Thelemic Dream Journal.

22.04.2010

Carol Ann the Beast is Callin' (Note)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

We are back in the moving haunted house this time it is in Hawaii. I flew over this morning after flying back from Japan.
The flight from Japan took not long, only a few minutes. I got a call on my Blackberry during takeoff. The back of the plane was completely open and kids were playing back there but no one fell out. I could see the lights of Tokyo and then the darkness of the ocean.

Hawaii.
The house moves around, I've been here before. It is five stories, a very large white mansion. There are stairs leading up to the porch that wraps around it. It has a backyard and a frontyard. The first floor has alot of hallways that encircle the house in a mostly square shape, but turn at angles before reaching 90 degrees so it is more like an octagon.
I'm moving around the outskirts of the first floor in a clockwise motion. on the left side I come across a doghouse (in the menagerie) with a black Hellhound in it. The hellhound is busy eating the face off of a bloody severed head. It doesn't seem to notice me yet. Maybe I should keep moving. Before leaving the area I see two Keys, a skeleton key and a smalll key. I pick both up but end up losing the small key.
I move to the end of the hall, open the sliding wooden door, and slip through. I go to close the door behind me, but the door frame has become warped by the hellhounds powers and I see it is rushing the length of the hall at me. I almost get the door closed, but it flies through the window on the side of the doorframe, breaking the window. As it looks at me, it transforms into Christian.

I look back down the hall and see that the hellhound is still in its doghouse, but the severed head is no longer there.
Me and Christian set off looking for his sister. We come around the back of the house, looking into the backyard I can see it is overgrown and untended to. As we open the door to move into the house proper, I sing a little melody to myself aloud- Carol Ann the beast is callin.... (from the Misfits song)

I have to use the Skeleton Key to open the back door.

Inside is Christians mom and one of her friends. We make small talk. Me and Christian keep searching. I remember that there is a basement with at least two sub-basements underneath, maybe more. I ask him if she might be down there. The entrance to the basement is very small, like a hole in the wall at floor level only a few feet high.

He replies that she wouldn't be down there right now, as it is night time and she never goes down there at night because that is when the demonic spirits that control the house are most active and that is where they reside. I look out the window and see the sun will rise soon. He is probably right, she wouldn't be down there right now.

23.04.2010

At the Bar With Eddie (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm down at a pub with my friend Val, it's late at night, the pub is going to close soon. Everyone in the bar is depressed looking including Val.
Up on the bar there are olde stereos and boxes and boxes of cassete and vhs tapes.
The bartender pulls down a long cd tower and sets it on the bar to look for something to play, I'm a regular at this bar apparantly becasue I just start looking through the cd's without explaining that this stack is mine and they are just holding it for me. I decide there isn't a whole lot I want, but I pull out a Iron Maiden Fear of the Dark cd and a beat up paperback novel titled, "Fear of the Dark". It has Eddie Maiden on the cover, the cover is blue.
I've read this book before, but only once. It is a great book I tell Val, if he'd like to borrow it after I re-read it.
I hear an Iron Maiden guitar riff at this time.

Running around in the light of the moon and the fog.
We are out at a farm with some trailers. The villagers are chasing a monster. I'm chasing it too. Hididng behind a trailer in the shadow of the moon, I see it run by with a villager chasing it.

I follow through the cattle gate, the villager gets eluded and goes of into the field. I turn right. There is another fence, on the other side is Eddie Maiden. Long white hair, ripped up jeans, no shoes, torn shirt.
Normal height, not 20 feet tall.

I have a silver hammer in my hand to battle him with.
As I start to climb the gate he runs to the trailer behind it and goes to plug something in to electrify the fence. Jumping off just in time I tell him that's not fair and throw the hammer at him. Looking up towards the telephone poles behind me I tell himn I'll just cut his power.
The telephone poles sway like palm trees.

I talk to Eddie a little more and he is depressed because his parents are being lame.

24.04.2010

Amazon Reptile House (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Another spot that I haven't been to in so long I kind of forgot about about it. A horrifying place, it is located over by Garrison School somewhat. A wide building with glass windows and glass doors covering the front. Inside it is dark and humid/warm at the entrance where there is still sunlight from outside coming in, there is a river that goes on as far as I can see off to the left and an island in the middle of it.

