Simon's Lucid Ramblings

I've had many lucid dreams since I was a kid (most of them while I was a kid) but have never really pursued them. Earlier in 2009 I decided to do a little more research and attempt to have more regular LDs.

I hope to add many entries to this journal.

Enjoy.

Things I have learned so far.

Supplements

I don't always have LDs when I take supplements and I don't always take supplements when I have an LD.
With that said, the most successful combination for me is:

Before Bed:
300 mg L-Theanine
5 mg Melatonin or 100 mg 5-HTP

WBTB:
300 mg L-Theanine
4 mg Galantamine
200 mg Choline

I take this no more than once every 3 days.

- I have tried the Amino Acid Blend several times but it hasn't helped at all.
- B6 helps with vividness but anything over 50mg keeps me up.
- Valerian Root has been a great sleep aid and I've had some rather vivid dreams and LDs under it's influence but I'm still not sure it was the cause.

25.06.2009

On the bike (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was on the bike sitting in traffic.
It was raining.
I was with someone that was following me in a car but I don't know who it was.
I noticed someone too the right of me get out of her car.
It was a teenager that seemed to be mad at her parents.
She came over and jumped on the back of the bike. I laughed and said she could ride for a while but would have to get off at the next gas station.
When the light turned green I hit the gas and felt a huge wave of fear go through me like I was loosing my balance.

That's when I realized I was dreaming.
I started to loose the dream so I immediatly tried to spin.
Since I was on the bike I floated up off the seat so I could spin without upsetting anything.
It didn't work and I started to wake up anyway.

This was my first LD after starting the pursuit and hopefully I will have longer ones in the future.

26.06.2009

On the Mountain (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This was a quick dream because I dosed of on the couch not long after I got up in the morning.

I was up on rainier again but at a different camp. I was climbing up through some very deep powder and I could feel everything. This was very vivid. I think I was attached to someone but I couldn't see anything but the rope. I didn't really care either.
The area was completely covered in snow.

I suddenly realized that I was dreaming. I remember thinking wow I can feel the snow, the cold, the wind. I could smell it too. I was all so realistic I couldn't beleive it was a dream.
Although I knew I was dreaming, I didn't try to control it. I just let things go and enjoyed the scenary.

Then I woke up.

I think this was a product of not having a list of goals to do once I attain an LD. I'll have to try to do something next time.

06.07.2009

Scifi Tunnel (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a tunnel with lots of metal piping and doors. Kind of a dark slimy green color.
I was traveling fast through the tunnel trying to get to a specific door. I had been to this door before but this time the route had changed. It seemed like there was some extra piping in the way. It was a yellowish color.
I got the door and there were four buttons that looked like foot pedals. This was different too. I hit the first lever and an alarm sounded. The door was beginnig to open. First the bottom portion moved away then it began to twist open like on a spaceship.

Then I became lucid.
Almost imediatly everything started to fade.

I tried staying very still and going back to the dream but nothing worked.Ahhhhhh!

09.07.2009

First WILD (with SP) (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is my first successful WILD but it took almost 2 hours of sitting still for it to happen. (I don't fall asleep to quickly.)

First thing was the SP. I felt it come on like a freight train. I started feeling this weird moving sensation then all of a sudden I felt like I was flying down a very twisty waterslide in the dark. This only lasted for a few seconds and when it was over I opened my eyes to find myself inside of a large underground tunnel.

Everything was so vivid. I knew instantly that I was dreaming and I started getting excited. Then it started to fade. I tried looking at my hands but they were all messed up like they were melting. I had no fingers on one hand and 2 nubs on the other. That freaked me out a little so I tried spinning. This was the key. I could really feel the effect and when I opened my eyes everything was better.
The first thing I did was fly. I didn't have as much control as I thought but I also didn't bump into things. Just passed right through them.

I decided to fly up into the sky which took me out of the tunnnel I was in. It was night and I think I was over some water. I remember trying to go to this giant house on a hill. It looked like something out of an old horror movie.

I don't think I made it to the house because the next thing I remember is being in the tunnels again. I remember going up and looking at one of the rocks real close and touching it. I could see every detail but I couldn't touch it.

I was having trouble running. I had dream legs. It was very fustrating. Instead I tried teleporting. That didn't work either.
My vision started to fade so spun again. That worked but only momentarily. Then I wiped my eyes and everything cleared up. Focusing on things seemed to work too.

Suddenly the area I was in was full of people. I was in some sort of factory. I thought cool. I'll try to talk to someone. I went up to a girl that was near me. I said "hey I want to talk to you". She said "really is that so?" I could see every detail in her face. Then I just wanted to see if she were real. I reached out to touch her jacket and I could feel it. I pulled her close and her face changed.

Then I woke up.

One thing I noticed is that every once in a while my dream eyes would feel heavy and when I tried harder to opened them I would see light from my bedroom.

10.07.2009

Bicycle on I40 (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was riding my bicycle down interstate 40 on my way to a birthday party. I was about to take highway 52 when realized how insanely dangerous this was. I was angry at getting myself into that situation. The highway was different too. There was a tall wall on the right of the exit and almost no shoulder. At any time a car could come hit me. I needed to get out of there and couldn't figure out how.
I decided to see if I could fly so I thought real hard and started floating up in the air.

Bingo. Lucid.
Just to make sure I looked at my hands. Yep. All screwed up.
Everything got very clear and I started flying up a little higher. While I was flying I noticed it was hard to breath but it didn't bother me much, just an observance.
When my sight started to fade a little I focused in on part of the highway and it cleared up again.
Then I saw a park over to my left. I was still about 200' up but I could see a person with long green hair. I flew down to the park and landed just under the platform that the person was walking. I looked up and the person looked like some strange humanoid figure with an extra large nose and small eyes. They were wearing a dark green robe and had long green hair.
I started to fly up to the person and poof I was out of the dream.

30.07.2009

Digital Clock. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was sitting behind a desk with a digital clock on it. I couldn't read the clock no matter what I did so I thought I must be dreaming.

Bam lucid.

I calmed down and thought of my goals.
I looked at my hands to stabilize but this time they were fine. Normally while lucid they are all screwed up. Either way it helped me gain some clarity.
I wanted to meet my dream guide so I floated over to the lobby where I was. Which happened to be my old employer.
There was an old Woman there. I asked if she was my guide and she said no.
I rubbed my hands together to stabilize. Then I thought I would eat a cheeseburger. (dreamviews july goal) But I couldn't make one appear.
Fearing I would wake up I decided to look for my guide again. I tried to fly out the door and actually hit it the first time.
I tried again and floated past the wall.
I went to crowed city street. It was night. I landed behind a family of three. They were scared of me. I passed them and went through a paper stand. The boy that was with the family tried to give me some money as the father tried to stop him. I turned and laughed at him.

Woke up.

My vision in this dream was not as clear as my other lucids.

15.08.2009

Met My Guide (I think) (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in some kind of hotel trying to sleep when I decided to get up and go outside. For some reason I realized I was dreaming and was suddenly lucid.

