Caradon's WILD Attempts

[Caradon]

Well I've decided to start this separate thread for my feeble attempts at WILDing. Mainly to help motivate me to keep working at them. I also believe that staying that focused while falling asleep can help induce DILD's. So it should help me in that way as well. Note: These attempts are not counted in my official Lucid dream count. When I get one that I consider worthy of being called a real Lucid Dream, It will be labeled with a number, and added to my Lucid Dream journal. Today's attempts I begin to hear the Lolly pop song in my head. Then I do this weird thing, and try not to focus solely on the song, but just kind of hear it off to the side. It works, and I suddenly find myself cutting a pineapple, while only half listening to the song. there was something else too, but I can't remember what it was. I had the song on one side of me while working on the pineapple. Then there was something that formed off to my other side. But just then I slide out of it. Into my nap I begin to hear a mans voice talking in what sounds like a foreign language. At first it seems very strange to me that my brain is speaking in this other language that I don't know. But then I realize that I've heard people speaking in other languages enough that it's probably not that strange. Probably the same kind of thing that allows us to hear perfect music in our dreams. I slide out of that, then enter a scene that I barely remember. All I remember is that there was some bald guy talking to me.

[Caradon]

Today's attempt Saturday/August/8/2009 I get several very brief work related Lucid HI images. I then end up entering a scene without Lucidity. I'm in a bedroom with several beds. there are children sleeping on the beds. There is a window on the wall, and outside the window looking in, is a woman. This is not a living woman. She is a ghost. I can hear her speaking. She wants to enter the room. She is saying something about her needing to help the sleeping children in some way. But she cannot enter the room without my permission, and she is trying to get me to allow her to enter. Didn't get anything in my nap that I remember. But I got a countable DILD for the trying.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Sunday/August/9/2009 I enter a work scene with partial Lucidity. I'm helping with a delivery. (Something I don't normally do.) As I become more fully Lucid, I literally drop what I'm doing and start to walk away. The dream slips away. I had a little bit of Lucid HI after my second WBTB, but I don't remember what the images were. Into my nap Several times I enter a scene Lucid, where I'm opening a door and about to step through. Each time dream slips away before I make it through the door. Then I'm falling, and I'm hung by a noose around my neck. Not sure if a I wake up real quick here, but next I'm looking up and can see the rope dangling loose above me. That's all I remember from that. The hanging part wasn't as scary as it sounds.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Monday/August/10/2009 Fist I start to hear somebody whistling. Then I enter a scene without Lucidity. There is a deep canyon with along rope hanging down into it. Up and out of the canyon climbs, Megatron from the transformers. Near the edge of the canyon is Optimus Prime. He is beaten down into the dirt, and Megatron is standing over him. I don't remember thee exact words that were said, but Megatron is giving Prime a lot of crap about trying to save the human race. It was more complicated than that But I can't remember the details of it. I come out of that one and enter another scene without Lucidity. there is some young girl show off her real life super powers. She can walk through walls, or any object really as if they were not there. I'm watching her do this for a bit, Then I ask, "That's an amazing power you have. Are you sure this isn't a dream?" When I ask the question I become fully Lucid and the dream slips away. Then I enter another scene with full lucidity. There is a man sitting at an office desk. I'm standing right behind him looking over his shoulder. he opens a drawer on the desk and starts to rummage through the contents. It looks like mostly papers and miscellaneous office supplies. I watch for a moment, then it fades away. I then enter another scene with full Lucidity. I'm at the park preserve and I see a nice looking girl in a white short sleeve shirt, and dark colored shorts. She is walking a dog down the paved trail. I just watch her walking for a moment before the scene fades away.