watching TV with some of my friends and I see Morgan in a music video, but her voice sounds completely electronic. I comment about it to a girl next to me (I think Kim). I then get jealous because she is in a music video and I want to be in one too. I try to think of a way to become friends with the girl who got Morgan into the music video so I can do one too.

Modeling/Tyra Banks

Yes, another ANTM dream! I am with with a bunch of other girls. Tyra tells us to put a scarf around our heads and do the fiercest pose we can. When she sees mine she tells me that short hair would look really good on me. We are at a nice dinner table in a fancy restaurant and all of the judges are there. I am flattered by her request.

House off of the freeway

I am driving down the freeway and I notice a house that has a driveway that leads straight onto the freeway. Somehow I end up inside of the house and I start going through rooms. In one I start to open up some object (maybe a suitcase), but I stop quickly because I feel like the person who lives there might be home. Then I start walking down the hallway I enter another room and realize I am dreaming. I got up to a kid and his mom. There is something to do with a mouth and a rat?

Integrals yay!

I am at a school. I try to find a calculator so I can look of the integral of 3/2x^2. Some girls are there that I believe make fun of me. Then I am in a classroom and the teacher is trying to get everyone to quiet down. Everyone shuts up except for one girl who is talking about how she got her bag for only $25. I think that she is stupid for buying a bag for that amount of money.

Annoying Roommate

I am living in my room with MA and we are sharing a bed. I put all the pillows I want on the bed. Later I end up wanting to move out and I start thinking of places I could move into since most of them are taken. Then I realize I can move into the base of rich.


Room 144

I am looking for how to get to a concert, I am supposed to go to room 144, but it's a room that is impossible to get to. I am also walking there with two other people Ms. Verdone and some black rocker guy. They talk about her sexuality and she talks about she is bisexual. She sees that I am slowing down to hear what she is saying so she stops talking. I find a room that I think is the correct one, but there are a bunch of people in there watching a movie. There is some VHS with Michael Jackson music videos.

Bear Attack!

There is some contest going on with guys trying to net bears. I think I am in the contest, but I am one of the guys. The bear starts coming toward me and someone yells at me to net him. I net him and some other guy throws another net over his head.


My girls better do well in school

I see two girls getting their hair braided. I look at their mother and she talks about how they bring home C's from school and she doesn't know where they went wrong. They are very young probably about 2-3 years in age. I try to encourage them to study, but they don't want to. I realize that I want my kids to be high achievers and that I will have them listen to baby genius when they are young and encourage them to study.

Teradactyl
From a certain distance, when given the correct equation you are able to see a Tetradactyl in the sky over the city.

Python/Hippopotamus--cut to scene of 中国人开着车
Outside by the pool with my mom and my sister. I see some strange snake-like thing that I call a Hippopotamus because of it's head shape. But it's head really has a triangular shape and looks nothing like a hippopotamus...Anyway, I completely freak out and try to walk slowly to the other side of the pool. I feel if I jump in the pool I will be screwed if it can swim. It follows me threateningly....It looks like a huge snake. but it has hands and feet and a huge triangular head. As I run it runs faster at me. I try to change directions, but it knows where I am going. I eventually get to the door and some how block it out. It then changes shape and becomes a less threatening looking animal. Its head shape changes and it gets puppy dog looking eyes. I tell my mom and sister about it. Then for some reason I start to feel bad for it because I think maybe it just wants food. I try to prepare a bowl of something for it to eat, but all of the "clean" bowls are all dirty. I eventually find a plate that is not that dirty and try to cut up some oranges and put them on the plate. I decide I will leave a few orange peels incase it wants to eat the skin. I ask my mom what she thinks it would like to eat. I ask if lettuce will be okay, she says it will probably be fine. Cut to another scene---I am outside with my mom sister and dad on a hike. After I have told them about the creature they are all very antsy because they are afraid they will see it. In the end when we get back home we see some weird clear bag on our doorstep with a company's name. I think solicitors and nothing else of it. My dad finds another weird snake-like creature on our lawn. I tell him that it looks like one of its babies. My dad says its probably coming back for our dog because he probably messed with its baby. Next scene is a bunch of zhongguoren in a car talking about how lazy and mean "townspeople are" in america. I think they may have meant city-people, but we don't really live in the city. They then say we were definitely not outside hiking, probably sleeping in our beds and being rude. They say eventually they will be able to get our money and all our assets once we leave the house for long enough.

