Thread: Nefarious World

20.08.2007

Evil adventure with a star guest: Dani Filth (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My first ever "recorded" lucid dream.

Finally I had a dream that was actually worth writing down so here goes...


I was drowning in my random thoughts until they formed into a clear vivid dream.
I remember the dream became very clear and vivid in a scene where me and my friend were at the park playing with katanas.( The documentary about katanas that I watched must have affected me. lol) The REM period must have hit at this moment.

My friend was swinging his sword way to close to me. I asked him to stop but he just kept anoying me. Eventually I said: "Ok fuck you then, I dont need you and your swords." I threw away my sword, turned around and walked away. My friend said; "But I want to cut you in half." I said; "Yeah whatever." and didnt even look back.I ended up in park with another friend of mine there. The dream was very very clear and vivid, It was hard to tell if its reality or a dream. I talked to my friend about something and started to think if this could be a dream. He told me something that made me more sure about this being a dream. He asked me if it could really be a dream. I thought yeah it could I dont even remember how I ended up in this park.I became sure that this is a dream and for some reason my friend called me satanist. I said "Yeah and in my dream I am satan." I was in a burst of energy I growled and flew trough buildings like a ghost trough walls and everything scaring all the people and burning buildings.

When I stopped flying I met Dani Filth. (LOL) He looked short and gay. I looked at him and thought; "Hmm maybe I can turn him into a clone of myself and fight him?" "Or maybe I can turn him into a nice goth girl and fuck him?" I actually almost did that his appearance was changing into a female. But I thought it was gay. I then decleared that Dani Filth represents my evil side and I shall fight him. So we burst into a fight. After some fighting I rip his shirt and he asked me to wait cause he had a phone call. I look at him and say "Fuck you, you are wasting my lucid time!"

I went outside and saw a tall building wich I wanted to fly on to. And so full of confidence I flew up to the building. ( Its usually hard for me to do in lucid dreams due to lack of confidence.) When I was at the top I saw Dani comming out so I threw a few bricks on his head. Dani had superpowers, cause I declared him as a part of me so he flew up to me. We were throwing bricks at each other. I jumped to him and kicked him down the building "THIS IS SPARTA" style. He fell down and laughed that he hurt his ass.

I flew down to him it was scary half falling half flying I got down. I said; "Hey Dani lets go fuck some girls in town." And so we went. We found a nice girl and demanded her to come with us, cause I own her in my dream. So we went and got in some room, there was another man there who was a journalist or something. I yelled at him and told him to fuck off I said; " Its my dream I own everything here including you so fuck off or burn in hell!" (lol) The man walked out and we started a nice threesome. The fun didnt last long however I felt my dream getting weaker and so I woke up cause of some noise.

However after such a nice lucid dreaming experience I feel nice even if its too early for me to wake up.

24.08.2007

Short lucid (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Well I had a nice sleep with several dreams, unfortunately I don't remember well all of them. However I do remember the short lucid dream I had just before I woke up.

I was in some forest or something near a road and there was a rat and a black pig near me. I had some meat in my hand so I fed them. They liked my salami or whatever it was. For some reason I had to go to a mansion in the middle of this forest its like I had a mission or something. And I also knew that the road to the mansion is full of traps and mines.

I started to move towards the mansion leaving the pig and the rat behind trying to be unseen, trying to find a safe way to get to the mansion. Suddenly I saw a big van coming towards me. I thought it was going to kill me so I quickly climbed on a wall that was near me near the road. The van stopped near the wall a man came out with a gun and he was coming after me.

I began to run fast and I heard the man shooting behind me. After I lost him I thought: "What the fuck am I doing this is my dream I am invincible!" I started to run/fly back to the man to kill him. On my way I saw someone walking on the road and I tried to burn him with magic. That didn't work due to lack of confidence that I really could use magic. Oh well guess I will just use melee.

I was still running/flying and I was constantly attacked by dogs I slapped and punched them and kept moving back to where I cam from. Although my mind stimulated pain from the dog attacks I could make it gone easily.

I got to some high place which I jumped from its always very scary to jump from high places. It seemed that I found the man that was trying to kill me and he threw flowers at me. I picked the flowers and woke up.
I also recall an earlier lucid during the night not much detail and it was even shorter. I was chased by some gang I ran into some house and then got out of the window. When I was out I realized that I am dreaming and went back inside to kill the gang however I woke up or something I don't remember. I had several awakenings during the night.

Perhaps I'll get a few more nightmares so I will get the chance to fight my enemies with the power of lucidity.

26.08.2007

Gangsta adventures (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had lots of dreams its hard to remember them all but I will try to write it the way I remember.

Firstly I remember a dream where I was in some sort of a video game or something. The game kinda looked like S.T.A.L.K.E.R. I was in some field with mutant animals and I transformed into some sort of a bear or something. I attacked the mutant animals and while doing so I felt like I'm pressing the "space" key on the keyboard.

