Thread: Nighthog's Journal unto self

16 december 2009

I had maybe not all to interesting dream today until one particular moment when something new happened in my dreams that has never before happened.

I kinda didn't keep in much in mind except the new experience but I'll try to get what I remember into it.

What I earliest remember is I meet some new girl in my dreams and I decide to ask for her name which in itself is quite new but something I've have intended to do anyway. I don't sadly remember the name but I remember how it went when I asked for it. I was semi lucid.

Me: "What is your name?"
Girl: "XXXXXX XXXXXXX"
Me: "How old are you?"
Girl: "17"
Me: "I'm 22 and my name XXXX XXXXX"
I take a short pause and try to remember what her name was again as it didn't fasten fully.
Me: "Was your name XXXYYY YYXXYXX"
Girl: "No..."
She seems displeased I forgot it already. I'm disappointed as well that I can't keep the name in mind.
I try again.
Me: "was it XXXXYX?"
I feel I almost got it right but just missed it
I didn't get a response again and I don't remember more from this point onward until a while later to other happenings. I'm not sure I meet this girl again.

I remember later I was kissing some other one just shortly but I stopped not wanting it go down the drain path if I let it go on for to long I know from many earlier dreams. Well either way I "recognise" when I stop kissing her that she is biting on my tong and it gets dragged out as I pull away. I ask honestly for her to let go which she does a second later. There is something about her expression I can't remember but got my attention there I know. Can't really remember much more from that episode. I know I asked her things and such but they are fully clouded.

Well onwards I am downstairs at my old friends house sitting infront the kitchen table whit his mom. She seems strange in a way. I know I asked some stuff but can't remember. Well either way I know I didn't really want to have time whit her but rather go and meet up whit her daughter. Well soon enough she takes me upstairs to her room where she goes inside first and goes to stand in the far corner of the room as I walk in and flip the light switch... Now something new and interesting happened.
As I flipped the switch the Mom broke to thousands of pieces of triangles and squares I figure in all colours accompanied the sound off same thousand pieces of glass breaking hitting each other and such. The pieces didn't really fall down but more like they faded to white light and then started to fade away from existence.
I was lucid here and the happening surprised me quite strongly.
I look to se her daughter sitting on the side off the bed and I ask.
"What happened?"
She answers: "It was a machine"
I'm puzzled...
I think off trying to make sure she is who she is...
I ask her: "Are you ZZZZZZZ"
She says: "Yes" whit honesty
Me: "Are you really?"
I don't remember if she answered but I have a memory like she did confirm it again.
Well either way I think off I need to confirm it for real to be really sure. Like asking her something only she would know... but I'm trapped as I don't know her well.
I have somewhat lost lucidity now and come whit a really stupid question I would say.
Out off nowhere as I think I'm a genius for trying to come whit questions to affirm things.
Me: "What is your bra size!" whit certainity this will prove she is who she is.
Well she doesn't answer
I wait for the answer but see everything starting to fade into darkness but NO I don't want that! I want to keep her company for a while! and I want that answer!
Well either way I struggle to keep myself there and then I hear like a whisper.
"37A"
I hear it and ask out loud. " Is it 37A?" seems this stops the away fading for the time and I see things refocus back to me standing or sitting beside her. Can't be sure which.
Well I keep her company ask various things continuing and also struggling whit each fade away I keep getting whit fixed intervals it seems. I keep fading and refocusing several times.
When I woke up I realize I think that 37A is way to small to be "real". I laugh at my questions I had. And ponder about the light switch thing. The girl is about a couple years younger than me. I meet her often when I visited my old friend in childhood, but I never really asked her anything or got to know her even though I always had a desire I wanted to but I was quite shy in younger years so I never asked her really anything which I kinda regret today but I got a chance in my dreams today though even if the questions were not much...

27 Decemeber 2009

Well today were long and dreamy dreams but I just want to write down the trippy part when I became partly lucid and decided I didn't want to hang around the normal dream scenario and tried to manifest my own reality.

Well I am in some kinda big mess-hall, restaurant settings one after the other where loads of people are present. I try to escape it but I end up in just another after another restaurant setting.

I am partially lucid and I have the idea about creating my own scenery/setting instead. I visualize this overlook over a beach into the horizon and I see soon all change around me slowly but firmly. I find myself looking over this dry and hot desert area("rocky canyons in USA" kinda but small scaled...). This dread-idly scenery wasn't what I wanted but I try and find this "oasis" of a beach and horizon I wanted by walking across this road I walk on, soon I see some water between two rock formations and become more happy whit the results. I go over to there but I don't get far in this desert location that I forget about the water completely and find myself in a bit of grassy area instead in this all. I reqognice something like huge bone sticking out from the ground and I walk a bit further that I see this huge human skull on a perch on a stone and tree I figure, it's foggy in memory. but it was about my own eye height.
Well I take a look at this and walk further onward. Here something happens that is really foggy but I remember seeing this other person whit my, I think it's a she. She either pushes some button or pulls a lever or something to that extent that activates this strange mechanism sound I hear and soon I look back upon the bones and I see them assembling together in the air from the ground parts bursting out from under and the few that were on top.
The skeleton is quite huge. I would guess minimum 2.5meters. Well it looks to only stand partly on top the ground, lower half is under ground it seems.

This huge skeleton takes a look at me and we stare at each other. I just look at it calmly being interested in this strange new happening.
There is this strange stuff going about like holding it together, real faint though. Was more present in the assembly.
Well either way soon it gathers this kinda ball crackling whit lightning inside in front of it. The size of a basketball I guess. Can't remember was it front of it whit no special motion of did it use it hands to gather it in-between. Well either way he used the hands whit like a throwing motion to throw this thing toward me. I stand maybe 10meters away or such I figure I don't want to be hit by it and raise my hands and hold them out like I was holding a ball in the air and pushed undetermined, unconcentrated energy in the space I held in the air, I shortly see a foggy crackle of misty light there. Gaining my interest but that makes it disappear also as I was surprised by it. But I still feel this energy in my hands and I point my hands toward the ball of lightning coming toward me and it comes within centimetres oh my hands till it's flung back toward the skeleton in faster speed. He deflects the first ball whit it's left hand to not hit him. I seem to notice a surprise reaction by it.
The skeleton then creates a few more and throws them at me and I deflect them once again without issues back at him but they miss him completely the more I try to focus to hit him the more they miss for a reason.
The skeleton sees throwing these balls of lightning won't be of any use.
So soon I see it get more hostile and I see this HUGE scythe get flung up from the ground unto it's hands holding it backwards ready to swing it. Memory a big foggy how exactly this went but I think it swung it once but I avoided this as well, not bothered by it at all. Well then on the next try it gets creative by crashing down under the ground moving whit huge force underneath me seeing ground bits smash and fly around as it gets closer under the ground whit the scythe lunging around just above ground at times swinging. I was awestruck by this display.
I stand there can't figure out what to do next as it closes in from underground but I take it calmly that things gonna be all right and stay in place. Just about when it's 1-2meters away as I prepare for it's attack I'm flung away from the whole scenery way back into the restaurants I wanted to avoid... they were not interesting enough for me.

So here I'm back to the restaurant I escaped from sitting in front a table like I'm on a date whit this person in front of me.
I seemed to have taken the role of this other person. As I was about to seemingly start a kiss whit the partner I notice it's a guy and I get panicky and shoot back into my own sitting place. I was cought flabbergasted by the previous happenings whit the skeletons so I was found like clueless back in the restaurant about the situation. I'm wondering about the situation.. I seem to comment/ask something but can't remember what it was. The partner seems unable to answer as he can't possibly know where I was moments before.
Well I find myself get flung out from the girl and then I'm the guy instead starting the situation over from a few moments back but as the other person now.
I'm still confused by the sudden back appearance in the restaurant. I say something like "lets congratulate..." but this answer was meant for the previous situation when I was the girl for a moment and I didn't realize time had gone back a few moment to start the thing over again but as the guy now. My date is confused at the words I say and answers confused. "congratulate what?"

After that I can't really remember what happened.

28 December 2009

Damn amazing night this night!

I practically had LD's the whole night.

What I did before sleep was try some meditation to clear my mind of much junk first before bed. Didn't look at time but I figure half an hour or such, listened to some Bob Marley in headphones.

Well after that I felt much junk was cleared from my mind I went and lay down in my bed in a relaxed position hands and legs spread out from my body a little. There I tried to lay still for a long while relaxing and trying to do my meditation stuff there also. Well I managed to lay still for quite a while but I never went to sleep but I got these visual experiences like the usual content from dreams play out in my mind as I closed eyes and tried to focus inward but it was just that, some visual images. Didn't fall asleep as I wanted. Had to shift my position a little to more of my usual sleeping positions and I reckon I went asleep quite fast after that.

The first moment I remember that I'm dreaming. But not fully realizing inside dream though I was already half lucid at start go. Didn't get exited and such whit a realization I was asleep but kinda knew and was doing the stuff I usually do when I get lucid. Or partly at least lucid. Never really managed 100% more like ranging from 50-80%. I started whit that 50% realization and control.

Well what I now remember from the earliest part is that I'm in some building whit old friends I figure.(I remember I've been this place before and done about same stuff as then as now) I practice getting lucid in the dream.
So I am "lucid" and fly around from what I remember but the earlier dreams are really foggy now. I did some stuff but can't remember(was something about lucids lasting such a short whiles, like only a few minutes when I really get lucid). I did then return to the friends in the building and talked about how do I better get "lucid". I need to realize something. doh!
Well I stand infront this window looking up toward the top part and I kinda remember there used to be like this air-conditioner there but it's not there any more. Here I gain lucidity to about 70% and soon I "separate" from my body and fly out the window. Can't remember what I did for a short while here but fly around a bit.. oh now I remember...(was good idea to write )
I went to this park I think looking around at the scenery and such floating about a little going along etc. Well I find a wooden park bench there and decide to sit down in it whit legs crossed like I do whit my meditation stuff and the look around. I remember seeing some people in the distance but put not much attention to them. I'm lucid I know so I just sit there to take a look at the dream scenery to relax for a bit. I then vaguely remember the vibration chanting meditation thing I read here a little in the forums and seem to take a try at this inside the dream in this park and bench. I just about am to begin a little chanting to try. making "hmmm" whit mouth closed a few moments and I notice this person walking by close to my left which caught me a little unexpected and I stop the chant I was about to try... getting embarrassed... (damn real life situation that find it hard to get moments for myself without interference! no time to try these chants alone really. )

Well that spoiled my thoughts and lucidity lost to a extent. I don't remember what I did next but just a short while later I'm flying about in the air I figure exploring the town. I think I'm in my local town but it doesn't really look anything like it. I figure I'm in the industrial zone of town. Close to the school I went there. I figure the building I was in was the school, but I'm unsure. (smaller new public, private owned school(learnt about IT stuff there)).
Well either way I close in to this gas station and start walking a little around there and I find this place filled whit trucks and storage areas whit seemingly being products to be delivered to the shops. There is stuff littered everywhere... but no people. I just about walk inside one of the storage areas that I decide I rather go elsewhere and turn around to walk away. There as I walk away I see buses in rows... but there are buses stacked on top the others?! LOL? Like the roof of the buses could handle the weight of a entire other bus stacked on it's roof. Just to save storage space!