Angry/Relationship--Always being funny
啊第森 (code name) is in a relationship with some girl who breaks up with him. He reacts very violently and chases her in the mall. Everyone freaks out and tries to break them up. When it's all over I go over to the girl and she tells me, "It's over". I say to her, "Ya think?" She smiles and says she likes that I am still positive and happy despite everyone else who feels sorry for her.

Sneaking Food On A Plane--getting caught
Me and my friend try to sneak a bunch of food on a plane. After we finished sneaking everything on we try to use our access cards to get onto the plane. We are in some room where when you swipe the door it let's you on to the plane. Eventually we swipe a different room door which is the "Detention center" where we have been caught for sneaking food on the plane..."

Why do I like 中国人？--Calcium in water
Continued: We sit down on a sofa and face a mother and her son along with their lawyer. For some reason I feel this has nothing to do with the food we put on the plane. The lawyer acts very harshly towards us, I tell him there is no need to be rude as I am sure he doesn't know whether we did it or not (whatever it was that we did). Then I realize, he doesn't care whether we did it or not...he is a lawyer and his job is get money. The woman is zhongguoren and her eyes are narrowed at us. She says she dislikes people like us and wants us to have the steepest penalty possible. She says one way would be to prescribe us Calcium pills and mix them with whatever because over time our health will diminish. (I dunno what the deal with the "calcium" pills is... I think she might have meant fluoride pills.) Later on I wonder why I am dating my boyfriend because so many people I have met are like this woman, but I realize he is different than them.

Making a Board for my Friends
I am writing on some type of construction paper for my friends. For ai I write that she's the head of the cheerleading team, and a bunch of other positive things to describe her personality, but I exaggerate some of her qualities and she finds it funny.

Website with people's names on it-----Near top b/c of my name
Don't know how to explain this one. It's some type of a website for a project. For some reason on the first 2 people's profiles can be seen because other than that you have to scroll sideways to see the others, but no one wants to do that. This one guy asks why his name is so far down, our group starts talking about how its in alphabetical order. It has nothing to do with playing favorites.

The Simpsons
Bart and Lisa are at some type of camp. Marge tells Homer she has to use the bathroom in the middle of the night. Bart is watching some film about how deep fried corn is bad for you to eat while he makes it in his camp room. Apparently it's some type of healthy camp.

Going to start doing a bit of meditation everyday, I am going to start with at least 10 minutes given that I have a busy schedule in regards to studying for exams.



Both babies gone

There are two adults, their children die. There is a scene showing that the parents are so stricken with relief that they don't show their emotions. The babies were twin boys and I am not sure why they died. Perhaps an incident at the hospital/accident is what I feel in my dream. They have 2 other children--a boy and a girl. These children end up being very unemotional and don't care about others problems because of how their parents hid their own emotions. The dad starts to take note of this behavior when a girl talks to his son about one of her problems, maybe she lost someone in her family, and he seems to not really care. There is a scene where someone is looking at the clothes of the toddlers and thinking that they are what held the family together.


Red Fake Meat?/Red Broccoli

My mom is cooking in the kitchen. She is cooking both real meat patties and veggie patties. When she finishes cooking the veggie patties they are very crispy and brown looking and smell very good. Not much later I try to find one of them. My mom is cooking some more patties and I ask for one, it seems she doesn't know whether they are meat or real. She tells me I can take a chance and eat one of the burgers. It is really red looking--like blood. I put it on my plate, but decide I am not going to eat it. Something makes me feel that it is meat, and if it isn't, the color is scary alone. I am upset because someone eats the last veggie burger. I ask her what happened to the veggie burgers she cooked not too long ago, she tells me someone has probably eaten them already. She says we can go to the store to buy more if I'd like. I try to google which places would have veggie burgers. The only place I know for sure would have the exact kind I'd want is whole foods, but they are too far away. We go to Harris Teeter:

There is some type of holiday sale going on at Harris Teeter. I really feel the need to buy some ice cream after shopping around for my veggie patties and seeing all of the sales going on. I decide I am not going to go for temptation and buy ice cream just because I suddenly want it. I am here for my veggie patties. As I browse around I don't find them. I tell my mom, she is already buying her groceries and doesn't really say anything when I tell her. I am a bit annoyed that she doesn't seem to care. I go back to get the ice cream since I figure I will just have that instead. I end up in an aisle of shoes. They are very brightly colored: pink, yellow, etc... I start to notice that all the shoes look like each other---only slightly different in shape, but all have different variations of the same colors. I start to think about how consumeristic and artificial our society is as well as the rest of the world. As if I am realizing for the first time that is not all real. Almost like plastic.