I stayed calm and thought about my goals. I wanted to try to eat a cheeseburger again. I looked down at the bed and calmly thought about what the burger would look like and it just formed right there. Cool. I picked it up and took a bite. Tasted like a cheeseburger. I wasn't hungry so I put it down.

Then I flew up to the top of the house. I wanted to teleport so I tried but kept failing. Then I decided to seek out my guide again. I looked up and saw a young woman with black hair walking below me.
I flew down to her and was careful not to interact too much. (this has caused me to wake up in prior LDs) I asked if she were my guide and she said no but there was a red head over at a table that was.

As we walked to my guide I asked the girl what it was like only existing in my dreams. She laughed at me in one of those "you really have no clue what's going on" tones. I still wonder what she meant by that.

I followed the girl over to the table and there was the girl sitting with others that I didn't even look at. I picked her up and she was very giggly. I ask if she was my guide and she said yes. I took her to another room so we could talk. It was full of leather furniture and I asked her if it was OK to sit there. Then she turned into a cat. I asked her what her name was but she just hissed at me.

I decided that i was going to teleport again but I asked my guide to help me. I closed my eyes and opened them and I was In a different room. Cool. I tried again and was back where I started. When I tried again I put too much effort into it and woke myself up.

Notes:
I used my hands as stabilization this time but really didn't need it that much. Just staying calm seems to do the trick. I also noticed that I could look at my hands occasionally and they would not be messed up as normal. I'm also not completely convinced that the person I thought was my DG was. I will continue my search until I am able to have a conversation with her.

22.08.2009

Robbery (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My memory of the dream before I became lucid is less clear but here is the gist.

There was a team of us that had just robbed a large amount of gold from an old rundown building in some city. We were taking it to a dropoff somewhere in a large hotel across town.
I was driving the truck and at one point we got stuck in an alley because of another truck. I spoke to the other driver and she moved out of our way and we made it to the hotel without any trouble. Once the gold was unloaded I had to take the cart up to the 200th floor. The cart was very heavy and took everything I had to move it. As I was taking the heavy cart too the elevator when I suddenly realized I was dreaming.

I looked at the cart, put my hand on it and just picked it up as if it were a feather. I went to an elevator and got in. I needed to got to floor 200 but I couldn't see the numbers on the keypad. I knew that it wouldn't work because I was dreaming but I was still irritated by it. I tried to make the number change with my mind and it actually changed and looked correct. I started down the hall when I got to my floor but decided I had enough with the dream.

I tried to float up through the ceiling but I just started crumpling the wall instead. I then went over to a window and busted it out. Everything just feels like it is made of cheap styrofoam and very easy to break.

I got a little frightened when I looked out the window even though I knew how to fly. As I got ready to jump I realized that it was raining really hard outside. That won't do. I looked out and tried to imagine sunny skies and after a couple tries the skies cleared and the sun came out. (that was one of my goals)

I jump out the window and start floating over the city. Then the other robber that was with me flew up after me. I just made a small motion with my hands and he fell back to earth an went splat. After that I decide to go see my guide again. I started flying off and must have used too much effort because it blinded me.

First I descended until I could feel the ground at my feet. I bent down and felt some grass. In order to stabilize I tried spinning but I was still blind. When I tried to open my eyes harder I just opened them in the real world and saw my bedroom.

I tried sitting there without moving hoping that I would re-enter the dream but it didn't work so I grabbed my iPhone and made the journal entry.

25.08.2009

Tornado (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was driving along a highway on the side of a mountain and I thought "Where am I? This must be a dream." I looked at my hands and sure enough they were all deformed.

I ditched the car by floating out the passenger side window and out into the open. There was a valley below me but it was difficult to see because of a fog bank. I decided to explore the valley so I floated down through the fog.

I was having major stability issues and had to constantly look at my hands or focus on one of the cliff walls to keep my vision clear.

Once I was below the fog I could make out my surroundings. They were much different than I expected but not surprising. (This is a dream.)

The bottom area was about 50 feet wide and maybe 200 feet long. It was open but had multiple levels. Some levels had small ladders connecting them. I was standing on the back wall on a lower level. Cliffs rose up on all sides but the fog blocked my view of the sky. The cliffs were squared off like they were skyscrapers made of rock. They had rectangular caves for every floor. I made a point of just standing and looking around me trying to engrave that image into memory.

Once I was done looking around and felt stable enough to move on I tried to summons my DG once more. This almost knocked me out of the dream again so I calmed down, stabilized and figured I would just try that again later.

Then I remembered the task of the month. The biggest thing I've done up until now is change the weather so this would be cool if I could pull it off.

I saw some particles floating in the air nearby and whipped my hand around in circles to get them to move. It took a few moments but the particles did start to move. Then a funnel cloud appeared and slowly grew up farther than I could see. I was thrilled and just marveled and my accomplishment for a moment. Then I got bored and let the twister disperse.

Next I wanted to run at super human speed so I took off but nothing spectacular happened until I went to hop up onto the next level. I jumped about 20 feet up in the air did a back flip and landed. (Considering I usually fly everywhere I guess this wasn't that impressive but it sure felt cool. )

I decided to do another trick.
I wanted to try time control and since there weren't any people around I figured I would just throw something up in the air and try to make it slow down or stop. It didn't. I tried a few more times but gave up.
Next. Pyrokinesis.
Just as I was concentrating on making fire in my hands my vision went away. I tried to look at my hands but everything dissolved away.

All in all this was a pretty successful dream but I need to keep working on my control.

Wasted Lucid

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Supplements Taken Before Bed:
800mg Valerian
120mg Ginkgo

I was standing in a bathroom in a very nice hotel. I thought "What am I doing here?" I looked at my hands and I was missing my pinkies. Cool lucid

I took a second to look around and stabilize. The walls were white as well as the tiled floor. Everything was so clean it kind of glistened.
I walked out the door and to my right was a huge staircase going down about three floors and to my left was a staircase going up one floor.
Before I went anywhere I asked aloud if my DG was there but received no answer.
I went left so I could get to the roof or a window and fly out.
When I got to the top there was a lady standing there and she asked me if I wanted her to open a window for me. I said sure but she disappeared around a corner. I kept roaming aroud until I did find a window but it led way down into the lobby. I passed it up and kept going. I turned another corner and was right back where I started.
Since I had already gone up I decided this time to try downstairs. I looked down the staicase and decided to try and teleport.
First try rendered nothing but screwed up my stability. I rubbed my hands together and yelled clarity now. I should have left it alone but I had to try it again.
Woke up.

Notes:
It was kind of irritating that I knocked myself out of the dream so quickly again. I think I'm going to leave teleporting alone until I can get my stability under control.

The dreams I had prior too this were very vivid as was this one. I'm going to try the same cocktail above with some galantamine during a WBTB.

Walking the Highway (DILD)

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had decided to walk down the highway to go to work.
I was wearing flip flops but decided that I didn't like them anymore.
I took off the left one and then the right one. Then another one appeared on my foot.
I took it off and held it as well.
When I got to work another flip flop appeared on my foot and then a dress shoe.
Something's not right.

