S'Tsung's Journal

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[size=18]Myself - the dreams I can't control but which are so real...and are like memories I will try one thing....I will try to write down the dreams I have so deeply written in my memories. I will write it more for me than the others (at least now...I don't know if I will achieve it.). Writing all the dreams I have wouldn't be a good thing as I remember most of them and most of them are not too personal or not that interesting for me. Also I won't write everything in the dream as it took a long time to be dreamed...I will just write down some general info. Dream 1 - Sindari's Life - age 4-6 Sindari a human biologist living on Earth which is also populated by some reptile humanoids who became incapable of reproducing and developped a mutagen which makes humans mutate into their own kind. Sindari was studying people with this mutagen, the mutagen itself and tried to find an anti-mutagen. Later he was chased by those reptilians and finally one of then injected that mutagen into his bloodstream. Sindari killed that reptilian who did it and started to examine him. He found a lot of things and was capable of producing something which slows down the mutation but it doens't stop it. [in the end sindari dies because of it. humankind is divided in two. one part leaves and wants to return when this race will be dead the other ones want to come back no matter what.] (still dreaming this.) Dream 2 - Shiratori Yoshitaka's life - age 15-17 Yoshitaka is a japanese boy, who likes informatics and lives at the same time as I do. He became a hacker, fell in love with one girl. But there was a problem with that...in the past his family was an enemy to the family of his lover. He changed his name, he tried to get rid of his past. but he didn't achieve it and his lovers family members killed her. Yoshitaka continued to live on but was so sad....he started to work on 3d models and animations and was still hacking for people who asked and payed for that. (still dreaming this.) Dream 3 - Tsung's life - age 8-10 This person was sent to a prison planet by the governement. He ended up on a hostile planet with hostile animals and people...but he found that there were groups forming and which were fighting each other to survive. But being a part of one of those groups ment better safety. Later he and several other people found out that underground the surface there was an ancient kingdom. No one seemed to live there...so he and the others moved under the surface to live there. Later they discovered hybernated bodies of some unknown species and a high-tech tehcnology which used as a source of energy the life energy of life beings.Tsung became the "ruler" of the kingdom and made a new system ....(acceptence of prisoners...those who were "good" could go downstairs...but they had to survive a test called "the labyrinth"). It was actually a labyrinth with all kinds of obstacles...etc...=> neoreda...(too long to explain) (still dreaming this.) Dream 4 - N'Avana's dreams - age 8-10 N'Avana is daughter of Tsung...I will call it like this even though she wasn't actually the hero of the dreams. I watched several days or months of one person each time. It was all the time one person who survived the labyrinth and became one of Neorrs. These dreams vary a lot as the people are different and their "rank" is different. (I had many of these...pretty realistic...emotions strong...really nice...) => that girl on the island kingdom passing her test in that planets labyrinth => a boy who was supposed to infiltrate into the water world => the same person who had to kill one "neorr-prisoner" who broke the laws of neorr community (these three dreams were most lucid) Dream 5 - Water - first appearence around 7 yrs This is a dream where our capital city is flooded by water. It is not actually that striking...(the plot...) but the emotions, feelings...that is something I can't forget. People who are drowning next to you, the view of water coming at you, people who are frustrated in fear, confused, they don't know what to do....and then a group of children who decides to find out what happened. (stopped having it when the first big floods hit our capital) Dream 6 - the children and HASTE tree - first appearence 8 yrs This is an epic dream about group of five young people who walk around the world. The start their journey ....leaving from a normal civilized town. But they move on walking through mountains, desert, forests....etc. one day they arrive to a dark tunnel. They don't want to enter at first but they do it. They are locked down and they cannot get outside. Several minutes later there is a water coming down on them....they try to save them but they don't know how..so each of them swims else where...one of them decided to dive and look for something on the ground. This person swims through some other tunnels and gets to a place where people live. The others also get somewhere ..to a corridors leading somewhere. The dream ends here so I don't know how it ends. About that haste tree.... the tunnel (wierd...I know) is actually a tunnel through a high mountain. first the children had to get up to that tunnel. It is quite deserted place...no animals, no life (no grass, trees) etc except one dried tree. Everytime I dreamed this dream they found a small sheet of paper on which was written something. It was written in blood and it was always one word. The words were like "death", "water", "life", "hope" and the last one was "haste". I have no idea what that meant.. and also note that all the words except "haste" were written in my native language. Dream 7 - island - first appearence it's like 5 years now..I think... It is a dream about a community of people living on one sub-tropical island somewhere in the ocean. It is a dream about their everyday life until there is a disaster a great wave comes and floods the whole island. This tsunami disaster is much stronger experience to me..and I was pretty scared about it...I stopped having that dream after that tsunami in East Asia. That's it for the time being. I will try to think of other dreams I would like to write down. I don't know if I should write down dreams which were so intensive but I dreamed them once...and...then..hm..they are not that important or that strange to me. maybe later. Also if you would like to have details on those dreams just PM me or something. I can explain. I try to write enough info so I know what it was all about but I guess I will never forget it. (but well it might happen....)

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[size=18]Lukas Viktora Ok part 2. This time about dreams I had in last three days, because it is quite frightening to me and I don't know why. Dream 1 - 16/4/2006 yesterday what is wierd about this dream that it is actually not MINE..it feels strange. (I'm not present in the dream). There is a world where a community of people lives, they work in the fields, they can feed themselves by what they grow...There is one blond man with a scar on his right eye who wanders during the night around the fields. He looks to the sky and he seems like he would be searching for something. The problem is that he doesn't know what he's looking for. One day (at night actually..something terrible happens). I heard a lot of screaming and explosions but I couldn't say where it come from...I just see the fields and houses on fire people running and screaming around. The blond guy he runned away from all this to his cave (ok..sorry I forgot to mention this...he was kind of thief...he was stealing food to stay alive and he lived in a cave near the village). There was a woman waiting there. She had shord dark brown hair (she looked spanish...), was slim and her eyes were quite big but not spanish..more like..elven eyes..(ok..with this I mean like almond eyes..without fat around the eyes...but not asian eyes neither). She told him something I have no idea what and then she touched his scar. He looked at her..and I had a feeling like that he has found what he was looking for. After this I saw him "explode" in a flash of a white light...but actually he transformed himself..he was wearing an silver armor, had red cape and he was holding something in his hand (pole? spear? standard?..). Than the dream was cut and several minutes later I woke up again in my dream and I've seen him fly on something above the village which was recovering from the day before. I thought that he was flying on a dragon, but that was just my thought I haven't seen him fly on anything. Dream 2 - 15/4/2006 before "before yesterday" I dreamed about meeting one of my friends in Prague in one of the tea rooms there. I dreamed that we have merged together our energies. When we left and I parted I've met my boyfriend who was not that happy to see me. And than the dream has ended. I got a wierd feeling when I woke up (it woke me up..so..ehm). This dream was short but the feeling was too strong and the problem is that after this I was starting to dream about that blond guy. Dream 3 - 17/4/2006 today Again I've not been present in this dream (the blond guy yes). I dreamed about a person who was living on a space station. He was trying to figure out which organisme could survive on moon. (I don't know if it was Earth's moon or not). On the planet beneath that station scientists were trying to do the same thing. But they couldn't succeed. They decided to send a probe to the surface of that moon and let it leave it there some bacteries or whatever...then the dream was once again cut...(wierd...this does not happen in MY dreams). and then I've seen the person from the station in a pod heading to the moon...but the moon was full of green and purple plants!... note: today that friend of mine contacted me via skype and asked me about what I've been dreaming. He told me that he met me in his dream and that we merged our energies. and that he's looking for something but has no idea for what he's looking for. well...I have to say..it scares...me