As I walk back to my mother I see someone returning an item. It is a telephone with a cord that has been cut. The woman explains that her cousin is the one who did it. Her cousin looks very tall and has long hair. It was either blonde or orangey. She seems very distraught. They ask her if she realizes the implications of cutting the cord. She tells them yes. Then they talk to her about how she will have to be put on trial and go to court. They (being the people who work at the store) tell her not to give up hope and to make sure to get a good lawyer so she can put up a good fight. I wonder why it is so serious. But apparently if you want to return something and it's damaged property, but someone else damaged it then you receive your refund but that person is charged with criminal charges.

The World is like the sims

Everyone is being controlled by the "gods" of the world; the highest influence points one can obtain is 1.25 and the lowest is .1, those with .1 and above are the commoners like the sims themselves (as you click on common people you see some have .13 points and points around that range) people with 1.25 are like police officers and others with influence like perhaps firefighters or famous chefs/painters etc. Some fancy french guy asks a circle of people some questions, another guy in the same occupancy gets his name wrong and this angers him. He tells hia his correct name and begins to ignore him. There is an option in the game to ask a question to the commoners and whoever answers it gets praise. Someone leaves in a nice car and goes past a gated area.

Mm can't remember any other dreams, but I know I had one with a couple of my friends, and one had a little girl in it...So I may try to recall those later.

Bad dream recall today! It's only because after my alarm went off I had to finish my calculus homework so I didn't have time to write it down first thing, but I kept a few things in my head to write down after class:

Indian Professor
I am in one of my professor's offices for some reason. I can't quite remember what I was doing. Suddenly, the professor comes in. I don't believe he is my professor but he wonders why I am in his office. I tell him that I am sorry and that I don't have any questions to ask him. He is an Indian guy who is bald except for a small patch of hair that goes around his head. He is very short and something about him is serious yet warmhearted.

Chemistry
I have some dream about my chemistry professor. I think it is interlinks with the scene above.

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Dream call heavily increased after waking up naturally from a nap (some is mostly keywords, because I have to go somewhere):

Sister being weird...
Keeps flashing me or some weird crap, I turn away. My mom talks about how she loves cross multiplication because it's so easy to do. My sister talks about how she hates it because she thinks it's too simple.

Going back to bf's college to go to something for free food
Continuing from the scene above I start to pack up and tell my mom I need to get back to school soon. Even though the real reason is that I am going to see my boyfriend at his school. He calls me and I pick up. He tells me some party type thing is happening and it started an hour ago, but it shouldn't matter. I tell him that I will be there as soon as I can and hang up.

I am so fat
I am on a facebook account and I see that two friends have complimented some of my pictures and there is even a movie up of me. Somehow when I look at the pictures/movies I end up in a cross between looking at facebook and actually being at the place that is being talked about. 单牙 tells me that I look very pretty, and I get a bunch of compliments from a bunch of other people including 啊第日恩. She talks about how when I came to the party she and other people were having some type of yellow dress competition and I happened to be wearing a yellow dress and I looked better than all of them. I continue to hear a bunch of compliments about how good I look and then I see the pictures of me and the video and I am absolutely disgusted at what I see. I look really chubby and I am doing some ridiculous dance that doesn't look anywhere near graceful. I decide right then that I am going to start eating healthy foods (mostly fruit) and start exercising during the same period that I am preparing for exams.I think what this dream probably means is that I still have some type of issues dealing with my self-confidence/weight regardless of people's compliments toward me. When I came to college I gained around 5 lbs, which isn't a lot but it can take a toll on your self-confidence when it's harder to fit in some jeans you always used to wear. I finally decided to lose the weight and I lost all of it an more, but I guess my dream is telling me I am still not happy with my weight. Consciously I haven't really felt this way, but I guess on a deeper level it's still there.

Catcard

Dad comes back gives me new card looks like a bunch of pictures of me starts from when I was youngest and the next one is my age now and then the pictures go down in age. I think i't s really awesome.


Li laoshi

We have to do some presentation based on the food we have. She gets annoyed because it is just there for display and not to eat. She gets annoyed at someone who isn't doing the presentation correctly. Something to do with how you are doing and food. Able to pick from several different categories. Some old woman is there.


