Originally Posted by
oldbill
First night of adoption.
Couldnt sleep so got up and surfed the net for a few hours. I cant beleive i actually have insomnia. Far too much on my mind just now plus very interrupted sleep patterns due to having a girlfriend with a seven hour time difference.
Lay on my side and within minutes thought what if i really try and push my energy out, really force it. Next thing i know i had a sensation in my energy behind my shoulder blades, really uncomfortable mixed feelings of frustration and anxiety. I realised then that the thought of trying to push energy out was waking minds attempt to claim control for what my other energy was going to do anyway. That was kinda a unique skew on the situation.
Next thing i had very sudden falling asleep sensations. Bit like falling off a cliff very fast under pressure. Still lying on my side eyes shut realised i could see the room all around me despite eyes being shut and complete darkness.
Remembering the next few minutes is hard this morning. I remember attempting to punctuate the experience with the desire to remember it and realising that energy has its own in built memory recorder.
The rest of what happened is on the tip of memories tongue as to what happened.
Some very obscure dream having identity as rectangular etc
again this dream memory is reminding me of other similar abstract dreams from several nights ago. These too are on the tip of my mind.
Rest of the night i was aware that i had been dreaming. Nearly pulled myself out of half sleep to write one of them down but thought i am too f*****g tired and would be better off just sleeping through till morning. Plus i was sure i would remember them. This morning i dont. They are close , but just beyond grasp.
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