Caradon's Dream Journal

[Caradon]

Night of 5-20-07 dry spell ended, at least I hope it is! It starts out, that I am in my house, and it's just down pouring rain outside. I go to the window, and look out. I see that the heavy rain, is causing a flood. the water is already up to the edge of the window, and rising fast. I feel the house actualy start to move. It's getting lifted from it's foundation, and beginning to float. the flood water has a current, and is starting to push the house. The house starts to tilt on it's side, and I am on the side that is tilting into the air. The current gets stronger, and pushes the house into a roll. At the same time, I fall towards the lower part of the house, and begin to tumble around and bounce off the walls, as the house rolls a few times. It's hard to describe what happens next, because I am a little disorientated. I'm not sure if I went out a window, or what. but I distinctly remember entering the water, and the house falling away from me. The house is gone now all together, and I am getting pushed along at high speed. The momentum of the water is very powerfull. I am desperatly trying to twist and turn, to avoid getting slammed into things, like telephone poles and trees. and what ever else may be in my path. Now the current starts to form a wave. I am on the top of the wave as if surfing. but I am still partially submerged in the water. I am kind of stuck there, the water has a good grip on me. the wave starts out not real huge, but it is growing as it washes forward. Until it becomes a massive wall of water, hundreds of feet high. It's just like in that movie impact, when the asteroid hits the ocean. And I am riding this monster thing! I can see lots of people running and screaming in terror, trying to get away. I am wondering, how I will manage to survive, once this thing comes crashing down. Now I am having a hard time, comprehending the situation that I am in, and it starts to click that I am dreaming. At first it's just kind of wishful thinking. But as I think about it a little bit, the full realization that I am dreaming washes over me. (I love that feeling) I see all the people running in terror, and I feel bad for them. So I start yelling "this is a dream!" I yell it a few times. I want to let them know they don't have to be afraid. I have gotten into the habbit, of pretending that my dream characters are real people. but in my last half a dozen Lucid dreams, I have started doing it in an almost nonlucid way. so I think I will have to stop doing that. I'm not sure what made me think, yelling this is a dream into a mob of panicked people, would make them feel better anyway. I give up on that and look around. I see that the wave is very wide. And I can see a couple of other people caught the way I am. I decide I will try to get up, and walk across the top of the wave. I don't like being stuck in the water the way I am. I figure once I get myself free, I will get the situation under control. and try for a Lucid task. Or talk to an animal. (Moonbeams Task) So I start to pull myself up from the water, But as I am getting to my feet I wake up This dream was pretty wild, and very vived. I have a lot a dreams about motion. But this Tidal wave thing was a new one.

[Moonbeam]

Congratulations! Your lucids are back! I hope it is the first of many. That was an exciting one, too. I often have crowds of people in my dreams; they don't usually listen to me either. Good luck on doing the tasks! Still time this month!

[Caradon]

Thanks Moonbeam, and thanks for replying. I'm not going to beat myself up to much, if I dont get a task this month. I was a little distracted, the Last couple of days. hopefuly that does not slow down my progress too much. There will be plenty of time for Lucid tasks, once I can get the Lucid ball rolling again. I may have to try and spend less time on the computer, until I can get them going. In this journal, I am going to try and post some of my past Lucid dreams, as well as new ones. hopefuly people will read them. That will make it more fun to take the extra time writing. I also keep a paper journal. So between working, taking the dog to the park, and writing dreams down. I dont get much free time for other things.

[Moonbeam]

That's a good idea, to record your previous lucids. I'll read them for inspiration.

[Caradon]

ok, cool

[Caradon]

I used to have falling elevator dreams a lot. I never had a conscious fear of them. But, one time when I was kid, I got into an elevator alone. when I came to the floor I wanted, The doors would not open for me. I freaked out, and started banging on the doors yelling, until somebody came and got me out. this is the only explanation I can come up with for them. I started useing the elevator dream as a dream sign, and I would become Lucid every time it happened. But it didn't take to long before I stopped having the dream. This is one of the last times that it happened, and the only one that really stuck in my mind. A past Lucid Dream: Date unknown. I step into the elevator, and the doors slide closed. There is another guy in the elevator with me. I am not sure if I pushed any buttons, but the elevator starts going down. I start to hear some strange sounds, then the elevator starts jerking around violently, then bigins falling fast. Instantly I realize I am dreaming. I calmly sit down, with my back against the back wall, and my legs crossed. The other guy with me, is starting to freak out really bad. I say to him," relax this is a dream, we wont hit the ground, because there is no ground" then I tell him, that he should reach out with his thoughts, and he will be able to feel that it's a dream. Then he says to me," you know I think your right." I say, "I know I am right!" Then, I am sitting there for awhile just enjoying the falling. And I am making sure that we don't hit any ground, in a way that I don't know how to describe. then something odd happens. The walls of the elevator become transparent, like glass. And without noticing any change in motion, we are no longer falling, but flying across an amazing landscape, in a glass box. And I am controlling our flight. After flying for awhile I set us down. we get out, and I am about to go find some other adventure, when I wake up. I wish this dream would still happen.