Down the highway

As I walk down the highway all the cars that want to turn in the lane I am in don't and instead turn off their turning signal and stay in the first lane they were in after seeing me. I pass a huge group of people coming my direction. As I pass them I hear some remarks. I am not sure if they were being mean or catcalling.

Lil' Wayne--illuminati
I have a dream I am telling some kid about how dangerous mainstream music is because it's just a way to get kids to buy into the fads. They just use celebrities as a way to brainwash children. Little wayne is there and he tells me that that is not true and if it was he wouldn't be a part of it. I don't believe him.

Chinese Dialogue Performance

Me and my partner 真理子 are performing our dialogue to my 化学教授. He seems very impressed by our performance and says that we have really improved and that he felt it was really realistic. We seem to be in some type of garage and we perform it in a car. He tells everyone to get in the car if their socks have holes in them/only wearing socks, so their feet won't get wet. It is raining.

He starts the car up and starts driving us somewhere. I tell him about how I want to write a paper about how Hollywood perpetuates Asian stereotypes, but I am just kidding. He says that if I had written that paper he would be able to look it up in the archives to see if I really wrote it. I had no idea teachers could look up all the papers that have been written by their students.

Battle Field-Western

On some type of battlefield. There is a bunch of shooting and snipers. You can see some dirt mounds all around. Two cowboys draw their guns. One points it at the other and says something about how he and a bunch of other people are suing the city and if he doesn't help them out then he is going to kill him.

Subway eat Fresh!

My dad is taking me my sister and some others to get subway. He parks perpendicular to the parking spaces in front of the building (or adjacent to the curb). I find this weird because he is blocking other people from parking in the front. There is a woman who speaks spanish at the counter. I feel she is very good at math because she doesn't seem to use the cash register to calculate the totals. My sister orders, despite the fact that she didn't want to go in the first place, she orders a cheese pizza and a donut. I ask my sister why she ordered anything at all, she says just because she wanted to. The woman says something like "See you again" to us. I ask her if I could have a slice of cheese pizza as well.

Sorry guys, bad dream recall again today! I had some of it in my head before I left for class, but a lot of it I can't remember. I tried to write some of it down. I'll probably take a nap so I'll have more to say later.

金成教他们

So 金成 teaches up during our class session in Chinese. I think he was teaching us Chinese, but I am not 100% sure. He then starts to advertise his website, it was either his own personal website or something like a facebook account. He tells us we should check it out, but none of us seem interested. He says something that alludes to something that happened during medieval times and somehow it ties in with his website.

Throwing fire by jumping

I am walking with someone else, I believe we are in a battle field. We jump over something that looks like a crack in the earth or some type of oil spill. We are surrounded by a large field and there is a street near by with a bunch of people on it. It seems things are in chaos. Whenever we jump over this crack/oil spill a huge flame of fire leaps out and burns several guys who are far away and going toward the top of the field/mound. I feel bad, but I know this is the only way we will survive. It seem the guys that were getting burned were the "bad guys". I had some type of feeling that in my dream they were some type of buddhists/monks/warriors something of that nature.
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Just a quick side note: I have been meditating for at least 10 minutes a day and I think it's helping me with dream recall, even though it seems like I am not getting much I am getting a lot more than before I meditated (nothing pretty much, if I was woken up by an alarm).

Bagels with Coffee, Tea and Cake

My dad talks about all these different types of food items and drinks he wants to combine. We make fun of him and he says something like "you have never heard of bagels with coffee, tea with cake?" We laugh because we have, but that mean we feel he should eat it.

中国人会说中文但是不会写汉字

There is a guy who talks about Chinese and his experience in China. He tells us about how people in China can talk to you in Chinese, but they won't be able to read anything you write because a majority of them are illiterate. I remember the background having a chinese feel to it, like colors of red and gold. Later on I see him in the mall, I believe he is selling something. My dad talks to him in Chinese not expecting him to respond. The first time he responds I don't believe he notices, the second time he says, "Oh! I didn't know you could understand what I was saying!" The guy then talks about parties that happen in Virginia late at night. It seems that my dad loses all respect for him after that and also because he notices he keeps looking over at me. He asks if what I am wearing was appropriate clothing to allow me to wear. I think I might have been in some type of show of his or something during class. He says something about how it's "bum wear". I am wearing something involving black tights, shorts, and a tee shirt. My dad disagrees and tells me I should get rid of the tights. My legs are REALLY hair for some reason and it doesn't look anywhere near attractive. The guy wants to ask me out for something to drink, he asks me if I'd like to go out to get some tea with him. I say yes, but though part of me wants to go, the other part is really scared of the guy and wants nothing to do with him.