Well this didn't strike me as odd though, just drew my attention a moment. Don't know what I did the few next moments as I walked away but just later was flying about again I think following the roads and I have decided I want to get to my house so I go fly above the roads going there.

The roads were strange in themselves. I remember flying across these roads many times in my dreams. Often so much alike each time, but strange indeed.
The roads are like super old asphalt that's been overgrown like crazy whit grass, weed, bushes and the roads are completely broken at parts. But still you can drive across them though. But there are no cars or any people anywhere as I fly above the roads. The have strange lines in how traffic goes sometimes 1 line sometimes 2 lines criss crossing and splitting when it's supposed to be just straight. I remember flying above this road for a while heading for home. I don't remember much at a later section of the roads but I think I had some thought about being pointless following the roads home as they never end I remember.

After this I woke up shortly to feel my body a bit sluggish but damn relaxed though. It was 7:00 am. I knew it was early as decided to wake up as I had come across a blank dream space. I just stretch a little and lie down again and gonna try for lucidity again whit a WILD. I fell asleep kinda instantly. I was lucid I know and I was in new dream scenery but sadly I don't remember this part right now. I was asleep for untill 10:00.
Hopefully I do remember what I dreamt about here soon, but it's all empty in mind right now. I tried to focus more on the earlier dreams as I woke up as I figure I would more surely forget about them but in return I forgot all about the latest dream instead.

29 December 2009

This night I wasn't paying much attention and also only just remember a little fragment of it all.

Well either way what I recall is that I have gone back to army to make a visit to the place where I spent my 6months conscription time kinda.

The setting is I walk inside a room, kinda aware whit partly lucid but not utilizing it sadly. I meet and greet some people I seemingly know. I'm thinking whit my awake memory kind off a little here. I know I no longer am in the army and think off that they are the new groups arrived for this time, but I seemingly meet some people I know.
They ask what I'm there for. I answer that I'm just for a short visit for a few hours I guess, more of lucid... but then I get more non-lucid thoughts to think over the time. I correct it and say I'll probably be around a few days instead looking if I was there in real life just for a visit for a few hours would not be practical or realistic at all. Lucid peak is already passed.

After this I soon have my attention on some weird metallic looking pieces in different shapes and sizes. I think it's magnets but there are a whole bunch of them and they behave weirdly by the pieces shifting places and morphing whit a magnetic kind of mechanics to move the whole assembly forward on it's own. This grasps my attention fully and I see myself looking at it closely on the floor till I want to take it in my own hands.
But before I get a grasp of it it's all turned into pieces and it isn't any more in the intricate designed mechanic "vessel" as before but now it's just balls in various sizes moving about the floor in all kinda direction and the magnetic thing kinda diminished greatly as the balls don't want to keep together any more... I then sit there trying to gather together all these metal balls again and try to assemble this machine again but I keep finding there to be more and more and more and tinier metal spherical balls flowing about here and there getting into cracks in the floor etc. They are hard to grasp and roll away easier than getting them whit my fingers. I still manage to get a larger quantity off the balls into a heap and hold them in place whit my left hand using my right to gather more of the escaping balls. I sit there for a few moments gathering those damn spheres for some time but never did I manage to get them all before the dream ended.

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Re-remembered a dream I forgot today from a few days back. Could have been the dream I forgot in the morning from yesterday but I'm unsure about that, and kinda think it was a earlier(older) dream than that.

To summarize it I was in some kinda fields and woods. Maybe some grass-lands where cows are etc. Soon I see nuclear explosions blossom up around me in all directions and distances but I kinda stand in a sweet spot to be not affected between these huge explosions. I think I can count 5-6 from what I remember. Well as soon as these explosions have gone off I look in one direction that looks like a town close by. Quite close to me the edge of a huge crate from this supposed nuclear explosion is toward the town. I walk a few steps to the edge and see buildings littered about down in the crater destroyed, not through like a thermonuclear explosion but like the ground gave way and everything collapsed inward into the crater I would think analysing it now. I see some people and wave/yell them over to come to me.
Well what I remember next as we few who gathered from the disaster go to the next phase of the dream.
Next part is I am standing about the same area I was just before but I am inside a house now. I decide to go outside to look...
There is see house after house identical to each other on their own yards passed some distance from each other in a huge grid. There are these houses everywhere in the distance I look. I get the feeling these are houses built for the survivors to start things out anew again.
Then I start seeing as I get a different view time speed up and see spots where new and newer houses and buildings get built around to form town and later huge cities. The cities look clean and modern, I see no problems or pollution and the like. A main part... I see no roads! but maybe walkways if people want to walk here and there as the city got bigger. I got the impression things very peaceful and harmonious. The nature around looked healthy and green. whit some greens sprouting on top some buildings.

30 December 2009

I had intention to try and get to the moon but I never got lucid this night and didn't have a single thought about the moon while in my dream/sleep state but remembered in constantly every time I woke up... I did wake up quite a few times in-between and in today's dreams. Got me pissed somewhat that I didn't manage to transfer over my intent to my dreaming self.

Let me see...

Right the most earlier part was I find myself inside the cottage our family has and I have my laptop whit me and I'm looking at pictures in it I guess from these websites. Manga/anime kind of images. (been looking at those kind a lot lately). I was looking at them there for a little while and some old friends of mine show up to the place. hmm hard to remember which came about first...

Well I think I meet whit my old true friend I ever had first. He had just shown up and was hanging around while I did what I did on the computer. he seemed bored and I was a bit hassled by his appearance. We have really broken contact completely for quite a while now(some years).
I asked him some stuff like "Why don't you go and do something". he answers back whit. "There isn't even a paper to read here" he seems a little annoyed as myself. I say back "then why did you even come here in the first place then?"
He seems ready to leave already.
I then remember I should ask him something that been on my mind in dream state at times. I ask. "Does your sister have a boyfriend right now?" He doesn't answer back.
I wait and then say "you know I always ("liked her/had interest in her") and wanted to get to know her but I never had the courage though to and ask her things to get to know her". I think about asking if she has a boyfriend again but I do not as he doesn't seem to want answer to these inquiries.

Well soon enough other people I knew appeared, I knew them somewhat but my friend already present did know them a lot more than I did. I was mostly in their company only whit my "true" friend present. I'm surprised by their appearance at my cottage they don't know where this place is exactly and none of my friends have ever been there. They sit around the table where I sit whit my laptop. They seem to look at what I am looking at. I'm kind of hesitant to let them see I remember feeling there. But this dream part moved onward to other things soon here after. These scene changes seem to get faded in my memory.

I remember walking around in a town whit my friends walking behind close by. I feel like getting away from them, it has to do whit what they might think I was doing on the computer. Well soon enough I decide to climb a building in it's corner to get away. I climb easily but as I am to get to the roof whit the last climbs I have issues getting on top the roof. Can't seem to get a good grip of the last step. I struggle to get up. I kind of just managed it but the scenes changed here again.

Next I find myself in I think it is a school Cafeteria/Foodplace. I just walk across it all whit a entourage of people whit me to try and get to the exit. We walk through the kitchen and all that and arrive at a huge freezer room/storage room for the foods. We first think the huge metal door is a door outside but later when we got close I thought it was more likely the door to the deep-freezer. Dream scenario change here also.

I think I woke up there shortly.

Next was I was standing outside on a road whit trees and such all around and a bit onward on the road some buildings could be seen. The trees weren't all to tight and there were cleared spaces here and there. I'm standing there on the road and see this AA-gun on the road. I see some planes in the air. Propeller planes. It's summer and sky is clear for most part whit few clouds but high up, the planes are beneath it. There were some people around me and I have a feeling it's my job to man the AA-gun. I go and take the thing in hold. The gun is quite huge. There are like 4 arrays of guns and there are 2 buttons on the controller. one for the left side 2 guns and other for the right side. I take a spin around whit it and try to see how easily I can track the air planes. The gun moves around whit no effort it seems and I can be quick and precise but the cross-hair is to low so it makes it a bit hard for me getting the stuff aligned correctly as I move around. Well I track the first plane flying behind us I guess from the buildings. I ask if I should shoot. I get confirmation I guess.
I start to shoot and have to try hard to hit, takes a short while until I hit and get the hang of how the AA shoots in trajectory to figure out how to aim to be able to hit. The plane breaks into pieces and I go to the next target. I hit it fast and it explodes. I track and shoot down some more smaller planes untill like some bombers start to appear in the skies and I start to shoot them down.
More and more planes start to appear in the sky and I have to be fast to hit and disable them as I'm the only AA gun in the area it seems. Soon I see a huge gathering of various planes and things in the sky coming from over where the building are in the same path as the road goes. I start to spray as much as I can toward the huge fleet coming. I shoot down and destroy many but there are too many for this lone AA to handle them all, they get closer and closer and some planes in the peripherals get across as I have to focus in one place where most are.
Soon I see these weird flying things land on the road just in front of me on the other side of the road. The front part opens up and there rolls out a tank unto the road and it aims directly at me in the AA gun. It stares at me and I have aimed my AA at the plane as it landed and shoot at it but seemingly my AA could not shoot so low even if the cross-hair could. As the Tank rolled out I aimed at it and shoot and shoot but I saw no hits near it at all. I saw actually no hits whatsoever. I stop shooting as I see I can't hit or destroy the tank. I see then that it fires and I'm in the sky looking down as the AA gun was hit by the tanks that fired some 10meters away.