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Tuesday/August/11/2009 I lay there for a while getting a lot of audio. A lot of different voices saying short random sentences. Then I see this girl sitting on a beach drinking out of a bottle of whiskey. Then I start to hear a group of people singing the happy birthday song. After that I started getting really uncomfortable laying on my back so I gave it up. Into my nap I hear a random voice say."Getting ready to punch the Jedi." Then I end up in this weird scene. I think I had a little bit of Lucidity because at one point I remember looking around and being amazed about where I was. I was a little boy of a different race. (Can't say of which one exactly.) I was sitting on the steps of some temple. I lived at this temple, and I was in some kind of training. Some girl comes walking down the steps and sits next to me.(Supposedly my sister.) She is talking to me, but I can't remember what she had said. I wish that could because what ever was said was meaningful to me at the time. Then I start to become more fully Lucid and I'm very startled by the whole situation. And it jolts me awake. Next, as I lay there, I start to feel that inner expansion that I sometimes get. Within the inner depths, there is a certain point that I can feel. (Not sure of any other way to describe it.) This point starts to form into the shape of a person. And as I watch this shape forming, I begin to fall through darkness. I feel like this person is with me as I fall. Then we are swinging across some wide canyon on a rope. The scene shifts and I'm now falling with an elevator. I'm on the roof outside of the elevator, and falling down the shaft. Then I begin to very clearly hear emergency vehicle sirens. As if they are already on their way to the falling elevator accident. The visual starts to fade, but the sirens continue for a while. I lay there listening to them until I come fully out of it. After that there was a lot more that I can't remember well enough to describe. I lay there for about an hour entering several different scenes, mostly without Lucidity. And each little dream had some freaky horror movie theme to it. All from different horror movies that I've seen.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Wednesday/August/12/2009 Today wasn't the best day. Last night I was having a hard time clearing my head, So I did a little VILDing. I started visualizing myself drawing on a wall. Almost instantly I'm pulled into the scene, I'm standing in a room drawing lines on a wall. My Lucidity is partial as I notice my brother enter the room behind me. For some reason I don't want him to see what I'm doing. Into my nap Well, there wasn't really a nap. I came home pretty pissed off. I've been having to deal with a lot of bullshit people problems lately. I lay there on my back for probably more than a half an hour. I realize that WILDing at this time is not likely. So I just roll over and try to fall asleep. Still, it's a long time before I can get relaxed at all. I actually manage to slip into this little dream Lucid, where I'm flying over some city scape. I land on the street then wake up. After that I start to actually fall asleep for real, then my dog starts making noise causing me to wake up. After that any possibility of sleeping was all over with.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Thursday/August/13/2009 Well last night I didn't really bother trying to WILD because just getting to sleep was challenge enough. But I did get one brief Lucid HI moment when I had someone walk right up to me and look me in the face. Into my nap Nap time was a little better. Even though I was having some difficult keeping my thoughts silent. I hear a voice speak a random sentence.( Can't remember the exact wording now, wish I would have wrote it down because it was weird.) Something like "The government spent one hundred something thousand dollars( exact number) on therapy testing. The exact wording sounded stranger than that, made less sense. I enter a little dream about an ex girlfriend of mine being a DV member and I never knew it. I did have partial Lucidity in this dream. And at the time it was happening I thought that I was getting some real life information from my mind. I'll have to look through the DV member list and see if there is any names similar to what I learned hers was. After that I briefly enter a scene fully Lucid, where I'm watching my dog run around the house. After that I got sick of laying on my back, rolled over and fell asleep.

[Caradon]