[Obsidian]

That sounds so fun, the part where the elevator becomes transparent. And I know what you mean how it feels so cool to just tell a DC that it's alright it's just a dream and know your in control it's so cool. Hope you have this one again soon

[Caradon]

Thanks Obsidian, Im glad you liked it. That was one of my favorite Lucids. I just woke up from an hour and a half nap. And from a sweet Lucid Dream! I tried for the advanced Lucid task! I had no problem getting the tree to come out of the ground, but I didn't quite get it to walk. And the tree actualy laughed at me! I dont have time to post it right now. But I will later tonight on the Lucid task page.

[Obsidian]

haha awesome i havent' tried that yet, i'll read it when you post it

[Caradon]

I'm not going to have time, to post any dreams for a couple of days. I have to get up at four in the morning, for work on the weekends. And sunday afternoon, I'm planning to go up to the cabin, until tuesday. But the next past Lucid I want to post, Is when I discoverd how fun free falling is.

[Moonbeam]

Have fun! Travelling and sleeping in a strange place is usually a great time for me to get lucid.

[Caradon]

Have fun! Travelling and sleeping in a strange place is usually a great time for me to get lucid. Your right About that. Last year, I went to the cabin every week. And I had a Lucid Dream there, almost every time. I had one this time as well. It was not to long, but very fun. Night of 5/27/07 at the cabin. The first thing I remember, is being at the top, of a tall chain link fence. It had barbed wire along the top of it. below me is a german sheperd. It's very pissed at me for some reason. It's doing the whole bared teeth thing, and snarling. There is someone there, that decides to help me out. the DC, throws a steak or something, as far away from me as he can. The dog goes for it, and I decide to jump down. I have a grey sweatshirt on, and the sleeve is now caught on the barbed wire. I try to pull it loose, but its hooked pretty well, and I can't. Finaly I just jump, and the weight of my fall tears it loose. I Land on my feet and start to run. The dog looks up and comes after me. But I now have super human speed, and I leave the dog far behind. I am running so fast everything is a blur. suddenly I am aproaching the edge of a cliff. The cliff is not real high, just one or two hundred feet. I am trying to decide what to do as I aproach it. It does not even occur to me, that I could stop running. I guess, I am having a brave moment. I just jump without even slowing. Once in the air, I instantly realize I am dreaming. (Getting airborn, is a familiar dreamsign for me.) I land on my feet, and I am so caught up in the joy of the moment, that I just keep on running. suddenly, I aproach the edge of another cliff. I leap into the air, and I am screaming stuff like "wooo hoooo" and "yeee haaa." I land on my feet again, and keep running, and running. Cliffs keep appearing in front of me, and I keep jumping and screaming. I wake up after not to long of a time. I normaly don't have problems with dogs in my dreams. But I do get a lot of bears, and mountain lions.

[The Cusp]

Ahhh... The old thow the dog a steak trick. That's a classic!

[Caradon]

LOL yeah, but if it wasn't for my super speed, he would of got me anyway.

[Caradon]

When I first learned Lucid dreaming, and after I got really good at flying. I must have had nearly a dozen Lucid Dreams in a row. Where I did nothing but fly across dreamscapes at high speed. as fun as this was, it was starting to feel like all of my Lucid dreams were exactly the same. A past Lucid Dream: Date unknown I dont remember what point I became Lucid, or how I came to be in this spot. The first thing I remember, is being on the roof of this very tall skyscraper. I want to try something different, but I still have a strong desire to be airborn. There is a short wall around the edge of the roof. I step up onto it, and look out across the most amazing cityscape. It is a little dark, and the city is lit up. (It is very beautiful) I look down, and I can see the lights of traffic far below. I turn around and inch backwards, so that the heels of my feet, are over the edge of the drop. I hold both arms out to my sides, and take a deep breath and relax. Then I gently tilt backwards, and let myself fall. The feeling of falling backwards, without looking down at the drop, is so real It's just awsome. I let myself tumble, end over end, faster and faster. With the wind rushing over me. once I get close to the ground, I put both hands out in front of me, and land on my hands. I do a hand spring onto my feet, then I fly back to the top of the roof, and do it again. It was so much fun, that I kept doing this until I woke up.