31 December 2009

Allright. This got to be the most crazy and profound happening I've had yet in my sleep... I even refused to go back to sleep before I've written it down. I woke up 6:00 am in the morning here locally.

Let me try and get it right...

I'm in dream land I find myself. I seem to be whit some people. I am talking a bit whit them. I'm not really lucid I recognize. I think I'm whit Nomad?! and Raven?! and some others from here. I am standing next to him and there is some person laying down when we stand close by. I never managed to take a good look but I got the feeling on who they might be.

The chatting I don't have much in memory but I do remember something about. "I AM THE SUN!" and all hell breaks loose as I start to get a flood of realizations and understandings I guess. The talk and mingle that lead to me say out the previous let me become more and more lucid fast.
"there is the SUN, and there is the son. "(Which would you "prefer" to associate whit")"(hard to remember exact words that was said, this a approximation) was said before and such.
But I must say at the realization and expression of the statement "I AM THE SUN"... damn... The first thing I know is this overwhelming energy and light starting to erupt from within me and I'm standing there whit these people I think are Nomad and some others here.
Soon I see this ball off yellowish light in front above me I guess. Feels kinda I'm lying down now but everything else around me is now gone and black but this apparent SUN! I'm feeling "lucid" and I have various thought to try and get the right thoughts and understandings into mind about things. My free will. Responsibility. Other things relevant as if I was "ascending" kind off. I have my wake life consciousness there at this happening. I'm kind of in panic mode to have the "right" stuff around in thoughts. I have a rush of realizations and such I feel. "I want to gain knowledge and understanding" were a statement I did during this among other sayings.

Next part:

I'm in pitch black darkness whit nothing... I try to figure out why everything is black now and that other stuff disappeared. I soon reach out my hands and I hit something above me... huh? I try to feel around... I think I'm inside some confined space or box and such. Still can't see but blackness. Soon I recognise I'm lying down on a bed on a hard bed and the thing above me is another bed. I sit upp and stand up to see now that they are bare beds whit no mattress or anything on them. Things look "technological" around me.
I think I'm looking at a computer screen of some sort whit info on me. There arrives a person. "Are you like that?" I think was said?
A ignorant something. I do remember the ignorant part but not the other.
"Well sure I could be it".. "I can be it whit my current understanding and knowledge"..." To not be ignorant I need to learn and gain much more understanding about things".. (these are approximations of what was said)

I see things much more clearly now. "Where am I?"...
I notice something isn't right about this place I'm in... It all looks fake... it's all computer graphics! Good detail though but there are hints to give it away.
"This place is an illusion" I say to the person present. I kind of get a recognition.
"It's like a computer program"... "good one though"
I realize my body feels a bit numb but I still see my body even though it's a computer generated illusion so to say. I feel and I can sense touch like it was my real body.
"Is my body on the other side asleep" I ask. "yes it is" I get as answer.

We have walked to a other room next to the one where I woke up in this place. I see two other people there. "Hey they look exactly like two persons I know." I think or say, not sure. But I know they are not the same persons, they just are like alternative versions of them. They are in front some consoles and screens. We get close and the person seems highly interested to look at the screens I watch a few steps away.

Things are fluid but I'm kind off transported to another location without realizing it. I'm in a house now I guess.
I meet some new people here and it's a continuation from before.

I ask things and they answer at same time as I've given visuals in my view seeing what is explained.
Let me see how much I can recall off the conversation and visuals next.

Much is lost though...
Well what I now do remember is that I was given the 202years back a ufo crashed in Egypt I guess and that is the cause...(this is already in the middle of the conversation I know)
I saw some kind of pods one whit a male person, and a another whit a female person. They are young adults. Have this weird but cool armour type of clothing. Both people look about the same. Like they were twins. I see there are several other females underneath the female in the pod. No small pod I guess. They both had white ruffsy/messy hair. They are handsome.

The time 202years back, strikes me as something I know. I say I have just read about something happening 202years back and this might be related. But I conjure up a explanation I read it in David Wilcock's latest EBook(Disclosure Endgame). Which I did read to much parts just before. Can't figure out what in there could be anything related now that I woke up from that place..

They seem impressed a little.

I get the impression they are intimately related to these people I saw in the pods... And I'm in turn related to their appearance on earth I guess from the context I get the feeling off the situation.

Well either way I prepare for that they are seemingly done for now. I say "I should probably write this all down when I wake up" They seem to agree.
I get in discussion how do we meet again. They end it whit that they will contact me.

I get back here soon enough...

Damn it all was so clear and easy to remember there but as I got back here I have so much problems whit clarity.

Some weird stuff started to happen as I got back. I didn't directly get up but stayed in bed to have high and visuals and this involved the previous things in it... Though the people I was talking to morphed into scary "aliens" ... really freaky... They seemed malicious and maniacal and some more seemed to arrive. Looked like they wanted to eat me... HAHA!

Well back to sleep now... took me a well good hour get this down... (7:15 AM)

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Ok after a while... took me a while I managed to go back to my sleep and There were various random scenarios and such going on. I woke up often and each time I woke up that dream ended and a new started when I feel back to sleep.

These were more minor and not all to nice dreams in the end some of them.

There is one where I'm getting away from a place and I see myself walking across a path in dense and old woods and there is a marsh/river all-round the path. Soon I see these monsters about in the water. They are after me. I avoid there not to fast attacks. One looks like this weird crocodile. I could say the monsters were like taken out from the movie "The Mist" but they were the sort of kind you would have found in water if such would have been present in that movie. I avoid them on the path but then decide it's better to climb higher so I get ontop some trees growing out from the waters. Some other monsters start to leap up high into the air to catch me. But I manage to avoid them by moving around in the trees. I then climb to another tree.. Soon it fades as I start to wake up.

One dream I was walking around in some row-house area. don't remember much more than that from that one.

Then next I meet up whit my.. what's it called... my half-brothers-daughter. I give her a hug whit love and she seems happy and then it fades for me to awake again. My half-brothers children just arrived to the house to stay a few days now over new years.

Then I get a more long lasting dream I seem to recognise. Not to nice I would say sadly.

The next dream I found myself in a house talking a bit. I'm somewhat arguing I guess. Can't remember what it is that I say. Well soon enough I hear sirens and alarms going all around outside and decide to go out and take a look. I see explosions and whatnot in the distance toward town and soon a nuclear explosion lights up the sky. I see I'm to close to be safe standing around and decide to run around to look for a safe hiding place before the blast way hits me. I see some sewage lids and such on the road and think I can hide in there underground. I open a lid whit no holes. It'd a dead end just a few decimetres deep. I open the next were the sewage waters supposed to go down and I see the water about 1 meter down and metal rod ladders on one side. I jump/climb down fast as I removed the lid.
I hear the blast way coming close and wind pick up. I just manage to pull the lid back on top halfway and everything starts to fly away over me junk piles on top the lid and I hold some of it in place to give better cover so stuff doesn't go down unto me.
As soon as I see things calm down I see from a hole on the edge of the sewage pipe downward as it cracked in the blast some robots come close by and soon one detects me in the sewage through this crack and gives a signal to the other robots as well. They remove the stuff on top and grab me whit these shooting arms and pulls me up and then makes me walk away to this tunnel where I meet some other people. But I have a bad feeling about these peoples. My suspicion is acknowledged when I see their food... roasted like chicken in paper packages... I dare not say... human parts.
They ask if I want some food. I say not that kind of food. They bring me to corner where I'm made to take off my dirty clothing but as I do some people start to walk away from another part off the tunnels they are leaving this wretched place. Some old ladies watched as I was taking my clothes off... leering and whatnot. Not nice. Well enough the people leaving takes their attention. They are taking all their stuff and money whit them.. This will cause huge problems for the people here it seems.
The money part catches my attention.. Money? Who needs money? We have no need for such a thing now! You know money is debt? And who has debt now?!
This doesn't get such a nice greeting as I hoped. People got hostile toward me and it was unpleasant in the short continuation. Well I gladly woke up soon after.

Wow man. I don't have time to read all this, but I am looking forward to reading your entire DJ.

It sounds like you were in the Temple of Gawn in the Biodome, and a Dream Temple in the City of Nowhere.

I remember a warthog running around saying, "I am confused! What am I?" then changing into a man.

Sadly I didn't remember anything this last night.

1 january 2009...

I was completely blank when I woke up... had no idea what I may have dreamt. Was some time back since I didn't remember anything since last.

Well either way I had intended to go to the moon again.

About the warthog thing... I don't remember me being anything but human in my dreams for most part.

At the moment I haven't read but the latest of your and friends entries. not read from the beginning to end so can't know how that Temple of Gawn or the Dream temple in the City of Nowhere is like.

2 January 2010

Well I wasn't lucid this night but damn was it a story I was involved in.
Taken right out off Star Trek, haha!

I'll just summarize the general theme this time. Not to much details.
I can actually say this is a continuation dream for several dreams into this.

I'm on a space ship, Star Trek kind. We are in a mess whit fighting some evil dudes and their HUGE strange machine that we feel can't be in their control I think. Well sure enough one engine is hit as we are just about to bail out due to non favourable terms but we also go inside a beam/portal the machine is making whit the ship and I guess we activate warp/hyper drive to get out fast...

This wasn't a good thing... The mix of it all makes us so that we teleport way way way away in a distant galaxy. There we arrive at some planet in the middle of hostilities. We land and get non nice getting from some other evil dudes suppressing some local people. We end up fighting them and saving these local people and get a friendship going. Then we alliance together to beat the hell out off these dudes of evil tyrants over there to be in turn at some point get help from them when things are back to normal over there to get us back. They were about at the last stand when we arrived and lost but thanks to out interference it all turned around.

hmm. This is recollection of many dreams so I have to think what to bring from what I remember.

Well there are various skirmishes and such to rescue people and we get to know various people through our adventures in this galaxy and the local areas. They are quite advanced over there, somewhat similar to our own but they have better advancements in some and we in some others.
Well we manage to befriend this biological scientist master. He can do about anything whit his biology, create biological machines and whatnot. He ends up being super important.