Phone Mind Control?

In a large mall and after passing a person that I had seen before for the second time and having deja vu a bunch of people realize they are dreaming and "wake up" and start asking "where are we? how do we know each other?"Then I start explaining how I knew this was going to happen because once the collective conscious mind is awakened it spreads out to everyone at the same time. Then I start noticing people going back to their dream state again and being unaware of everything that is going on. I wonder how this is happening and then I notice that whenever someone answers their cellphone they go back into dream land. I am with one of my friends and I yell NOOO at him so he will get off his blue tooth and I knock it to the ground because we are high up on a different floor, but somehow he manages to get on another phone I believe. I just remember seeing one of those blackberry looking Verizon phones.


Whole Foods/Grocery Store

I tell my sister I am going to the store to pick up some stuff, she wants to come with me. I let her, but she starts to take to long to come so I start moving toward my car. I want to keep my parking spot, but I notice a lot of people are leaving campus so I figure I'll be good for a spot when I get back. My sister tries to block someone from parking in a parking space. I wonder if she is seriously trying to prevent someone from parking in a space so we'll have one when we get back. I feel it makes no sense since when we leave it will be up for grabs anyway. Then I see she is just messing with one of her friends. She gets in the car with her and her friend swerves around my car and almost smashes into me. In the end I think she hit the front part of my car. Even though I don't see damage I feel she has her painted smeared on my car. I get annoyed and start driving away my sister runs to catch up with my car.

The guy who likes many girls
This one guy talks to me about how many girls he has had sex with in the past. He says some number that is either in the 20's or the 60's either way it disgusts me and I feel that if he is trying to impress me it is far from working. I then tell him how using girls like that is like blowing into a tissue and throwing it away and I go on this ridiculously long analogy that compares something being used to how he uses girls and it completely grosses me out. I think he understood what I was saying.

Sister's new boyfriend
My sister has a boyfriend that I guess could be classified as "gangsta." While she is hanging out with him she leaves for a second to use the bathroom and when she comes back he is gone along with his friends and a small amount of her money is stolen because they weren't able to gain access to the large amount that she carries with him. She tells us about it later, I believe, and my dad's response is that guys like that try to make up all types of excuses and try to sound cool and leave when something bad is going down so they aren't associated with it. I remember thinking he was a horrible person.

Pinup girls and video access to showers
Carrying over from the mall scene there are a bunch of goth type people who go around wearing different outfits related to pin up girls and that time period. I see a lot of short red wigs and bright red lipstick. I wonder what their fascination is with such things, but I ignore it. Later you see someone has video taped a lot of them in the shower/bathroom and put it on display for everyone to see. You can see one girl is in a tub on the phone and she screams when she realizes she is on TV. But it looks like she was completely submerged under the water, like she could breathe under water. Also you could tell she was acting. The guys had paid her off to do it.


Weird phenomena?

I am giving this a different color because I am not sure what this falls under...It was like a combination between false awakening and lucid dream? Basically I felt myself laughing while I was asleep, but at the same time I was observing that I was laughing and that I was laughing at something stupid going on in my dream. Then I realize how this stage of sleeping must be like what it's like to be drunk. I felt extremely uncoordinated. And I was laughing at something that wasn't even funny, but I tried to keep laughing on purpose to see if I was the one making myself laugh. It was a very weird experience...I also felt extremely tired while this was going on--thus a "drunk" feeling.

I wasn't able to write my dreams down this morning because I completely forgot to remember them ...Probably because I had so much going on, oral examination for chinese and I decided to go ahead and take my calc II exam (we are self-scheduled). Anyway! The best way I get around that one is by taking a nap so I can remember my dreams so here you go:

Too cozy with this guy...