Today's Attempts Friday/August/14/2009 Well last night other than a little bit of Lucid HI I didn't sleep at all. I had kind of an odd moment. I lay there and I get this weird perspective of looking up at the over hanging roof of some house. It was strange because it was like I was upside down outside the front of the house looking up at the edge of the roof. It takes me a moment before I realize I'm actually there looking at this house, and not just imagining it. It doesn't fade away right away. I'm able to think about how odd the scene is while viewing it. Next I enter a work scene fully Lucid. It's very brief because of me being startled out of it by the sudden entrance to the scene. Next, as I lay there trying to relax I start to see an odd blob shape that's darker than the rest of the darkness behind my closed eye lids. The blob shape forms into the image of an eyeball. Then another smaller eyeball forms in the center of the eye. I laugh to myself about how strange it is before it fades away. I didn't really get much in my nap that I can remember. I vaguely remember some voices before passing out completely. I then slept about two and a half hours.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Saturday/August/15/2009 Last night I had one of those nights where laying on my back was so uncomfortable that I couldn't stand it. I tried to force myself to lay that way for as long as I could, but eventually had to roll over. But before I did, I end up in work scenes Lucid a few times. One time as I lay there waiting for something to happen, I randomly reach up and pinch my nose, and I can breath. Twice a weird thing happened that was sort of like the jerk thing, but without the Jerk. Very suddenly it was like my inner space expanded and I started fall or get sucked away are something. But, both times I was just as suddenly awake and laying there like normal. It happened so quickly that it was startling. I had a near success in the morning after my alarm went off. I pushed snooze, then lay on my back trying to WILD. I enter a weird scene Lucid, where I'm laying on the floor beneath a kitchen table. The table has lots of food on it. I'm laying on my back looking up at the edge of the table. all the food begins to fall off the edge and towards my face. This doesn't scare me because I know it's a dream. I watch with humor as the food rushes down at me. Then the scene shifts and I lose Lucidity. I'm at work and I'm about to tell somebody about this weird WILD attempt. But Then I remember my intention to never again, share anything at all, with any of these two faced people. So I keep it to myself. I think I wake up at that point. Into my nap As I lay there I start to get a sense of movement in my vision, as if many different people are moving towards me and past me. But I can barely get a glimpse of them as they do. (I'm putting this part in black, because I can't remember it well enough to remember how Lucid I was. But I'm pretty sure I was at least semi Lucid.) I now see a man standing in front of me. I remember that he was wearing a black shirt. He begins talking to me, but I can't remember what he was saying. But I think it was about Lucid Dreaming. The man wants to show me something, and he actually changes the scene. We are in a completely different place now and there is a screen, like a computer screen. The man points at the screen and is explaining something that is on it. As this is happening I slide out of it. After that I couldn't fall back to sleep, or get anymore HI. My mind kept wandering so I finally just got up without getting a nap in.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Sunday/August/16/2009 Well, sleep deprivation did nothing at all for me last night, other than make me sleep like a log. I lay on my back intending to at least get something. Next thing I know, I wake up four hours later on my side with zero recall. I had no memory of even turning over. I wake up and do a fifteen minute WBTB. Then try again. I get relaxed and can feel my body falling asleep. I went completely numb, I then tried really hard to stay aware of my awareness, and not lose consciousness. I may have actually been sleeping at that time, it's hard to say. But that's the last thing I remember. I had hardly any recall either, until the last couple of hours of sleeping. Then had some pretty interesting dreams. a lot of end of the world kind of stuff, and some zombie action too. Into my nap I had much more success WILDing into my nap today, and a lot more dream recall too. I tried some Melatonin for the first time. I took one tablet-3 mg, about a half hour before I was planning to go to sleep. Like the bottle says to do. I don't know if the stuff is supposed to make you feel sleepy or not. But after half an hour I started feeling very sleepy, and relaxed. But I was unsure if that was because I had just eaten too. But as I lay there on my back I was starting to feel really good lol. So it must have been more than the food. And I had a very easy time WILDing too. As soon as I kept my mind completely silent. I would start to get stuff almost immediately. There was so much that I can only remember some of it. First, I find myself opening a door and stepping through. But I wake as I step through. Then, I open a door and step through again. This time I'm in a hall. My Lucidity is partial as I reach up and take my sweat shirt down from a hook on the wall. I'm about to go through another door, that I know leads outside. But then slide awake. After that there was a lot of very brief HI images. I can't remember them all. I remember one time looking at someones tattooed arm, that was held up to my field of vision. Then there was a guy with a shaved head, and wearing plastic safety glasses. He kept turning his head from side to side, but his eyes stayed locked on mine as he did it. Next I'm looking at a computer screen. I can see the cursor on the little page down bar on the right side of the screen. I watch as the cursor pulls the bar down the side of the screen. I'm expecting to slide out of it right away, but I don't. I continue to watch it, and with each moment I'm more surprised that it's not fading away. Then I remember my goal to try rubbing my hands together to stay in the WILD. So I try that. But as soon as I start to bring my hands together, I slide out of it before they even touch. Right away I enter another scene. I can't even remember what this one was. I just remember trying to rub my hands together again. Same thing happens. I slide out of it before my hands touch. I think there was more but that's all I remember right now. After about an hour of sleeping I started having some very vivid recall, and I was sleeping really good. I didn't even want to wake up. It may not be a good idea to take the Melatonin on the nights when I know I'm only going to get like two or three hours of sleep before work. I will try it again tonight.