I'm on the island. There is a lot of jungle vegetation and vines and those kindsa things. There are 30 foot anacondas pretty much everywhere, one of them snatches up a gazelle right in front of me. I'm not sure how I got inside, but I really don't want to be here. The building has thousands of snakes in it, giant snakes and little snakes.
I cross the river (which has sea snakes and probably crocs in it) quickly headed for the door. A spitting cobra races up towards me but luckily i duck behind another gazelle as it attacks and kills the animal. I'm out the glass push doors. I think someone put the animals in there to feed the snakes, they were having some kind of bloody feeding frenzy in there.

Outside at the school I talk to Wes and tell him I was just in there, he says "Dude that place fucking sucks! My friend got killed in therrrrrrrreee!"

25.04.2010

Zombie Mental Institution (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in an old mental institution, there are short corridors, with lots of turns and doors. The doors lead to rooms that are mostly empty, the doors are mostly locked. In the hallways are somewhere around 50-100 zombies, mostly staff and patients. They act like normal zombies, shuffling around and trying to bite, but they aren't rotting, they are alive, just in some kind of zombie state. I try a few doors, after a few locked ones I come across an unlocked door, it opens into the room and I go inside. As I'm closing the door behind me a zombie nurse shuffles in before I can stop her. I shut the door behind her. She is wearing an olde time nurses uniform with the hat and everything. Her eyes are rolled back in her head so that I can only see the whites.

I grab her and shake her violently, yelling at her.
her eyes go back to normal and suddenly, like a curse is lifted, she is normal again and the color comes back to her. She seems disoriented and doesn't remember anything. The lights come on. I know that if you capture a room here, that you can get food and water and be pretty safe from the zombies as long as you are in the room.
I notice that the nurse is indeed Jessica and she is very beautiful. We will have to stay in this room I tell her. I suggest we be married.
...
I'm shooting my .22 revolver at some targets in the room. We decide to get some water. We go to talk to a zombie servant through the mail slot. Water?
It's coming. Ammunition? I ask and wave my revolver up in the window... no. Eventually we are able to slip out, careful not to let anyone else in the room.

I'm outside now....leaving the institution behind, I get a ride from Swanson, we are coming under the overpass and then circle around it.
I see Johnny in a van in front of us. he is riding in one of the back seats with his mom driving. I say "Hey isn't that Johnny? why is he riding in the back, what a dick lol, oh wait, his sister is is in the front."
We end up hailing him giving him a ride. He is still in his Denny's uniform, coming home form work. It is daytime.
He tells us a story about how he made too much money in tips last week, so now management is giving him some crappy table to watch in the middle of the restaurant and he's just been sleeping underneath it.

03.05.2010

Zenith's Grazing at Your Grave (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm on my olde street, next to the sheriffs house, we are up on a hill sort of. I notice his yard has tombstones all over the front...dixon? I think is the name on them. Vey large and ornante, facing the house. As I turn away from the graves I realize they are in my yard too, I'm sitting on one, I look down, the grave in front of me has a spot for a candle, inside I see a virgin Mary statuette, it starts sinking down...as it does i get the most horrrific chills I've ever had, it feels like I'm being lowered into the grave. I cry out and try to escape.
I'm scared to death at this point.
Down to the street, I try to drive off a white suburban type truck, it's out of gas, I crash it at low speeds.... I leave on foot.
Into a friends house...there is a lady there...what are you doing here I ask? I'm here to redecorate, she replies. I'm doing the stove and the wallpaper in like a centipede motif, do you like centipedes? Sure, centipedes are ok.
She is cooking centipedes with cheese in the microwave and would I like some?
No. Jeffrey has some. I leave. That house is haunted.
I rescue some kid from a the water at the shore, and pull him onto our boat, we are going off to war.

Elsewhere...we are across from fivepoints in the parking lot, someone tells me that we shouldn't hang out here too long, some girl was raped here just last night.