I turned back into human and I was supposed to run away or something from the army trough some base that looked like a ghetto. So I climbed over the fence from the field I was in. There was a ruined building on the other side it looked like a suburban home only ruined. I went trough the corridor, just before the end there was the main door I looked out and there were Nazi generals there talking and they saw me. I began to run away I'm not sure what happened next.

I remember a scene where me, a couple of gangsta posers, and my friends were running trough the city doing parkour racing towards our school. I was last but I catch on they all stop at some fence and think that this is a dead end. I swiftly climb over the fence and laugh at them and I become first. I was running very very fast someone was behind me but he was exhausted so he couldn't catch on.

I was the first to arrive to the school and I saw a basketball court. the school I was supposed to arrive in looked more like a park and was full of gangster posers. There was a road going down to the other end of the park and I went on that road while all the gangsters watching me.

When I was on the other end of the park I knew something important is hidden here I'm not sure what it was like I forgot or something but I know it was in a shoe box, a blue shoe box. The box was hidden in some bushes and I didn't want to take it out so that all the gangsters will see it. So I just kept on waiting for my friends. For some reason I had a bike a red motorcycle and some prepy girl tried to steal it or something. The girl moved the bike near some little short kid gangsta and I went to take it.

When I took my bike The little gangsta kid got angry or something and told me he gona shank me or something or call his friends I'm not sure. I said common I will own your ass 1v1 but just bring someone who is my size first. (I'm 6'3 and he was like 5'2~) He said " Soon it all will be over." He tried to shank me with a fag ROFL. I yelled: " I'M GONA POKE YOUR EYE OUT WITH A PENCIL!" I had a pencil in my hand. The kid backed off and bumped into one of the people who ran with me. He looked at him and ran away. I'm not sure who it was but he looked at me and said: "Are you crazy? You were gonnna poke his eye out?!" I looked at my hand and it was robotic holding a pencil.

I think I woke up and went back to sleep or something after that its hard to form a time line with dreams. I was in school or something we were on a field trip or something. (Oh its so hard more and more details come back to me when I write this and I don't know when they happened.) Anyway we were in a hotel or something, and we all were NAKED sounds fun! I remember I was looking for a nice quiet room with a warm pool to sit and relax. So there I was, going naked in the halls opening door after door to find an empty room. I had no luck with that all the rooms were occupied. Everyone were watching me but care they were naked too.

I remember I had an assignment or something on paper. Me and my friends were gona do it together. We were about to sit in some wicked place, a slope with a long desk standing along the slop with an angle. When we entered this "room" or something we grabbed a soda from a desk. We tried to sit at the top of the slope but the chairs were going down the slope cause they had wheels. It was psychedelic. I tried to find a chair WITH wheels that isn't gonna go down the slope.

In my quest for that perfect chair I met the dad of one of my friends and he told me a joke that wasn't funny. We were surrounded by gangsta posers and then someone poked me in the back. I turned around and yelled: "YOU WANA GET FUCKED?" to my surprise it was just some kid trying to tell me something not important. I don't know what happened next.

We were at some school and the teachers told us about and assignment or a game we were about to play. We were wrapped in electric cable I pulled the cable and everyone yelled at me. We started to play this game it was something like dodgeball only with balloons. We were flying or something throwing balloons at each other. Then someone hit me with a soccer ball and then some kids yelled at me that I was interrupting their game. I wanted to smack them but the teacher who was also my BOSS stopped me.

I got hit by a balloon and so I lost the game, I was out. I thought what a crappy day I'm having. The teachers looked at me I looked emo I tried to fly but failed so I just fell down and died. I said to myself: " This what happens when I die in a dream." I woke up however, it was a false awakening cause I woke up in my old room. I went to the living room and saw my grandma doing something with the window curtains. She said: "Look how cool you just press the button and the curtains move" I said: "cool" and then I woke up for real.

I felt like sleeping more so I just cleared my mind and entered another dream. It was very weak dream like I'm imagining it and not seeing it. I even maybe managed to do a WILD (Wake Induced Lucid Dream). I tried to recreate that fun race we had with the parkour in the city like in my previous dream. I managed to do so but this time I felt lucidity. I stopped at some fence and did a few backflips. I saw it in first person view so I'm not sure if I did it right. ( Doing backflips is a task I set myself to do in my next lucid dream.)
After a few backflips my dream and lucidity got weaker and it like I fell into blackness. From then I remember the race I tried to recreate worked. I was running fast and a couple of gangsters on a bike rode in front of me they were also part of the race, this time they were leading. They were on a motorcycle but I was fast and agile I jumped and ran and on my way I saw a BEWARE OF PENGUINS sign as we were approaching the school. I didn't know why penguins but I thought maybe they have fun here in the winter. I'm not sure how the race ended cause I woke up to write all this.