[Caradon]

Today's attempt Monday/August/17/2009 Well, for the first night after starting this journal, I don't really have anything good to post. I fell asleep before getting any kind of HI, that I remember anyway. But I did two WBTB's, and tried to WILD after them. Both times I directly entered dreams from waking, but without Lucidity. I think I may be getting closer with WILDing at that time. I've decided not to take a nap today, because I don't want to be up all night. Otherwise I probably would have something to record. I did have a very great night of dreaming, and came very close to having DILD's two times. So I'm far from discouraged. I just need to start getting more focused on trying to induce DILD's's again too. The last two weeks were not very good for that.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Tuesday/August/18/2009 As I lay there on my back, I start to think about picking up a bag of chips on my way home from work the upcoming day. Because I have a jar of salsa in the refrigerator that I should use up. This thought, leads to a weird chain of thoughts about other Mexican foods. And eventually leads me to a memory of when I was a kid and went on a trip to Mexico. On the real life trip, we went to some place that was making fresh tortillas. And I was remembering how good they were. This thought becomes a dream, and I'm now back in Mexico. I'm at some outdoor food market with a fresh tortilla in my hand. There is a food line, like a buffet, with pans of different things that you can put onto your tortilla. I start to scoop something out of one of the pans with a ladle, when I remember that I'm dreaming. And wake up right away. Now, I try to concentrate harder on not thinking anything. And I soon enter a scene Lucid, where I'm watching this guy walking alongside some crop field. I don't know what the crop is. Just a bunch of tall green plants. The man is walking along with a open book in his hand, and he is reading as he is walking. I watch him walking and reading until it fades away. After that I decide to give it up, because I ended up staying up too late watching a movie, and I didn't have much time. I figured I would try more in my nap. I came home from work and took some Melatonin, but then ended up having to stay awake much longer than I should have. Because tornado sirens started going off, and I turned on the TV to see what was going on. It turns out that a tornado had touched down a few miles south of my house, and the storm that produced it was heading towards my neighborhood. The TV says that everyone in my area should be taking shelter, because more tornadoes are possible. So I ended up staying up until the threat was over. When I finally lay down for my nap, I didn't get any WILD stuff. I just fell asleep. But I did have some vivid dreams. Unfortunately no tornadoes in my dreams though.

[DreamQueen]

Wow! You are such a pro at WILDing! I've been so lazy for the past six months. I find that even a half-hearted WILD attempt usually ends up in a DILD but reading your WILD journal really makes me miss all the crazy hypnagogic stuff and the actual sensation of being 'sucked into the dream' when a WILD is successful. I'm going to get back into WILDing properly I think. You've inspired me!

[Caradon]