Yea, I am horrible...dreaming about other guys when I have a boyfriend :\, but I can't help the way my subconscious mind works!In the dream I am in a room with this guy, his code name will be 馬力粗.Man, I hope I can remember all these code names...Anyway, I am in a room with him and he is studying for something or he was to get something done for EPG I believe so he is trying to concentrate on that, but he looks really stressed so I figure I'll be nice and give him a small massage and try to get him to relax. He seems a bit surprised by my gesture, but I believe it ultimate leads him to not getting whatever it was done on time. I apologize and said that I did it simply because it seemed like it needed to be done. He seems a bit confused, I think he was thinking I did it because I liked him, however my explanation is that I did it because it was needed, or it was the right thing to do...Something like this. I give him some type of buddhist-like explanation. He understands and then says something to me hinting at some type of want for intimacy. I am flattered, but I know that we both know I have a boyfriend so I ignore it, but I can't hide that I am flattered. He leans in for a kiss, but somehow it ends up not happening. I think I change the subject and move away. Eventually my mom comes in and says something to me. We have a conversation and I ask her a question in fluent sounding Chinese. 馬力粗 answers me and I respond in English so my mother knew what he was saying.

Sister and the psychic dogs?

I talk to my sister about how she can use dogs to find what she is looking for. I get a feeling that it's some type of spiritual entity or something that people usually can't see that she is trying to find. I give her another option, but she thinks the dogs are best. She lets in a bunch of random stray dogs come in on two different occasions. We are in some building that looks kind of like a warehouse and the door is this huge door that seems like it is very securely closed.

Guy in a van/trailer--Not Nice

A family of people who live in a trailer/car-home thing drive next to another family who lives in a big car. He asks him for help regarding some of the paranormal activity he has been experiencing since he knows they are experienced in dealing with that type of stuff. The guy tells him to go away and makes fun of him for living in a car, which is odd because he is living in one himself, however his car looks not nearly as nice as the guy's that he makes fun of. His is more like an actual car while the other guy's car looks more like those big vans that you are actually meant to live in. The guy who gets insulted feels this guy must not be a very spiritual person because of his anger.

Looking bad in front of the Chinese teacher...

So I am going to my Chinese class and on the way i am listening to my radio. On the radio I hear some type of Chinese pod thing where they tell me how to say New Jersey in Chinese. When I get to class the teacher asks us some questions and when she explains one of the answers I blurt out, "Oh! I heard that on the radio on the way here " She smiles and says, "Oh, well why don't you tell all of us how to say New Jersey in Chinese." I pause and try to think back to my show.. nv...nv... I can't think of anything besides the "new" part, so I make up the last bit..."Nv..Ju-Si (2 first tones)?" She looks disappointed, and I feel stupid since I had just heard that on the radio not that long ago...Some other girl who is not that great in Chinese starts to look it up in here notes. She says it to the teacher (起趣 something..it makes no sense) and the teacher smiles and says, "Good job!!" I am a tad annoyed because anyone could look it up in their notes...I am sitting next to my boyfriend，高鼎恩. He tells me not to worry about it.


Let's see if the ghost calls us!

I am with my boyfriend again, we are in some house. I believe my sister is there too, but in the beginning it is just me and my boyfriend. We somehow get on the topic of ghosts and come how make contact with someone who has died recently. His code name will be 凑踢子. All the lights turn out and I turn to my boyfriend and say, "I hope he calls my cell phones". In a matter of seconds my phone starts to go off, I see a weird number on it and usually I don't answer weird numbers, but I answer this one and put it on speaker phone. I hear 凑踢子 laughing and getting on us for believing in ghosts. He is apparently dead, but when I hear him on the phone he definitely sounds a live and well. Later my sister comes and we all eat some food. There is some dirty rice, regular rice, and cake? I say something about not wanting to eat dirty rice, but I mean rice that is literally dirty. My sister thinks I want to eat her food.

Why are there no dishes in the house!!!

I am living with my dad. I believe he is either separated from my mom, or my mom is on vacation. My sister isn't there either. The kitchen looks very nice and clean but there is barely any food or dishes. I get upset at my dad and tell him that this stuff won't last very long, especially the dishes because there are like a few plates in the dish-washer and like 3 cups (or some small number).

Brushing a doggie/Kid's eyebrows

I find a brush and start to brush my dog's hair to make him look presentable. I am amazed at how much better he looks with his hair brushed. Though, this is not my actual dog. This dog looks like a lab and is pretty big. When I am done I try to bush this little kid's eyebrows because I am hoping I can make him look as nice as the dog. It works to some extent.