29.08.2007

Dreams before college (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember my dream from a point where I was supposed to get a laptop for school. I got some kind of an old laptop somehow and I went to college. Inside it was like a big maze and each room is a class that look like conference rooms in Amdocs. I found my class and we all sit around the big table with our laptops and we started to play some kind of a strategy game that looks like "Heroes". I was sharing my laptop with someone and he told me to construct the red elves building in the game. I didn't know how to do it so I just went outside.

I was in some kind of park and I saw a fat kid he was listening to "Cradle of Filth - The Foetus of a New Day Kicking". I remember I heard this while passing by that kid. I saw a tall fence I swiftly climbed over it and saw some sort of a playground. I looked at the playground and then the fat kid came to me and told me something. This time he was listening the "Shape of Despair" one of the songs in "Shades of..." album.

We ran somewhere and the fat kid said that its hard for him to run. I told him to put on some music and keep running. We met some woman and a girl and we got to some place. It was a very strange place we were standing on a wall and down the wall was a floor with many many lights and and arrow and it was red or something. The woman and the girl got somehow to the other side and me and the fat kid decided to climb down to the strange place. We got down and the fat kid said this is the wank meter or something. He said we need to wait untill it will finish doing something.

We waited a bit and then its like I got a porn web page open on a screen showing that some porn movie got a rating of 91%. I'm not sure what happened next but I was in some sort of a garage. I found a big saw that looked like a sword and I got a disturbing thought of what will happen if the guy in the next room will stab me in the face with scissors. This thought made me realize that I was dreaming and I became lucid. The guy next door who was a kid which I studied with in the 7th grade came to me and said something, I told him to fuck off cause I'm busy lucid dreaming .

I thought about what to do and I saw some girl which I went to fuck. We had some fun, however my dream was getting weaker if I tried to make it very detailed. So I just relaxed and enjoyed this made me lose my lucidity but the dream got stronger again.

16.01.2008

I has a third eye (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I just had my afternoon nap and something cool happened. I heard the alarm of my phone that I got sms. I didn't wake up I thought it's not important. However I knew I was dreaming now.

I thought I could try and read the message with my eyes closed while I'm dreaming. I picked my phone and read the message and everything was gibberish totally random words changing vividly! "So cool!" I thought.

I decided to explore my dream phone some more. I browsed the menus and everything was in random words, some of them even made sense! I remember watching the messages menu vividly in my dream it was called "Rare"

I explored my phone some more and my subconscious was creating a vivid world around me. Suddenly I was driving without doing anything but holding my phone. I saw a sign saying "Beggars beware of bowmen" or something. Suddenly I crashed into a car in front of me. I woke up.

In vivid lucids I am tempted to interact with stuff and devices and see how they work. Last night I had a lucid moment and I found binoculars and played with it. They were very big, in fact they were expanding like 2 telescopes put together. I adjusted them.

I looked outside with the binoculars and looked at a star (Though it was day and the sun shine was shining.) It just appeared bigger like looking on a star in a photo with a magnifying glass. I looked at other stuff people walking by and stuff. It was like looking at them with glasses, slightly blurry and makes them bigger.

17.01.2008

Wake Induced Lucid Dream (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I DID IT! It was short but I did it. I just had my first actual WILD.

I took a nap. I was getting drowsy. I told myself several times "I'm dreaming". I didn't think I had any success so I just cleared my mind and tried to rest. Suddenly I felt like I could just move my arms and legs in blackness.

And there was it I moved my arms and legs and suddenly I was walking on a highway. It was night time. I was so exited I clapped my hands, rubbed them I tried to observe everything around me. I saw some kind of a wheel barrel. My dream was getting blurry. I touched the ground to feel it and get more clarity.

Then I went into some kind of an old dark house. I snapped my fingers and said lights on. The lights went on. I tried to talk in my dream and said: "Increase clarity!" It sounded very cool I heard my voice and a low slow echo right afterwards. It sounded demonic

I was getting exited and thought about what to do. I was scared that my dream might end soon. First thing I tried to be in another place. I said: "Happy place!" Only where it got me was another dark room with some mattresses on the ground.

I started to think too fast, too much and it sucked me out of my dream. I still feel amazing. I didn't really feel SP or tried any technique. I just cleared my mind and stared into the blackness in my mind, not my eyes. And then I just felt I could move without actually moving while still being awake.

21.01.2008

Afternoon nap adventures (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Oh yeah oh yeah!!! I had a lucid dream! So I took my nap and told myself several times to do a reality check when I wake up or feel weird. I was in school and I see my friend kick someones ass. That made a whole kick ass riot everyone was kicking asses. A person I hated attacked my friend with a fist so I jumped on him and beat him up. At that point I felt like I imagine this but I carry on. I was on my way home from school. I see all those people around and everything looks weird.

"Could it be?" "Am I dreaming?" *Nose reality check* Yeah! I can breathe even if I block my nose I'm dreaming!! So first thing I want to do is to fly. I use my spiritual power and float but its really hard to get any higher. Then I remembered a dream where I spin and it blew me like a rocket to the sky. I spin around and descend into blackness. "Too bad." I thought. I guess my dream is over... But of course it wasn't. EVIL FALSE AWAKANING!