I look at my hand and I have too many fingers. Great I'm in a dream.

I walked down to the yard outside.

I want to teleport so I try clapping my hands and at first nothing happens.

Then everything fades real fast and I can't get it to come back.

Once again teleporting has thrown me out of an LD.

Old Room (DILD)

Monday, October 19, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I don't remember any of the dream leading up to becoming lucid.

I was in my old room only it was bare.
It was also in the wrong spot but I could tell I was in my parents house.
I could look out and see the living room.
There was a blue couch on the left but nothing else.
The walls were white.
I was determined to keep this one going so I calmed down got a good look at everything and walked slowly out the door.
To my right was the kitchen. It looked the same.
It must have been night and only one light was on.
I looked down the hall and saw my daughter.
She came over and I picked her up.
She said she had a bad dream and I told her it was ok and she could do anthything in a dream.

Then I woke.

Old House (DILD)

Friday, October 23, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in an old abandoned house.

For some reason I instantly knew I was dreaming.
I tried to stay still to make it last.

I was looking at an empty wall. There was a dim light coming from behind me. The room was fairly dark. I could only make out what was in front of me.

Saw shadow of lamp. It became real.
Saw shadow of desk. It became real.
Then I started to lose control and it started getting dark.

I tried to look for light but woke up.

Corn Field (DILD)

Sunday, October 25, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was driving a tractor when I realized I was dreaming.
I tried rubbing my hands together to stabilize but it wasn't working very good.
This time I remembered to spin but I could only go back and forth in the seat.

As the tractor drifted through the field I tried to summons my guide.
A woman appeared in front of me with dark hair and blue shirt.
She was facing away from me.
When I tried to grab her shoulder I woke up.

Unexpected WILD (WILD)

Friday, October 30, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This WILD happened within the first 30 minutes of going to bed. I was just daydreaming trying to get sleepy when it happened.

I was in a hallway with a door.

I started to open the door when I could feel SP setting in. I rode it out and appeared in an empty room. I couldn't stabilize quick enough and it started getting darker. When I tried to open my eyes wider I woke up.

I did a couple RCs to make sure but unfortunately I was really awake.

A jungle beneath the school (WILD)

Monday, November 30, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

About an hour after my WBTB I felt the onset of SP. I let it ride out expecting to drop into a LD but nothing happened. Everything was just black. I opened my eyes wider and could then see the back of my sleeping mask. I thought I had woken up but then I noticed a small bug crawling on the inside of the mask. When I tried to focus in on it I felt the rush of SP again.

I set it pass and suddenly I was floating up towards my ceiling.

I directed my floating towards my wall and then passed through to what I thought would be my front yard.

It wasn't. I was in a jungle. Determined not to screw this one up I decided against trying to teleport out. (I forgot about spinning once again.) I looked at my hands and stabilized as best I could and started to look for a way out.

The jungle was full of sounds but the path I was following was not very thick and easily travelled. I decided to fly up over the canopy to see where I was but realized that I was actually underground in some gigantic cave. So much for that. So I walked on.

At some point I came to a spot where the cave went straight up. No problem, I just floated up to the next where it went horizontal again and continued to walk.

This is where I noticed that everything was a little to dim. I shouted clarity now and looked at my hands but it didn't seem to do much. That's when I realized that I was wearing sunglasses. ( I could see the edges in my peripheral vision) I went to take them off but when I did there was a new pair behind them. After a dozen tries and seeing a pile of glasses on the ground in front of me I gave up. I could still see pretty well.

Again the path lead straight up but instead of flying I decided to climb it. This turned out to be tremendous fun. In real life my arms would be pumped after doing a couple overhangs but here I never got tired and my grip was almost always solid.

As I reached the top I grabbed ahold of something sandy and slipped, falling towards the floor. For a moment I was actually scared. Then I remembered I could fly.

I went ahead and flew all the way up to the top when I realized I was behind the walls of some kind of school.

I found an opening and crawled through into the hallway. Though I could hear people all around I couldn't actually see anyone. I was wandering the halls looking for a way outside when I came across a door with a lot of light behind it. I went through but found only another hall with lots of lights in the ceiling.

That's when I noticed my sunglasses again. This time when I took them off they stayed off and everything was much brighter.

At this point I noticed a hallway with a bunch of pipes running along the walls. I figured it was a maintenance area and had to have a way to the roof. I was tired of walking so I decided to fly down the hall.

I took off running but when I leaped in the air I was jerked backward by something. This was very shocking but not necessarily frightening. I looked down at my hands and saw that they had become pipes and were attached to the floor. I looked up and back down and they were back to normal (I had 7 fingers on one hand and 3 on the other but that's pretty normal for dream hands)

Once again I tried to fly but it was really hard to lift off. Suddenly everything went dim and it was over.

I tried staying still and reentering but after about 30 min gave up.

This was one of my longest LDs and one of the most vivid. I throughly enjoyed it but I would like to have had more control.

Next time I have to remember to spin.

On the Lake (DILD)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

After a 2 1/2 hour failed WILD attempt I gave up and passed out.

I was by a lake where I once lived playing in a yard with my daughters. In this yard, near the lake was a pond with a small pier. Suddenly a car driving along the road to our right veered off narrowly missing my kids and flipped into the pond. After making sure my kids were alright and telling them not to go near the road I ran over to the pond to help.

I took my phone and wallet out and set them on the pier before jumping in. I was expecting the water to be freezing but it wasn't uncomfortable at all. I swam into the car and unbuckled the woman from her seatbelt and pulled her to the surface.
On the pier I thought the woman was dead but tried doing CPR anyway. As soon as I touched her chest she coughed up a bunch of black liquid and started breathing normally again.
At that point I tried to call 911 but all I got was a busy signal. I tried again and got a pizza delivery guy.

I decided to try and drive for help. I got into a full size pickup that was parked nearby and took off. I must have blacked out because suddenly I was driving through someone's driveway which then turned into a sidewalk. I tried to turn around but there was only a sidewalk behind me. As I drove back down the sidewalk it started to enter a tunnel that kept getting smaller and smaller.

At this point I realized it was a dream and gunned the truck through the narrow walls of the tunnel and crashed out onto a small beach. I drove into the water sinking up to floor. Even though I was that far under I was still doing pretty good speed because I caught up with some kind of water skiing show they were having on the lake. I pulled right up next to the speed boat which was pulling two girls on skis and loudly playing some 70s era rock.

This is when I remembered my intention to try spinning a new dream scene. I got up on top of the truck and spun around saying "when I stop spinning I will be at camp muir". I could picture where I wanted to be and really expected to be there. Unfortunately that damn music messed up my spinning and when I stopped I was still on the lake. I looked over at the boat and yelled SHUT UP! The music stopped. I tried spinning again but when I stopped I was still on the lake. I blamed the boat and the skiers so I flew over to the boat intending to do something about it.

When I got to the boat everything started fading away very quickly and then all was black.

I tried to stay still and reenter the dream. I started seeing static images that started switching so fast I could actually see the lake scene forming. But before it fully materialized everything went black again.