Wow! You are such a pro at WILDing! I've been so lazy for the past six months. I find that even a half-hearted WILD attempt usually ends up in a DILD but reading your WILD journal really makes me miss all the crazy hypnagogic stuff and the actual sensation of being 'sucked into the dream' when a WILD is successful. I'm going to get back into WILDing properly I think. You've inspired me! Thanks for the compliment. I don't know about "pro" though. I'm still trying to figure out how to make them last for more than a few seconds. But what little I get is still fun. Yeah, I love that getting sucked into a dream feeling. good to hear that your going to get back into it. I'll bet you will have some good ones.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Wednesday/August/19/2009 I had some difficulty last night because I felt like I was wide awake when I went to go to sleep. So it took me a while. I remember getting a weird image of viewing myself laying in a bed with some woman. I actually turn over after a while and just try to get to sleep, but still trying to WILD on my side. Three times I briefly enter the same scene Lucid where I'm standing in my living room looking around for a moment before it fades. Then I fall asleep, and the first dream that I remembered I got Lucid in.( Posted in my Lucid Dream journal.) While not a real exciting one to read, it was a good one for me being there . I woke up real excited about it, and wide awake. I was unsure if I would be able to fall asleep again. After about fifteen minutes of being up, I try to get back to sleep. I lay down just repeating "this is a dream," over and over really fast. I was really just trying t make myself fall asleep. I feel this sudden expansion,a nd I find myself in a dream Lucid. I don't remember much about the scene. I was sitting down and looking at a water bottle I had in my hand. There was something weird about the spout that you drink out of. For a moment I Actually thought that I had this one. I thought I entered a full blown dream. But then I slide out of it. I had stuff on my mind when I got home, and could not get anything in my nap. It took me a while just to fall asleep, even with how tired I was.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Thursday/August/20/2009 Not much to report today. I had a restless mind last night. It's a miracle I managed to relax enough to get anything at all. I start to hear a voice, I can't remember exactly what was said. I try to talk to it. But every time I try to speak, the voice speaks, and interrupts me Then I enter a work scene Lucid. I'm in the middle of some project, And it fades away momentarily. Into my nap I start to hear a song being sung. " It's the end of the world and I know it. I feel fine." After that I just fell asleep laying on my back. I was really tired I guess.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Friday/August/21/2009 Last night I lay there for quite a while with my thoughts completely clear. I wasn't getting much of anything for some reason. But actually, it felt so good to just lay there in the dark, with such a quite mind, that I was content to just have that moment of peace. Eventually I do hear a voice in my head say, "The president of the United States." Then I hear what sounds like the footsteps of somebody walking with sandals on. That slapping against the bottom of the foot sound. Then a work scene fades in, that's almost identical to the night before. Into my nap I wanted to try and get something more in my nap, but I just got this cool little non Lucid, pre sleep dream. I'm driving a red race car on a track. I'm racing against I guy in a blue car. I push some kind of turbo button, and I go so fast that everything becomes a blur. I get an entire lap ahead of the blue guy. I did it so fast that he is not even aware that he had been lapped. After that I fall asleep.

[Caradon]

Yesterday Saturday/August/22/2009 Into my nap I start out by entering a work scene with partial Lucidity. I'm just working on something for a little bit. Then I walk to another area. As I become more fully Lucid I slide out of it. I fall asleep for about an hour, maybe less. Then get woken up. I'm up for a couple of minutes. I lay down on my side just trying to fall asleep, and get a good dream. I start repeating this is a dream. I enter a work scene fully Lucid, still repeating this is a dream. There is much going on around me, lots of people. I don't remember what I was doing exactly. I was carrying something. And all the people were in my way. I just kind of go with the flow of it, repeating this is a dream. I try to simultaneously ignore everything that's going on around me, while staying aware of everything as well. (Much like I do in real life.) I hear one person saying to another, that they should get out of my way. Yet I still kind of ignore them, focusing on one thought alone. This is a dream, this is a dream. While I try to work my way between the people. The way that I have my thoughts focused is working to hold me in the dream, I can actually begin to feel the dream becoming more solid around me. Then I start to get excited that it's working, and it startles me awake. This is the third time that this certain type of staying aware of everything at once has helped to keep me in the dream. It's also what I had a DC tell me I should do. But I seem to have to enter the right type of scene in order to do it. A lot of times I can't help but just stare at a particular image, or scene that appears, until it fades away.

[Caradon]

Todays attempts Sunday/August/23/2009 well there was a lot of little stuff, can't remember everything. There was one at the beginning of the night where it was like I was looking through someone else's eyes. The person was in a garden picking what looked like tomatoes off a green plant. I could see my arms reaching out and picking them, but I was not controlling the arms. Early in the morning I remember twice finding myself Lucid in a hallway looking at a door that was partially open. The second time it happened, before the scene fades, a man opens the door from the inside and steps out. I watch him walk away from me down the hall. As I watch him walking, I try to think of a way to hold myself in the scene. But it still fades. There were a couple of other non Lucid dream entries. In one I noticed something weird and almost became Lucid in it. Into my nap I lay there not really caring if I fall asleep. I was just trying to see what I could get for WILDing. This is weird to describe. I start to get that expanding kind of feeling a little bit. And the feeling of laying there creates this image of a kind of dark square shape in my vision. Around this square shape I am able to purposely create a silver ring. I make the silver ring spin, circling the black shape. It now feels as if I'm in the center of the black shape, and the ring is spinning around me. But it's just a feeling, because I can see it in front of me. I stop focusing on the spinning, and I start sliding out of it. so I make the ring spin again. I make it spin really fast, and I can feel myself getting pulled deeper into sleep. then I'm suddenly standing on a trail at the park preserve, and I'm seeing these wide tan spinning disks flying down the trail away from me. After that I appear several more times at the park preserve. And each time some kid on a skate board just about runs right into me.