I wake up feeling something is wrong. I look at my belly and see its fucking bleeding!! And with every breath my skin gets swollen and more blood is coming out. I was like "WTF?!?! I"M GOING TO DIE!" My heart is beating rapidly. I cry for help to my mom. My skin gets worse with every breath it looks like its going to blow like a balloon. My mom says everything is okay. I start to think "WTF OK?!!?" "IT'S FLESH EATING GERMS!!!" I look at my mom again and I see 2 moms. Ok that got me I was still dreaming. I try to close and open my dream eyes to change the scene. But it kicked me out of my dream. Last thing I saw was AB = AB which made me realize that my subconscious pwned me yet again and didn't let me have fun.

OH WELL GIVE ME MORE LUCID DREAMS!

26.01.2008

Intoxicated dream session (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

After coming home from beer night my dreaming session was about to begin. I had many dreams and 2 of them were lucid. I'm not sure but I might have even succeeded a WILD.
I woke up several times during the night, and each time I woke up I attempted to do a WILD.I remember imagining myself driving a car without igniting. It was very blurry. It might have been the imagery you see when attempting WILD. I was conscious during this imagination and it turned into a dream. It's hard to remember all the details after waking up from so many dreams. In this lucid dream I remember I was flying really really high. It's like I was teleporting myself above mountains with lots of trees, beautiful scenery. And I was like falling slowly to valleys surrounded by mountains. I remember doing something I really wanted to do; INCINERATE SOMEONE WITH A FIREBALL. What helped me was the torches I saw in a bar I went to. I imagined the flame in my hand and I got it; my hand was holding a flame. I felt so cool, like a master mage then. It was amazing. I tried to throw this flame at people I saw to BURN BURN BURN them, the balls of flame I threw were quite weak and small so it didn't really harm anyone how sad. I will try to make more powerful fireballs in my next lucid dream. Well after that I wanted to have some fun and fuck some hot goth girl. The place I was at with the fireballs kinda reminded the billiard bar we went to. Anyway I want it I take it I just came to this girl and started to fuck her in the middle of the bar. But then blurriness, darkness, blackness. NOOOOOO THE VACUUM CLEANER OF DOOM! Sucked me out of this amazing lucid dream. I woke up.There was another lucid dream, I became conscious during the dream itself. (DILD) I was in a big building full of offices and I was running from something, a guard I think. I felt like smashing stuff computers keyboards everything. I picked up a keyboard and SMASH CRASH AND DESTROY everything in sight. Then I looked at my hands to confirm that this is a dream. Well I can't say I saw anything odd about my hands but I still knew it was a dream. I felt like fucking someone again. I got into some other place looked like a very old building dark too. I saw some lady that looked like a witch I skipped her and went to look for girls in this dark old building, hehe I thought it was a whore house anyway. It was dark so I said "Increase clarity." several times and it helped some light was appearing. My voice in dreams sounds so demonic and cool. But after I summoned light I got VACUUM CLEANED out of the dream again how sad.

I remember some normal dreams as well. I was in class doing something and I had a fight with my friend. He stabbed me with a pencil so I punched him in the face like I always wanted to. Then he turned into a nigger boxer and we were in some white corridor. I punched the shit out of that boxer. I beat him up so many times, blood was everywhere. oddly he didn't even try to hit me. Then someone came and asked; "What the fuck?" I said; "I want to die." I went into some saw thing that was rolling on the floor, it cut me and killed me. I became someone else. I think I became on ogre in a cage. I tried to escape the building. I was running trough doors smashing then open with a kick. Then I felt like I could fly, I used my super saiya muscles and flew into the dark night sky out of the building. I think I was getting conscious when I flew but I woke up.

27.01.2008

Persuit is my dream sign (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Had a nice sleep I remember only the last part of my dreams. We were on our way to our destination, we had 1 car and many people. There was no place for me in the car so I ran. Dogs I saw dogs were coming at us eat us kill us. We were separated me and my friend decided to hide in a pickup truck in the baggage. We jumped inside and saw an unknown device. We crouched in the truck and it was moving. We lost the dogs it was time to jump out. We jump out.

From the highway we run to the forest. Dogs and a madman who was driving the truck was on our trail. And then it hit me; I AM IMMORTAL! THIS IS MY REALM! I stop pick up a stick and come back to MUTILATE my foes. I stab the man with the stick right trough the chest. I pick the man and the dogs with both my arms and smash them on a rock. DEATH! Blindness, bright white dimness, the light of rage. Critters surround me. In rage I burn them in a circle of burning energy around me. Still blinded with insight and rage I decide to use some magic. I summon lightning on little birds, hamsters, and rabbits. Beautiful bolts of lightning come from the sky and burn the harmless little critters.

I AWAKE.