At that point I realized that my left arm was in a strange position and had completely fallen asleep. After repositioning my arm so it could get blood again I tried to reenter the dream again but was unsuccessful.

My first DEILD (DEILD)

Monday, December 7, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The dream prior to waking was a very long in depth sequence about me fighting with a large group of bad cops.

In the later stages of the dream I was chasing two guys up into an office building. When I got to one of the higher floors they had met up with some of their colleagues. Instead of coming after me they just laughed and yelled "In here, they're shooting at us". Then they all shot themselves in the head.

At that moment I realized who they had been yelling at. A small army was coming up the stairs form me. I decided to make a break for it by jumping out a window.

I crashed through relatively easy and was able to slide down the brick to the street below. There were a row of motorcycles parked and their riders siting around talking. Without hesitation I jumped on the nearest one ( a black Ducati Monster) and took off.

That's when I woke up.

I liked the last part of the dream so I thought about the part where was jumping out of the window again.

I felt myself falling again but this time I was falling off a large house in some suburban neighborhood. Before I hit the ground I just slowed down and started floating. My neighbor saw me fall and asked if I were ok. I floated up over my fence and told her I was fine. She just laughed and went back to raking her yard.

Since I've been having control issues in my lucids I decided to try a few simple things for practice. I flew over to my front yard and started to spin to clear things up. I spun very fast and when I stopped I was actually dizzy.

When the dizziness wore off I realized how vivid everything was. I reached down and picked up some leaves off the ground. It never ceases to amaze me how real everything is in these LDs.

Just then I noticed a monkey in a tree across the street playing with a ball. I decided to try summonsing another ball to throw over there. I tried a couple different techniques but the one that worked was holding my hand out of site, imagining that I was holding the ball and when I closed my hand I could feel it there. I tossed it over to the monkey.

Just when I was about to try changing dream scenes by spinning another neighbor came over complaining about something he let me borrow. I was trying to understand what he was talking about but I think I was trying too hard.

Everything faded real fast and I suddenly opened my eyes in RL. A quick RC proved I was awake.

At school again (DILD)

Monday, December 14, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was between classes at some school.
I decided to go to my car to get something only every time I walked up to it, it would change into another car.

I gave up and went to my next class only when I got there it was some kind of office. I thought "that was weird, maybe this is a dream".
I looked at my left hand and it was fine. I looked at my right hand and it had 9 fingers.

Everything instantly cleared up.

I decided to go outside so I tried to walk through the door instead of opening it. I bashed my head into the glass and the door opened anyway.

Once I was outside I decided I wanted to be somewhere with lots of snow. I started to spin and tried to imagine where I wanted to be. When I stopped I was still in the same spot.

I tried again and still no luck.

At that point I tried to summons my guide but that didn't work either.

Ok, nothing works so I'll just fly around and explore. Luckily flying is never much of an issue.

I took off and saw a woman in a long red dress floating up at the same time.

I flew over too her and asked if she was my guide. She said yes then started talking real fast and I couldn't make out what she was saying. At that point I could tell she wasn't my guide. She just seemed like another one of those one dimensional DCs.

Everything started getting dark so I spun around a couple times and it was clear again.

Unfortunately it was only temporary and it started fading again.

I rubbed my hands together but it was too late. I was looking up at my ceiling again.

A couple RCs proved it was over.

Notes:
Still need to work on dream control. I'm letting too much doubt creep in and keep things from happening.

Living Painting (DILD)

Thursday, December 17, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I awoke to find myself in my childhood bedroom. This can't be right. I look down at my hands and my right one has 7 fingers.
Since this was my first FA and I want to see what I look like in the bed. I get up and turn around but I only see the bed. Oh well.

I walk through the house to the front door and open it. The world outside looks just as it would from that portch except it's all as if I were in a paintaing. The style is very Vangough. I walk out into the yard and reach down to feel the ground. It's wet paint. I walk over to the truck and it is the same. The sun is a swirl of orange and yellow. (this reminds me of a scene from 'What Dreams May Come')

The world starts to dim so I spin around to brighten it back up. When I stop I am still in the same place but everything is normal. No more paint.

I decide to try to build a snowman. For that I will need snow. I spin around and try to change to place where there is snow. Nothing happens. I try again trying to picture the place I already am covered in snow. This works.

Everything is white, covered in a deep blanket of snow. Since it doesn't snow enough where I live in RL I decide to build this snowman by hand instead of just summonsing it. I reach down and touch the snow. It is cold in my fingers. I create a ball and start rolling it across the ground. When I get a large enough base I begin to make the second part.

Instead of rolling another ball I decide to try "magically" creating one with the surrounding snow. I point at the ground and start making swirling motions. Snow starts to swirl around at the place I'm pointing at and begins to form the second ball. Suddenly everything starts to go black and I can't stabilize fast enough to save it.

I open my eyes and see my bedroom. I do a couple RCs but it's over.

Grandma's House (DILD)

Monday, December 21, 2009

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I look at my hands and realize I'm lucid. I don't recall any of the previous dream.

I'm at my Grandma's old house. I haven't been here for many many years. I walk through the living room and out the front door.

The world outside is very bright. The grass is perfectly green. The trees have all their foliage. The yard looks much like the front yard I expected to see.

Things start dimming a little so I spin around to clear things up. (this works really well)

I decide to fly off to explore this world. As I float up I see a friend I worked with years ago walking on the ground. Once I get up over the trees I notice two elderly people flying as well. Since I don't see too many flying DCs I decided to go talk to them. As soon as I touch the woman on the shoulder I feel a sensation very close to that of going into SP. Then everything starts to dim very quickly. I try to spin but I'm frozen in place.

I can feel my bed. I look at my hands and realize I'm awake.

Mountaineering (DILD)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am climbing some glaciated peak but I am only in street shoes and without my gear. I am still making good time and keeping up with the guide in front of me. As I reach the top I realize that I don't have my parka and have to descend.

At the bottom of the mountain I get a room to rest. As I enter the room I realize I am dreaming.I look at my hands to be sure and they have way too many fingers. As I walk back into the hall I run into a small cat. Now the cat becomes larger, the size of a jaguar. The cat leaps at me but before it strikes a young woman with blond curly hair grabs my arm and spins me around. The cat never lands and is nowhere to be seen. The blond smiles at me, says something incomprehensible and then walks away.

I decide I want to go climbing.

A young man walks by with a pack full of climbing gear. I yell at him, hey you need a partner. He says 'yeah go get your stuff'. We both walk through the lobby doors into a huge area with rows and rows of packs already ready to go. I need to find mine so I start walking down the rows. As I walk the packs start getting closer and closer. I realize that I'm losing the dream and try to spin but it all goes dark and I can suddenly hear the sounds of my house in RL.

The Mansion (DEILD)

Monday, January 11, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I do not recall the dream prior to this one but as I awoke I kept very still and a vision started instantly appearing.

I am walking on the grounds of a large colonial style mansion. It must be spring because everything is green and blooming. The sky is clear and I am alone. Across the grounds there is a large body of water and train tracks just beyond that.