We have about beat the evil dudes and we have gotten ideas about how to return and we have figured out there are "time-space" issues. Weird stuff goes about thanks to that. All in all seems we were around about 3 years in that distant place and this night I dreamt about the happenings of the return and what happens back home.

I have recollections of many scenes in various things but I best just remember the general story.

Let me try at least describe some stuff more in detail of what I was in this night. There was much so I'm a bit sloppy holding it all in.

There was something whit a last stand against the evil tyrant. We are confronting the last boss and we talk about various things, argue etc.

There were other scenes in where we were plotting, looking into these time-space issues and these other strange issues trying to figure it out.
Ends up the biological madman...(he really was!) figure it out that we will practiaclly return of out own accord automatically no matter what about just in before the last confrontation whit the boss. But we needed to do some thing important or we would all disapear instead of returning. I think it was something the evil dude had done in the various happenings in all those years. We needed something back I guess.

Well we "seal a deal" whit the tyrant as we defeated him kind of. Order returning to normal in that galaxy. We are about to get thrown back into out own galaxy and various people that have joined us decide they will get back whit us. Many of the original crew had been lost over the years so it was a must whit new people around to keep the ship going.
I see a graphical map on a monitor that shows the current location and the path that we will take through space and time to get back where we started out from. The map/graph is kinda cool I must say. I was impressed.
We are cought by suprise that we are to return much sooner than thought but all is in order and we get on our path back home and I see us travelling all way back...

We arrive back at the machine and the exact same time that we left just a few paces off from the original location. We are suprised we went back to the same moment. People had thought time would have progressed. Well sure enough the home evils are flabbergasted by our "double" ship plopping our from nowhere. We get contact on the big screen and he is even more surprised now! HAH!
He sees that we are the same people that are trapped inside the portal off the damn huge machine. We see our ship from the moment we left inside like a forcefield in the machine trapped.
We confirm that we are the same people. He can't believe it. We explain shortly what happened and he sees the various new dudes around in the ship as hesitant proof that we are telling the truth and the apparent modifications to the ship and the "oldering" of the old crew and ship at parts original.

We get ready to beat the shit out of these guys as we know they will have no chance against this new chip of ours whit enhanced technology off two galaxies. We demand he stands down.
We plan to let our "younger" selves free instantly and he has then to meet our both ships.
I get the impression we will be sticking around as a "secondary" selves in this new space-time thing along whit our younger selves never going also to the distant galaxy as we had. We had figured out that the "freedom" of that galaxy would still stick around as we would still exist here as doubles. Some loop back and intermingling of timeliness whatnot craziness.

The dream ends there for this night. I never saw us beat the crap out of these dudes or what happened next but it's quite certain that we have won.

4 January 2010

Ok I had real focus tonight to get to the moon and be lucid and I did it! Well only short bursts of lucidity before I wake up every time...

I had some other dreams before but I forgot them I seem to see.

I had tried to induce a WILD as soon as I decided to sleep but it was hard and I just feel to normal sleep but I woke up later and then I decided I'll try a WILD again as I was really half asleep already so it should be possible.
Well sure enough I fall asleep again and I find myself arriving at the moon and aware!

All right! I see myself arrive to the moon in a cylindrical pod/ship but it's on a bad crash course so I have bailed out and taken myself to the ground in my space suit I guess. I basically remember myself standing on the ground first seeing my ship come in onward the moon surface. It comes in a bad 30-45degree angle and bumps up high in the air and then back toward the ground to fly up in the air one time again. Seems I have a real sturdy ship. I only see minor dents to be caused.
I am lucid of the experience and deicide I want to get to my space pod and run to catch it in it's final destination. I look around at same time in the scenery. It's quite lovely to be on the moon. I realize I don't need a space suit and notice it's gone already, I breath fine.
When the pod stops in the ground I am running toward it. First I had just run in the general direction the pod was skipping toward.
I can't seem to be able to get too close to my pod. When I get closer the pod shifts it's location to my peripherals of vision and I have to turn around to try and get it in my central view but it's no good, it continued to shift it's location sideways from my view and I can't catch it. I end up spinning around in the location seemingly. Soon I see stuff all around to fade to black and I know I am about to wake up. Which I do just briefly. I decide to get back instantly before I wake up to much.

Well sure enough my retry to enter sleep succeeds.

I re-enter standing next to my pod but... I'm not on some empty lunar scenery any more. I see some kind of metallic structures close to the lunar surface just next to my pod and many many more structures looking into the distance. Much are real low and I think they are the roofs to underground structures. I look at my pod again and just 6 meters away there is a circular round thing there flat on the surface... It seems to open and there comes up this weapon!
It's a weapons platform... I get panicky and I shift my location around sideways to see if it has spotted me or targeting my pod which for sure should have caused alarm whit it's crash. The weapon is targeting me! O-oh!
I decide to go behind my pod to hide behind it which is just next to some low surface stuff I think it will not fire in such close proximity and I stand a few meters behind the pod whit the weapon platform on the other side...

The gun fires and obliterates my space pod whit which I got to the moon! No!
I get panicked and move away from the pod that is no more and get between some other structures but I see the gun follow me and seemingly load for another fire so I put my hands up just before that and walk closer as to suggest I surrender. It doesn't fire at me now.
I see the gun kind of extend it's pipe toward me. It gets quite close then it initiates something but I think it's not firing at least so I stay my ground... Some kind of scan is started. I see ultraviolet light come out from it and flow into me and I hear this scanning sound. It aims for my head and I have somehow grasped the nozzle of this scan to hold it only to my head and still and not to move it around. A scanning is started and it's really uncomfortable as I feel it inside my head starting at the back and then slowly moving across the the front and I must keep my eyes open for some reason and it really irritating for my eyes that ultraviolet light... it's mixed whit some other colour also but I forgot which it was.

Next when I notice it finished it's scan and decided not to do anything whit me I have found myself in another location... I'm like underground now but it's still similar to the scene I was at just now. I'm in some green house where plants and such grow from ground to ceiling. I think I'm like just underneath the place I was just now on top. I see the gun emplacement but it's something else now there in this garden. and I look for my pod and I see it crashed on the ground next to me and I see a path of wreckage to the garden it has taken into the place. My pod is really small in here...
(when I think about what this perceived pod now inside this green house on the moon has for size I can't possibly fit inside it. Must have been a broken off part of the bigger pod I saw at start crashing unto the moon, the pod that was obliterated by the gun was just big enough to fit me but still smaller than what I thought the pod was for size when it crashed, and it's didn't strike me as strange that my pod had already been obliterated moments before)
Well I wake up soon enough here after.

Next when I try to get back again I didn't get to wake up good enough I was really 75% asleep and my affirmation to get to the lunar surface again wasn't successful really any more. I find myself in some shopping mall this time. First few instances I have lucidity but not good enough lucidity though, I just decide to fly/float about to get around faster. I woke up soon to get to black and then back to sleep and now I had no lucidity and was shopping shoes seemingly. A friend was asking about if he should get these shoes... They cost about 900$!!! Looked like regular runners shoes... I thought he could get just as good for 20$ haha!

I woke up once again at 7:40 am and went to write this down. Back to try some more WILD here to get around on the moon again next

Continuation 4 January 2010

I had first thought I wanted to go back to the moon but I changed my mind, to rather go and meet raven to say hello I thought but it was taking time to fall asleep so I after a while I lost the intent on that and just fell asleep whit not much focus in the end. I may have changed my intent once again to go and meet my dream guide just before sleep.

The dreams to continue didn't involve the moon or raven as far as I could tell and discern.

I were in some pretty normal start whit me in a superstore. I was walking inside and just was looking for something or someone I think. Can't be sure any more. Well enough I was searching for something and I reach the back side of the shop to the clothing sections and I see girls around... Some are changing in public to test stuff out. Seems the younger ones get shy when I get close so I decide to change my path to walk away instead. I cross paths whit this girl that is changing and just put on a short dress... it catches my attention somewhat but I continue to walk but then I see she is looking at me and for some reason I turn around and approach this girl. She gets fidgety it seems at my approach. She is holding some clothes in her hands... I kind of squat down and lift and look up her dress... there is no underwear... LoL this is what attracted me?! LOL!
I stand up and ask why she doesn't have underwear. I remember not getting any answer from her. She gets clingy whit me thereafter. I ask her questions I want answers to if I want to continue this path whit her as she continues to advance her advances unto me. She newer answers me anything and I feel it gets unpleasant. I was kind of swept whit her for a few moments until I realise I don't want this and I get away from her clinging and slap her on the cheek. That gets her attention at least and I walk away I guess. She had deceived me in the end.

There was a dream change I think here. It's foggy and misty on memory.

Next part is faded but it was the most interesting though. I was walking around in this world and landscapes... I was at minimum semi lucid the entire time. I was discussing things relating to the dream world where I was currently and the awake world where I currently was asleep whit some people around in this world. How all this "magic" didn't exist in this parallel world and that you could not fly etc just like that on will, you needed machines.
At one point I did ask the question "How long has this world been around" As to expect a answer how long the dream world was around but I got another answer I think. I got the answer that this world where I was currently located had been around only 42 or 46 years. Foggy which it was. That caught my surprise a bit. So young. I answered back that my world had been around for billions of years, always existed for eternity.(but how do I know for sure though? heh.)
Another part in the land I was most in summer areas but then when we were travelling a dirt road I saw that the scenery became winter just a few tens of meters onward on the road. I mentioned this observation to the people walking whit me. I said that it's currently winter where I am asleep whit much snow as I saw there in the distance. I then saw that in-between the snow area and the summer area was a small buffer zone whit fall season in it I guess. The scenery off this gradient of seasons was quite beautiful I must say.
There was some other stuff going on here also but I forgot what.