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[size=18]Xsoft - shared dreams dream 1 - System Shock This is just a normal dream I would have said...but I dreamed about the same area and same objects several times and then I found out that it was at the same time as my boyfriend Xsoft. well, imagine a first person shooter...I could see what my eyes could see, I could hear and I could feel. I heard my breath...I was running in a building and I was chased by some other people but I never turned around to see them. They were shooting at me...but me I couldn't. I didn't have a weapon nothing...not even a knife. As I run I encountered object for health and other nonsense stuff but I continued on. Then I encountered one person with a knife in front of me. It was on some kind of a platform? ..more of cage..well how to explain this. (looked like a lasergame arena) he attacked me but I strafed away I kicked him with my left leg to his head (I've seen my leg there...in my field of vision), took his knife and continued on...I run down the stairs, passed several rooms and then there were large door in front of me. The people were still after me and I heard them coming...I opened the door and turned right...at that moment the door behind me exploded as it was hit by some kind of rocket weapon. this is where the dream ends. I dreamed this dream the first day I got it several times and it was the same all the time except one think...I wasn't thinking the same thing while running. When I saw it for the first time I just "watched" and felt the strain and I felt that I'm losing my breath. The second time I was thinking.."hey, it's wierd I don't have any weapon, and there's no weapon lying around". The third time I thought "what the hell is going on, I can't have dreams like this...and then I woke up". It was still middle of the night so I went back to my dream world. dream 2 - system shock 2 I guess this has nothing to do with the dream before...it was kind of illogic and blurry dream. After that door exploded I've run to a open area. I've seen the building behind me and there was another one like 300meters in front of me. Between those two buildings there was a tree. I decided to run to the second building....when I came closer to that tree other people emerged from nothingness. The people were dressed in red and blue uniforms (and the people were from Star Trek Kontinuum). I crouched behind the tree and watched them and I completely forgot those people chasing me. The ST people made two lines red line and blue one. And then they started to play some kind of a game...(something like the czech version of quidditch - something between basketball and catching something in the air). The wierd thing about this was that it was SO real. When it comes to nonsense I usually have blurred vision but this was clear. When the blue team caught that thinkg in the air (Samuel Thorn) the people who were chasing me showed up and started to shoot. Then it became pretty blurry and I couldn't see a thing, I proceeded to the other building and there I fainted. (there was my sister and molik who tried to help me and Sameul tried to take care about the rest of the people from the Kontinuum.) note: when I woke up...I had two things in my had "what the hell was THAT" and "was that my dream?" you know as I couldn't actually see from whose point of view the dream was seen I couldn't decide whether this was my dream or not. dream 3 - a wierd dream about a detective story....walt appearing and a pretty wierd labyrinth (just for me..I don't want to say much about this...well it was SO CONFUSING)

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Myself - dreams I can\'t figure out...</span> Matrix cat dreams (february 2006 first dream) Dream 1 I was alone at home for a quite long time and my cats were with my mother in the Czech Republic. I went to sleep and I woke up in my dream. It was a dream where I arrived to a hotel and was given a room. I went there unpacked my stuff, took a shower and went to bed. It was a room at ground floor and there was big window (from floor level to the ceiling). I left it open (I wonder why?). I fell a sleep. During the night I\'ve been waken by a black cat with a white spot. she was purring and was sitting on me. ...I wasn\'t that surprised and I let her be there and started to pat her..and blabla. Later the cat stood up and hopped down on the ground. She went in the direction of the window then turned around and looked at me. She was there sitting on the ground for a long time then left. Dream 2 Exactly the same dream except I was awaken during the night and I saw the cat coming and I was wondering what to do. Dream 3 The same dream but I decided to follow the cat. But as I got close to the window she run away. Dream 4. Same as before, I went to the window and I saw that black cat with other two cats there waiting for me and they started to miaow. I woke up at that moment in a real life and I heard cats miaoing outside, so I got up went to the room where my computer is situated. I looked out of the window and I saw these three cats sitting on my garden and looking at me. notes: the day after I got the second dream there was a black cat with a white spot who came to my door and waited there for me. I came opened the door and she was still sitting there...she wasn\'t afraid or anything. I entered and left the cat be. The day after I came home from school and there were all the three cats sitting there. It was wierd...The next day it was the same. The after they weren\'t waiting for me at the door but on my garden. I went outside the house (through such a big window as in my dream....hm) and went closer to them. The two other cats than the black one went few meters away but stayed there. I came closer to the black cat and it was looking at me with an intelligent look but I didn\'t know what to do ...say or where to go. So I decided to go home. When my parents arrived home it never happened again. It is quite a mystery to me. I just I don\'t know what it meant not to mention that the cats which were coming to my house were new to this area...now they are not here and...their behaviour was wierd for a normal cat (even a belgian cat) Dream 5 <span style="color:darkred"> 20/4/2006 today I dreamed about those three cats once again...but I don't remember much. I had a LD before that and I was quite tired after it... (just to mention that I dreamed about these cats once again..hm wierd...maybe I will have more of these dreams)

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[size=18]ITG Dreams/LDs Dreams started at the beginning of this year (february 2006). actually these dreams started after that LONG epic LD. for readers of this: I didn't want to write this down at first (as it is about a activity I do all the time and I'm asking myself why I do it), but it starts to bug me a lot. I get this dream often and mostly it is also a LD I can control but a LD I don't choose to dream (I do...and I don't...when this appears in my head..I just start swearing.."silly STsung..., what are you dreaming about..." but I always end up in this dream and cannot change it. Well I can wake up from it but that's not good for me.). I often find myself in the middle of arcades ...which has ITG2 machine there. I usually get there from my last LD or from my previous LD's places. It's usually dark at first, no one is there. I try to call to someone, turn on the light (but as I see all the time...hm ..). Today I decided to stop trying to call anyone and I just started to play (it took me a while as I had to plug that machine into a source, get service keys to get to service menu and set machine to freeplay, it was funny...unlikely I guess...but hm..it was fun....yeah I also looked for toilet and if there is a source of water. I searched the place for a camera and door which wouldn't be locked. But all the door is always locked...). I got tired a bit later, so I decided to play take a rest and play some easier songs (I ended up playing double on heavy). After several other songs I decided to rest. So I went to sleep. I fell asleep and I got waken up by someone stepping on the platform and by someone standing next to me. I woke up, stood up, took that person in my hands and I pushed him against a bar. Then I realized what happened, let him go and stepped back so he could recover. (I helped him). Then as usual I found out that I'm not me (for those who really read this...a bit of explication. check out the end of this post) and that the only language I speak is Japanese. I didn't say a word and waited for them to do something. They took me upstairs and let me sleep in their room. Usually at this point I continue "dreaming" about what could happen. Usually the two guys call the police, the police tries to find out who I am and where I came from. They usually find out my name (shiratori youko) but they never find my family. later my other me meets the real me. Tonight I decided to let them meet immediately....ehm..well the day after. In the morning they called the police but it didn't want to do anything about me. but they noted it down..they there's someone who just showed up like this, does not say a word..and seems to be lost... At 11 am (usual time of our meetings) my real me came to the arcades with my bf (her bf). I had to change the setting a bit. (usually the arcades is located in america or in the netherlands). This time I set it up somewhere in near future to the czech republic (but not to Lasergame). My real self went to the machine, put her card into the machine and played her three rounds and after that she realized that there was already someone signed as STSU on that machine and that woke me up. question: I wonder why the other me being me in the dream actually signed herself as STSU. Because it has nothing to do with her name. Maybe because it's some kind of a reflex that I sign myself like this? When my real self came to the machine and started browsing the results and saw those four letters there she was surprised. Her bf asked her if she was already there..and she said no...and that's the exact moment when I woke up. ... note for readers of this: Me -> http://www.czech-ddr.info/pics/stsitg2.jpg speaks all the languages I can speak...this can be pretty perturbing... other me -> other me is a girl at the same age, looking almost the same as I do. But she's more "perfect". She has the same abilities as I do but she can do better than me. She has shoulder-lenght hair and her eyes are flickering green while it is supposed to be dark in my dreams. (that's how I know if it is dark or not). otherwise she has dark brown eyes. She has a long scar on her abdomen. speaks japanese. tsung -> is my last me. he's male, he's looking like "other me" except that he has slightly wavy hair (at the end of hair). he's got also the scar on his abdomen. tsung speaks japanese and chinese.