01.02.2008

Are you sure you can control yourself? (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Had a nice sleep, had spaceship dreams and a lucid dream. I woke up several times during the night and my legs were all shaking full of energy must be the energy drinks with the vodka.

So this night I had a little strange lucid dream. I became aware that I am dreaming suddenly during the dream. I felt really strange like that I might know that I'm dreaming but I don't have any control. So I stop HAMMERTIME! I think hmmm lets see if I can control myself. I spin around and make sure I have the control. I was in some kind of a deserted mall or factory old dark big building. So now that I made sure I control myself I couldn't decide what to do, you know infinite possibilities and stuff. So first thing I do is fly I spin around and jump fly fly fly! I was about to go trough the building's roof like a ghost, this thing might be hard sometimes to do and has a good chance to wake you up. But I did it I went trough the roof. I was flying above the city and I think what a wonderful world D:
So I think hmm what to do what to do? I know! I will conjure a portal and see where it takes me. I say portal portal portal and try to summon it and my hand gestures made me go higher to the sky, kinda like swimming in the air.

So in my attempts to summon a portal I did the impossible I created gates to oblivion. Far away I see the sky get dark red huge burning gates appear. Cool I think and fly to that town. When I arrive I don't see any gates or burning sky. I see many people it was a park. So I think I'll buy some weapons and armor from the merchants, I tried to conjure some money. At that point I was losing my lucidity and control. But the dream went on. I found keys to Honda Civic in the park so I went to look for the car. When I found the car it was a very old work car kinda like an old Citroen but it was a Honda. I thought maybe I'll get in and drive but then I changed my mind and completely lost the control over the dream. I think I woke up shortly after.

I had spaceship dreams they were pretty cool. It sorta looked like a Heroes game but on a spaceship. I was an invader and I had to kill the commander. Some stuff happened and then it was me the commander and some guy I don't know left to fight. So I bash the commander, who was a female, I think, with a metal stick and kill her. Then I was fighting the other guy I told him: I HAS A BOMB! The timer showed about 4 minutes countdown. I wrestle him down and wait till the bomb go off. I think he died somehow or ran away from the spaceship the bomb never went off. So then I had 2 choices: Take over the ship and fly out of here or go out and explore the planet we were on. To find out what to do I wanted to check the Internet for a solution. Then I was home asking my dad if I can use the computer in his room to find an answer. I think I woke up again.
I had another spaceship dream kinda like a sequel for the first one. I had to get off the planet so I asked some kind of a robot if he can teach me to fly the spaceship. He wanted 50 chocolate cereal flakes. I gave him the flakes and he gave me the piloting skill. Then he asked me to help him fight some bandits. We went outside, the planet looked like a desert. We went up some hill and saw bandits guarding a wooden gate. The bot was happy he always wanted to kill bandits. So we CHARGE! The bandits were armed with spears and bows from different games I played. I jump on the bowmen and tear them apart and break their bows. It was a fun fight. But then the robot said look up that tower. I look and see a bright red spinning star on top of a tall building. The bot asked me what does it look like. The red star turned into gryphons bright red gryphons they were circling the tower. I yell GRYPHONS!. OMG DEATH GRYPHONS WERE ALL GOING TO DIE!!! So we run back to the spaceship trying to find escape pods. Some people joined us. We enter an elevator and we press the wrong levels. Everyone think were going to die. I wake up.Beautiful dreams! If only I could paint the amazing scenes I see, or make a movie. I see this picture I would want to paint. It would be me and the robot (He looks like a mix between R2D2 and an old man.) standing looking at a bright red star on top of a tower, dead bandits behind us. I wish I cold paint

08.02.2008

I am forsaken (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I failed my driving test. At least I can say that it's because the tester was a woman people like to hear that. Everything went against me or at least thats how I felt. But at least I still have my dreams where I am the man this is my scam. So sad I went home hoping to sleep all day long I didn't even care if I would have a lucid dream or not I was too sad.
In my dreams I displayed an amazing awareness of my dreams. It happened when I first looked at a mirror and saw myself with a beard and a mustache. I did a nose reality check , SUCCESS! I could breath with my nose blocked. I wanted to fuck some hot brunette tried to summon and search for one. Dream went black, I usually lose hope when my dream gets black and fade away but not this time. I waited without moving and the next dream appeared. I did a nose reality check again SUCCESS! again.This time I tried to fly and do back flips. I jump and fly top a top of a building I jump more and have fun. I did some back flips too. My dream was very blurry it was like I imagine everything. I guess I wasn't in REM sleep and my subconscious didn't create a vivid world for me. So I had to do it. My dream was getting black again and I felt myself waking up. Like my dream body is twisting in darkness and returns to my physical body position. Again I didn't panic and waited for the next dream. I did a nose reality check and almost missed it. I couldn't breath I guess I didn't breath that second in reality. I did it again and SUCCESS!
In blurry darkness I imagine myself fucking black haired woman having fun. But it fades away. I search for her again "black haired woman" I think trying to find trying to summon. trying to think about other stuff that I can do. I found a mirror I thought it was supposed to do cool stuff in dreams, however in my dream it worked perfectly well. I just saw my reflection. But then I thought next time I look at the mirror I will find myself with the black haired woman behind me. I look away and back to the mirror and I see myself with several rows of teeth. I look away and again and I see myself with some kind of steel dragon mask. My dream was fading away again this time I landed pretty hard back to reality and the next dream didn't came.Oh well my father came and offered me steaks for lunch I got up for that.