[Caradon]

Today's attempt Tuesday/August/25/2009 Was having difficulty clearing my thoughts properly last night, and in my nap. I just managed a brief Lucid image of a snake biting someone in the face. Then I had the most fun dirt biking dream ever.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Wednesday/August/26/2009 Into my nap Don't think I was Lucid, but I remember getting this weird perspective of laying on my side along a road. There is bumper to bumper traffic, so all the cars are stopped. I'm looking underneath one of the cars when I see a pair of hands touch down to the ground on the other side of the car. Somebody is crawling out of the car. Then my perspective changes, so that I'm more toward the back of the car. I can now see that a man in a suit crawled out of the car. And the road looks like a busy down town street. The man stands up, and he is in the middle of the road. In the lane directly next to him, is some kind of big construction vehicle. The man begins kicking this vehicle, as if he is pissed that it is in his way. After sleeping two hours and waking up for a couple minutes, I try to WILD a little bit more. I got a couple more non Lucid dream entries, but I don't remember what they were now.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Thursday/August/27/2009 I find myself standing outside my house, in the back yard, looking around. I then get a brief image of a big plastic container sitting on my kitchen counter. I then find myself in the back yard of the house again. Into my nap I step through a large black square on a white wall. Beyond is a dark room. Across the room, through the darkness, I can see a lighted corridor. I make my way in the direction of the corridor. Before I can get there the light dims and goes out. I think, I'm going to enter a dream of darkness. Then I remember how I once used spinning to make a dark dream light. And I think I may have to try it in this dream. I don't get the chance. I wake. I'm walking across a dark room again. There is a person beside me. I see a hint of movement on one side of the room. I think it's a monster. I got the impression of the long bony tail of an alien snaking through the darkness. There is a point on the opposite side of the room that I can see. I see two human shaped figures walking towards me. I realize that what I'm looking at is a mirror, and that I'm seeing the reflection of myself and the person beside me. I say to the person beside me," That's just our reflection, nothing to worry about." But then I realize, that since this is a dream, the figures walking towards us could become something quite different than just a simple reflection of ourselves. Next I enter a scene without Lucidity. I'm on a medieval battlefield, wielding a scimitar. I'm surrounded by the enemy, and I'm hacking and slashing, trying to stay alive.

[Caradon]