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I will finish translating this later...tomorrow I leave to turkey..so..it won't be soon. Later I would like to add my other long lucid dreams..but...ehm..if this one is that long...I can't imagine the other dreams..-_-...maybe I should continue in entering a really short summaries as I did before...but I want to write it somewhere. [color=orange]Computer dream 1[/size] - one of my longest LDs. dreams started in january this year (2006) I woke up somewhere...on a plain. I heard a river nearby. Somewhere faraway there was a forest and a village. (actually this place exists in Forgotten Realms, it's one small village I created near High Forest and this place was a starting point for many of my LDs.) I decided to go to the village and not die in the process. On my way there I met a old man who was so kind that he taught me what I could eat and where I could find something to eat. Several days later I found a normal looking (for me) person near that very same river I woke up. He was dressed in a white shirt and in black trousers. nearby there was a bag (notebook bag...hm does it have a name?) I splashed water on him and gave him something to eat and drink. He woke up, we spoke a bit and I told him to join me. We were chatting a lot on our way and I found out that he's computer science graduate and that he's from England. We arrived to the village but we hadn't any money...so we rested outside the village during the night and went inside during the day. One day a ranger came...for a strange reason unknown to us at first...he started to teach us more about the nature and survival. Several weeks later we set on a long trip to the capital city (ehm...on the map..it's several hundreds miles...) During all our journey I found out that I can cast spells (both divine and arcane). Computer dream 2-5 maybe I dreamed about the journey about myself learning many spells and observing the nature. there were some moments where the English man was trying to seduce me..or tried to speak with me about something normal from our everyday life. we also tried to learn how to swordfight but that was kind of difficult for us and the first day I had this dream I was pretty exhausted and all my muscles ached....but nothing really interesting happened. Computer Dream 6 One day we arrived to the city, and tried to convince some people that we are good to work on the fields. one family accepted us (after a long day of asking all the farmers in the vicinity if they don't need help) We continued in learning fighting and I secretely was trying what I can do with my special powers. One day I found out that the ranger's aura is different from other people and that our aura is also different. and that maybe that's why he wanted to "help" us. (he was planetouched...wierd...^_~) Several weeks later the ranger has left. We got used to the everyday life at the farm. a prince from the town decided to marry and ordered that every young woman has to go to the city and see the prince. (I forgot to say one thing(actually more things..but one thing at a time....the first time I entered the city there was a fight between one kara-turian person and a city dweller...that kara-turian person wanted to avenge his sister...but died in that fight. he left his weapons to me...ehm..there was a whole bunch of dreams about his sister and me..so I will skipped that...) I went to see the prince and he liked me a lot. Maybe because I was quite exotic to him. that night he came to the farm and ask me if I don't want to go with him to the castle. I said why not and went there. He showed me the castle and introduced me to the king's mage. This mage wanted to show me something in his laboratory but I didn't want to enter because it was emanating a negative energy. The prince was kind and let me go "home". Several days later some brigands attacked the farms and stole food...but also killed some of the farmers and burned down several farms. We went to the city which was protected by city halls. But the farmer wanted to stay at his farm...his wife got killed... The prince looked for us and eventually found us. he invited us to his castle. and we stayed in the castle as guests. Soon we discovered a library and we started to read books about local history and geography (demography..more or less). We also found chronicles and legends. We found out that in one of the towers of the city's castle there is a sword in a stone. who takes the sword out and does not die in the process would become the king of the country and he would get the power of the sword. We questioned the mage about this and he told us the whole story (a long one...I want decribe maybe later). Well in other words...the mage found out that only a planetouched being can draw the sword from that stone (or its sheath). He also told us that the sword comes from kara-tur and that the person has to fulfill other requirements (speaking japanese, ability to cast both divine and arcane spells, using the life energy and fighting skills). I don't know why but I decided to give it a try and maybe die...It would end my dream or it would continue. The scene where I go upstairs and I try to convince myself to do it took quite a long time in my dream...but I finally decided to do it...and I managed to touch the sword and get it out of the stone. Later they named me a queen. (other details not mentioned...) I decided to create a council (the royal family + that english man) a long period of trying to do something with the laws has begun... Dream 7 During that period I experienced a lot with my energy and also with magic and one day I found a way how to charge a notebook. (note 2: you should know one thing...when I appeared in this world I was dressed in a black t-shirt and black trousers and I got my flashdrive named Space-chan hanging on my neck. second thing...that English man has one also...) After many years later the city was under siege. An army with gunpowder weapons were there waiting... We went downstairs (from the rampart...) and demanded a speech. Two people came to speak with us, and we thought that the second one seems to clean to be a person from this period. Later we found out that he is there against his will and that he comes also from our world (IT by the way) The city survived the army's attack and we captured the "IT". We wanted some information. We found out that he has a flash drive with him and still working one. [a long period I will skip, actually we started getting information together and we started writing a diary. we wrote also a basic information about the world, creatures living there etc.] One day we did not wake up in our beds but in a cave with about 20 other people. all hackers, crackers + me. The people who got us there told us that they have a task for us and if we succeed they would let us go. The task was to get into one computer. The problem was that the computer was made from one piece of metal. There was nothing like cables..but it communicated data... From the screen it was clear it wanted a password..but what kind of a password? No one has ever seen this kind of letters and trying to figure out how to execute what you would write there... Well, no one knew what to do... But later I did the first contact with the entity residing in the computer. I found out that it really is some kind of a computer. It was a computer build by one ancient race now extinct. The computer stored all "data" from all the living "human" beings on the planet. When someone died he was converted to an energy which was processed by the computer, translated and then encrypted. Well, the computer actually had a consciousness....actually more than one. There were three of them. The one I was speaking to was the primary one and the other two were backups if something would happen to the first. After many other conversations I got the password. But I needed to learn their alphabet. and it wasn't that easy...as there was no sense to the letters itself and I couldn't just say that this "symbol" is A and this one is "B". Later I finally got the password in

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[size=18]Myself - dreams I can't figure out “5 kingdom dream” - 6/5/2006 With my eyes I've seen the screen of my computer. I connected myself to some kind of IRC channel (but later I found out that it was actually something else^_~). I’ve seen my nickname in users column and zupertails’. That woke me up enough to be conscious of what is going on. More users connected a while later and then someone started the game. It was strategic game. There was a a war between five kingdoms. The players were the rulers of these kingdoms and were giving the orders. This dream can seem as nothing special to you but it was really vivid and realistic for me and the battle was something awesome and terrifying at the same time. There was one more thing to it. At the end of the war/game there was something like “total score”. On the screen I could see the ruler (myself) and his standard behind. The weird thing was that on the standard there was written Flawless Victory (but it wasn’t THAT flawless...) and that's what woke me at 6 am. "gate dream" - started when I was little...I got a part of that dream about a week ago.. just a short description of this epic dream: it is a dream about a group of five people who are lost on a planet. They move from one place to another to find a civilization or someone who could help them. One day they meet a group of people who are hostile to them but after a small fight they tell them that they are on some kind of a prison planet and that the territory they came to is not theirs and they should leave. my party left and tried to find a place where they could settle down. they did it and few days later they were attacked by another group of people who was looking for food. it happened more times and they always managed to survive. one day there were three people who came in peace and wanted to join them. They find out that these people live there for a long time and that they know a lot about the place and they also told them one important thing. The thing was that they can leave from this place by the way they came in. My party had no idea how they got there but later they were told that everyone who ends up on that planet appears in a river or lake. my party didn't seem to remember this but later one of them remebers that she was in a river drowning and that she pulled out the others of the river. but she was so exhausted that she fell asleep right away and it was a miracle that they all survived that day. the water in this dream is pretty important. it gives life, it can take the life and also it works as some kind of portal between places. the group looks for information about how to make the water take them to another place and they finally find it. Some of them die in the process but those who rest have valueable information and enough experience to live on. Several years later they find a place where the people who put them there are. they create a resistence and start to fight them.