I am invisible!
Very weird dream, I am not even sure where to begin..I am with some other people and something happens to make us all look like paper thin pieces of something that change color. When we enter the school based on our feelings we change color or become invisible. Johnny is told not to think about being invisible or he will become invisible.

I am onna role, I think this is the longest time I have kept up with a dream journal? Well I'll just write down my dreams before I jinx it.

Mind over matter, Dear
I am in some large room with a high ceiling with my family. And old woman is there and she tells me to come near here. I do so, but reluctantly. She tells me to throw the box on the ground up into the air. I pick it up and feel how heavy it is, with all my might I fling it upward. It doesn't travel very far before falling back down. She laughs and says to me, "I used to be like that". She then tells me about how important it is to believe you can throw it higher, as high as you want and the importance of mind over matter.


Dad and Four beds
I am in a large room and I see my dad in a room with 4 beds. I make sure to count them, "1...2...3...4...5..." I think I see 5 at first, but then I realize the "5th" bed is just a small dog chair and some other sofa looking thing that aren't actually beds so I count again, "1...2...3...4..." For some reason I think it's important that I remember these 4 beds for later. Perhaps, for when I wake up? The room is lit by many lamps, but it is somewhat dark. I sense that there is a fire place. I wonder what the significance of having so many beds is.

No! Wait until you see 高鼎恩！
I am with 错题字 or w/e his code-name previously... We are going over our Chinese dialogue, but the first time we go over it, it sounds very weird. A lot of it doesn't really make a lot of sense. He starts crossing out a bunch of "long" lines he feels we don't need. I look at one line he crosses off and it looks like he crossed out the whole line for one word. "Hold on a minute, let me see that!" When I look at it only a few words are crossed out. I give it back to him. For some reason I start to yearn for a kiss, from anyone. I think perhaps he might kiss me, but I instantly stop the thought. Just because I miss 高鼎恩 doesn't mean I should kiss this guy for satisfaction. I don't even find him attractive. I decide to wait the week out until I see my boyfriend.

Phone with Auntie
My mother is on the phone with my aunt. She tells her that we are leaving soon and that she has to go. But my sister screams at her for being a liar because we have been here for such a long time and we aren't leaving anytime soon.

Looking at profile pictures on facebook-YACK!
I hate facebook dreams, especially because I don't even USE facebook that much! I have a dream that I am looking on this girl's profile on facebook and I see a bunch of pictures of this guy 嗳撒卡 which was a guy I had a crush on in the 7th grade. I continue to look at all of his pictures.

Catching a plane
I am in an airport trying to get onto a plane. THere is another girl there who goes up to start boarding. They ask to see her receipt and she says she forgot it at home. They say it's alright and let her on anyway. I realize I can't find my receipt either. I wonder if they will let me board the plane without it like they did that other girl.

Basement of the Bar
I am in the basement of a bar. (The same basement from Paranormal State) I realize I am dreaming since I had just seen this bar during a TV show I had been watching. I start looking through the cabinets and I ask whatever spirit is in the room to do something, and I am not scared at all. The basement doesn't feel threatening at all. I remember seeing a toaster on a counter in a room that looks like a kitchen towards the end of the basement.

Old guy performing Tricks
An old guy is performing tricks of some sort. I believe they are magic tricks, but I sense they also had to do with mind over matter type stuff.

Girl pretending to be Brazilian/Guy pretending to be smart
I am watching some TV show where there is a girl who talks with an accent as if she is from Brazil. She hides under the covers when the guy leaves. Then later on in the show she is actually a guy and she is being tutored by some other guy and he pretends to know everything they are going over by reading ahead and memorizing facts. The tutor catches on and threatens to leave, but then he realizes he is getting paid so he stays.

Saying the name 错题字 out loud...

I am with a group of people. I keep saying 粗题字 and 错梯子 and just a bunch of random names with similar sounds to see if I could find a name that sounds closest to the person's actual name. I believe my aunt is there somewhere.