I look down at my feet, I'm wearing ostritch skin boots. How strange. I lift off the ground and hover for a moment. Hmmm...what to do. I see a train on the tracks across the water. Let's see how fast I can fly over there. I take off, gaining speed as I near the tracks. Just as I reach the train it moves through a tunnel under a small building. I fly up to the roof and land.

As I turn around I notice that the water has turned into an ocean and the mansion is gone. There are incredible waves and it looks as if a great storm is occurring. I see a small ship being tossed around way off shore. Then I spot two large racing boats speeding past me. I take off after them and catch them with almost no effort. It would be more fun if I surf along side them. I land on the surface and realize there is a surf board under me.

It starts to get dark. Rather than spin on top of the surf board I decide to dive into the water and see if that will awaken my senses enough to keep the dream going. I could feel the water all around me. It was very comfortable. I could breath as well but couldn't see. I tried opening my eyes but it just woke me up.

I lay as still as possible.

Almost as fast as I had awakened a scene starts forming before me. I am back at the mansion staring at those strange ostrich skin boots. I laugh out loud.

This time I am not alone. There is a grand function happening at the mansion. There are people everywhere dressed in tuxes and evening gowns. Everyone here is of advanced age. Then a thought, I can do the TOTM. I look around for some drinks. All I see is an empty high ball glass on a nearby table. That will work. I pick it up and walk over to a small group of partygoers and hand my glass to a small elderly woman. Before I even say anything she smiles and hands the glass back to me only now it is a champagne flute full of champagne. The others hold up their glasses and make a short toast I don't understand. As I go to drink mine I notice that it has changed to a blood red color. I drink it anyway. It does not taste like anything I've ever had. It's indescribable. It's as if I am drinking pure energy. In one instant I feel every cell in my body. I need more. I turn to ask the woman to pour me another glass but it all goes dark and instantly I'm awake.

I lay there trying to get back into the dream but it's no use.

Office Building (DILD)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am in an office building surrounded by cubicles. I think I'm dreaming but I look at my hands just to make sure. Hmmm....there is nothing wrong with them.
I lift off the ground with relative ease so I am definitely dreaming. Once again, I want to be somewhere else. I lift straight up and crash through the floor like it is styrofoam. I continue my ascent until I reach the roof of the building. As I crash through it pushes back and everything becomes dim.
I quickly gain control and start spinning. As I spin I think that I want to search for my guide again. When I stop I am forced backward at a preternatural speed, winding down a spiral staircase until I'm on the bottom floor of the building. There room is large and contains many segmented cubicle areas. There are many people walking around in business attire. In one small group a girl drops her papers. She bends down to pick them up and then looks up at me. I instinctively look away but I realize that I know her. I do not know her name or even who she is but I have this overwhelming since of familiarity. I look back but she is gone. The other two persons are still there but she is gone.
Now I have a mission. I begin to wander through the complex, peeking in meeting rooms, walking through cubicles. No one seems to mind but they also refuse to help. When spoken too they look up with their lifeless expressions and babble some unintelligible phrase and walk away.
I see a wall of computer monitors. I'll just look up the location of this girl. Unfortunately, no matter how hard I look at the screen I can not make out anything on the display. I get up and take off towards another wing of the building. Suddenly everything starts to get dim.

I look down at my hands but it's too late. Everything is gone and I can hear the sounds of my house.

Carnival (DILD)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I don't recall much of the dream prior to becoming aware but it had something to do with some kind of military mission involving skydiving. At some point on the ground I entered a restaurant but I don't remember.

I am in an asian restaurant and the employees are angry at me and want to fight. I don't know what I've done but I need to get out of here. The door is a long way across the room and there are many chefs in white outfits in my way. Wait, this is very strange.

I must be dreaming. Everything instantly clears up. I decide to create a diversion by causing the liquid in everyone's drinks to rise into the air. I make a swirling movement with my hands and the droplets begin to spin into a small cyclone in the center of the room. As they get faster they start to form human shape. Suddenly, the shape explodes and everything seems to freeze in time. I walk through the room to the door and no one moves. I just stopped time.

I walk through the door and out into a giant carnival. Time is running fine out here. I feel the familiar vibrations that tell me I'm loosing the dream so I start spinning. I stop and everything is okay again. I want to go explore but there is a train running by directly in front of me. I turn and to my sides. There are trains there too running. Fine, maybe I'll just ride on top of one to see where it goes. I lift off the ground and fly over to the train in front of me and land. It goes forward for a moment then runs under a tunnel.

When the tunnel opens up I realize that I am no longer on a train but a roller coaster. The ride is coming to an end and someone motions for me to get off. I leap off the ride platform and float to the ground.

I see a group of kids playing tag in front of a group of carnival games. I decide to try manipulating time once more. I picture everyone slowing down and it starts to happen. There are four kids and they are running from a boy in a red shirt. They are moving very slowly and don't notice me. To play a joke I run over and grab the kid just in front of the boy who is "it". I move her to a place a ways behind him and then step away. I let time come back into it's own pace and the kids stop and look around trying to figure out what just happened. This is fun. I try to do it to again but I get pulled right out of the dream.

I don't know what I did different but I had much more control in this dream than some of my recent one.

Two in one night (DILD)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is the first time I've had two LDs in one night that were not tied to each other.

1.
I'm in a small prop plane as a passenger. We are on the ground taxiing between terminals. As we move I notice that we keep getting closer and closer to the buildings. Then it looks like we're in a warehouse of some sort. This seems pretty strange. I think I'm dreaming.

I lift out of the my seat and up over the plane. I start moving down one of the isles over a bunch of boxes. I make a few turns and end up in some kind of office building. For some reason one of my cats is there and I decide that he needs to go home.

I pick him up and start spinning when I stop everything is pretty blurry but I can make out the front porch of my house. Good enough. I drop him on the porch and start spinning again. When I stop I'm back in the office again. I notice that I have a bluetooth earpiece in so I take it out and throw it across the room. It turns into a bird and flies off.

I remember that I want to do the first task of the year. I feel that I should be able to use a map to teleport to the Yucatan Peninsula. I look up at the wall and there is a large US map but nothing with Mexico on it. There is a desk near by maybe it has a glob in it. I look but nothing is there. I try a summons trick by reaching under the desk without looking and trying to feel the globe. It works and I pull a small globe out from underneath and set it on the desk. Suddenly another bluetooth earpiece goes off in my ear. I push the button to answer it and the dream ends very abruptly.

2.
It's early morning and I'm helping to get my kids ready for school. There are a bunch of other people in my house. Also, this doesn't seem to be my house. I look down at my hands.

Seven fingers on my left. Yep dreaming. I'm over this scene so I float up through the ceiling through the second floor and see a hidden bedroom in the attic. I keep ascending until I'm up on the roof. It's very bright outside...very, very bright. I'm going to fly out of the neighborhood just to explore. As I lift off everything gets even brighter until I can't see anything.

Then I wake up. My wife had turned on the light. It really is time to get up.