13.02.2008

AMAZING! (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Oh my god thank you for lucid dreams, even if you didn't intend for them to happen naturally. I just had a great sleep with several lucid dreams and maybe even an out of body experience which I cant define it was very very weird. It's hard to remember many dreams if you wake up in the process but I'll try to write down what I remember.

At first I remember being in my room which didn't look like my room. I was doing homework or something and my dog asked me something like he usually does when he wants to go for a walk. So I thought she wanted to play the computer. There was a big screen on a wall and the keyboard was on the bed. I let the dog go on the bed and started the game for her, she looked satisfied. I had all my books and notebooks on another bed in that room. I was about to go to sleep and then 3 random people walked into my room. They said they will be staying here and I am like "wtf". I was very disappointed, I wanted to sleep alone. Then my dad came and looked at my homework and said "Do it, do it." I told him "Do you even know what all those stuff in my notebook mean?" He walked out. I was so sad cause I wanted to sleep that this whole situation looked unreal. I did a nose reality check and SUCCESS! I was dreaming.

I wanted to find some hot girl to fuck, again. I was walking in this house like a ghost looking for something cool or someone hot to fuck. I was avoiding dark spots because of the fear that black spots would reduce my clarity and end my consciousness. Then I decided to find my dream guide who is supposed to be the figure of my subconscious. I yelled for my dream guide, man it's fun to hear your dream voice it's so haunting and demonic. A figure came out of the dark, I tried to see him better and he looked like a hmm NIGGER? He was very very strange and unclear at that point he looked like a nigger. I tried to figure him out and it seemed like he is not my subconscious HE IS THE OTHER VOICE IN MY HEAD!! You know sometimes I make two sided conversations about topics in my head and he is the other side. And I felt he was saying what I wanted him to say, like I control him. So he told me he is my dream guide, and I told him to summon me the girl I want to fuck. And he is like: "Yeah this is your first lesson or something..." I left him I thought he was fake. I went to a bed lied down and imagined myself fucking. Then I quickly got up, I felt that lying on the bed would make me wake up. I was wondering like a ghost in that house trying to find someone then I decided to teleport. I put 2 fingers on my head close my eyes and...WAKE UP. My heart is beating very rapidly, and I breathe very fast. I was to exited.

I went back to sleep and had a cool dream, like a documentary on how to make pancakes. I saw some charts of what fire should be good for the pancakes. I heard someone say that pancakes are much better if made in a special place. And I saw clear beautiful view of a lagoon with many small islands around the beach from high above, like from a helicopter. Then I saw cars parking in a place with a lot of sand, somewhere near the beach. I was there looking for a good spot to make pancakes. I was with someone. The sand was wet it was like mud. There was a kid playing with a remote control helicopter near us. We didn't like the mud so we decided to go underground in some kind of hole going down. My friend fell inside the mud and was drowning. I pulled him out and he put mud on my shirt! The friend went underground with the pancakes and told me to bring something. I went to look for it and a remote control helicopter was attacking me I caught it and threw it on the ground. Then we were on a jeep jumping above small hills. Suddenly we were inside a clear pool with the jeep. The kid with the remote control helicopter was attacking us again. We broke his helicopter that turned into an umbrella. I tried to bend it to fix it but I failed and told the kid to buy a new one. I felt bad for the kid and offered him a ride in our jeep and told him that I would hold him. He refused. I was in the pool relaxing with a few other friends. I lied in the water and they were kicking me around the pool. The people that were in the pool looked like the characters from "My Name is Earl". I think I woke up or something it might have been a false awakening.

I did a reality check and SUCCESS! I was dreaming again. I was inside my house again I ran to the window and jumped out without any hesitation. The view was clear and it looked pretty much like reality. Even though it's a bit scary to jump out of the window like that I was very certain that I was dreaming and I flew out of the window. I use the swimming technique to fly. I flew and it was very fun to swim like that in the air. I saw a hot woman entering a car I descend to her and offer to fuck here. She closed the car door. I opened the door and there was no one inside HOW SAD! I see the woman I've been looking for in past dreams walk by, but she is constantly changing from old to young and visa versa. I walk to her to fuck her but she disappears. I wake up again or I think I wake up.
I feel myself descending back to reality. Just before I hit my body in reality I pull myself away. I try to exit my own body. Strong forces pull me back. This sounds very unreal, but it was very weird. I don't know if this was a dream or I really exited my own body. Anyway so I struggle with those forces I get some glimpse of my room and my bed. Very strong forces try to pull me back into my body. I roll over out of my bed (With my conscious that is not my real body.) I get up and try to walk out of my room I see a flashing image of my dad everything is blurry. It looks like my cover is the force that pull me back it's stuck on my feet. I think it was a dream not OBE but perhaps I was close to it.
I wake up and find myself in my bed I reach to my watch to check the time. And everything is messed up I can't read the watch and it looks weird. I do a reality check and SUCCESS! It was a false awakening. I'm very proud of myself for understanding that during the dream. However real awakening followed shortly after, must have been my excitement. So I check the time again everything is normal. I tried to went back to sleep but my mothers alarm disturbed me. I WANTED TO SMASH THAT FUCKING CELLPHONE ON THE WALL!!!