Elsewhere...I'm with Kelly making out with her...

04.05.2010

Hooligans at Fivepoints (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm running with the firm, I have my West Ham scarf, my boots and braces, my Ben Sherman, It's night time, We are out breaking windows at five points. I break into the parking garage across from jack in the box.
Later, I go into a shop. The shopkeeper is gone so I'm thinking about robbing it, I decide to act like the shopkeeper and take peoples money. I sell liquer to some little kid.

05.05.2010

Let me out of this Mall (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Me and Mum are getting back from a trip, we have to get onto an auto-bike shuttle to get to our train. It is me and her and another person, it is going very fast and it's really unstable, going down the freeway. I jump off before we get to the train. I arrive on the train and it's a mess, I start cleaning up a spot to sit down, there are playing cards everywhere at least five decks worth. I'm picking them up but there are too many of them. There are little tiles with stats, questions and answers and pictures of heisenberg on them for a breaking bad game. I decide to go sit by Jeffrey. He says, something like I think this is the vip section you have to be famous or something...I'm motherfucking spiderman. I stay.

After, we go to the mall. I don't like the mall, but I need to buy something. The friends I'm with say oh look it's Bergers house, I see Bergers squat inside the mall that is partially hidden by some bushes.
Robert runs over there and rushes inside. He is trying to fight the Johns with a tire iron. It's pretty violent, after the fight they shake hands/hug or whatever.

We continue on, i get talked into going into some store to our right. It is very big, a major section. The further we go and the longer we stay the stupider my friends become. I end up punching some girl that I used to like and she doesn't even notice. I'm leaving I start running towards the way I came in yelling Let me out me out me out me out of this mall let me out me out me out - from some old thrash song.

06.05.2010

Girls Girls Girls (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So many girls. First i was watching movies with me and Sarina. We called some call girls over. We are at my house in the bay-area. I hear a limo parking outside. I open the tinted-sliding glass door and look out, fine girls are all around. Like ten of them and a few pimps. They start to walk up the street. All casual I say you can come in through this door if you want..they kinda laugh and keep walking to the the other door to my house that has an address, but doesnt open..They end up coming back and coming inside, my house is a little small for so many people.

Later. On the street I make a girl show me her titties. We are at my friends house, I'm talking to a girl named Sierra, I'm really trying to fuck her, I've been kissing her and such, she says she'll fuck for 340$ I tell her she'll do it for free, blah blah blah, she has a strange tattoo of a map of nevada on her chest above her tits.

07.05.2010

Racing Games (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in Nevada at a casino. There are the usual slots around, I wander around, looking for a game with credits and find one. I walk up and push start, it's a motorcycle racing game with quite good graphics. You have to race against some other players and avoid supernatural enemies like ghosts and things. I get a pretty good score and try to put in my name, but screw it up.
The machine spits out all kinds of trinkets and food and toys (no money really) I load them up in a bag. Outiside we see a store called Fah Show Dough, the store's marquee hangs in an arc over the shop.

Later I'm at Abes house, we are going to play a SNES game. I think its Mortal Kombat. It's actually a Mortal Kombat spin-off, Mortal Kombat Horse Racing. You have to stock you horses up with weird occult supplies, and you wear armor and have guns. I didn't do to well at it, I fell of a cliff, because the whole race was like going in a circle down a mountain. Abe has blue spiky hair today.

Lastly I'm in some fucked up dark house, I'm playing some occult outlawes version of Dungeons and Dragons. There are slimes chasing me. I have a metal pipe and I'm swinging it around wildly at an attacking giant intelligent weasel. I try to look up how to play the game on a computer in one of the rooms I'm using Internet Explorer and I can't find google. I end up abandoning the computer.

Really nice DG, keep it up!

16.05.2010

Sonora (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

We roll up to Sonora. We get there in the daytime and go into a big old bar. I hear the Drivin' Nails playing, they are playing "Hit Them Rails" but a kinda slower version than they usually play. I wave at Josh, I didn't know they were going to be here. I've been to this bar before but I've never come in through the back like I did.