The Vase (DILD)

Saturday, January 30, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in a small room. There is only a small table with a large vase on it in front of me. The vase is white with a blue floral pattern.
I already know I'm dreaming. I walk over and touch the vase. The vase falls and shatters. I wave my hand and the vase comes back together on the table. I flick my hand at it and it goes smashing into the wall. Once more I wave my hand and it comes back together.
There is more to this dream but I don't recall because I waited to long to write it down.

Library (DILD)

Friday, February 5, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am sitting in a very large library. I don't remember how I got here but it seems strange. I look at my hands. I have 8 fingers on each hand. I float up so I can see over the book cases. I can't see any walls. The room seems to go on forever. To my right I see a woman sitting on top of a book case. She has blond hair and wearing a white colored outfit. She is very bright as if light is emanating from her. She is not very far so I float over. She smiles at me and motions for me to come closer. To keep from fading I look at my hands again. For some reason I decide to show her my hands too. As soon as they're up in front of me the dream disappears and I am awake.

First Long Distance Teleport (DILD)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I've tried teleporting on many different occasions but in most cases I simply push my way out of the dream. I've tried spinning and it sort of worked once but I ended up returning to my previous spot almost instantly. The other times I tried just picturing my self somewhere else but when I put too much effort into it I'd wake up. This time I simply drew a door.

I am on the highway driving to work. It is early. I am the only one on the road. I realize that it is way too early to be going to work so I take the next exit so I can turn around. There is a major wreck on this road. There are cars and emergency vehicles everywhere. I try weaving in an out of them but they continue to get closer so I cannot pass. In frustration I turn into the driveway of a house. I get out and walk up to the house. It is a large three story colonial style house. I walk in the front door. Now I cannot find my way out.

I think to myself. 'This cannot be right'. I look at my hands. They are normal. I am not convinced. I leap into the air and hover there. I am dreaming.

Once again I find myself in a house with no way out. I try going through the ceiling but I just bump into it. I land and walk out into a hall. Having just read the novel Neverwhere, I remember that the character Door can open doors that are not there. I draw a box on the hallway wall and push it open. It just goes to the next room.

Next I try to imagine a bright tropical paradise and draw another door. When I open the door it leads out to an island with white sand, palm trees and blue water.

I walk out to the sand. It is warm here and I can feel the sun. Across from the small beach where I stand is another beach. It is much larger and full of people. There is a large dark colored cliff face in the background. There are people wind surfing and playing in the water. I decide to go explore.

Instead of flying I summons a surfboard. (which takes a little bit of effort) I climb on and start paddling towards the other side. Water splashes me in the face and I can taste the salt. As I paddle I notice that the island has an inlet to the right which passes through the island. I decide to go that direction.

A girl paddles up beside me as I enter the inlet. She has blond hair pulled back into a ponytail and is wearing a blue colored swim suit. I tap her on the shoulder and say hello. She looks over at me and starts up a conversation I cannot understand. This kind of interaction normally kicks me out of a dream so I hold off paddling and let her go in front of me. I can still hear her blabbing away.

Suddenly I feel the familiar sensation of loosing the dream. Everything goes dim and I try to open my eyes wider.

They open in RL and I'm awake.

Double LD (DILD)

Saturday, February 27, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

First Dream:

I am having some kind of dream about sorcery but I can't remember the details. As I study a strange rock on the ground I realize that I am dreaming.

Everything goes black. Quickly I start spinning. I spin and spin until I see the colors change around me.

I stop. I am now standing in the center of a large field surrounded by green rolling hills. Everything is blurry. As I gaze out towards the mountains my vision clears. I can see the leaves on the trees. The cloudless sky is a bright blue and the field is covered in knee tall grass with small yellow flowers. Ahead of me I can see a small creek.

I begin walking to the creek when I see a town way up ahead on the left. It is very small and looks like something out of an old western. I rise off the ground and begin to fly there. As an experiment I start rubbing my thumbs and index fingers together. This has an amazing effect on clarity and doesn't detract from progress like spinning and looking at my hands.

When I get to the town I notice a small diner. I go in and sit down at a table. Then inside looks like one of those 50s retro places. Somehow I order a burger, fries, and Sprite although I don't remember seeing a waitress. I bite into the burger and it tastes great. The fries are those large wedge type ones with spicy seasoning on them. I eat a couple of those and a waitress comes over and hands me a bill. This is a dream so I'm going to leave a giant tip. I reach into my jacket (I realize now that I'm wearing my black leather one) and pull out money clip full of bills. I start to thumb through them and the first few are only ones but I come to a 15000 bill. A bit over the top but hey, this is a dream. :) I hand it to the waitress and say keep the tip. She says 'Oh my' and runs off.

Now I realize that I have not had any of my drink. The last time I drank something in a dream it was incredible. I pick the glass up and just as I put it to my lips I wake up.

Dream two:

I am riding my motorcycle through some twisty back country roads. Suddenly I come up on a gravel drive and I decide to take it. My bike turns into a regular bicycle. The drive narrow and now I'm riding near a body of water with a large pier up ahead. This is weird. I look at my hands.

Six fingers on my right hand. Yep I'm dreaming. I float off the bike and land over on the pier. The lake is very large but very still. The pier is large with brick columns coming up every 50 feet or so. I want a change of scenery so I walk over to one of the brick columns to draw a door like I did in a previous dream.

Before I get there everything fades. I start to spinning but it's too late. I'm awake.

Dark Mountain (WILD)

Monday, March 8, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

After my WBTB I started counting backwards from 100 (restarting every time I lost count). About 30 min later I felt a slight feeling that I was sinking. Hoping it was the onset of SP I let go and felt as if I were falling backwards, flipping end over end into nothing.

I am no longer falling, just floating. I open my eyes and see that I'm flying over my living room. As I pass I notice that there is an infinite number of living rooms and I am just floating over them one after another. I slow down and land inside of one. I look to the couch to see if I'm there but it is empty.

Once again I'm going to try contacting my guide. I walk over to the wall that leads to my backyard and draw a door with my finger. I imagine the door taking me to see my guide. I push through it and out into another scene.

It is dark here but I can see the stars. I instinctively hold out my hand palm facing away and a light shines in front of me. I can see a path leading up a steep mountain in front of me. I try to lift off the ground but can't. I guess I can't fly here. I start walking. I look occasionally look around with my hand light but the landscape is baron. The ground I'm walking on is solid stone. There are no trees, not even other rocks. The mountain seems to be shaped like a cone. Maybe it's a volcano. I look to the stars and notice that they move. I make a motion with my hand and they swirling around to the motion. I stop messing with the stars and begin ascending again.

I continue to walk and eventually reach the top. The path plateaus and there is small flat area no more than five feet across. I shine my light out across the open landscape and can make out bits of other mountains and canyons below. I am much higher than I thought. I heart starts to race as my fear of heights kicks in. I sit down gradually calm down. Where is my guide?

I feel the familiar feeling of losing the dream and before I can stabilize I wake.

False Awakening (DILD)

Monday, March 8, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is the second LD of the night.

My wife is trying to get me up. It is morning and everyone has to get ready. As I start to get up she turns into a lion and bites my hand.