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marty, molik, stsung 19/6/2006 I went to sleep at 4:30 pm and woke up at 5:40. But I managed to get to LDs during this period. The wierd dream which took me to that world was about me, Marty and Molik. We decided to go somewhere together and we went there by a car. Later in the dream we arrived in a forest. There were small roads and a lot of serpentines. Few moments later there was a tree in front of us, everyone in fear, Marty trying to brake but in vain...at this moment I started to think a lot about my life and that I can't die now, not now because I have my friends around and that I have a boyfriend waiting for me... that's when I "woke up" for the first time. The second time, I was in my bed woking up. (I did not check the time) and I just lay there thinking about a lot of things and then I realized that it is supposed to be afternoon not morning...that made me panick a bit as I had an impression that it is dark outside. After a while I continued just playing with my dream but I finally woke up and this time the first thing I did was check the exact time on my cell phone. I have to say I was glad that I was really awake. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- note: I have read a post about dream themes and signs...just for myself... themes: *myself commiting a seppuku. *waking up in the arcades (with some dance machine) *waking up in hospital with a wound in my abdomen sign: *looking at my abdomen and seeing there a clear long scar

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22/7/2006 Yet another Magic The Gathering Dream I dreamed about going to pre-release of Coldsnap (well, the pre-release was that day). I was there with my friend and we played as a team against other players. The dream was only about the actual game play but it was kind of wierd as it was not really Magic The Gathering. The rules were changed. It was a mixture between Duel Masters (using creatures/spells as mana source), Magic: The Gathering and Star Trek: CCG (Events - ehm don't ask how my mind managed to put event into magic...). But it seemed logic and it seemed that it could actually work. Titan Dream It stared like a Might and Magic dream. Except I was there with a group of youngsters and we were actually powerless, without any abilities, without weapons. We were running away from a titan and we were trying to hide ourselfs in ruins of a crystal city (kind of). In that city we developped special abilities and we tried to used them against the Titan. But still he was shooting at us...we were running frenetically around and tried to figure out what we could do. It was quite scary.... HP company With the same group of youngsters from the previous dream I showed up somewhere in a civilized country (could have been belgium or the netherlands). We stayed in a park like Six Flags and then we spent the night in Hewlett Packard (spelling?) company (it was actualy IBM...but ehm?...the time did not correspond). It was just wierd being there...walking the corridors of the building at night, looking at all those computers and printers in the offices and so on. it just felt wierd...

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23/7/06 Asuka vs Undead I have no idea how I came to this idea...but I woke up in the midst of undead creatures. ..ok I will start over... Asuka a young girl with shiny pink hair and dressed in shiny pink dress was meant to get her pull in her parents flat. She went back with the pull. She was witness of murder of her parents by some people. Those people caught Asuka. Asuka woke up a day later in a cell, alone. Later a group of people came and they did not seem normal to her. Asuka managed to run away and steal some kinf of "flyer". She flew on it and tried to get out of the island where she stayed with her parents for last 14 days. [...long story about running away] Asuka met a young boy who told her that he is "alive" and that he will take her to a refuge. This place is meant for all the living beings in this hostile world. She didn't trust him but she agreed on it. She was alone for a long time and she couldn't fight the undead. He could. He developped a mental force which could hurt the undead and he was armed. They managed to get to the refuge. during the way Asuka was able to see the headquaters of the undead and was deceived...(don't ask me why...but they were dutch...I have nothing against them...hm). She also saw training of the undead army trained also by dutch senior officers. At last they arrived to the refuge. They had to enter it by a half-globe from some transparent stone. Inside that globe was an orb. The boy explaiened asuka that it is the source of their power but that no one can really operate it. The refuge was under attack and Asuka decided to try her luck with that orb. She succeeded in what the living couldn't succeed in about hundred years. She got rid off the attackers and create a better defense against those undead creatures. Asuka was led into the underground city where the living live...she was shown to all those people, she was given a rank (because she was capable of using the orb) and was proclamed as a savior of the living. She was given a new dress and place where to live. A new life started for Asuka. EDIT: I forgot to mention one important thing - the dream was with all the possible sounds and speach....I could hear people talking, yelling, crying, sounds of the nature, the flyer...everything...that's why I was so amazed with this dream when I woke up.

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25/7/06 MtG + Katana dream I was sitting on tribune in a crowd of people. There were several young people playing Magic: The Gathering in front of me (Type I, "ancestral recall"). This card made me change the dream and to take action... I got up went down from the tribune and stood on a sandy ground. I started to move forward leavind that tribune (and all that noise) behind me. After all the sounds were gone two people joined me. They told me that they are on a quest. They were looking for an ancient sword (length about 80cm...shorter than katana, longer than wakizashi. - Actually saya looked more interesting to me^_~). We found a secret entrance in rocks nearby which led to underground where the whole adventure could begin. I just let them go and followed them, trying to stay in behind so no one could attack me and that I wouldn't spring any trap. The place looked more like ancient Cambodia temples than an underground temple.... There were many plants growing all over the place, there was light everywhere, it was all quite light. It was beautiful, but deadly for some as there were many traps. We found the weapon on an altar in the middle of the temple. They took it and went back to me. ---------cut The dream continued in our real world. I had the sword and I needed to get back to my country by plane, but they wouldn't let me. The last person I spoke to was a security woman who told me that I cannot have any weapons there....this woman had ginger straight hair, shoulder-length. She had pale skin, her veins could be seen. Her eyes were dark and bloody. Several moments later I realized that she's undead and that I've already seen her somewhere. ---------------------------------------- DDR Extreme Arcade Dream (First appearence two years go) It's just a dream where I find that there is a "hidden" arcade in one chinese restaurant in our city. The restaurant is near one of our city's tower. In the building where the restaurant is - there are also arcades and flats for people. The hidden extreme machine is in a cellar of the owner of the chinese restaurant. I went there several times in my dreams...but it was scary for me...(I never stood on that kind of machine in that time) Nothing wierd about that dream (except that it is a "Dance Dance Revolution" dream"). This time I went there as usual, I was afraid as usual...but what I couldn't stand was...that when I entered the room with DDR EXT I saw that undead woman playing Dive on light there. I woke up fast after seeing her turning her head to me and seeing her face...her eyes...the look in her eyes...*scary* --------------------------------------- ...grr...I forgot the last dream I wanted to share...but that undead creature crept to that dream also

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Amegon + Undead woman + "Gigacenter" dream One day I went to Germany with my parents and we stopped somewhere just to have a brake from driving for a while. I went to the arcades nearby (there was DDR EXT). I met Amegon (German DDR player) there. We had a chat and we played a bit.... Suddenly a group of strangers entered the room and chained us up. They took us into a van and drove us somewhere. Then we flew somehwere. We were put in cells. We waited what would happen ....for a long time no one came. Several days later after being treated like prisoners we were taken to a nice high tech building. We were sitting on the ground when one woman came with her body guards. She had ginger hair, pale skin with bluish tint..etc etc. It was this undead woman I spoke in previous post. She told us that (almost) everyone on the planet is inficated by a virus which turns the people into undead creatures and that we are a sample of the living people and she needs our help. We found out that it was a group of living people who was turning living into walking dead. The group led by this ginger haired undead woman was the good one. They tried to find a cure or at least something which would stop it (because it was irreversible). [long story now...to lazy to write it down] Finally we managed to find the cure and we wanted to release it in the atmosphere. We were all sitting in a plane the ginger haired woman group, me, amegon and several others. We were attacked by those evil living ones and our plane crashed somewhere "in the middle" of germany. but the antimutagen was released and the mutagen stopped turning living into dead. --------------------- I was afraid of this dream for a long time...but today after seeing this young undead lady in several normal dreams ...I have to say that I'm more scared of her. She was the good one in this dream but in the other dreams she was against my actions..(that I couldn't go past her..)