Next dream scenery I'm walking in some forests and I encounter various animals in the forest. They seems to want to attack me but I manage to avoid their attacks whit ease. I meet a Rhino. A sabre-toothed tiger... Those teeth where long... 2+ meters I just grabbed the teeth to hold it away from me I think I meet some other animals also but it's faded.
Well sure enough I'm walking along these paths in the shrubbery and trees. seems semi-tropical I notice there is cliff kind of coastline close and I walk to walk next to it and look into the distance over the waters and I see islands here and there. I guess I'm on a similar island. I see soon some kind of artificial designed stuff on the ground next to the cliff I recognise it seems to be made off clay and hardened and has some few design on it. I decide to take a look at it and try to lift i up from the ground but it breaks apart whit a huge piece in my hand I think it's just some flower pots... I drop the pieces in the water.
I now see there is a door entrance where this was and I go inside to take a look. I soon realize I'v broken something I should not have so I hurry back out and go into the water to take up the broken pieces to put em back in their correct places. A man comes out from the door entrance and sees what I have done and trying to fix it. He gets a bit sad that it's been broken but as I put pieces back he puts some new clay on top and it fixes itself again anew.
I'm invited inside and I follow the small hallway into a larger room. I see there are many beds on the floor and people sleeping. there are rows of chairs and tables close by and I go and sit down there.
Next scene was all people sitting in the chairs and then start to leave. I look at them leave not knowing what to do and I just sit there look as they seems to have a specific path to take from each sitting position for leaving. This dream ended there.

The last dream was kind off strange. We are travelling in some kinda ship under water. I have built it myself I am thinking whit help of the other person whit me I am thinking. "Isn't this nice" and whatnot I mention as it works without problems.
Next we are on ground and we exit out ship and it looks like this huge home-made trailer! It has weird shape and you can see all the nails used to nail the sheets of whatever material unto it.
Once again animals start to appear around. I see a reindeer to memory, there was this other animal also that almost run me over. I walk close by in the bushes and whatnot to look for this child reindeer that had come by but a child rhino runs out instead.

That's it for today.

5 January 2010

Today was mostly unpleasant dreams for most part... was running away for how long in endless pursuit, people to get me and my friends...

Don't feel like writing it down. Just a dream about me trying to escape from something whit friends and then me deciding I might have better chances taking a slightly different road than the rest of the group but it doesn't go as planned. Seems all of them are after me instead...

Had actually this dream before now I remember, a few times actually. Seems to come back once in a while, but it's rare. Maybe few slight changes but the overall theme stays the same.

6th January 2010

I thought maybe I should start the color sheme thing many use around here.

Here are my colours.
Lucid, Non-Lucid & Black for random writing, thoughts not related really for what was in the dream.

Todays dreams were long winding and I didn't become lucid this night either, even though I tried to somewhat... I did wake up at some point and decided to try a Wild but I was too sleepy and didn't wake up good enough all kind of other thought and interference clouded my intent and it failed, just ended up falling to sleep once again. When I then woke up again.. light was outside already. To late to try Wild again unless I want to sleep the middle of the day. I tried but it was taking time and I decided to abort it.

After the failed Wild this is what I dreamt:
I am in a city, suburbs whit many house complexes and am walking close to bodies of water, I guess oceans. I close by a gathering of people that are exited and whatnot and I see dark clouds in the sky and people are running to take a look. I am also interested by this and decide to walk closer where people are I go around some house corners and then I see what it's all about. It's a huge gathering of tornadoes in the water creating water spirals into the air. They look amazing.There are an insane amount of them there in the water. We can't believe our eyes that there are so many gathered together there in the water just off the beach/coast line. I hear people say "Look", "Isn't it amazing" "How many are there".
I say "I'll try to count them". I take a quick count to see a general count of how many there are I reach fast 30+ and say "there must be at least 30+ and more".
I look at the dark clouds above and a smaller entourage of swirls break away from the main group to travel the water inlet between two land masses I guess to the other side. Sky clears somewhat whit this break but I stay to look at the main body. "Will they come on land?" I hear someone close ask. I answer back "I don't think so", "they seem to stick to the waters, look at the clouds they are only dark over the waters".
Soon I walk away from the area back inland and I guess to my house where I meet my mother and mention that there are 30+ tornadoes in the waters. She doesn't believe me and I try to convince her.

I walk away from there and unto a bigger road looking where the dark clouds are going. They are heading for the opposite side I guess. The smaller break off swirls have me interested so I head of where they might have gone but I'm disappointed to see the clouds break up and clear instead as I am on the road and I take a look at the people here instead.
There are a bunch of girl around on the road seemingly training and working out I guess. many have cheer-leader clothes on them. This gets my attention and I look at them all doing whatever they do and walk on the side walk next to the road whit the girls spread around all on the road and side walks. Some girl is jogging and passes by me. Another is on the side walk looking at me. She was on her one knee I guess or bent down, tying her shoes I think. I look at her for a bit. I feel something but I end up ignoring it and walk on and when I am looking at the various people on the road as I pass by I notice one doesn't have any clothes on her... I try to ignore her but she is looking at me and has that pole thing in her hands that your spin and throw and whatnot in the air. Well I pass by and just continue to walk. At some point I decide to turn around for a reason shortly after passing the naked one but she and many others aren't there anymore. Stuff are getting a bit cloudy and I got semi awake in the later parts as I wake up but want to sleep still though. Ends up I have these visuals in my head of various sexual imagery before I decide to open my eyes.

I did remember the content before the Wild try but as I did my morning routine I forgot what the dreams before was about. Maybe I remember later. Wasn't anything exiting etc though. The tornado thing was the most interesting I know I thought about all that I remembered after waking up.

7th January 2010

I had intention to try and get to moon & meet Raven but was of no success again sadly to my recall.

Well I ended up waking constantly and I tried over and over again whit having focused intent but just didn't work this time around.

All the wakening messed whit my recall so there are just the 2 latest dreams I remember in the end.

Dream 1:
I'm in our house in my old room downstairs and I hear this rumbling about sound things are vibrating and shaking slightly but I don't really pay attention to it as I don't figure out it out or pay no attention to it. I see my bookshelf start to shake and my miniatures on top it start to move about due to the shaking so I decide to use my hands to make sure the miniatures don't fall down from there. One falls behind the bookshelf to my dismay and then there come this strong jump and a smaller and stuff jumps about and one other model I see as I catch it in my hands crumbles to pieces for some reason. I figure it's something to do whit the pervading vibrations that keep going constantly for a while. It's a Salamander thing from Warhammer.
Well soon as the shaking goes away as I wait the gentle but sure vibrations to end I walk out from my room to the living room and out to the backyard. I stand in the door and see that the whole lawn and beyond for a bit has collapsed into a pit into the ground. Only the stones pavement next to the house is still around in our yard, anything on the grass has collapsed down into pit of dirt.
"The backyard has collapsed down into a pit" I say to my father I think.
"that can't be true" I get back as answer, he seems to still watch TV...

Dream 2:
This one is a repeating dream I recognize... damn many dreams repeating as of late...
I'm walking around the houses locally I guess. And I meet up whit some old classmates and friends. They seem to be going somewhere. Party I guess. I feel like tagging along but am afraid to ask if I can go along. We enter a bit of playground/park part whit a path through that we seemingly need to go through. I haven't said anything to them but walk past them and hit some fences blocking the path. There looks to be something like a industrial thing on the other side. There are 2 metal fences after another before me. they are low though. Like 1 meter high or such. I see the group behind me and decide to go back and take the other path to the right where there is another building in the distance there also I guess whit a fence there also but there is a gate here instead. I walk up to the gate and look how to open it. Seems some metal has been rolled/pressed together to make the gate non passable but I try and bend it open and I seem to succeed as the group seems to take this same path behind.
I think someone asks if I can get the gate open at some point as I was prying the twisted metals open. I had a short wake up as I was just about to open it up.

Next dream is a continuation. This same following to the previous has happened in earlier dreams but was a slight modification this time but nothing extensive.
I seem to have entered a school whit the group I'm whit. We are walking around the school in the school yard. We say some stuff but I have no recall what it was about.
I notice I'm in my military gear and my RK62 in hand I had in army. I seem to reqognize it isn't the best to come about whit my weapon in hand whit magazine inside so I decide to pop out the clip and hold it instead. It's empty anyway though. But it's still a real automatic rifle I have.
My military gear is a new thing to this dream. Last time I remember having this dream was before I was in the army.
I feel a bit worried to have come to school whit my military gear but somehow none are reacting to it though which calms me down to not worry about it. I even have my backpack on my back...
As we hit a corner of the school building I for some reason try and climb unto the roof of the school. I climb easily on the corner and as usual when I am about to take the last step unto the roof I have problems to get a grip and take the last step to get on the roof. I end up jumping down after looking about on the roof a little. I notice there is snow on the roof and footprints and such to signify that the kids of the school have been around on the roof climbing up from the same place I did.
Short blur about...
Next we have hit the next corner of the school and I think we saw some kids on the school yard now. We go around the corner but I feel I have gotten separated from the group as I went around the corner before the rest. I check back and they are gone I feel like they went inside school going through it. I decide to go in the closest door for a short cut and I enter the room where you put your shoes and jackets. I just go forward and enter a classroom. There is class going and they seem interupted by me but I just walk across to the next door and I enter another class room. There are youngsters here also but they seem to be on a intermission/break. I go forward to the next door that seems to hit the next corner of the building but this goes outside.. but it's still "inside" it's under a roof but there is a fence to the outside making you can't go out directly or so or in from outside through here. I see markings and whatnot on the wals and ground. Looks like a little play area. There is another door and I walk in there to enter yet another class room but this one is empty I think it was. It's just next to the ohter classroom I was in just a moment ago I could have gone to this room directly from there if I knew the layout. I walk across the room to enter a hallway
the hallway is all colourful. It leads to another room that I enter. It's grade school students here. All the kids start to look at me as I entered. The teacher did the same. Seems she is about to say something to me... I walk the room diagonally and enter a dressing room whit kids putting on their outdoor clothes, a teacher is helping them. I see the hallway again and walk in the other direction now instead back and go the hallway in the other direction to see it lead outside. I'm getting restless that I can't get where I want sooner.

As I got outside it's cloudy on what happened directly next but I'm continuing my burst to get somewhere in frustration that I can't.

