Thread: Because the Dark Matters

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

03-19-10

Paralyzed
Dream
Lucid


I've decided only to post my lucids and certain non-lucids here... just the ones I deem worthwhile. I don't like the idea of opening up my interior world for public inspection.

Note... I had my 1st lucid (since joining DV anyway) in january, and 2 in february. I was hoping for 3 in march, but didn't get ANY until the 19th (this one). I was quite disappointed not to be getting increasing numbers of lucids, but lo and behold.. suddenly on the last day of march I have 2 more!! Details in the next post on them. So Im right on track then... 3 lucids in march. Woo. Ok, on to the 4th lucid:

I believe this was the 1st day I discovered Binaural Beats and Theta-Wave music, and I listened to it for about 2 hours while meditating before going to bed. Had a couple normal dreams and as usual woke up after about 4.5 hours (I seem to do that every day). While briefly awake I asked my subconscious if I could have a lucid dream... I figured all the theta-wave activity had put me in close contact with the sub-c so it was worth a shot. And it worked, but apparently only partially, or something else was wrong.

1st thing I recall I was laying on some sort of couch in my room (there isn't one IRL) facing out the window. I couldn't move & was very aware of my position & my face being pressed against the clod glass. I suspect I was getting signals from my sleeping body and my dream body matched the position of my real body, and when I woke my face was about an inch from the wall... I could feel waves of cold coming off the wall. The way my bed is positioned, there's no way I could see out the window from bed, but the couch was right next to the window. In the yard next door I began to notice a lot of people... it looked like a party in fact, and there was a waterslide there (!). Apparently my old friend George and his mom lived there in the dream, and it seemed like she was throwing a big party for him. Among the crowd I suddenly noticed a guy named Mark that I used to know in high school and sometimes see at his job at Shop&Save. He was looking straight at me & it seemed like he could see me.

Then I began to notice there were people in my room. I couldn't see them because of the way I was frozen in place up against the window, but I could hear them walking around and talking, and my room seemed a lot bigger than it really is. 2 of the managers from work were there, arguing like they always do. Occasionally I'd see an arm or someone's shadow as they passed close by me, but I was beginning to feel really stupid just laying there unable to move with people all walking around behind me.

Now I"m looking across the street. It's dark, and there's a very old crumbling brick building there. It isn't there in real life. There's a lighted yellow sign over the door that I;m trying to read but can't make it out. I remember than in dreams they say it's hard to read anything, and also that if you stare at one thing for very long the dream will destabilize and what you're looking at will change. Well Im not real happy being paralyzed, so I stare at the building and try to read the sign.

Suddenly the whole building "shifted" subtlely.. nothing obvious, it was like the shape of it just altered slightly overall and the patterning of the brick changed a little. I still couldn't clearly read the sign, but it looked like it said Wal-Mart. Hah.. it didn't LOOK like a Wal-Mart, more like a creepy haunted house! I was like "Huh!... it's all true!" and I knew I was dreaming.


Now I'm standing in the middle of an alley uptown, and I seem to live in an apartment close by. It's dark and there's a group of teenagers sitting against a wall like they're getting high or something. I walk up and talk to them... don't remember what was said, but they pissed me off & I started punching them in the face. I didn't feel it though... just went through the motions. Weird. In this lucid I seem to be retarded or stupid.

Now I'm standing under a streetlight near the kids I just thrashed, they seem to have forgotten or don't care. I hear a radio being carried by someone walking up from behind me. I think it's somebody who's looking for me and I don't want to be found, so I walk fast away from the disc of light and then run, taking a couple of corners so as to throw off pursuit. I come up behind an old woman who's walking very slowly carrying an umbrella or a cane, and I don't want to scare her running up behind her in the dark, so I turn onto an alley. This brings me out onto Main Street (hah... my ultimate dream sign!) near where the entrance to my apt building is located.

Here it's pretty well lit and there are clusters of people standing around talking in the entranceways to buildings. It seems like a lot of businesses are open this late at night... maybe they're all night clubs or something, and they have patios with little tables and benches where people are sitting. I Have to duck down low to get under the low overhanging ceiling for my building's entrance, and once inside there are openings on both sides into a restaurant and a video game arcade.

crazyness! at least the non-moving section didn't last! i like the visual aid for the haunted wal mart ha ha.