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26/07/06 Tonight I had just another serie of nasty dreams about my bad physical condition. I will give an example...(hope it's not written anywhere else already) I was at public place - shopping mall. I went up the stairs and I was attacked by two people who wanted to get my eyes out of my head. In this moment the time slows down nd it's like a slow motion movie. I watch how my eyes get ripped, I feel the pain, I feel the horror..I start to realise that I'm blind, I won't be able to see...and so on. Another bad part comes when I wake up...feeling terrible pain in my eyes..Can't open them at first and then I finally do. I'm relieved that the eyes are in their place but I feel the pain. When I went to see my eyes...they were all red, like a zombie's eyes. Today my nails were losing their constitution and someone pierced my fingernail with something...the nail wasn't hard as it normally is but soft and fragile...I ended up with my finger pierced. Well, this wasn't that scary...but scary enough. I woke up in with pain in my finger...scared to look at it. The problem with this dreams is that I don't usually wake up during the nasty part, but I usually wake up after that part...hard breathing, scared and usually in pain of that body part. Today it were my eyes, finger and my stomach...what else it will be next time? -------------- Note: I have no idea why but someone cut my another finger with that ancient katana from yesterday. I wonder why? That sword starts to make me crazy...

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26/8/2006 I get many dreams about the european and world championship (in ITG and DDR). about my mistakes and the rules which were disadvantage to me. Later tonight I calmed down and entered one really old dream. I was flying around the city where I live, I could see all the buildings, it was night, dark but I could see the stars and the moon. The lights were lit. It was so beautiful. Much better than those frustrating dreams...(gotta get rid of them soon..) (just to keep track of it.) -was pretty vivid and full of emotions... 27/8/2006 The day after I got a dream about me getting to an island and living there for a while. I learned how to fish in the shallow waters there. There was already a group of people living there and they helped me to survive (they didn't want to leave the island). I decided to leave the island and go back to the mainland. I got there, but i was purchased by the "police". I was running around in a renessaince world, with a rapier and tattered clothes. -was pretty vivid and full of emotions... 28/8/2006 I don't know what I was thinking or watching that day but I got a dream about a group of scientifist who were doing some observations on a big birds (with big I mean HUGE..bigger than a human being). There was this group of scientifist who were the good guys, and travelled along with the birds. Then there was a group of bad guys. People who wanted to kill all those birds claiming that those birds are abberations and that they do not belong to our world. The good guys tried to save the birds and were fleeing away with them, looking for a place were they could happily live... quite wierd as dream.. 29/8/2006 I got another dream from the that sea/islands world. This time I was a man but a female inside my head. I had some kind of black matter with me. I wanted to know what it is and why I have it. One day I met a man who told me that this "stone" comes from one island where you can find a big vulcano. He told me that a wierd old man lives there. That man proclaimed one day that everyone who can get to him will be rewarded. He can say a wish and he would do it. (he is some kind of a powerfull wizard). Then he told me where the problem lies (in getting there). The whole island is a labyrinth with deadly traps, puzzles and illusions. Finally I decided to go there. I found another crazy man who decided to go there and we went there together on his ship. [the labyrinth adventure...too difficult to describe...but there were areas which were from this world, areas from the past, from the "renaissance" timeline..etc. scary and fun at the same time...a pity that my cat woke me up in the middle of the labyrinth]

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26/12/2006 well, I left dreamviews for a long time and I don't really have the will to write my dreams down. but there is one thing I want to write down. for about a month I'm taking Magne B6 (calcium, magnesium + B6). I have it for my problems with sleeping (I always slept pretty bad and this helps a lot). With this and maybe that vitamin B6 I get many more dreams than I was already getting. I can have about ten dreams at one night and remember them in the morning. I usually just keep those I liked in my mind. I started filtring dreams because I became overwhelmed with them. my dreams are more vivid and I don't wake up from them as I did before. my dreams are less troubled and my lucidity level is kind of at one level (don't like this much) if not induced (induced meas for me higher lucidity and better control). I started getting those nonsense dreams as everyone else does. still I have those dreams where I am lucid and they make sense and are logic. seems like without that B6 I ignored everything which didn't make sense. ----------- note: I know that this isn't a dream, but for me it's quite a precious information and I wanna keep it here.

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5-DEC on a different forum someone asked me what I dreamed about today so I wrote it down and as I've done that there I will post it here. Dream1 This night I dreamed about taking part in Tekken Dark Resurrection tournaments and I ended up 4th in the first tournament. I played with Hwoarang and I seemed to be complete lamer/noob but I managed to understand the system etc. I was invited to other tournament later on so I went there and tried my luck again. but this time I played with some lady dressed like Asuka in her traditional (not for fighting) Japanese outfit that was PINK o_O Later on I realized that each character in the game has a different life bar (kind of) and that beating certain character with basic moves is easier or tougher depending on it. Asuka's value was 30, hwoarang's was 15. So well people were usually playing with characters with higher values of this and that's why I impressed them with my hwoarang. The game changed a bit later too as the characters in the game started using weapons. It was more like soul calibur game but still it was in Tekken's graphics and mostly tekken chars. My Asuka was fighting either with staff and boken. Dream2 The second dream I had tonight was much more crazy. the last one was as well... The second one was about me running away from something. It was in the mountains. Everywhere was deep snow and ice. The scenery looked nice but dangerous in the same time. We were there a group of people in some hut somewhere and having fun skiing and snowboarding. But one day something terrible happened. Some kind of icy/snowy leviathan destroyed the nice place everybody was staying and thus all of us started to run away from that dangerous beast and all the avalanches etc. So me skiing I chose a way and started to ski down from the slopes. We couldn't go straight on the normal ways so sometimes we had to go to places that were really dangerous, a lot of jumping, dangerous tricks were needed etc. It was nice till I broke one of my skis and ended up buried under the snow. Someone got me out of that though. so I continued in sliding down the slope....and well the area was getting more and more icy and less snow was available. somewhere even grass showed, some small trees and that was even far more difficult to get over. the avalanches were behind us all the time, roaring ..... Dream3 The last dream I remember was about a group of children, teenagers that ended up for some unknown reason in some underground city. it was in tunnels that seemed more like subway corridors. There were many alleyways and crossings. it was a real net like ....one block distance was short though. the difficulty of orientation in the corridors was something like trying to figure out where to go in Quest For Glory 2. The dream was about one boy who just showed up there. All the people showing there get there unconscious.Are collected by some older people there who just put them in a room where other children are. They take care about them (not really that much), feed them, teach them some things like from elementary school. But they do not let them outside. This boy wanted to know where he showed up, what the place is, and from where he came. So he started his adventure. He started spying on his 'teachers' as I called those guys from the underground complex. Learned that they are some kind of scientists running experiments in the underground complex and that most of them do experiments of their own and they do not really share their results with the rest of the teachers. One day he ventured further in the corridors and was a witness of some experiment that kind of consisted of dissection of the subject alive. I remember that he was interested in brain and functions and finding out many things about it but from well kind of inside and he managed to hold his subject alive and conscious for the whole experiment. Protagonist was disgusted by and in hurry ran away, getting lost. He found himself somewhere completely elsewhere. the place was abandoned. it seemed that normal people were living here.there were houses from rocks with wooden door, windows etc. seemed normal but from like 30 years ago? he continued his senses going back to him. he found out that the place is very old but there is no dust, no bodies, nothing that would show that the people have left long time ago, died or whatever. he even found a school with classrooms. everything seemed to be left in hurry in the middle of classes. at this point he heard fast pacing people closing in, so he rushed out of the school and started running. in his hand though was a sheet of paper on which was written a certain crossing. he started looking for it hoping that if he finds the place he might find the way out. ---- he did not managed to get there, was knocked unconscious by the teachers after a long run across the corridors....I woke up after this because someone entered this house. -_-