Next I'm walking around trying to get somewhere in a hurry I walk around the houses and such I see various people in my walk and I pass by many different people all fired up ignoring much about them. Many seem like they could have a helping hand or want to talk but I just blast by.
Soon my speed is increasing and my steering power is diminishing as I start to glide around rather than walking. I seem to glide over someone hitting a woman in the head whit my shoes as I glide about it a sitting position whit legs straight. Her child gets upset that I hit her mum. I take a quick look back and see the scene repeat on what happened as I first only saw the child get upset. I seemed to hit the woman quite strangely as she seemed to pass out by surprise by me hitting her not to fast from behind if I say so myself. I apologize and then go on my rampage of sliding around.
Soon after I glide out to some water and a wood bridge. But it doesn't go across the whole way as I thought it would. Just goes out into the water for a scenery look out. I'm trying to brake as I go over the water gliding and then try to steer my way back. It's a bit hard but I manage to reverse my course. I am continuing my gliding about the paths and houses in the area for a while more until I woke up feeling really frustrated.

8th January 2010

No memory at all of what I dreamt...
Had decided I wanted rest as the cold was getting worse. No special focus/task in mind.

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9th January 2010

Well I had various dreams this night but damn was it hard to remember them when I woke up.. This cold is really messing whit my recall.

After a little effort I managed to remember fragments of the earliest dream but not the others.

I was semi-lucid at start. So I'll mark it whit red for lucid.
I remember getting friendly whit some small birds around. They start to play pranks on me by pushing their beaks into my ears and nostrils. There are many birds around. They seem really friendly and I feel nice whit their company but they persist whit pushing into my ears and after a while I don't like it that much but dream continues to other stuff then.

I go around and meet like this weird animal. It's been taken care of by various people that shift it's custody around for when they can't take care of it any more. Someone approaches and notices it and says that we can't have such a animal as pet. But I say it's been a pet since birth or such.

Some other fragments about animals... I have a shotgun but they are monster animals... they take no damage. Just pisses them off to be after me instead. They are 4. (shotgun is from Quake Live I've been playing this past week, shotgun is my favorite weapon for now)

It then goes that I'm followed or something as I've escaped from the 4 monsters. I'm at home now and gone upstairs but there bursts this large man out from somewhere, I guess the toilet. He is all dark clothed. I don't get a good feel and get afraid more than I was from the 4 monster animals. I run into the other bedroom next to mine and then have this fishing rod I guess that I throw to grab something whit like batman whit his line thing(watched some Batman Asylum walk through just before sleep on youtube)
I throw the line to grab something on the roof/wall and make a swing like batman does but really it was a joke in comparison inside the bedroom. It's a damn fishing rod!
I see to make a notice the swing was a complete fail and a joke so I jump through the window out unto the street. The window brakes to pieces rather than me just going through as I have done in my lucid moments. I still had the fishing rod in my hand. Wondering why I still have this junk in my hand.
I woke up after this and had difficulty to sleep thanks to my cold there after but I did manage to fall asleep again but my dreams were a mess and I can't remember anything there after.
I was slightly pissed that I got so scared. Affirmed that there is nothing to be scared about.

Hey man, I had a dream of you. The second one, in fact. The first one I never logged. The second one is just notes, because I don't have the time. Maybe I will have time to fill it in later.

That's cool. Do it when you feel like it. You don't have to rush.

10th January 2010

Today's dream was a long continuation that spanned different scenes whit no obvious scene cuts but just fluid wave to another location by walking to them whit the old disappearing from behind my back.

Later in toward the the I realized I've had this dream before also. Every instance off the whole actually. Got me to wonder when I had actually had it but I distinctly remember having each and every scene play out the same some dream some time back.. way back I guess. Can't locate the time in a sense though.

I remember walking in a mall I guess in the "grand walk" whit the shops left and right and stuff unto the walking path. There are a lot of people everywhere. But I don't seem to care and just looking where am I. I walk and I go inside one place I guess is a mix of a hair saloon and a café on the other side in the same room. But I only remember some tables in practically empty room and some stairs going up in a corner. There are some people there standing about.
As I've looked about and turn around people have changed and I see a old classmate, a girl from then she seems to be dancing a bit in the middle of the room. I take a notice of this and look a bit but decide not to approach her and decide I'm going elsewhere and walk by her and out.

When I reach the walk again I go for a few steps but soon see all kinda stuff on the path and I recognize I'm inside a shopping mall I guess whit all kinda random stuff everywhere. I decide to walk inside for a bit until I go inside more and hit the clothes parts and I see underwear and such about... Somewhere I want to escape I have in mind and be alone. I'm walking more and more the the right corner of the place where I see some changing rooms I guess. Somehow I decide I want to go inside there (short semi-lucid thought) but as I approach closer I soon forget about that and walk out the gates and door outside instead that are on the the other wall close by.
When I walk outside the door it's a short glass roofing path you need to walk untill you hit a pavilion but it's a train station I see and a train goes by fast on the tracks.
I turn around as I exit the glass roofing thing and go back next to the train tracks to the right and the shopping mall to my left. The train had come from this direction. It was a modern kind of train like X2000 or something.

As I walked a few steps in that direction I'm in some other area instead walking along a road instead among some houses to my left. I see some motor bikes parked about. I turn on a road off from the main road and I hit alot more motor bikes on a parking lot. It's literally stacked whit motor bikes. There seems to be a building in the centre, quite small I guess. I think it's a bar or something like that. I have a short urge to go inside but somehow I decide not to as I don't have a bike of my own. and walk across A playground I guess and then on some small roads to access the houses around. I see two girls walk on this road chatting. I remember seeing trees and their branches crossing over the road and hanging all down so I have to watch them walking. Any car would be hit constantly by the branches and leaves if it would use the road.
I walk off to a forest path I guess and pick up a bicycle from somewhere as the next moment I'm biking around on one. I do various crazy riding I do when I use a bike in my dreams. Like going in 90degree straight upward whit it somehow and biking along on the back tire. Soon the front wheel and steer loose and drop off and I have no problems. (In my childhood I had a iffy bicycle where the steering would fly off when I did various things. But I never hurt myself though.)
Well soon after the steering and front wheel where gone I threw the bike away and walked instead to go outside the forest path back unto the houses and such.

This is kind of where my old memory about these dreams fades away to somewhat faded remembrance of a few instances next but I think I woke up a little sooner back then than I did this time.

Next I remember meeting up whit people I know I guess. First it was outside but as I had come next to them and had meet up whit the girl I had liked in my high school years I get happy and have a urge to get close to her fast. I say hi and such. I'm inside some building now I see. We have this game in front of us. It consists of various pieces. They are made of plastic. Looks like a RPG, there are these various plastic figures to fasten unto these plastic platform whit different scenes/areas that you can fit together whit the other pieces.
I move in a pin to replace one I guess like to attack and win a battle. It was red but I replace it whit a green pin. But the girl says to wait. She says we don't know how to play this game. We have forgotten how to play it we confirm. We stand up as we were on the floor looking at the game. I had the urge to talk more whit her but she disappears somewhere. There is this other girl whit me also. Can't recognize her sadly. She says for me to follow her outside the room we are in. She goes outside and I follow soon after. I now see we were in like a old classroom and we go outside into a hall way.

This part I have no earlier recollection off it seems.(but a short deja vu feeling when I added this comment about this though)
On the other side seems to be a mixed room off kinds. First I think I see kitchen stuff to the right side separated by a intermediate wall and then on the left side there seems to be a shower and such in the opposite corner. The girl told me to wait at some point. I think it was as I went out into the corridor she told me to wait as she went inside the shower part I think, which after I looked into the kitchen side first and there after I looked into the other side to look why it was taking time I noticed there were someone taking baths and cleaning themselves like in a public bath or something. But it was open the other room and some guys from that side had gone a few steps from that opening inside and were standing in a line behind a table I guess looking at the girls washing themselves. I'm looking in through the open door from the corridor just curious what kind of room/place is this.

The dream destabilized soon after to black and I noted I was about to wake up which I did.

11th January 2010

The dreams today was just one long sexually suggestive stream from beginning to end so I won't say more than that. Had a few semi-lucid moments but most of it was just non-lucid.

12th January 2010

I'll just write down a few fragments that I still remember. I was semi-lucid but more to non-lucid rather than lucid as I didn't actively try to do my lucid stuff I might do whit more lucidity so in the end it all is more non-lucid and I'll mark it whit green as such.

I confessed my love to my old classmate and gave her a kiss and then taking her hand to hold it to be sure she doesn't disappear.
There was a comment she made when I gave her the kiss that made me get confuzzled. "Will all the bananas be coming out spraying now..." (LOL! I just now figured out what she meant more precisely as I got thinking back to the dream and wrote it down to translate the language and tried to remember what she really said.)
Well the comment doesn't strike me much but that I didn't expect it and then ignored it in the dream situation me. (now that I think about I am not sure if she would have made such a comment really)
I remember holding her hand for a while when walking.

Next fragment is I've arrived in my cottage and I figure I'll go and visit a relative but I confuse up the location and person whit the other relative I have around there.
I keep mixing who lived in which house and where which house was. My old crush disappears as I came around to my cottage. I wanted to find her again but could not manage. I think I might find her at the house if I go there.
I end up going on a walk from my cottage to get to the relatives house to have a visit. I have some guy whit me which I keep talking to whit my confusion where the house might be.

The road I'm walking on is nothing similar to the roads where I would need to walk and that confuses me as I know this can't be the right road. And then the road ends in a widening where you turn around but there is a mansion and gardens and whatnot all over here. It's summer. The bushes that are towards the road are really colourful and I enjoy to look at it. They have sections in various greens and browns and maybe some purplish and reds on the leaves but they are still all the same bushes but different colours shifting in sections they get longer and shorter intervals.
I make a comment to the guy whit me about it.
"Isn't it nice/cool"
"Yeah" I get as response I vaguely remember.
Soon I see a opening and walk by the bushes to some green fields and whatnot behind. Was a nice place I thought.

Dream fragments end there though. I didn't try to remember much today.

I like your DJ. I am going to read the whole thing when I have time.

13th January 2010

Thanks Nomad. Nice to see someone interested.

For this night I tried to put my focus back into getting unto the moon and meet Raven & Nomad somehow. I was in bed trying to put in this intent and using a bit of experimentation on how to maybe manifest it. I was visualizing and using the 3D star tetrahedron of star of David thing.
It's concluded from some reading/watching I've done as of late.
And using the focus of my hearth as mind rather than my brain and my brain for emotion.
I've noticed some rather interesting notions when I have this focus and just on the border to fall asleep whit blank mind. But if mind is clouded it isn't really going to well.

