Terrible recall, no motivation to write down dreams
A couple months ago, I was remembering multiple long detailed dreams every night thanks to my dream journal. But for about a month now I've just stopped writing down my dreams. There are a few problems that seem to be causing this.
One problem (and maybe the basis of the others) is motivation. It's easy for me to say right now that I'll start to dedicate time to writing down dreams in the morning, but I seem to say that every day, and never actually do it. When the time actually comes in the morning, even when the problems described below aren't an issue, I couldn't care less about writing down my dreams. I just want to get of bed and start my day. A few times, maybe 1.5 times per week, I've forced myself to write down the little I can remember, but not often enough to increase my recall.
Another problem is that, I've been lacking sleep on weekdays and overlseeping on weekends. I'll get 6 hours of sleep because I have to wake up early for school, and reset the alarm multiple times becuase I'm so tired I'll only get out of bed when I absolutely have to. And when I finally do wake up I have to rush to get ready for school and have no time to think about dreams.
Then on weekends, I tend to wake up at whatever time I've set my alarm clock to, having gotten 8 hours of sleep, and feel completely awake. When I decide to lie in bed and think about my dreams, my mind usually drifts very quickly. Within seconds I'll find myself thinking about something unrelated to dreams, and after I remind myself a few times to actually think about the dreams, drifting off again within seconds each time, a few minutes have passed, and by then I've mostly forgotten the dreams. Eventually, I usually fall back asleep, even though I didn't feel tired. So that method of laying still in bed while thinking about dreams just doesn't seem to work for me.
It seems there's obvious advice I'd give myself, or give someone else who had this same problem, but it's difficult when it's actually happening to me. I can't seem to summon the motivation to even try anymore, even though I want to LD very badly, and that seems like a contradiction. The problem isn't just with recall, it's with my willingness to practice other LD techniques, but recall is where it starts so that's why I'm focusing on that first. I already tried taking a break for a week, then coming back, but that didn't work. It seems like I'm stuck in this cycle and can't get out of it.
