Thread: Esmeralda's Journal

18.10.2009

My first real LD (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


So I have been LD´ing for 5 days now and I had lucid moments every dream but they were so short. Last night I just wanted to sleep, not thinking about DILDS and MILDS and WILDS and then something great happened

I was , as always, a cameraman in my dream the first part of my dream. I was interviewing a women in a deserted building. This building was made from glass and concrete, the front and back were made out of glass and there was only one floor I think. I did see stairs but not where it would take you. So this women was African and she was pregnant. I dont know whats she was talking about but she moved way too much and she was also very shy. Not great material for me as a cameraman. At one moment we were talking about the building being close to the medical center (wich is also my university) All of a sudden some kid walks in 16 maybe and he shouts at her "You're gay, you're not pregnant what's in your belly" Ofcourse I'm filming all of this, great material. And he does some swift movement to scare her and then leaves. So the women is shocked and she tries to leave also, but then her belly starts moving with arms and legs everywhere and then it stops. She looks at me and smiles. I'm thinkin to myself that her water must have broken and that it's convenient that we're close to a hospital
Then I am in a different scene, I'm sitting on my couch in my old house. I moved 2 years ago to a different part of Amsterdam. My mother was sitting next to me and my father on a different couch. I immediately went lucid eventhough I had not made a RC yet. So I looked at my hand and it was completely normal. Still I thought this is not real. I tried to look at my other hand but is seemed stuck on my arm. I looked at my parents and I said something like "I'm dreaming, isn't that strange?" They were only nodding at me. I thought "forget about RC's I have to stabilize my dream" and I started touching everything like our dinnerchairs and table. It looked like a mix between my old house and my new house. I saw a laptop on our table and I thought "Should I check my mail?" and then I thought "No that's lame..I have to go outside" I tried the spinning technique, so I spinned and said I wanted to go outside but it didnt work . So I went the old fashioned way. I opened our frontdoor, walked into the hall I jumped/flew on the stairs( never done that before) and then I walked to the real front door of the appartment. It was already open so I only had to pull. It was dark with some streetlights, kind of gloomy. In front of me, there was a beautifull black mercedes and all the doors were open. I thought to myself "Why not?" So I flew into the car and immediately two guys in black came and closed all the doors and sat on the drivers and passengers seat in front of me. I wasn't scared at all, just very curious. They looked Indian and the driver had long black hair in a ponytail the other had short hair. Thelong haired guy actually looked like the indian guy from Lost, and I don't even watch that show. They were talking to each other and I was busy touching all the leather in the car. Then I asked them "Where are you taking me?" but they didn't react. Then I started feeling my body in my bed and realizing my eyes were closed. The Last things in my mind were"Nooo this isn't happening" and "Es just rub your hands...NOW.." but my hands were stuck

Now I think of it, maybe the reason why the two Indian guys in black were not talking to me was my question. I was talking English to them and we were in Holland . I don't even know why I was speaking English in the first place, I mostly speak Dutch in my dreams. Maybe it's because I've been reading a lot of english books lately and I'm DV'ing. Maybe they can't even speak Dutch, that's also a possibility
I had 3 dreams that night and one of them was lucid. I am still not satisfied and when I woke up I totally forgot about DEILD. I really want to know where they would have taken me, it's been bugging me all morning and afternoon. Maybe when I attempt a WILD I could picture the black mercedes and the two guys, when the time comes