Today my mind kept pooping in all kinds of distractions and such and floating to completely random thoughts so it didn't work out well so I just tried to sleep after some time whit having gotten a little better focus on the moon.
Sadly it didn't play out all to well whit my focus but had vivid dreams on the other hand.

There was something but I forgot what it contained.

Next dream scenario was me present in a room, there is a double sized bed in there. (I would think of a hotel room somehow) But a door goes directly outside. It's quite a large room for a bedroom I would say and there is some other stuff about. The light is dim. I'm whit some people here. There seems to be concluded some agreement between the other guy there and a girl. Seems they are about to get it on.
We looked at each other to confirm there is no hard feelings for them to start it out at first.
I go and walk around the room a bit and see the other girl that is there isn't all to happy like she wasn't picked. There is a third girl also but I didn't check her out but I got the feeling she didn't mind which ever way.
I go to the girl disappointed and get her attention.
"Want to start it out already whit me instead?"
She cheers up a bit. And signals that she goes along whit it.
We walk to the other side of the bed the other two are on. She starts to get ready a bit. And she makes some comedy whit the act. It's bizarre but it makes me smile and draws the attention of the others to laugh a bit.
... but...
Someone bursts in through the door now from outside...
"What the hell are you doing here?"
Most of us still had all clothes still on. I hadn't even begun to take my off.
It's a older woman... Somehow I put it like she is the mother of the girl I was whit. She gets panicked and puts clothes on fast. The woman is looking at me and isn't happy at all.
I look at her whit no change in emotion or expression of her sudden storm in. I give a little smile at her, to show that there is no harm or problem. The other pair from before are not happy at all by the intrusion.
I remember them soon leaving and this scenario soon after faded away after most had left whit just me in the room looking around a bit. I think the third girl was still around but can't be sure.

I think I woke up here and after I tried to have moon focus once again but random thoughts and "dream" thoughts kept interfering. My mind was half asleep which didn't work out to well. I pulled myself awake but then my focus didn't get close at all to be sleepy or feel myself drift off into sleep. I had to drop my intent and just fall asleep normally to get back into the dreams again. (it could have been between some other dream scenario)

Next I have some fragmented vague memories but it solidifies to more coherent memory a few instances later.

I'm in a army scenario dream this time. I'm in a small expedition group whit my brother and some others. We have a vehicle but it's overcrowded double the limit and me and others cling on where we can. My brother is driving.
I have my army gear on as do the others but we have various weapons and gear each.
We are driving on a dirt road in a pine forest area but soon we aprach like a checkpoint or command centre and we meet the Commander in charge I guess at the cross roads and checkpoint. he goes up to our overcrowded vehicle and tells for us cling about to get off. Saying you can't drive like that. I go of and the commander looks a bit at me and says for me to go somewhere I think. recollection is foggy.
I think I arrive where I was commanded to go. It's just a short walk. I see a building to the left of the road from where I came from the cross roads and checkpoint not far.
There is a cleared area and a huge gathering of people here. They are civilians and such. We are to guarantee the safety of these peoples. I see a handful of soldiers about but there are hundreds of civilians. They are just standing and waiting about. They have nothing but their clothes on them. Some are dirty and whatnot. We are all standing outside in the weather. It's summer and warm but somewhat cloudy so people don't seemingly mind much.

I walk through the crowd to go to the other side as I feel compelled I need to get there. I see there is a lake on the other side and I stand next to it and take a look back into the crowd. There are a lot more people than I thought there would be. I see some kid whit his mum trying to calm him.
I get a bad feeling about the waters and I feel I need to ask people to get further away from the water. They are just standing like 1 meter from the water line.
But sooner than I am ready to act... I see this long big tongue shoot out from the water and grabs a person to drag him flying into the water as a huge mix off crocodile-frog blurts out from underneath the water line. People start to panic as the closest ones start to scream as they see it.
I say out loud "Shit!" thinking they are here already. The thing gulps down the first person whole down into the belly I guess. And It flies out again to grab another person way to fast for me to do anything. People have started to move away from the water but I've closed in closer to the monster thing and some other soldiers have gotten closer to me and making their way there. I think I hear a helicopter in the skies ready to start shooting to kill this thing but it will take a few moments before it's here.
I see the monster gulp it's next victim and it's my turn now!
It shoots it's tongue to grab me but I avoid it and it doesn't grab me to well but it drags me a few feet before I can get it's tongue grip away from me and some other people are helping to hold me in place.
Next moment I'm holding in the tongue whit some people and are dragging the damn thing out. Some soldiers have shot at the creature and seemingly it's dying I think, it's not moving or struggling to our pull.
As we keep dragging the tongue in we see the second victim come out from the creature but she is encapsulated inside the tongue. I grab and rip it open to get the person outside.. I notice it's not human. She was a Na'vi?! (I remember now seeing others than human in the crowd).
She is unconscious. I see the first person start to appear down from the throat encapsulated like the first to be free.
Things fade next.

Can't remember more than that for now.

14th January 2010

I came to remember that I had forgotten to do my auto suggestion things when I fall asleep whit saying out loud and repeating sentences for what I will do in my dreams.
So I did do that for this night and! I became lucid! Sadly it wasn't for the entire night as I had tried to suggest for myself. At least I knew I wanted to get to the moon and tried to summon a portal but as it was my first time I didn't know how to do it sadly so it ended in failure. I'll describe the happenings in detail later in this entry.

First parts are more fragmented.
I'm in some corridor and there are rooms left and right and I'm whit some poeple talking and trying to figure out what to do next. One is in police outfit but we know he isn't one. It's part of the illusion/sham. (can't figure out the right word)
He had dragged a man and put him in one off the rooms in the corridor.
The Man had said some stuff to the likes of this:
"This is a interesting police station"
"I didn't know there was a police station like this"
"Which station is this?"
We don't answer. We decide on something and people start to leave and we leave the prisoners there. They are 2 to my knowledge that I saw.

Few moment later I and this other guy go out a window in the building. It's on the third floor. It's in town and the buildings are wall to wall. It's a red brick building of older design. I'm down on the road trying to find a path for the other guy to take down. I have no idea how I got down myself. Well I see a ladder a few instances to the left but it's far away and dangerous to swing there. But on the right side is a fire ladder escape about just next to the window from where we exited. He pulls it and the ladder falls down to the ground below.
He tells me something and I'm required as a result to climb back up and then go back inside the building through the window. But there is a few something else before the entrance so I have to squeeze myself through like 4 opening before I get to the window. I think I went back to get one of the prisoners as we need him I guess. It fades away.

Next I'm in some room whit this girl I seemingly know. She has black hair going down just about to her neck and cut straight round around. She has dark clothing, a skirt and shirt, something small frilly details I guess.
I think I'm supposed to take care for her until her brother gets back or something to the likes of that. we talk a little but I can't remember the words. I gather she is worried for where he the person she is waiting for has disappeared to.
Later she has a later in her hand that seems important and I get that it should contain the address of where he supposedly lives. I advice her not to try go there as he isn't there probably. He is travelling far away somewhere. She gives me the letter to look at it at some point.

Next we are looking around the apartment we were in. We end up like in the basement. There we find a entrance to this hidden room in the roof. We enter...
It's loaded whit money everywhere. You only see money everywhere!
The walls have shelves from floor to roof and every pocket is loaded full whit green money. I gather there is millions/billions there.
"He must have gathered enough soon, so he will probably be back soon"
I say to the girl and she seems a bit disappointed at her brother I gather. That he still has stuff to do for a while more.
(I have no idea what he needed to money for but I somehow knew that he needed massive amounts and he about had gathered 95% or so already, and the work to get the money wasn't legal or nice simple jobs)

The scene after we are about to go to sleep and we are lying in the single mattress on the floor in this apartment. I'm lying there whit my right hand straight out to my side and there is a little pillow on there for the girl to lay her head on it. There is a other kid there sleeping already. I pull my arm a but further away from her. The girl from before goes to try and sleep but I need to pull my arm away it seems I get indicated a sense of intention "thanks, but I'll manage".
I lay there until she seemingly falls asleep. Next I go up and sit on a table whit my laptop to look at some stuff. I look around on the web. I'm orientated so my back is toward the bed and you can see what I look at from the bed.
I hear that she is waking up. I look and she is sitting up looking at me sleepy. She goes to the edge and says she will go to the toilet and something else I can't figure out.
I take a look back at the laptop. And then feel I need to go and check up on her. I get up and close the laptop and start to walk toward the toilet.
I walk in front the door and see it's unlocked. I gather she would normally lock it.
I go forward and enter inside she is sitting there waiting for me I notice. I close the door behind me and get closer to her.
Not appropriate stuff to write next.

I woke up soon after. I took a look at the clock saw it was 7:15 am. I tried to go back to sleep again and did some more suggestions silently to be lucid and getting to the moon and such.

Me, my family, families and relatives are all present. I notice people I don't really know. I seem to notice some people I know are a lot younger. Some adults are like little children. We are in a house for us all to be in.
I walk around and notice the children I know to be children and take a look at what they are doing or playing whit. Greeting them and such. I think I went and played whit them a little at their request. (I do play whit the kids in the family at times, they seem to like my company if I go along whit their plays.)
They had started to play whit clay and drawing I guess at a later point but I was now alone whit one of the girls. The one that clings to me the most I've noticed.
Somehow I decide to take a check around as I've had some time whit the children for a while now. I meet up whit my sister. She is making some stuff...
I realize that I'm in a dream! I become lucid. She asks me to help her out whit the food I guess. But I now know it's a dream so I hesitate to go along whit her request. I am thinking I need to get to the moon as I finally got lucid for once.
"I have some stuff to do, so not this time" I hesitate to say and go away from her. I meet up whit the girl I was playing whit just moments before. She wants to continue to play whit me... But I'm lucid, I can't waste this opportunity. I realize I can't be sure if the people around are DC or real people so I compromise. I don't want to ignore them if they are the real deal. I ask her if she wants to get to the moon.
I ask in different languages until I ask in the language she knows. She only reacts then. She gets a bit exited and wants to go. I pick her up and give her a piggy back ride.

Here I jump out a window passing through it to get outside fast. I merge through whit her and myself without issues. My sister seems a bit worried at the sight of me exiting on the second floor.