So I go to the front and go out onto the balcony,
I'm going to take a picture, but I change my mind.
I leave the bar and wander down the road after a while.

Now it's night time. I'm still in Sonora with Jeffrey. We go to a Stop N Save to get somethin. We are both drunk by this point. The asian lady behind the counter gives us a beer and a drink, I accidently spill the open beer, I think damn you Jeff why did you open it already. I appologize to her. Jeff is so drunk he's just like staring at her and mumbling. She starts yelling at him saying stuff like how rude he is for saying what he said, etc.
We better leave. Jeff is lagging on leaving, all of a sudden this gang of giant cowboy types boils up from nowhere and surround me saying they are going top kick my ass for what I said to the clerk.
I try to tell them that I wouldn't say anything like that to her, but they don't believe me. They end up letting me go after intimidating me for awhile. I grab Jeffrey and we go off up the dark street back towards where we are staying.
I'm moving faster now, jogging a little bit to put distance between us and the gang. I can hear them walking around breaking bottles and yelling back by the store. I pick up a stick for a weapon, but it's waterlogged and I snap it easily. I'm wearing my leather jacket with the big white LCB skull on the back so I feel like an easy target. Keep moving.

I look back and the cops have shown up and have the gang in handcuffs. I laugh real loud - ha ha! like Nelson.
From the shadows two guys appear and say, "We warned you!"

I decide we are too drunk to take these guys on so me and Jeff run.....up the street, left turn. Jump the fence in the front yard of this house. They are following behind.
We escape, but it was pretty close, we could hear them running past our hiding spot.

We finally make our way back to the place we are kicking it with our friends. The Dig Dug champion of the world is there and showing us the final boss on Dig Dug. There is like a whole secret level at the end where you can go waayyyy down into this mine and fight satan it looks like.
I'm talking to a blonde girl.

22.05.2010

Anaheim (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm down in Anaheim with Ashley. I was just here a few days ago. When I was last here, I spent a lot of time at a nearby bar, I can see inside as we are walking past and I see a bunch of people I know. I'd like to go inside with Ashley just so she could trip out that I know so many people in a far off town for some reason.
It's night time and we are here with my mom. She gave us money to go do something, go to the movies or something. I find the entrance to Disneyland and I really want to go inside to see the Alice in Wonderland rides, but it's too expensive. I see my friend James and he says he's been in Disneyland tonight and shows me his hand stamps. We try to do the old hand stamp transfer without any of the Disneyland guards seeing.
I realize that the kids's house is only a few blocks away., Ashley is already inside watching the movie...she is being a bitch as usual, but I really want to get back together with her, so I don't know if I should be sneaking off and leaving her here to go see my kids that I never get to see.

11.06.2010

The Sky is Falling. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Knala, her friend, and myself are staying at some house on the coastline somewhere in California. Knala and her friend are playing, I'm looking out the window, I can see the shore and the little hiking trail partially from here. It is a grey day. There are all these low clouds hovering over the beach trail. As I watch them they are changing shapes very rapidly and then falling to the ground and turning into fog.

I think they look really unusual so I go down to check it out.
To get to the beach, after exiting the house I turn left, walk, turn left, walk, turn right, walk, turn right walk, turn left and there it is.
So I'm up on the sea wall and these clouds are really intense, at first I don't see anyone, but I look down the beach and I see lots of people lined up.

I go back to the house to get the girls. I get there and go into the room where the girls are. Knala says something like, I wish you'd knock....
I say knock? What the hell are you doing in here? She won't look at me at first. I finally get her to look at me and she has a black eye. She says her and her friend were like play boxing, it was an accident. I give her a hug and tell them they should be more careful and you know your mother is going to bitch at you know.

Anyways lets go down to the beach for a while, get yer coats and junk.
I'm thinking that when we get there I have to make sure they don't try to stand underneath a falling cloud because it's probably some kind of government poisoning program.

As we are getting ready I hear the France-Uruguay post game commentary on the tv and it starts to make me really sleepy and lethargic, like a drug. I collapse and fall asleep.