I am instantly aware this is a dream. The lion disappears. Cool. Where to go now? I like the outdoors so I decide to open a door to a something of a Colorado type setting. I walk over to a wall, draw the door and push.

Instead of opening the door I just go through the wall into a closet. However, the walls of the closet look just like the setting I imagined. I'm in a field surrounded by large snow capped mountains. I try to draw another door but as soon as I touch the wall everything goes dark.

I try to open my eyes but I'm really awake. A couple RCs verifies it.

Dragon (DILD)

Monday, March 15, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I do not recall the previous part of the dream but I was falling through the air when it dawned on me that I was dreaming.

I am falling through the air above some clouds. Not fast, but falling none the less. I do not feel the air rushing by or the cold air this altitude would contain. I also do not see the ground. Only lots of clouds. I look out and see the blue sky above the clouds I'm falling towards. As I reach the clouds and start passing through I get my first glimpse of the ground. There is the snow covered peak of a very tall mountain to my left and right. There is a green area much farther down just ahead of me.

Rather than continuing the free fall I decide to start flying toward the green area. As I get closer I notice that it is a small town. There are no paved roads and the houses are all of very simple construction. Seems very medieval. I plot my course for a small farm just on the outskirts of the town. I land just at the entrance to the farm and look around. There are no people. I did not see any from the air either.

This medieval look gives me an idea. I've always wanted to try summonsing a dragon. I look down the road away from the farm and try imagining a dragon but nothing happens. I turn around and imagine it coming down the same road. I turn back around and sure enough there is a dragon coming down the road towards me. It is a dark green color and about the size of a rhino. It's on the ground with it's wings swept back.

Now I notice that it is not simply walking towards me but running full out. I should feel panicked but I don't. I watch as it gets nearer and then just before it reaches me everything slows down. I jump to the left and grab its neck swinging up onto its back. Now I'm excited. I yell out "let's fly!".

Everything goes dark. Damn it!

Lamborghini (DILD)

Sunday, March 28, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am with a large group of people preparing for some kind of underwater dive. I am using homemade equipment and the others are asking questions about it.

I not sure it will work but when I go in with the others I can breath fine. I can also hear everyone talking just fine.

We all get into an underwater elevator to go to the dive site. I ask the others if my suit can go that deep and they say yes.

Once we get there I go off to explore. I find a cave entrance. It seems familiar. I turn to ask one of the others about this place and standing behind me is a woman. I think she is one of the guides in my group. I know who this woman is yet I can't remember why. I cannot remember any features except her blond hair. I ask her about this place and she says it is not always underwater. During low tide it is perfectly dry. This makes no sense because I am several hundred feet underwater. I accept it as truth anyway. She smiles at me and a powerful recognition washes over me. I still don't know 'who' this is but I've seen that smile a thousand times before. Then she is gone.

As if nothing happened I turn and go into the cave. At the end there is a crystal about the size of my hand on a rock shelf as if it were on display. I won't to take the crystal but it feels wrong. I leave it there and return to the group.

When I get there the group leader says that I haven't payed yet. I say ok and reach for my wallet. He says it will be sixty two dollars even though I know it was only ten. I feel the anger boil up and I start yelling. The urge to rip him into small pieces is almost overwhelming but I manage to turn and leave.

I go up and up until I come out in a pool on one side of the school. This is not where my car is so I dive down and over to the other side. When I come up I can see my car through the glass windows on the left. There are no doors that I can see. I think 'That's strange'. I must be dreaming.

Everything becomes clearer. My site is crisp and I can almost smell the water in the room.

Without hesitation I simply walk through the glass window towards my car. That's when I see a man standing a little to my right about thirty feet away. He is here to stop me. Rather than attack him outright I decide to jump over him. I take off running and then jump. Instead of landing though I float way up over his head and hover there. Well this is better than driving anyway. For some reason I need to make the others think that I left. I look over at my car and mentally change it to a silver color. (it was red)

I rub my fingers together to stabilize some and start flying over the city. It is a clear sunny day. The area I'm flying over is an industrial area. I can see large buildings and lots full of trailers and pallets.

I decide that I want to drive a Lamborghini. I see an empty parking to my right so I look away, picture a red Murcielago and look back. Sure enough it's there. I float over to it and the door opens for me. I step into the front seat.

Then I wake up.

I forgot to make sure I was keeping an eye on everything else before I concentrated on the car.

Volcano (DILD)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I do not recall details to this point but it has already been a long dream.

I am in a large room with no furniture. It is bright but I don't see the actual lighting. The floor is grass. Must be a large tent. Very large like the size of a school auditorium.

There are two knights in armor fighting. I think I'm supposed to be helping but I don't know. I think I'm dreaming. I look at my hands.

Yes, I'm dreaming.

I want to go somewhere tropical again. Instead of drawing a door I try a new technique to teleport. I put both hands up and make a triangular opening by putting my thumbs and forefingers together. I hold them in front of my face and then focus in on my hands. I think of tropical beach and then focus back out through the opening. Sure enough I can see a beach. When I drop my hands my surroundings have changed and I can see the beach. I, however, am standing in a large tent that serves as a gift shop. The beach I see is through the door. This place is large and has large rectangular columns coming down from the ceiling. There are racks of beach themed junk all around. The floor is sand and is a dark red color same as the columns.

I decide I don't like this place anymore and walk over to one of the columns to draw a door. I want to go to Mt. Rainier so I picture being out on one of the volcanic ribs between the glaciers and draw the door.

When I open the door I see a tunnel. I step through and into the tunnel to find myself deep inside the volcano where the lava flows. It is bubbling and threatening to erupt. I start climbing large rock formations, jumping from one to another attempting to make it up to the top and out before I get fried. Only when I get to the top do I remember to fly. As I lift off I wake up.

Multiple DEILD (DEILD)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was able to chain 6 different LDs in a row. None of them were very long but they were very vivid.

The first one was a regular DILD. The remaining were DEILDs.

1)
I am in a nice restaurant. It is very open with a few shoulder height dividers. I am standing at the bar area. One of the people I'm with has lost their child. I am supposed to be looking for her. I look around the room but something feels strange. I think I'm dreaming.

Everything clears. I hear the clinking of glass and the mumbled roar of customers. I'm not worried now about the child. I just want to keep the dream going. I reach over and touch the bar. The would is highly polished, smooth, and cool to the touch. I look forward to the door and windows. I there is bright white light coming through but it is not blinding. I walk forward and exit the door.

I awake. Everything is dark. I sit very still and try not to move. I let my mind wander and suddenly feel as if I'm floating.

2)
I risk waking up and kick out pushing myself back. I can feel myself flipping backwards. I close my eyes and when I open them I see I'm in a cube shaped room comprised of white cinder blocks. The mortar is a dark grey. There is nothing else in the room. I walk up to the blocks touch them. They are smooth but I can feel the edges where the mortar is. I palm one of the blocks and pull out. The block moves out. I pull farther and the block falls out.