We are outside in some park kind of setting next. I drop her off and I try to figure out how do I get to the moon from here. I realize I can use a portal but I have no idea how to make one as I've never done one before.
I mention to her that I need to somehow make a portal to get us to the moon. I stand there and point out my right hand and try to put energy in the point of my finger and then create a vortex or portal, A shear in space. I feel energy accumulating in my finger and to my dismay nothing happens like I expect. There doesn't appear a expanding vortex to create a portal or the like. It takes time and next something happens. I see this black ooze blob thing start to pour out from my finger slowly flying and floating about in the direction I'm pointing.(Looking back I could describe it as black ink in zero gravity)
I have no idea what it is as it is what I got out I have to work things out whit this instead. I decide to pull my finger around and put intent into shaping a rectangle in the air and the black ink starts to stick in place in the air and I move my hand and finger around to make this window frame in this black inky stuff. I see it's not working to well as "gravity" seems to take hold of the ink after a while and it starts to drop away from it's place in the air. I start to hasten my movement and fix the drooping places. I get a unstable window and the interior of the thing starts to get a kind of layer into it. It's a tint. I guess the portal is done and hastily pull the girl up into my arms and I close my eyes to guess for it to help and I walk through my strange creation. I feel I enter through something and hear a crash and small rush going as I walked through and being pulled somewhere. I decide to open my eyes but to my dismay I found myself not on the moon I expected. I'm in a much similar place I was before but it's slightly different.
"Seems it failed" I tell the girl. But she doesn't seem disappointed though.
"So what do you want to do?" I ask her.

Next I only was semi-lucid for the remainder.

I decide to play along whit her for the remainder period. I somehow have a thought that I've entered her dream world if she really was the real person. The setting and stuff about wasn't really familiar to me at all. But wasn't surreal or anything. Had a bit nicer atmosphere somehow to the normal I have.
I was carrying her around in some rural town and she was deciding for where to go. She wanted to enter this play ground that was nearby. We walked there. Memory fades about what we did but I was going along whit her requests to a extent.

15th January 2010

Had some dream that I would have written but it's completely blown away after I woke up and then tried a WILD whit resulted whit me entering a lucid dream directly the moment I got vision. But it was unstable so I had to draw myself back to semi-lucid.

The semi-lucid WILD went something like this.

I fall asleep and feel the dream form and as I got vision I realized I was dreaming and I was aware whit my full mind but I noticed the dream become unstable the more I tried to use my full mind so I drew back my lucidity to only semi-lucid for not to loose the whole dream, it was stable then without issues for most part.
(It was already 9:00AM, if I wake up it's to bothersome to try again)
I looked around and saw that I was in the dream representation of my local neighbourhood. I've been in the somewhat area before represented this way I knew. I decide to go look if I can see my house. Sadly the numbers are a complete mess and the houses are completely different but I walk to the area where my IRL house would be and see it's not there. I get disappointed.

I decide to walk onward I get to a intersection. I see many people around. There are loads of people in the area about doing their thing. I notice I have a backpack and some jacket and the like. I see some people I knew from my old schools. We said some stuff to each other.
A few moments later I'm more pissed about the setting.
I say something to the likes of this.
"I can't even find my house. I probably don't even live here"
"The house was supposed to be just around here but no..."
I said some more I think but memory is vague.
I end up deciding I don't want this damn bothersome backpack or jacket on me anymore. It's sunny and nice weather. I end up throwing away my backpack and then ripping away my jacket and just being in my jeans shirt and jeans pants. I feel less encumbered now and more free. Makes me feel more at ease.

I think I was about to wake up here and I struggled to get back into the dream. Was a success.

I was now inside a huge building complex. Somehow it felt like the local school I was in as a child. But there are all age classes about. I walk a little bit inside the corridors until I turn a bend to enter a side room where some kind of test or something is going about for adults. But there are really few people about and only 2 people at a time can go forward unto the front to do what you do. I go and sitt in the empty seat next to this other middle aged woman.
I sit there waiting for a test to be given I think. But instead I received the results sheet promptly as does the person next to me. I get a bit more lucid and decide to take a closer look at this test results sheet.
I look at the bottom... 100 out of 100. Then I check upward surprised I got full score on a test I didn't do. There is a longer list whit various scribbles of different tests and the scores I have been given on each test. Many are great results but not all are full though and they are some in 300 and some in 79 etc so the summary score is calculated in a way I don't know.
But when I cheek the uppermost top part of the score sheet. I see extra merits list. I see 4 entries about dreamviews forums. Like I've gained extra scores by having posted on these forums different things. There is a comment on what I got the extra merit on. But it's blurred and I can't read it.
I decide I rather not focus everything into the sheet so I look up and see the woman has been looking at my score sheet as I was so into it. I look at her direction a little but she turns away. I then try to look at her score sheet but she notices and pulls it away not wanting me to see it. She looked embarrassed.
I see that they are "hiring" people that score well but I somehow know I want no part in it so I get up and walk away before they have a chance to get me as they were turned away whit their backs unto us.
I walk back out from the room and see some people waiting for their turn in the room but there is a huge long line of people in the corridor on the opposite side going into a offshoot corridor there. I look at the few in the front. they are all adults and they seem eager that they should pass. I decide to walk away and go down the original corridor instead.

As I walk downward the corridor I saw that I was in a school kind of area now. There were children about. First area looked like 10 year old kids and the like. I look into a offshoot corridor where there then are classrooms and such. I got thinking about my own school in the area I was at as a kid. There are children walking and they have uniforms. (in contrast we didn't have) I see posters on the walls. Not something I expected but it ties in whit how the children go about there.
I decide to continue my walk in the bigger corridor and I hit the next offshoot corridor to other classrooms and the like. I now see this area is for the kids that haven't started school really yet, more like play school. I don't pay much attention there for now and walk onward. I see a door in front of me. Looks kind of a hospital door or something and there stands two guards at the front to not let unauthorized people inside. I approach and try to go inside, this door interested me. The guards see me approaching and try to stop me.
"I want to enter" I say quickly.
"You can't" one of them answers.
"Well how about one of you accompanies me as I take a look inside. Give me a tour."
The next thing I know the guards seem to accept this somehow. They looked at me strangely and seemed to have some thought going.
The guard enters and I follow behind to inside this area. I hear something like, to wait as he goes to ask someone in charge if I can get inside.
I was supposed to wait inside the door but I keep walking to explore the place. I follow behind the guard until he turns inside a room to look for something I quickly go onward to look and see what's this place is all about.

I see the area is like a hospital or clinic. There are empty beds for most part everywhere and then these plastic wrap screens you pull around attached to the roof. I see some medical equipment I guess. I take a peek behind some screen and see some people working in a room and decide it's better not go there so I go back and take a look behind these screen and I see many beds behind here. The beds are empty but there is this some kind off stuff on them. I somehow feel unpleasant and feel something is awfully wrong whit this.
I hear that the guard has noticed I didn't follow what he said. He was looking for me. I knew I had to hide from him so I hide behind some screens and he walk by but I am on my knees looking below the screens and see his feet. He stops and goes to his knees to look below. Damn this isn't good I wait for him to see me and then to get across the many screens but as he is about to pull through the last I sneakily pass by and exit so he doesn't notice and walk away and hide behind some other screen a bit away before he gets back out from behind the screen things to the smaller corridor.
To my dismay he stops in front the same screens I hid behind again. I burst out again. but he quickly follows me. He has this needle in his hand. He is supposed to give this to me I guess. I start to run away. He catches up and we start to struggle whit him trying to inject me whit this thing.
I say "I don't need anything".
"You must take this" he sneers back not nicely.
I break free from him and get away from him and enter this larger locale in the area. There are people about here. I see some nurses and patients getting stuff. It looks like a shop. People are in line and I see they have been given the shot and seem drugged out of their mind smiling. I realize I can't have the shot at all. I walk closer to the line to go whit them to exit the area as they are waiting for their clear to exit. I see the guard is waiting he is about to shoot me whit the needle. He goes at me and I realize things are fading as I struggle.

I'm about to wake up again... I actually moved my real arm to punch at the guy. I realize I must get back fast. I focus and I succeed luckily and I focus on that I have pushed the needle into the guard in the struggle...

When I enter back into the dream I realize the guard has actually been given the needle now and I have the needle pushed into his arm. I know this is my chance to escape.
I walk next to the line and soon hit the exit door. there is a checkpoint I realize and they won't let me pass unless I look like the others. I pull out my acting dream skills and act like the drugged people and sneak into line quite close to the exit. No one notices and the drugged people don't mind. But I see the other guard that was at the door when I went inside. He will know me. Somehow I realize I can use dream skills and acting to greater extent. I pull out that I'm a woman instead. As I get to the checkpoint a nurse greets me.
"Oh, I hope your child becomes healthy" I realize she has been fooled.
I walk out and see the guard not reacting at all to me walking out. There is a lot of people outside the door. But it's just a little waiting room. I have to walk a bit further to be clear. The drugging I realize is to make the people feel happy so not to worry the people getting inside seeming all happy about their treatment. Something evil goes about here I know.
I start to exit the waiting room and there is a cloud of people here and I decide I want to be myself again and I see myself from 3rd person get back into myself walking to exit and get away. No one seems to notice me change.

I'm back in the corridors of the school part of the building. I see the entrance to the part where the play school years are. I walk and look inside. I see a poster on the far wall inside the corridor. This draws my attention. I walk inside and get up close to this poster to get a close and detailed look on what this poster says and has on it. It's a 3 part comic strip. It has this manga child character and she is holding car keys I recognize. I read a text bubble it says. "Daddy's keys...". I see it's about her retrieving the car keys she has hid from her dad.
Well I turn around to walk away as I have looked at the poster long enough.

I see that there were 2 children waiting on a bench just next to the entrance. The poster had drawn my attention so much I didn't notice them when I walked inside. They had been looking at me I see. I walk to say hi and figure I could ask them something. But they seem mischievous. For sure they were and played a prank on my expense.
I notice people come inside from the larger central corridor. Seems class was about to start and all the other kids and teacher were coming in. I was still facing the two mischievous kids and I heard a woman behind me say my name.

This got me to wake up. I was really awake now so I realized trying to get back would take to much effort and time. I went up instead.
I tried to analyse what had been said to wake me up. I realized it was a woman and she had a clear worried sound to her voice.