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I don't know why but the last three nights were...quite scary. And believe it or not the ducks were the most frightening part...I decided to write these down, because I wasn't so frustrated by (non-nightmare) dream so much in a really long time. 29/3/2010 A dream in which I was a mother. My child was about ten years old. He was going to school and coming back quite early in the afternoon. Later he started coming home late. I did not know the reason. One night I had a dream that I woke up in the middle of the night. I ran out of my bedroom and ran up to a balcony. Outside it wasn't that black as it should be. Something was throwing some light on the walls. I stood there on the balcony and I don't know why but I turned my head up...and what I saw? I saw a lady in a silvery/gold armor, underneath a white robe that seemed longer than her own body. She had a curly, red hair, a crown on her head. In one hand she was holding a sword. She was starting down on something on the otherside of the balcony. I came there to see what it is and realized that it was my son. I ran back into the house and then outside. My son was running fast away from the angel. I followed both the baneslayer angel and my son. Soon two other BSAs started to follow us. My son made few turns and started running back to the house. Baneslayers followed...he ran into the house and was running up the stairs. One of the angels came down on the ground and just stood there. The other two flew to the balcony I was standing minutes ago and tried getting in the house. I followed my son up the stairs to his room. There I saw cards everywhere...That woke me up. In the morning I let my son go to school. Then I went to his room and found cards of the game that I left behind years ago. I went through them and then decided to check what the game looks like 10 years after I stopped playing it. It felt weird. I started to wonder at that time what should I do. My child started to play a game that I couldn't stop playing. I always came back to it. I was wondering what I'm going to tell him when he comes back from local FNM. I had many other thoughts but those were more personal than this.... note: for others. Baneslayer Angel is a very powerful card in the card game Magic: The Gathering. After the dream kind of ended I was trying to figure out what my child would be if I ever have one. I fear that the child would be similar to me and I'm not sure if I could handle that. The dream started as quite a calm normal dream about me and my son. Everything was normal till the time something started to go wrong and the idea of 'what if my sons spends the time in arcades hall or game stores' is what made me lucid. I let the dream flow and see where it would come. I expected how it would end but I did not expect that 3 BSAs would be running after me. It was pretty frustrating dream. 30/3/2010 I have no idea what happened this day. I was exhausted and my mind was trying to decide how should I finish everything for school. Out of nowhere I found myself in a park. Green grass, trees around me, leaves falling from the trees. Leaves on the ground...few ponds nearby. The main thing in the dream though were ducks. o_O For some reason I spent my whole "dream time" staring at ducks going to water and back. I have to say that it scared me... note (2/4): I dreamed in colors and chaos but then I appeared in the park and that caught me offguard. My brain seemed to be really tired and not able to focus. This made me lucid enough to care what's going on. I got interested in what would happen...but then...nothing just me staring at those ducks. It felt good, I needed time to stop and rest... In my real life the day after my point of view on stuff changed. I no longer cared about how the work is done and I just did what I felt was right. The work is more or less finished now. Most of the tension and bad feeling is gone. 31/3/2010 Today's dream was far more complicated and far more action packed. A group of three teenagers was 'planeswalking' and ended up on a plane that looked like a big jungle. (let's call it Mercadia). Anyway in this place there were human tribes living there. Normally these tribes were fighting among each other but one day...a different tribe came. People of the tribe looked the same as the others but they wielded a magical power. They could fly and cast spells that could kill instantly and from distance. The battle has began. The human tribes made an alliance and tried to keep those alliens at bay. They did not want them to reach their sanctum (somme big trees they actually lived in). The three teenagers lived in one of the tribes and were gathering information about the place. They were more interested in source of magical power though and that is what they were seeking - a way out of the plane. They found out that the people of this tribe were capable of only using artifact constructs that could serve them. They did not seem magical but they were powered by stones that seemed magical. One day someone came to the tribe telling them of the war. All of them thus were on a way to intercept the aliens. The teenagers were amazed by the power of the aliens and started wondering where it comes from. Later on they were told by the eldest that long long time ago the ancestors of the tribe came from a BIIIIG rock. The rock was located south of the sanctum and it took normally 5 days to reach the top. The teenagers tried to infiltrate the aliens and find more information about them. What they found out is that someone from the big rock is giving them orders. And one of the first orders was to reach the sanctum and destroy it. Thus the three decided to reach the top of the rock to speak with the 'general' (that was called -the god- by the aliens) They knew that if they won't reach the top in 3 days the bad guys would probably reach the sanctum and destroy it. They decided to try their best and make a record of climbing that rock. They succeeded. The reached the top and entered a cavern that was there. In it they found many constructs and some of them were still functioning. At the end of the cavern they saw a more or less transparent face (in the wall...). It started to talk to them. That they should leave blabla. They started to argue with 'the god' later finding out that it is a strong being that was caught in between two worlds and wants to get back to either of those worlds. The three boys told him that they also are seeking a way out of his place and that they could work together. The mystery could be solved by starting to study the constructs (they proposed). After a long conversation the god decided to end the war and start examining the constructs and its power stones.

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1/4/2010 In my first dream I had I just couldn't really do anything about it. I dreamed about drawing a fast sketch of a landscape. There was a river, some rocks around it and some trees. In my dream I saw each pencil stroke...after I was done I started coloring it but to my surprise I used felt-tip pens for it. I started with the water being blue. I made some lines first and then I used "dots" to color the water. later I added bit of yellow and pink and other hues of blue. The riverside was doted in browns, red and some ochre color.The rocks around it where in hues of gray, dark brown and black. When this was done I started using different colors to make different 'shades' and 'lightnings' for that I used completely different colors. For example tan for the rocks. I was continuing with this till the whole paper was all in different colors. In the end it looked well. Probably school and everything lately is too much for me. Might this be the reason for so unlikely dreams? It was similar to those ducks. (Later I dreamed of opening magic boosters and the expansions I considered were legions and onslaught...why this came to my mind I have no idea)

