Originally Posted by InnerVision
I've found that even with the strongest intention my recall is utterly worthless if I'm stressed or very tired, regardless of previous nights.
Yup. That's where I've been the past 4 or 5 days. Work really heated up, multiple hot projects and one was just dumped in my lap when the first was getting to the critical point of certification testing. It's eaten into my ability to work the fun stuff to the degree I'd like and I just need to let that attitude go.
So even though I'm dead tired after a 12 hour work day and then clearing 14 inches of snow, I find myself here at 1:45 in the morning. Doh!
Ah well, tomorrow's another day.
So yesterday after making the above post I just let go of the desire, intensity and frustration of the last 4 or 5 days. I put my mind on where it needed to be at the moment (work) and had a huge insight and burst of creativity and made significant progress on the project dumped on me at the last moment.
I also put aside my LD practice for the day, including my pre-bed routine which I think, truth be told, was getting too formulaic and excessive and losing sight of the forest for the trees.
So last night I had a long and rich dream right off the bat, waking up naturally about 1.5 hours after going to sleep. I also had my phone timer (the tone for the timer is much softer and pleasant than the alarm) set for 4.5 hours. I had another dream, albeit shorter and not as rich and a fragment awaiting my awakening. I then set the timer for 1.5 hours and had another short dream and an additional fragment waiting for me.
In conclusion it was all about attitude. Prior to letting myself get caught up in the storm of work-related stress I was averaging 2.5 recalls per night and then had a burst of 13 in three nights. After that I only had a handful of short, fuzzy fragments and impressions over that stressful period, including 2 nights with a total blank.
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