Couple of days ago I had a cool dream vision I didn't write about. I was in a car with my friend and my driving instructor. I was happy in the back sit and my friend was driving. We move towards a wall, the speed increases. I think were not gonna make it!! We smash right into the wall. A moment of shock and then I ask if everyone are ok. I feel my back hurts and I wake up. The pain was only in the dream. BUT IT WAS A VERY COOL ACCIDENT. Part of me wanted to experience a car crash, I'm psycho like that. I must say in a dream it's very fun! I doubt it would be fun in reality.

19.04.2008

Synchronization with my subconscious cause lags in the dream world. (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It all started in the end. I was in a dream in school and I noticed some weird stuff. First of all why am I in school if it's Saturday and a holiday. Second why did the teacher write 2007 on the board its 2008! And last How the fuck did I get here? I usually come to school in a car with a girl from my class it's quite far away from home. So I realized I was dreaming. How cool only too bad I was about to wake up the moment I realized it.

I woke up and didn't move didn't think I was expecting the start of a new dream sort of like a WILD. And there it was a dream emerged from darkness I suddenly saw light and I saw my room. I thought maybe I could have an OBE but unfortunately I was in my old room so it can only be a dream. I got up from bed and walked trough the bathroom I saw something creepy. In the shower on the floor someone was covered with thick white blanket and trough a small hole I could see a Grey eye. I moved on to the balcony and decided to go out of the house in my favorite way jump out of the balcony window.Like always it's fucking scary to jump from there cause it's high and even if you know this is a dream and nothing can happen to you, you have to force yourself to do it. So I jumped out and slowly descend to the street. In this lucid dream I decided to train my flying ability using willpower. So I concentrate and fly. It's hard to get higher but I concentrate harder and fly higher. It's laggy in a dream world it takes a few moments between my will and what happens in the dream. So it's a bit tricky to maneuver between the buildings. If you want to go left it takes a few moments for it to happen and you can crash into a building which may cause waking up or unsynchronization like in "Assassins Creed".So I fly around and watch how things work in my dream world. I descend to some restaurant. There is a fucking Roller Coaster in the middle of the restaurant. I hit it accidentally with my leg and it's destroyed. I land on top of a table and a group of waiters surround me. They take me to some dungeon I try to escape but they shank me with broken bottles. It was actually pretty painful. I really don't know why I didn't explode in burning rage and ripped the bastards to pieces. But I guess I was afraid of waking up I wanted to stay in the dream. I didn't want to do drastic actions or magic that might wake me up cause I need to concentrate really hard for them. And concentration takes over your subconscious and the dream ends.One of the waiters gave me like 15 seconds to meet him or something or to escape. The second time I saw him he told me I have 7 seconds left. The bastard wanted to shank me with a broken bottle. I just ran away and flew there was a spinning door that people were walking trough I flew into this door and woke up shortly after.The dream world is so delicate :< If you take too much control with your conscious your dream ends and turns into a thought or imagination and you wake up. You need to let things flow and enjoy. Don't imagine how stuff should be in your dream just use willpower and see how your subconscious creates it for you.

10.02.2010

Evil Cactus (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember my dream from a point where I was in an underground parking lot looking for a parking spot. I was on the -6 floor. I found a parking spot with the number 5. After I parked I went looking for an elevator. I went inside the elevator and it was very very weird; The floor was stairs and it was diagonal like stairs but it was still an elevator. I thought about the elevator and if it was a smart innovative idea.

I went inside some store. I took 2 chocolate candy bars from the shelves and ate them. I looked for the shopkeeper to pay for the snacks. The shopkeeper was a girl. I tried to pay her but then we started to argue about which coins I should give her. While looking for the right coins in my wallet I found some foreign coins inside.

The shopkeeper girl was on the phone with someone, she looked troubled and sad. She was really beautiful I wanted to comfort her with sex. The scene changed and she was lying on the bed in my home. I approached her but then she changed into my sister. The shock from the thought of having sex with my sister made me question my reality. I asked her if this is a dream but she couldn't answer.