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3/4/2010 One day before the 'main' Easter holiday and I was dreaming about doing blotchy easter eggs. (huh..I don't have dreams like that usually) 4/4/2010 Tonight I dreamed a dream I already had years ago. In this dream there is an artifact - clockwork pendant. It's wielder will stop aging. This artifact was placed in some labyrinth underneath a castle that was dedicated to clockwork machines. The artifact had a guardian guarding it, the guardian was a young short haired, blond lady. She loved clocks and she loved to roam the labyrinth. One day though a thief entered the labyrinth in search of this artifact and she came after him. This thief was different than all those others that she was forced to kill as they did not want to leave without the artifact. The thief was very insistent in his search and spent many days and nights in the labyrinth. He came really close to find it. The blond lady fell in love with him and decided to follow him into the "real world". As she spent ages in the labyrinth she had no idea how the modern world looks like. She was following him to a modern city (like london). Her whole new life began. She found out that she needs a job in order to get money and a place were to live as this is the standard of 'living'. At first she camped in an old abandoned abbey. During days she was trying to find a job. No one wanted to accept her help. She was too strange to most. Her primarily skills were stealth and silent assassination. She wasn't much of a social person. In the meantime she was trying to find out what her 'thief' was doing. An archaeologist was the occupation of her 'thief'. She was slowly gathering information about this occupation and tried to find a way how she could become one as well. Her knowledge of old 'artifacts' and buildings from her area is vast but how ever cared about such a place? She found out that without proper education and such she won't be able to achieve what she wants and thus tried to work as a cleaning woman at the place her thief had an office. A month has passed and she learned quite a lot about him. She found out that he already has a girl but has problems with her as she can't stand his overnight researches and studies etc. She also started to go through his notes and found out that the reason why he is looking for the artifact. He has a sister who has a genetic disorder because of which she is destined to die in few years time. He loves her too much to lose her and that is why he would like to find this artifact and give it to her. Few months has passed and the thief finally meets the blond girl. They chat for a while and she reveals to him her own interested in the 'clockwork castle'. She also tells him that she heard about the artifact but that's all. He gets excited and starts to tell her about his research and the artifact. Later he actually started to date her and fell in love with her as well. Later the time for another trip to the labyrinth came. This time both of them went there. In the labyrinth she followed our thief for a long time till he reached the place he got caught last time. This time he got caught by someone else though. He knew nothing about the guardian or the traps in the labyrinth. The blond did though and went to encounter the guardian. She found him and she found out that the guardian is actually the master who build the castle. She tried to explain him what happened and why they are there. He was angry and wanted to beat her but later just turned around and left (skill keeping the guy trapped). The lady then went to a room full of flasks and vials and chose one. She drank it and then she flew! She flew through the labyrinth and at certain places she started to work on clockwork devices that were scattered all around the place. When it got done the trap released her lover. She came to him and told him that it would be better if they would leave. After some time he gave up and they both left. Back in England, he was sad about the last visit and completely psychically destroyed. He was unable to concentrate and was incapable of continuing in a normal life. His depressions were getting worse and worse and with that even his sisters state. He died two years later, never realizing that there was something wrong with his girl - she never ate, never slept. She never asked questions and never had thoughts about a family or a child. The blond girl visited the 'thief's' sister and gave her the clockwork pendant, telling her just that she should wear it as a memory of her brother. And she did just that... The blond girl returned to the labyrinth were she died few days later of starvation and water deprivation. This dream touched me strongly for some reason and I don't know why I dreamed it... But I have to say that the pendant in the sisters hand stayed in my head for the whole day and it is there still right now. I don't know what this meant but it was a strong experience...and the blond girl looked so familiar. But I can't remember knowing someone like that...

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5/4/2010 Ok, this night the dream was far beyond my imagination. That's probably because I was really exhausted. Imagine a small island far away from a shore. On one side a rock and the water being really deep on the other a normal (tropical) shore. On the rock side now imagine a wooden house in which about ten people can live. From the inside of the house you can go via a tunnel (in the rock) into a series of caves. Big ones^^. Now imagine that ten teenagers are living there. Gathering water some spring, eating mostly fruits and fish and that's about it. Each morning all of the children wake up and they jump into the seawater. They swim in there, dive and they try to retrieve as much food as they can so they have something to eat.They have something like knives and spears made from broken stones but otherwise they have nothing. This dream was going on for some time till a big boat arrived and wanted to catch the children and get them out of the place. They did not want to go, so they were swimming around the island, hiding in the caves or hiding in the jungle. Unfortunately they were all caught later and brought to the ship. After this I only remember that the very same group of teenagers was in our house in Beroun living there. It started as a scene where you could see all the teenagers working together in the garden, in the kitchen. Playing games and simply having fun. In the garden they were trying hard to grow exotic fruits but they weren't that successful with it (in a greenhouse). Few years later a world war came. I have no idea who fought whom, but the war machines arrived to this country and this house. The teenagers did not want to give up their new home and thought for it. I had quite a lot of scenes of battle that were impossible to survive. Like one of the children gripping a spear and running towards a tank (and being killed by it). After all of the teenagers died my dream ended and I don't remember anything. Just darkness in my head... The setting was like of a world war 2, and most of the scenes were in our house's vicinity. It's hard to imagine that war machines would come up here to destroy anything....but anyway it's a dream. In the morning I was woken up by my father leaving the house. I fell asleep once again and then I dreamed about myself being taught how to play Legend of the Five Rings. I got some Mantis starter and I played against Dragon deck. I was struggling with the rules and that's what wake me up later (but I was too lazy to search in the rule book, hehe).

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6/4/2010 I dreamed of my being in a medieval prison. I was trying to escape but I couldn't figure out a way out. 7/4/2010 I had few nightmarish dreams this night and in between those I was being chased by Baneslayer angel with a sledge in her hands which did not add to my already troubled state. The last dream I had was about me needing to seduce a young Asian girl (even better dream). She was taller than me, even slimmer with pale skin and short black hair. She was smiling all the time... Whatever...I'm not sure if this was better than a BSA with a hammer. How about better dreams this night?. 8/4/2010 I couldn't fall asleep and then I was waking up many times (yesterday as well). I had several fractioned dreams I don't remember. First of them was me being outside going somewhere and having the feeling of being able to touch the clouds. So I was trying to catch them. They seemed to be so low in the sky... The last dream was about me competing in BEMANI TopRanker. I woke up went to the computer and found out that I placed first in our region for TopRanker. I realized that this means that I should play in the final tournament. As I couldn't come to Japan I could play online with e-amusement on and a webcam. In the dream it was mainly about me trying to manage my nerves and trying to do my best in a game I'm not really that good. In the dream I could clear mei [a] but I couldn't get a high score comparable to top Japanese players. In the finals I was forced to play Nageki no ki [a] and that's when I started to feel like 'even if I had four hands I wouldn't be able to do well on it'. One one side I was glad I could compete on the other hand I knew I wouldn't be able to stand a chance. note: I think that no matter the game I was trying to solve my everlasting problem with me not being self confident. In the dream I gave up before playing the last song and this should not be happening, because many times I've lost in tournaments just because of this. And I am capable of playing most songs well and still win with my scores on them, same goes to Magic tournaments where me giving up means changing of my play style. I should not be doing this.

