Vickys Dream Journal

Ever sense I could remember Ive had horrible nightmares that leave me paralized upon awakening. I remember a lot of those dreams and I believe they started when I was six. Every single one of them has a entity that I cant see. Just recently though Ive had some very disturbing ones and someone just told me I have a personal Incubus which I know is myth but still freaks me out...

Here is how it went...

I was laying in bed (awake) staring at the closet door and trying so hard to fall asleep. I dont remember closing my eyes or even falling asleep (I have trouble sleeping). Out of no where starting from my toes I felt goosebumps and a freezing sensation crawl up my body. I couldnt move and at first I was intrigued. Until my whole body was engulfed in this feeling and I started to be pulled down off the bed. I could feel the fitted sheet wrinkle under me and the comforter bunch up ontop of me. I could not feel hands just yet but I knew something was there.

I couldnt move and I was starting to freak out. At the time I reached the foot of the bed this...thing...put one arm under my knees and another behind my back. I could tell it didnt want to hurt me but I didnt want to leave. My husband was in the other room (he snores and I already have trouble sleeping). I started to move inch by inch trying to kick my way out of its arms. Finally with much hard work I was dropped. My head almost hit the book shelf (and yes everything was in its place as in the real world) I ran to the door in panic and failed a couple of times trying to open the door. Finally I got it open when the feeling of being chased was almost unberable. I ran down the hall way to where my husband was sleeping and ended up opening his door with ease. I remember seeing him sleeping and I felt an overwhelming sense of envy at his ease at it. Then I was pushed and I woke up in the bed it all started in.

I couldnt move for which seemed like ages and I cant tell you if I litteraly couldnt or if I was too scared to. But I looked at th closet door and saw a swarm of bees which started to desend to the floor. They ended up going down so low that the matteress obscured the view.

When I could move I looked for the bees and they were gone. I ran and turned the light on because I still had that feeling of being watched. When the room seemed clear of weirdos I again ran to my Husband to wake him up crying.

Ive had many nightmares with something trying to take me away. Even when awake I almost never feel alone. I hear people running upstares when Im home alone and even my two dogs who are always with me hear it too.

I cant seem to figure out what this all is. What it means. Should I be scared? Should I try to confront "it"? Or is it just a matured version of the dreams I had when I was 6 and I was being dragged infront of a school bus by something that wasnt there.

I never EVER had it with this much feeling though and I cant help but to think it was all real.