Well,I was going to stay off the computer tonight and just try and focus on inducing a DILD, because it's the first night of my weekend. But have been in too shitty of a mood to concentrate on it anyway. So I thought I would get on the computer to break up my train of thought, and try to help me get into a more dreaming conducive mood. I'm still trying to figure out if Melatonin Makes WILDing more difficult. I'm starting to lean more towards thinking that it does. But it's still unclear to me if it's the Melatonin on those nights causing difficulty, or if it's just a lack of concentration on my part. And just a coincidence that I happened to take some on the same nights as my inability to concentrate. Friday/August/28/2009 Friday night I gave up pretty quick, I just wanted to fall asleep. But I had a weird Lucid moment in the middle of the night. I'm not sure if it was a WILD DILD or one of those dream reentry Lucids. But I know that in the dream I believed that I had just WILDed. I was having this dream that I was at McDonald's. I was standing in line to order. While standing in line I got into a fight with two people. I'm not sure what happened next, if I woke up for a second, or what. But next thing I know, I'm in the same dream McDonald's, standing in the same line, But fully Lucid. I believe that I had just WILDed into the dream, and I'm looking around. There is this guy cooking. He is wearing one of those stupid looking, boat like, paper cooks hats, that you never see anymore. Since I believe that I had just WILDed, I'm expecting the dream to fade. So I just kind of watch this guy cooking. Until the dream does start to fade. I'm sure that my expectation caused this, and I may have had a quick false awakening. I'm not sure about that. But I end up back in the same dream again, this time without Lucidity. Into my nap I lay down no my back, fully expecting to WILD, still pretty psyched up about the success I had the day before. But I must have fell right to sleep, because I didn't remember any type of HI whatsoever. I had taken another 3mg of Melatonin. I didn't even get any recall. I just suddenly woke up and it was two hours later. Saturday/August/29/2009 I took some more Melatonin partly just to help me sleep. Because I was pretty awake, and I needed to get up really early. The Melatonin does help to make me sleepy. I lay on my back for a little while, and was unable to clear my thoughts enough to WILD, or fall asleep. So I turn over on my side, still trying to WILD that way. I didn't WILD, but fell asleep shortly. And went directly into very vivid colorful dreaming that seemed to last the entire three to four hours I slept. Into my nap Same thing happened as the day before. I was fully expecting to WILD. I lay on my back, but fell right to sleep with no memory of any HI or anything. But this time waking up from some very fun vivid dreaming. I plan to take more Melatonin tonight, and tomorrow. For the helpful recall. And see if it still hinders WILDing. Then maybe go without any during my work week. And see if there is a difference in WILDing. But if recall starts slipping, it will be difficult to not take any. The dreams I've been having have just been so much fun, even with a lack of Lucidity.

[Caradon]

Today's attempts Sunday/August/30/2009 Well last night I managed to get a little bit of brief, Lucid, work related HI. But it was getting pretty late, like three in the morning. I decide to roll over onto my side and just try to fall asleep. But on my side I was still able an Lucid image of some old man wearing glasses. Into my nap. Mostly nothing going into my nap either. Even though I felt pretty tired, I worked at it for nearly two hours without falling asleep. I did manage to get a couple of "Final Destination" images. I had just gotten back from watching the movie. I think my problem was mostly due to not being able to completely clear my thoughts. But even when I started working harder at keeping a silent mind, I was not able to get much. but I did get into that weird floating expanding feeling for a while. That was kind of fun just relaxing in that state. But it didn't quickly form into images and dream scenes like it normally does.

[Caradon]

Well I've officially decided that melatonin is definitely bad for WILDing. Today's attempts Monday/August/31/2009 Well I did manage to get some stuff last night, but mostly non Lucid. And I can't remember most of it very well. What I do remember is too weird to describe. But I did almost manage to successfully WILD after a short WBTB. After a WBTB I start to see this image of a hand saw cutting into someones arm. It's sawing back and forth really fast, and about halfway through the arm. Then, along side that, I get the image of someones face. The mouth is moving fast, and strange sounds are coming out of it. Then along side that, a violin playing really fast. The sound of the violin going along with the sawing arm, and the person speaking weird sounds. Like some kind of macabre orchestra. The image doesn't fade, and I watch and listen to this for a little bit. At the same time having separate thoughts on how to describe this. I become aware of the feel of my blanket covering me. but to me it feels like some kind of weird second skin. Still in the dream, and not moving my real body, I reach down and pull this second skin up over my head.The skin blanket is alive, and wraps tightly around my body. Like some type of vacuum packed food container. The scene shifts a little, and I forget that I'm dreaming. I view myself wrapped in this skin from outside it. I hear a voice say that the change will be painful. I know that I'm about to be transformed into something else. But I want this to happen, and I don't care if it hurts. I can see movement within the skin wrap, which is my body. I can hear the snapping of bones as I am being reshaped and transformed into something unrecognizable. I think it's good that no one I know will ever recognize me, because I want to disappear. Next thing I know, I'm walking through some place that looks like a bar. There are others like me, who have been transformed by this living skin thing. Only they are all still wrapped tightly in this skin. I can see their hands clawing at the air, as if in pain. I wake. There was another one that I can't remember. But I know I lost Lucidity right away in that one too. Into my nap A little bit of Lucid HI. I remember one where I'm laying on the floor near a closet door. I light suddenly comes on in the room. I have a clear view of the door I'm laying next to. There was something else that I don't remember.