[Caradon]

I got a little bit over excited, about doing my first Lucid task. So I lost focus a little bit. Except for the Lucid I had at the cabin last sunday, I have not been able to remember to much the last few days. But last night I remembered a little more. I actualy became Lucid last night! but I barely remember it, so I'm not counting it. I just have a vague memory of being Lucid in my house. And levitating my laundry basket around the room. I also did two short wilds, that I don't count as Lucid Dreams. The first one, I did as I was falling asleep. I was floating in HI, then some mystic woman appeared and was talking to me. I was only partialy Lucid. She seemed to know stuff about me, and she mentioned something about wolves. As I became more Lucid I woke up. The second one, was early in the morning. I woke up, and was thinking about writing some dreams that I remember in my journal. I dozed off, and I actualy turned to pick up my journal. It was strange, it felt like I actualy rolled out of my body. I then picked up my journal, and started writing my dream. even though I knew I was dreaming this, I still kept writing it. Then I woke up and actualy wrote it. Just a few points so I would not forget. I really need to get back, that intense focus I had in january, before the situation came up that caused my dry spell. I had ten Lucid dreams in january. And most of them took place in the last week of the month. I was doing so good!

[Caradon]

Last night, I didn't sleep to much. I only remember one dream, but I almost became Lucid during it. I missed my most familiar dreamsign! I was in a hurry to get somewhere, and I was running. I jumped into the air, and I started floating higher and higher. I thought about the fact that this was like a dream too! But for some odd reason, I decided that this time it was real. Oh well it happens some times. This is a perfect example, of why I need to train myself to do reality checks in situations Like that. I have been Lucid Dreaming off and on since the late 80's. But I have never once become Lucid from a reality check. But sometimes I will do a reality check durring the ld, just to make sure it's still a dream.

[Caradon]

Im A bit frusrated today, little recall. I just remember a little bit about being in my car on the freeway. there was some car accident, and a car had rolled and was wrecked up pretty good. I think I'm just going to do some reading tonight, and see if that will help get me in dreaming mode.

[Caradon]

Not much recall today either, I'm not feeling to well so not going to make a long post. I think my recall problem, is partly due to some cough suppressant I was taking so that I could sleep. Because of a bad cough keeping me awake. The stuff was really messing me up, so I wont be taking that stuff anymore.

[Caradon]

Ok feeling a little better now, and remembered some dreams today. I have a vague memory of doing a Lucid task, and then dreaming about writing it down on dream views. I was haveing a conversation, with my sisters baby that can't talk yet. All I remember about the conversation, is that it had something to do with chinese food. I was working for the mob. I was on a yaht on the ocean with a bunch of mobsters. I told them that I didn't want to work for them anymore, so they threw me over board. I watched as the yaht sped away, and I was left floating in open water. I was some kind of secret agent. The bad guys had found out where I lived and killed my wife (I'm not married) there was a bunch of adventure stuff about me going after them. The details are to screwed up in my mind to write down. There was a crazy part about me hanging on the outside of an air plane, trying to get inside to get at the people in the plane. I guess I was some kind of James bond 007 or something. I was at the park, and there was a guy on a dirt bike doing all sorts of cool stunts. I had a long conversation with him about motocross. It was a pretty cool dream. I remember just sitting there smoking a cigar, and it tasted really good. (I don't smoke) I was going to just use this journal for Lucid Dreams. But I decided I enjoy writing here more than in my note book. I can always print them out on the printer if I am worried about losing them. And it will look a lot better than my bad hand writing does.

[Caradon]

LOL! I voted on my own journal, and it now shows that my journal has a five star rating. Is that wrong? I don't know, it cracks me up though.

[Moonbeam]

LOL! I voted on my own journal, and it now shows that my journal has a five star rating. Is that wrong? I don't know, it cracks me up though. How do you think mine got rated so highly?