I wake instantly. No fade. No familiar sensation that the dream is trying to end. Just lights out. I don't move. I can hear my self breath. I try not to move my eyes but that's very difficult. I clear my mind and pictures start to form. Slow at first then more rapidly. It's as if I'm watching an old fashion cartoon. It starts to look like the outside of a building. It is on my left and parked cars are on my right. There is a grass area in front of the building before the steps.

3)
Everything clears up and I am walking across the parking lot towards the building. There is a group of men just to my left that get my attention. They say they want to fight. I feel no fear even though there are 7 or 8 of them. I start to run forward and everything slows down. I feel as if I'm running on the moon. Not that dreamy feeling where you can't move as fast as you want, the complete opposite. I seem to be functioning normal but everything else has slowed down. The first guy comes at me trying to punch. I simply step to the side, grab his arm and sling him away. I watch him fly off into the parking lot. I look back to find another trying to kick at me. I grab his leg and send him flying upward. I wonder what I look like to everyone else. After the second guy goes flying I move to the right real fast and the others don't follow. I don't think the saw where I went. I feel myself smile. I run forward to attack. Everything goes black.

Awake again. I keep real still and try to clear my mind again.

4)
A scene forms and clears. I am back at the restaurant again. This time someone is standing there talking to me. We seem to be in some kind of conversation about a minivan. I ignore him and walk back towards the doors. No sooner than I walk through them I am back in the dark.

I sit still. I wonder if I can get back again.

5)
I picture the inside of the bar and imagine touching it as before. I can feel it. I feel as if I'm standing. Just like that I'm in the bar again. This time there is no one here. I see glasses of beer sitting on the counter. I've drank in dreams before. I want to try again. I pick up a glass and drink. It does not taste like beer. I cannot describe the taste but it is the best thing I've ever had. There are some peanuts in a bowl near the beer. I throw a handful in my mouth. The consistency is just like I expected but the taste is so much more. Just like the beer it is the best thing I've ever tasted. Hard to explain. Unfortunately I decide once again that I'm going to go through the doors and once again everything goes dark.

I sit still although I'm pretty excited now that I've been able to jump back in so many times. I concentrate on my breathing and try to relax. I can feel myself drifting off. I try a WILD technique to keep aware. I count my breaths backwards from 99, restarting when I can't remember what number I'm at.

6)
I don't remember what number I am at but I suddenly realize that I'm standing in my front yard. An ice cream truck is coming down the street. It turns around in the cul-de-sac and stops in front of me. The driver is wearing a white button down shirt and khaki pants. His hair is real curly and sticking out everywhere. I decide that hijacking the truck would be fun so I jumped in the cab and kicked the driver out. I pushed on the gas and took off. I did not stop at stop signs I just drove right through them. I drove out of my neighborhood towards the highway. Everything was as it was in RL the road was the same. The buildings and houses were where they should be. As I approached the last light before getting on the highway I decided I would not stop for that either. I gunned the gas and just as I was about to pass through. Poof, the dream was over.

I made the mistake of opening my eyes. I looked at my hands to be sure but they were normal. i looked at my clock. 6:00 AM. I still had a little time to sleep. Maybe I could get back into another LD. No luck, I simply fell asleep. I don't even remember if I dreamed.

Notes:
I realize now that at no time did I do any kind of stabilization technique. That may have helped lengthen the individual dreams.

These are the supplements I took.
Before Bed:
933mg Valerian Root
150mg Theanine
50mg B6
1mg B12

WBTB:
300mg Theanine
4mg Galantamine
200mg Choline

Vampire Snack (DILD)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream happened within the first 30 minutes of falling asleep for the night. That most likely accounts for the lack of control and dullness of my surroundings. This is the first DILD I've had this early. All others happen after the first few hours of sleep.

I took no supplements at all this night.

I have almost no recall of the previous events before becoming lucid.

I am in a multi story beach house. I am coming down the stairs to the yard that leads to the beach. It is dark. I cannot see past the yard. There is an outdoor light shinning down from the upper deck. I'm not sure where I'm going. This seems strange. I look down at my hands and they're semi transparent. I'm dreaming.

Things become a little clearer but not much. I look around, keeping my hands out in front of me. I see the house and the stairs leading up to the first floor. The house is on stilts so the first floor is about 10 feet off the ground. Things are fading so I stare at my hands. My hands solidify and the feeling of loosing the dream softens. I start up the stairs to go into the house. A large woman is standing at the door as if she is guarding it. She is wearing a solid grey jump suit of some sort. She is very large, 500 lbs large. I cannot see her head. I think it is there but i cannot look at it. She seems hostile for some reason.

I decide to attack. First I make a motion with my hand as if I were going to flick her away. Nothing happens. I then try to visualize her catching fire and nothing happens. I run up the stairs grab her and lift into the air. This works. Unfortunately I get company as soon as I leave the ground. Three others in gray suits latch on to me as I lift up. They are normal size but I cannot see their faces. They all have black hair but either I can't focus on their face or I can't remember it. I look up to see where I'm going and see only darkness. Then they strike. Two latch on to my arms, one bites into my shoulder, and one sinks their fangs into my neck. There is a moment of panic but only a short moment. Behind a slight pain there is pleasure. Not sexual though. More like a drug high. Just a wonderful feeling of warmth, relief, joy. I close my eyes to relish the experience.

As soon as my eyelids shut I am quite literally pulled from the dream. It is the same feeling as going into SP but instead of opening my eyes to a LD I awaken.

I look at my hands but they are normal. I look over at my clock and it is only 11:30. I've only been asleep for 30 minutes.

Darkness x2 (DILD)

Monday, May 17, 2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Supplements Taken:
Before Bed:
300mg L-Theanine
400mg Valerian Root Extract

WBTB:
4mg Galantamine
200mg Choline
600mg Theanine

Both of these dreams were fairly long but I unfortunately waited until later this morning to record them and have forgotten most of the details.

1.
I do not recall the dream details prior to becoming lucid or why I realized I was lucid.

I am in a small bedroom. It is dark as if lit by a candle. I do not see the candle. I look at my hands. They are out of focus but clear as I study them. There is a young woman sitting on the bed facing me. She has dark curly hair that falls below her shoulders. I mean to ask her if she is my guide but instead I simply ask "Are you HER". She makes a sound but I do not understand her. I lean closer and ask again. From this point on I do not remember the details of the conversation but feel that it was a lengthy one. This is the most interaction I've had from a DC without knocking me out of the dream. At the end I remember the room going black and I tried to look at my hands but it was already over.

2.
I am in a room full of people. I think I know them but I don't remember who they are. Some says something familiar and I realize I've done all this before. I look at my hands to find both with six fingers.

As with many other dreams the room I am in contains no door. I walk over to a wall to draw a door. The texture of the wall is strange. It feels like it is made of aluminum. I trace a large door and kick it. Instead of it opening up it simply breaks through. I climb through the hole into an adjacent hallway. It is dark like the previous LD and I cannot seem to brighten it up. I keep my hands out in front of me to keep stable. I believe I walk through many more rooms in an effort to get out before I come to a final room with a large window. I walk straight through the window and it shatters but does no other harm. I'm now outside but it is still dark. I look around but there is nothing to see. Everything dims more and I wake up.