13.06.2010

Dry Creek Skatepark (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm at The Dry Creek Skatepark. It is a wonderful place, I forgot it was here. It's just after sunrise and there is dew on the grass. I come around the bathroom area and there are about five kids sitting around by the drop in talking. I have my backpack with my netbook in it and my skateboard. I sit down and tie my shoes. At the entrance to the park is like this huge blind drop-in that is real steep and shoots down three stories. I'm not going to try that, so I take the gentle grade that goes through all the rooms in like a circle until you reach the bottom.

One push, I'm rolling pretty good, there is hardly anyone around because it's early. Into the first room. There is a half-circle concrete ledge. Backside smith grind all the way around, flawless! Into the next room I do a few wallrides. I decide I want to skate the ledge some more, but I want to ditch my backpack. I try to find a spot to stash it where it won't get stolen. I find a spot for it, but then I can't find my skateboard, I find my skateboard but I'm worried about my backpack, etc. etc.

I end up riding my banana board for a little while on one of the lower levels. the lower levels are all wood planks, I can see the beach and the ocean underneath. I miss a trick and my banana board falls through a knothole to the beach below. It's going to be really hard to retrieve, so I decide to just leave it and tell some kids they can have it if they can get it.

It's about time to go home, I see my friend Adam and talk to him for awhile, his grandparents show up to give him a ride and they are being jerks. There are a lot of punk/stoner kids hanging out. One kid is just a head walking around, like Tony Harrison from the mighty boosh. He has a pink mohican and Adams grandfather asks him something like, hey! did you give my grandson his haircut? yuk yuk yuk!
The head just looks at him. Then looks at Adam, Adam just shakes his head, embarassed. The head looks at me and I just shrug.





Later... at a pizza parlor with some friends. It is like some kind of expensive theme restaurant every couple of minutes we see a pirate and a wench coming out of one door and going into another door.
Behind each door is a different section of the restaurant, with different music and theme. We are basically in the lobby. One of my friends says she is moving soon, because she is having too many problems in this town. I see a video game and want to go take a picture of it. It is "Golden Arm Tee Golf". It is built into an old Street Fighter II cabinet and Ryu is one of the playable characters. I pull my phone out, but it is almost snapped in half. I give up trying to fix it. I start pulling the buttons off of the skill crane machine and giving them to my friend who is leaving, they are clear and colorful like hard candy.
She points up at a television at some ridiculous rap video with some dead rapper. We are smoking ciggarettes inside the building, a manager starts to walk towards us and I say, we better go outside.

The manager gets very mad that we are smoking inside and grabs my friends and drags them outside roughly. I tell him hey get your fucking hands off her! and i kick him in the knee. He's like some old professional boxer dude. He starts walking away, but I keep calling him out. I take off my long sleeve shirt and prepare to fight.

20.06.2010

In the Tower Blocks (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Me and a friend are 14 stories up in a tower block. It is where we live now. The wall is ripped off as this is some kind of post-apocalyptic warzone. We have sheets hanging where the wall used to be. Directly across from us is another tower block, also with a gaping hole in the wall. I have my shotgun and I'm looking across the way to the other building through a hand held scope.
I can see five rastas in the other block, I tell my friend. We should have a rifle, I could pick them off from here if we did, but they are way out of range for this shotgun, or even the handguns.
So we wait, I load up the super-shotgun and wait.
Eventually the rastas break down the door. I fire the super-shotgun but the firing mechanism malfunctions. The suprised rasta smiles and shoots me through the heart with his automatic pistol.
I fall down on the shag carpet, bleeding, and unable to breathe...
I feel relaxed though and I don't struggle. This is the end. The rasta is going crazy; shouting and waving his arms, he fires a round into the floor by me. I think he will shoot me in the head next, but he doesn't. Eventually I close my eyes and that's all.

20.06.2010

Breaking Bad (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm with Heisenberg at the laboratory. He has decided to try some of our product and has gone completely mental yo. Our laboratory looks more like someones house than the normal lab. Heisenberg spills some meth by the washing machine and just leaves it there because it looks like laundry soap. The chihuahua's get into it and start acting psychotic, growing fangs and talking in death metal growls and ripping each other to pieces.
Opening Intro.
I try to talk to Heisenberg about him trying the meth and he indicates that I should be quiet, that the lab is bugged and Gus is listening.

