Allens Dream journal

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I really want to get back into lucid dreaming and have been really lazy when writing down my dreams. I recently downloaded a voice recorder on my phone and am going to record the dreams and write them down here later in the day. I also am going to post my goals on here and notes on how I am doing. Main goals: 1 wbtb wild attempt when I can record my dreams and write them here later Start doing some RC's when I learn some dream signs meditate once during the day I am going to have a daily post with my meditation and dreams the following night. Normal dreams Lucid dreams Lucid dreams from WILD

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6/5/10 Meditation: Total time: 30 min Put my meditation music on and laid in cross leg position. After some time my head started to feel like a big balloon. Then It felt like I was one big balloon floating up. My dog started whining and it put me out of the feeling. I saw a flash on green light at one point and it startled me a little. At one point my ear started itching intensely. I put attention on my body and after a min or so it went away. My mind was wandering a bit so next time I will focus my attention on my part of my body and keep it there. Dreams: RAP: I as at my moms house and she was showing me a bill of 10,000 dollars she spent at Costco. I remember thinking that if she spent that much every week we would be paying 40,000 a month for food! I had some friends come over with Kara and they started rapping hardcore. I remember the raps really well but I don't think its an actual song. Last thing I remember is needing to take money out of the atm. GF trouble: Went to hang out with kalee my ex. I had no shirt on and a fat friend of kalees came into her parents house with no shirt on. Her parents saw and started clapping. We had a little competition where we would body slam each other and say stuff like ohhhhhh! what now! The friend ended up disappearing and kalee turned into Kara, a girl I am kind of seeing now. She had a phone call and said she would be right back. Michael my best friend appeared in the room and we hung out for a while. It seemed to be a couple hours later and Kara still had not come back from some guys house and I was starting to get angry. She finally came back and apologized to me for a while. I forgave her and got a phone call with some random guy saying he processed my refund. I had a lot of dreams that night but did not want to disturb the girl sleeping in my bed. I had a party at my house and did not want to record myself in front of everyone. WILD attempt: Tried to wild around 8 am (went to bed around 3) everything was going smoothly, but after 15 min my alarm went off again. I was agitated and ended up rolling over and trying to consciously watch myself fall asleep. I fell asleep unaware

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6/6/10 Meditation: Had a great session today. Total time was around 50 minutes. I laid in cross legged position and focused on relaxing my body. For a while I moved my dream hands in sand to try and actually feel it happening. After about 15 minutes of nothing happening I gave up and just relaxed. I felt a pressure in my head, but it dissipated very quickly. After about 30 minutes something great happened. I realized how good it felt to be in this state of relaxation and stopped trying to do anything and just enjoy this feeling. After about 5 minutes of truly relaxing, I lost all feeling in my body. It felt like I was melting. I ignored these feelings because every time I paid attention to them they would be less intense. I continued relaxing completely and enjoyed the feeling of pure relaxation when I started falling. I felt as if I weighed 1000 pounds and was falling into blackness. This kept going on for a while until I felt nothing. It was a really weird feeling, but it felt as if I was a part of the room. It felt as if I had no body and was just floating there. I laid there for a while thinking I would start to see hynagogic imagery of some sort, but got nothing. Actually, the mediation music I was listening to did sound more vibrant. It was as if some of the tunes were ringing excessively. It was a really good feeling so I just laid there until I felt it was time to get up (had to go to work soon and did not know how long I was laying there) Dreams: Very excited for tonight. I plan to set my alarm for around 3 am and do the same meditation I just did and see if I can slip into a dream. I don't have to wake up tomorrow until later so I will also set my alarm for 6 am and 8 am. I have a good feeling about being lucid tonight EDIT: So I had zero dream recall last night This almost never happens. WILD attempt:

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6/7/10 Meditation: Tuesday and Wednesday I have class until really late so I cant meditate those days. I did set my alarm for 3 am to do some meditation. Had a successful wild, but when I opened my eyes to get out of bed there was a giant dog in my room that shared the shit out of me and woke me up. Went to rewild but could not fall back asleep. Dreams: Zero recall AGAIN!!! This literally never happens. My recall is normally really good. I don't even remember a fragment of a dream.. not even a single thing. I had five alarms go off. One at 3 am. one at 6 am, 620, and 640 for 5 seconds for a DEILD all of which were almost successful. and one at 7 am. At 7 am I was going to try another wild but was so frustrated with zero dream recall I just tried to sleep and get at least one dream. I think tonight I am only going to set one alarm for a WBTB and see if that helps me dream recall. I tried everything from laying down after I woke up and trying to recall ANYTHING. Nothing

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Have not been home for a couple days way too much partying. 06/10/10 The only dream I can recall is Arrested: Was at someones house for a new years party camping trip. My best friend Michael was there and we were laying in the grass looking at the stars. There were some light fireworks in the sky and we started talking about girls. We randomly started arguing with people and someone was really pissed at me. Instead of hitting me, they went for my dog and broke her foot I started hitting the person (might have been a woman) and I think they died. I get scared and start packing my clothes up to get out of the place before the police arrive. Right before I am about to leave I see police in full body outfits searching the place for me. They have guns with green laser pointers. I start to turn around and go the other way when I realize I cant escape and start moving towards them. Tonight I am doing nothing so I can get back on a regular sleeping schedule