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9/4/2010 I haven't slept today. 10/4/2010 I went to sleep at 2 am, couldn't fall asleep and when I finally did all I remember is that I woke up and it was time to go (National Qualifiers Pilsen) 11/4/2010 I tried to go to sleep at 7pm. I couldn't fall asleep till 10pm. So I got up and stayed up for some time. I gave it another try but couldn't so again I was up. At 2am I finally managed to get into a state that was close to being capable of falling asleep. I remember only one dream from today. Me and two other people, young men we were somewhere in the mountains. There was a village maybe with 200 inhabitants. We stayed there in a hut. It was freezing but nice. We could go to ski or just enjoy the snow. During nights we were spending in local bar/arcades hall playing games, billiard and such. One night we woke up and her the police coming. We all got up and started running. We knew the place already and the paths in the mountains. We ran as fast we could and disappeared in the forest and mountains. Police had difficulties following us. After a long run, being all wet, hungry and exhausted we showed up beneath the mountain in a city just at the base of the mountain. There were looking for some way of getting out of that place. One of the guys found a small yellow car parked just in the middle of nowhere. We stole it and went on a ride out of the (French speaking) country. After a day we had to stop. We stopped in some motel and wanted to have some rest. The police seemed to be lost far behind us. We slept for some time, but then the police was coming for us once again and it was once again the time to move on. We jumped into the yellow car once again and drove the last few hundred kms to the border. We never got caught. I have no idea why the three of us were being chased or where and why we were there. At first it seemed like a town I remember from Alaska and the country could be Canada. But the car and the habits of the people were really French. The dream was pretty long even though it does not seem so. the first part of running in the mountains was the most vivid part with most details (even though it was in the night). ---------------------- There's one more dream I would like to write down. It's a recurrent dream. I was a woman studying a nation living high in the mountains. The nation was somewhat indian/tribal one. They were living in caves and wooden huts, growing stuff, eating animals they could catch. There were deep forests around the place they lived in. The head of the tribe was a shaman who lived in a hut placed at the highest spot of the place. You actually had to climb your way up and it wasn't easy to get there. I was living down with the other people and I was trying hard to be one of them. It was difficult though. Each week I had to climb up to the shaman's place and be there with him. He was telling me something of the history of the people and of all they had to achieve to build their village there. After this he gave me a task each day. The tasks differed. One being - try to catch a local animal and bring it here, dead and ready to be cooked. Another was come with a rope and spear. Other was simply go climb that wall over there and start a fire on top of it. The tasks were difficult and required a lot of time for untrained person but I was capable of doing all them even though I had real difficulties with them. The shaman also had a familiar - some kind of (predatory) bird. It always amazed me how such a big bird can be calmly sitting in front of the man's hut and doing practically nothing. It was taking orders from the shaman though. And that was a mystery to me. After all the tasks that consisted of trying to teach me how to survive in the wilderness were finished the shaman invited me into his hut and asked me to stay there overnight. I slept there and I had weird visions. A visions that something is wrong in the village. I couldn't say what it is. In the morning I realized that from what the shaman was telling me the number of people in the (big) village is decreasing. He was never mentioning anything about newborns. When I was walking down in the village I was watching the people closely. All of them were calm and everyone was doing what they had to with a precision that was almost impossible to believe. Yes, something WAS wrong. Since this day I had more dreams like the one I had in the hut. I decided to try to spend more time with the youngest people of the tribe. A group of teenagers accepted me into their group and let me join them for a hunt. They were moving with an unbelievable grace. No one spoke, they were calm and concentrated on what they came there to do. When we came back they started to attend to a different task. They weren't trying to amuse themselves, play games or anything. They did not try to prove who's better at this or that. I left the village to go back to my city. I collected all I could so I could test their DNA and do some tests I couldn't do before. When I came back I wasn't that welcome. I climbed up to the shamans hut where I encountered a huge problem. The bird sitting in front of the door attacked me. I tried my best to avoid it, not to get hurt. Finally I went to grab some stones and tried to hit the bird. Shaman was nowhere to be found. When I hit the bird finally, the door opened. The shaman was standing there in some ceremonial clothes. He looked at me and just waved his hand showing me inside. I entered and told him about the equipment and the tests I wanted to run. He proposed himself as one of the first to be tested. After the tests I realized that this person should be 200 years old. I took some samples and I was let to go down. My hut was clean and waiting for me. A week later after collecting samples I realized that most of the people there in the village are much older than they seem to and that 3/4 of the people cannot have children. In the end I remember being one of them and still continuing with the visits to the shaman. The shaman one day asked me to bring new people up there. To find people suitable for this place, people who would be good and capable of living in this place. People like me. New blood should come here and have children with those that still can have them. I decided to bring such people. Later each month I tried to bring a new person willing to try being there. Some were incapable of living there, some tried hard and finally managed to fulfill all the tasks from the shaman and could stay there in the community. This went on for years and the community was saved even though their blood was getting less pure.

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12/4/2010 Tonight's dream was simple and not about anything complicated. I spend a day or so in Cologne (I go to Gigacenter there - arcade's hall usually) and then I went to my car, sat in it and drove away. The weird thing is that I don't have a driving license, my car would most probably not be RED and I would not drive in the other direction of Cologne (west). I spend few hours driving and then I stopped at a beach. The sea was not so gray/brown as it would be in the Netherlands and the landscape and such was not suited for France either. I arrived in the evening and I went there to sit down on the sand and watch the water. I stared at the waves coming to the shore and did nothing more. I seemed to be waiting for someone. He/She did not come though and it was pitch dark when I was leaving. Then once again I was in Cologne. When I was leaving it was dark already and when I arrived to the shoreline I showed up there before dawn and that is what I was watching. I still felt like waiting for something. Nothing happened.

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13/4/2010 (I will write it down later if I have time...just a reminder what the dream so I don't forget it) Tonight the first dreams I dreamed were really without any logic whatsoever and the one following that had something more and could be followed was really weird as well. I was on a holiday somewhere. It seemed that I just came there to relax but I couldn't. I decided to rent a bike and go on some ride. I went on a short trip around the place. On my way I found out that there are special tracks for bicycles. I decided to check the 90km trip and that's where the weird things started. The track started somewhere in the middle of some field. It was behind a fence so I needed to get through first. I opened the gate and then I saw that no one has been there for quite some time. There were many stinging nettles and such. I still decided to continue. After some time I arrived to a river across which there was a bridge. On the other side of the bridge there was a building and a crossroad (tracks crossroad). I came to the building hoping for a refreshment or something. Instead there was a group of 3 lolitas trying to ask me to go and see their show. I was against but somehow I showed up for the show. It was held in a basement (don't ask me how this is possible o_O). Everything was dark and all I could see were neon lights. The show was something like striptease "splashed with" Las Vegas show. Um..how to describe that. Well, the nicely dress and fully covered girls had a dance/acrobatic show during which they were undressing themselves. After the show they still wanted me to stay. I told them no and wanted to go away. But then a white/blue dressed girl arrived and showed me into some room. I got out of it somehow and ran to my bike and just decided to follow the path (I went straight from the bridge). The path turned right and soon I arrived to a big beach. Behind I could sea a bay in which there were some boats. On the beach there was a circus or something that seemed like it. There were balloons, multicolored tents and I could hear a music that would be suited for a amusement park (old styled french ones). I stared at it for long time before deciding which direction to take. I decided to go back and find a way back but without going back to the bridge. I got lost and never came back...after a long time not really knowing where to go I once again managed to get to the beach. I stayed there never coming back to where I came from. On the beach there was a large community of people that lived there on their own. ---------- Recurring dream..I will write it down later... A dream about the woman whose child drowned in the underground river beneath a mining facility or whatever. ----------

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14/4/2010 The first dream that woke me up was simply my father torturing me. He had something like a screwdriver or something with which he pierced some part of my body and then tried to inflict as much pain as possible. It was about the pain and frustration. I yelled and cried a lot and when it seemed impossible to endure I woke up. ----------- After falling asleep once again I had another dream. Me and my mother we were living on top some hill. We were living in a more or less castle. In it there was a hidden chamber. There was a bed/sofa, table and a huge screen. My mother used to go there to watch some series. The series was about a woman who was trying to date some guys (it was something like 'sex in the city'). After some time time of living with my mother not really talking to each other and nothing really going on ..my mother started to date someone. A person I hated from the first glance. It was my time to be hiding myself in the hidden chamber. I was spending day and nights in there and did not know what to do. I couldn't stand the person and I had no friends I could go to. I felt so miserable. I fell asleep in the room and then I woke up. I felt the same in reality as well.