Mother annoyed by my Grandmother's vegan-ness

I am in a kitchen with my family. My mom is cooking dinner for everyone. I see butter on the broccoli and get nervous because my grandmother is vegan and she will probably say she can't eat anything. So when my mom calls us all down for dinner I sit at a plate that I guess was supposed to be her's but it seems like that it isn't vegan either. It looks like noodles with oil and some carrots. Everyone else has noodles and broccoli. My grandma says she can't eat the food because there are eggs in the oil. I find this a bit weird because I wonder how you get eggs into oil since oil can be a substitute for eggs. My gets annoyed and goes towards the kitchen and calls me in to her help prepare a vegan dish. I have no idea how since the only things I can think of are flour, water, and soymilk to make vegan pancakes. My grandma says that it's okay and that she'll make her own dinner. She puts a squash or eggplant into some water with spices and water and turns the heat up. The she adds something called "oak flakes" I tell her I still have the yeast flakes from last time, but I look at them and they are all brown. I know I have a newer container where they are more yellow, but I can't find it. While I see her cooking I realize how easy it is to be vegan. You just eat more fruits and vegetables instead of replacing them with fats, butters, oils, and cheeses like we do. I want to ask her if she is considering going raw.


Alice in wonder/Batman game
I am on the street with this guy. We really want to go play some video game for some reason. It's supposed to be a live game, like a TV show almost. I see a poster outside that says something related to cavities or teeth that haven't been brushed in a while. It's supposed to be advertising some sort of villain, but I think it's really lame. I mean, who is scared of bad teeth? I hear a bunch of laughing and imagine the green teeth on the poster chuckling. The friend I am with eventually find an entrance to the place. There is an elaborate way to get there. First we have to slide down a sheet into another room. I tug on the sheet to see how safe it is. It starts to rip. So I realize we could get really hurt and grab a rope instead. The rope is attached to a ceiling behind a curtain and somehow I can see it from the room I am in. The guy tells me I am crazy for doing this, but I say it's more crazy to use that white sheet. I jump down and glide down the rope. It is not long enough to reach the bottom of the floor, but it's long enough to jump from the rope to the floor without getting hurt. My friend follows me. Someone behind the curtain looks at us like we are crazy. We then find the next door we need to get past. My friend moves in front of me and as we move up toward the top I feel like the stairs and ceilings are shrinking. "Hey come up what are you doing?" I tell him I think I am stuck, it seems like this traveling to the game is a way to weed people out. Eventually I push myself in even though it seems impossible and I find that the room we are in is much bigger than the hallway outside. We find a living room/dining room and sit in the chairs. The chairs are way too big for us. Everything has magnified x2.

Being called fat by my boyfriend/my mom
The scene changes and my boyfriend's mom/my mom appears. It seems that they are one in the same. "How did you get up here! You are too fat there is no way you got through that small hole!" She goes on about how fat I am and how I need to lose weight. I am pissed off, but I don't say anything because I don't want to argue with my boyfriend's mom. Eventually I lose it and scream at her how I am no where NEAR fat and that I am close to her size so she needs to back off. She eventually stops talking.

Stolen Car
I am in some type of restaurant and I am told that if I leave my car someone will take care of it for me and get me a parking space. I am kind of nervous to just leave it because someone may tow it away, but I do so anyway. I start talking to a few people and when I come back a few minutes later it's gone. I freak out and start thinking about how much towing fees cost. The people around me don't seem to care. Then one woman tells me how they need to clean my car and all of this other stuff and they will get it back to me. She tells me how disgusted she is with how dirty it is. I am just nervous that my car has been stolen and that I will never get it back.

Asks Boyfriend if She Should Get a Relaxer
My best-friend who is now newly natural is talking to her boyfriend. She is worried about him not liking her hair so she leaves the decision up to him as to whether she should relax it or not.

Military/Boot Camp?

So I am on some field with a drill instructor, I believe. She is telling us that we need to be prepared to work hard. She asks us if we are ready. We say yes, but she says she doesn't believe us and in order to prepare we need to run 3 miles. We all moan. I think of how painful it is going to be to run 3 miles when I can barely run 1.

Story of an Asian Girl

Umm I forgot most of this story by now...I just finished taking my early exams. Some girl is talking to someone else about something that happened to her...I think it involved a mother and a child of some sort.

Working at a company

I am working at some company and I am walking through the front, which sort of looks like an entrance to a hotel room. It's huge with tile flooring and white walls. I say something to one of the other workers at the company and he tells me I shouldn't do that. There is something going on with a lot of people steal money from the company. As the scene changes I enter a different room and I see a woman wearing locks and she is holding a bunch of pamphlets. She also shows some way to get a flower to bend a certain way and retract its petals but messing with the lights over it. I feel bad for the flower because it is starting to die.

You know, I just realized that whenever I describe a dream I usually put it in active tense. Whereas if it was something that actually happened to me physically I would use past tense.