This is my first entry and I'm still fairly new to lucid dreaming, however a lucid dream I had today inspired me to learn more and share. Luckily, I found this site, and I'm excited to share.
I have had a few lucid dreams in my life but I have never been able to bring them on. They have just come naturally, but I plan on learning. I usually choose to fly once I realize that I am lucid dreaming. I am also known for having very elaborate and vivid dreams. I feel like I could write a movie on some dreams that I have. I usually remember most details about them too.
Today: Seeing Myself in the Mirror
I have insomnia every month for 1 week, so that was last week. I have been so exhausted lately, so I decided to take a nap yesterday. This dream was different because it went from absolute darkness, like when you first shut your eyes to sleep, to me standing in a room and having this amazing feeling. It felt like I was opening my eyes for the first time. I looked at my hands, down at my feet and my surroundings. I realized that I was lucid dreaming and I became very excited that I had control.
My next thought was to do something I don't normally get to do in dreams. Like I said before, I usually choose to fly, but this time I wanted to do something different. I decided to look at myself in the mirror because this is something I have never experienced before in my dream. I have never really seen myself in a dream.
I wasn't familiar with my surroundings, I had never been in the room before, but it was an empty apartment so I knew there had to be a bathroom. I found a bathroom, and looked into the mirror. Everything looked the same except my eyes and teeth. I am Asian, and my eyes are dark brown but in my dream my eyes looked like I had blue contacts covering them or even what blind people's eyes look like or dead people. It looked like a blue sheath over my eyes. I smiled at first because I thought this looked kinda cool, but then I saw my teeth. I was horrified to see my teeth! They were brown and almost looked like toe nails...gross...I know! I was so horrified that I almost woke up. It was weird because my surroundings began to fade to black but I concentrated on staying. I don't know how I did it, but it worked. I decided to try to change my appearance by giving myself bigger breasts, ( I was experimenting...okay). This was a failed experiement because I only scared myself more. They were like stones/silly puddy. When I would try to mold them they would turn rock solid and look very distorted...this really upset me.
I made the decision to never look at myself in the mirror again while sleeping, and decided I was reading to start flying. I began to get the sense that I was loosing my lucid dreaming and felt like my dream was real so I wanted to take advantage of flying. It was funny because it felt so realistic in this apartment that when I did my usual run three times and jump I landed on the carpeted floor. I felt really silly and decided to concentrate a little more. This second time I floated a bit out the window. The scenery changed and disturbed my dream.
I then began to dream of my own apartment and lost my lucid dream. I dreamed that my fiance came home early and found me in bed napping. I had a conversation with him and went back to sleep, but this was in my dream. I often dream of dreaming in my dreams...
I think I will try to make an attempt to lucid dream again. I know that yesterday I kept going in and out of it, like turning on the lamps that fade in and out.
I have a feeling why I would appear that way in my dream though. This is my take on it at least. I have trouble accepting the way I look. I have always considered getting colored contacts just for fun because I get bored of my brown eyes. I also have always hated my teeth. You can also guess that I'm smaller in the chest area and have troubles accepting this. I think my brain is trying to tell me to let it go, that changing myself will only make myself look worse and that I'm fine how I am. I think I tried to subconsciously scare myself out of changing myself, lol.
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