So I preformed the nose reality check and it worked I became lucid. I dcided to practicethe extension of lucidity using the look at your hands every few moments technique like sugjested in Castaneda's books. So the first thing I did was to look at my hands. I looked around and looked at my hands. Each time I looked at my hands I noticed minor changes on my hands. One time I saw a word "Vats" written in blue on my right hand I think.

I walked around my home looking at objects and looking at my hands and it helped a lot increasing vividness and lucidity. I didn't do anything big because I was afraid it would make me wake up. But I felt pretty boring and wanted to have lucid sex. I dissmissed this thought because that would be a waste of lucid dream.

I kept looking at objects in my home and at my hands.The rooms in my lucid home were pretty similar to the real thing. I saw a barbell near the TV and I tried to read the weight on one side. The number was something similar to 14 or 17. I looked at the book shelves and I could read the titles of the books clearly and they made sense but the names were in Hebrew while almost all books in my home are in Russian.

Somewhere along the dream I fell into blackness or had a false awakening but a quick reality check brought me back to lucidity. I remembered that I had a peyote cactus in my home so I decided to eat it in this lucid dream and see what happens. I went to look for it in its place on the balcony I saw the other cactuses but I didn't see peyote. I went back to the living room and there was my grandma. The cactuses belong to her. I asked her if I could have the peyote cactus so I can eat it. She warned me that it would turn me inside out.



I took the cactus from my grandma I wanted to cut off the root I reached with my hand without looking and grabbed a knife from somewhere and cut off the root. I chewed the peyote cactus and with every bite it sucked me inside the couch into darkness untill I woke up with a faint image of a windows 2000 log in screen with a cactus smily dancing.

18.02.2010

Gateway to the non organic (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I slept great and had many dreams though I don't remember most of them I do remember an exeptionally long lucid dream that I had.

My dream was in my base in the army although it looked nothing like the real thing. Sometime along the dream I just looked at my hands while walking without any reason and it triggered my lucidity.

I started to walk around my base looking at objects and at my hands
like castaneda sugjested in his books. It worked great and it made both my dream and my lucidity very stable. I was even amazed how long my lucidity lasted. I didn't do anything special didn't imagine anything just explored my dreamscape.

I didn't find anything interesting just a very plain world. I thought about what time it is now in real life. I figured it was close to morning time. I felt my sleep was very deep and didn't feel anything close to waking up.
I didn't do anything amazing in this dream because I wanted to train myself to sustain lucidity for a long timeand keep my dreams solid and stable. It worked great with the looking at your hands every few moments technique. basically my conscious brain activity was only focused on maintaining control.

Eventually I got bored and looked for a girl to have sex with. I found one in the dining room and we had sex on the table while many other people were present. I knew this girl from another base that I was in.
During sex I kept looking at my hands every few moments and it did wonders I didn't wake up everything was still very stable. Usually I wake up during lucid sex. Eventually I got bored of it too. Though I didn't have an orgasm I just went to do something else.

Still fully lucid I went to look for something very very weird bizarre and strange, something that Castaneda described in his book as an external alien entity that could take you to the world of the non organic beings. I looked around and saw a very strange flying thing comming down from the blue sky.



I hate describing what I saw with an image from a movie, especially The Avatar movie but it is the closest thing to what I saw.
I guess that it was not what I am supposed to look for. I'm supposed to look for something unimaginable, something out of this world. Keep looking!

It was something like a spore or a medusa jelly fish it looked like the tree spirits in the avatar movie. It was colorful the colors were runing inside its tentacles. So just like Castaneda I asked it to take me to the world of the non organic beings. I didn't imagine anything I just waited until something will happen. Unfortunately nothing happened.
I was where I was and the little flying thing dissapeared. I was so dissapointed that I forgot to lookat my hands and somehow I lost control.

I woke up a few moments later it was very early morning like
5 am or something. I didn't use the DEILD technique because when I woke up I went over my lucid dream in my mind so that I could remember it later. I went back to sleep and had a non lucid dream.

I was in some kind of a video game with anime characters I don't fully understand what was the story behind the dream it was quite weird
but enjoyable. I don't remember it very well. I remember I ran away from some woman. The woman that was chasing me and trying to kill me. I went to hide to some hut on the beach. She found me and said that she only wanted an apple. She showed me a red apple. I told her
that the apple is worthy of her beauty she seemed very happy to hear that, she was flattered.

Then another woman was looking for me she seemed angry I saw her and went with her somewhere. I wanted to compliment her too actually she looked like the first woman that was left in the hut on the beach. But before I could say anything to her she was gone I think she was jealous that I was with the other woman in the hut on the beach.

Then I was in the city running with an M-16 rifle. I met a woman from my base she asked me something but I couldn't hear what. I asked her to repeat several times until I heard that she was asking where is my radio communication device. I told her that I have it in the guard tower. I kept running and remembered that today was the day that I had to give back the device. (in the dream) I was scared that someone might have took it. I went to the guard tower and it was there covered with a red rubber thingy I woke up shortly after.