He says we have a new place to store our drugs in plain sight, so we leave in his car on a mission. We get to a stretch of road that has beautiful tall trees lining either side. It is windy and there is what appears to be large amounts of snow on the treetops that is falling down whenever the wind blows. Heisnberg says this is all meth.
We drive around looking for a place to park, Heisenberg can't find a spot an keeps circling. I tell him he sucks at driving and he rages, finally driving into the back of a large truck and putting it's trailer hitch through the just-fixed windshield.

We get out to investigate. But it is snow. Who would hide there meth in trees anyways? Only a tweaker.

28.06.2010

Death Star Arcade (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm Luke Skywalker, Bespin fatigues. I just got done with some damn rebel mission, I'm talking to Anakin Skywalker and R2-D2. Anakin says he's taking R2 with him, but I tell him I need R2 around to help me, he's like my son. Why don't we ask R2 what he wants to do? R2 says he'd rather go with Anakin. So I say fine go off with grandpa, have a good time.
Anankin is giving me a lift to the rebel base, as we are leaving we start to make the jump to light speed, we are heading right towards the Death Star. Anakin says he needs to do something before we can leave. The Death Star really is gigantic. It looks like it's right there, but it takes us a few seconds to reach it. We fly in through some open bay doors and Anakin prepares to fire. I tell him 'Hold your fire, there's kids everywhere!" He dosen't care and fires anyways. I jump out of the ship as Anakin turns around and escapes. I'm in the middle of what looks to be a giant arcade! A death star type sliding door opens in front of me, and I go through, it's more arcade.

On the other side of the door is more games and pinball machines. In front of me is a large like poker table with green felt like you'd see in a casino. Darth Vader is seating in the dealer's position. It looks like a birthday party is going on, no one is gambling but there are parents and children sitting with Darth eating pizza and ice cream. There are presents on the table.

Darth stands up and is very angry about the missile that disrupted his party. The damage was minor though. I apologize and ask to speak to him privately for a moment. He excuses himself from his party and we walk aside and stand next to a Star Wars machine. I apologize again and tell him I had nothing to do with it. I tell him how much I admire his arcade and that I didn't know he had an arcade here. I ask him why some of the games are turned off. He tells me that although, yes it is a nice arcade, he doesn't have the money to keep it up the way it should be kept up and some of the games are in need of repair.

I want to help with the arcade funding but I can't give him a donation directly because of politics. We work out that he will sue me for firing the missile and I will settle out of court. He will use the money for the arcade. He tells me that I am free to look around as much as I want and goes back to his party.

In the party room there are two poker tables in the middle of the room. There are alot of interesting specialty games in this room. I examine a (non-working) old game that is tall and arches overhead with two microphones hanging down. From the instructions it looks like you are supposed to sing into it and it will cut you a record or burn you a CD of your performance right there! Very cool.
Also in this room is an oversized Batman Bowling pinball machine. It is a rare giant pinball game. The playfield looks like the lane of a bowling alley and the scoreboard has artwork of an oldschool batman wearing the blue and grey suit. This game is working, i notice it costs 50 cents to play. There is a special note by the instructions that says you get two credits for a 1966 quarter. I take a picture of this machine.

I leave the inner room and go back to the main floor.
Here there are games packed everywhere. The carpet is red and very nice like you'd see in a high end casino. The atmosphere is good and the lights are dim. It is very noisy. There are kids playing games and running around. There are ALOT of different Star Wars machines, including a bunch I've never seen and I find this amusing, it's almost like some disneyland attraction. There are lots of and lots of vintage games from the 1980's. Iwander around and see Defender, Dig Dug, Frogger, Joust, a two player double Pole Positon, etc.
I see a Neo Geo candy Cabinet with light up buttons. Some kid is playing this. I try to get a picture of this but my phone's camera sucks and the battery is dying anyways. There is some kid there talking shit to me, because I'm walking around taking pictures. I talk shit back to him and he almost cries. The Death Star has a rad arcade.