[Caradon]

Having a bad allergy problem still! Every time I try to lay down to sleep, I get this cough, it's keeping me awake. I did manage to fall asleep for a couple of hours Last night. And I remembered a couple of cool dreams. I was with an old friend, and some other people that I don't know. We were at a mall, and we were looking at some hats, at a hat shop. The hats were kind of like cowboy hats, but they had some really strange designs on them. My friend started acting very obnoxious. The clerk at the hat shop was upset with him, I could tell by the look on his face. he didn't say anything though. We left the hat shop, and started walking along inside the mall. My friend continued to get even more annoying. He started yellling stuff, just to here his own voice echoing through the corridors of the mall. At some point here the dream shifted, and I am now at a fancy wedding. the wedding is for my previously annoying friend. But it turns out, the girl he is getting married to, is actualy in love with someone else. She is now getting married to this other person. And my friend is left standing there high and dry, watching his girl getting married to another guy. I feel bad for my friend. I walk over to him, and give him a comfoting pat on the shoulder. A lot of people find this wedding very moving. I see that a lot of people are in tears. I walk outside, and it is raining. I am wearing a expensive suit, and I am wondering if it will get ruined by the rain. Thats all I remember from that dream.- I am at a swimming pool, and there are Dolphins in the pool. I am sitting on the edge of the pool, thinking about jumping in to swim with them. One of the Dolphins swims near me. I ask it, if I should get in the pool with them. The Dolphin, motions with it's head, for me to come in the water. I jump in, and I swim under water with my eyes open, watching them. I swim back to the surface, and a Dolphin comes near me. I reach out, and slide my hand along it's back. It's skin has an interesting texture to it. Slippery but not slimy. Thats about all I remember from this dream. I seem to be having a lot of dreams about Dolphins lately, I wonder why. I will post more Lucid dreams when I get time.

[Caradon]

How do you think mine got rated so highly? Thats funny, I was wondering if other people did that.

[Caradon]

Ok, I seem to be getting my recall back. And Today I almost became Lucid during my nap. I found myself walking down the hall of an apartment building. And asking myself if I was dreaming, and looking around for dreamsigns. I had been very focused on doing that all day. I didn't actually become Lucid, but that's ok. This normally happens to me a couple of times, before I start getting lucid. So I know Lucidity is not far away, as long as I stay focused. But I am still fighting this annoying cough, that's making things hard. Normally, When I become Lucid. I am so fascinated by the dream that I find myself in, that I never really try to change the scene. I just enjoy seeing whats around the next corner, or whatever. But one time, after becoming Lucid. I was feeling such a great sense of celebration, that I suddenly found myself on a beach, in the middle of a huge festival. Complete with music, and dancing, and food shops. After waking, I thought about it, and I realized that my feelings had created that whole scene. Because of this, I came up with this theory. That if a person could learn to understand, the thoughts and feelings behind the events that take place around them. they could learn to alter the dream, by generating the right thoughts and emotions, that go with what they want to create. This theory, Led to what was probably the most strange thing, that ever happened to me in a Lucid Dream. A past Lucid Dream- Date: sometime in the late 90s Hope I can describe this right. I don't remember what was going on before I became Lucid. But I was in a stairwell of some building, when I suddenly realized I was dreaming. It was kind of a boring place, just surrounded by walls and stairs. I was about to go looking for a way outside, But I then decided, that I would try and see if I could make the outside world come to me. without closing my eyes, I visualized a mountain landscape. And I tried to generate the emotions I would feel, if I was standing in that landscape, at that moment. I take a deep breath, and completely relax. My arms at my sides, with the palms of my hands outwards. And with everything I had, I tried to send the feeling of this mountain landscape rushing out of me, and into the dream around me. What happened next, happened very fast and sudden. The stairwell I was in, suddenly spun around me in a blur and disappeared. And at the same time that it began to spin, I fell through the floor. It was more like I got sucked out of the bottom of the dream. And I was hurled completely out of control at high speed, through a black nothingness. And for the first time ever, I was wondering if maybe I had done something I should not have. I was a little worried, but not really afraid. I was strangely curious about what would happen next. I only had a very brief moment, to wonder what was going on. Because the next thing I know, a train suddenly appears below me. I literally fall into another dream scene! I land on my feet, on top of a moving train. My very first thought is, oh good I'm still dreaming. I am a little relieved to be back on familiar territory. I look around, and I am now riding the train through the most beautiful mountain landscape you can imagine. the clouds in the sky are a strange greenish color. And they are rolling and swirling, just like when they show the sky of a dream in a movie. I had done it! I completely changed the dream, without taking one step to find my way outside. A little stunned from what had just happened, I didn't really know what to do next. So I just started hopping train cars, until I reached the front of the train. Then I just stood there, enjoying this spectacular scenery that I had just created. And there are now small birds flying around me, so close I could reach out and touch them. After a short while of riding I wake up. I have not tried this again since, but I plan to sometime.