Thread: Whitedream's Yoga

completed 10 minutes listening to music meditaiton. My mind was mainly focused on the music. I realized it is important that i kind of shake my legs out and stretch before i meditate. being in a comfortable position really improved my meditation. afterword i read some inspiring readings about self love. And i saw that i have often been much to hard on myself in my effort to become a better person. I have failed to love my self for who i am now. that is okay and i am working on this activlely. I am enough exactly as i am today and will continue to grow and develop slowly.

Originally Posted by whitedreams

completed 10 minutes listening to music meditaiton. My mind was mainly focused on the music. I realized it is important that i kind of shake my legs out and stretch before i meditate. being in a comfortable position really improved my meditation. afterword i read some inspiring readings about self love. And i saw that i have often been much to hard on myself in my effort to become a better person. I have failed to love my self for who i am now. that is okay and i am working on this activlely. I am enough exactly as i am today and will continue to grow and develop slowly.

"Judge not" also applies to yourself. I am glad you realize the way you have been thinking harsh thoughts about yourself, and intend to change. In the path to spiritual health, the first step is to stop hurting yourself.

Originally Posted by sivason

In the path to spiritual health, the first step is to stop hurting yourself.

I should like tatoo this accross my chesst haha thanks sivason! I have also really tried to stop engaging in "battles" with my wandering thoughts. My mind immediatley thinks about issues that are very provoking to me, and it is challenging to just let the thoughts just be thoughts and not put important meaning behind them

Originally Posted by whitedreams

I should like tatoo this accross my chesst haha thanks sivason! I have also really tried to stop engaging in "battles" with my wandering thoughts. My mind immediatley thinks about issues that are very provoking to me, and it is challenging to just let the thoughts just be thoughts and not put important meaning behind them

You may actuallly be stumbling on to a very important truth here. In the quest to calm the mind and limit the random wandering of the mind, you will find that thinking about not thinking, is really never going to work. You can not battle the wandering mind, because the battle itself is the mind wandering, and sometimes can seem to make it worse. It takes something more subtle than a battle. A good first step is just to become more familiar with how the mind wanders.

it was difficult for me to sit still on my cushion. it is difficult for me to sit still at any point in my day. I am going to practice sittiing still being okay and letting the mind do what the mind needs to do. mean time i can practice listening to the sounds of the world and visualizing there image

I did a guided meditation this morning and all the things she was saying were so nice. It focus on a visulization of my best self in a garden and me going into the garden asking my ideal self what do i need to accompllish to get tehre. my best self didnt answer or i didnt answer i don't know how much i was involved with it, buti realized i am very serious and my self love is low. i can love my self and be okay as i am which is challenging especially in the morning. also i have not really had any lucidd dreams lately

guided meditations may be a good way for you to learn to sit still. They engage the mind, and help people learn to visualize, plus often have good messages.

thanks sivason, in the mean time is there anything i can do to increase my lucid dream frequency. I have perfect recall but just cant seem to obtain lucidity. I havnt been doing many reality checks. Do you reccomend any particular method or somthing to couple with the meditation??

I recommend using a simple mantra with the word dream in it as you fall asleep. Breath in (I am) breath out (dreaming). So you repeat 'I am dreaming' dozens of times inside your head at bed time, and it sticks in your mind. mantras at bedtime are IMO the best tool for becoming lucid. Increase the number of mental reality checks you do. The physical ones like counting your fingers are fine, but start mentally questioning your very existence many times a day. Just stop and make anhonest effort to determine how you can tell you are not in fact dreaming. It increases awareness and you will get good at spotting things that mean you are dreaming. Just really look at how you feel and the things around you trying to spot or feel any thing strange.

thanks so much i will give this a shot

i met an intresting man on a bus ride to go river rafting. He was an asian man it was hard to understand what he said but it seemed like he was there to guide me for a reason. He spoke of "being the observor of the mind" which reaffirmed what i have been attempting to do. Now i work on noticing when my mind is out of whack, mostly in emotional times like when i am doing somthing uncomfortable like a workout, walking to a place where i dont know people, or laying still in my bed. My mind has a tendency to focus on the pain. allowing it to do so can be challenging because when i realize i am judging myself its like my mind just stops all thougths all together. as if i was a parent and my mind was a child and i caught my mind red headed doing somthing naughtey then immediatley the child just freezes up. its like the mind is not allowing me to observe it. perhaps this is me overthinking it. idk what do you think?

Getting to know your own mind is very challenging. i am not sure what you are experiencing, but the fact that you are noticing your mind reacting to you observing it, is great. Keep working on it. Try talking to your self in your thoughts and explain to your mind, as if it were a child, why you would like to change certain things. Do this with the compassion of a wise adult mentoring, instead of an older brother scolding.

Hi sivason, sorry for not posting for a while... i have sorta slipped away from my dayley meditaiton practice. i suppose i could be more aware during the day and speak to my Inner child with more compassion to get started again. I don't know i jus feel like ive become stagnant and am falling away from my spiritual practice. i guess i need to just take the action wat do u think

Well, remember you wanted to work on being kinder and less hard on yourself. So, it is like thinking "damn I was trying not to think."

You should move forward as much as you can, but do not let yourself be depressed or frustrated. You are human and just need to accept who you 'were' with hope for who you 'will' be.

Think about the example of thinking/ not thinking. If you try to meditate and stop your mind from wandering, yet you realize you just spent 5 minutes thinking about dumb stuff, you can respond in two ways. The wrong way is to be frustrated and THINK 'oh crap, I suck at this, I was not supposed to let my mind wander,' which is, infact, letting your mind wander more. The correct thing would be to remember what you want to be doing (not wandering) and calmly rreturn to the process.

Good luck, you will go in and out of spiritual times. When you 'wake up' from a darker time, just remember what you want, and resume the steps to get it.

thanks sivason i really needed that i have been back on track and am really working on nurturing to that inner child. also just being aware as much as possible, i see mostly everything as an oppurtunity to be in meditaiton somtimes i choose not to but hopefull with time i will choose to

I am back. After a dark spiritual vacation I have decided I don't want to digg any deeper. On friday I heavily contemplated relapsing and commiting suicide. I had a plan and really freaked my self out. I know when I am seeking to better myself spiritually those type of thoughts do not provoke me. SO here I am. I feel like i have taken 2 steps back from all the progress i have made. I just tried to meditate for 5 minutes and was very unfocused. nonethless im just proud of myself that i took the time to meditate. I am going to commit to 5 minutes in the morning and 5 minutes before bed. for now thats all im able to handle. during those 5 minutes i am aware of my self. I really want to focus on developing greater self awarness. I have becomme overly dependent on my girlfriend. I wish to love my self first and express love to her without being dependent upon her love. PLease Sivason, is there any meditation that can guide me in this direction. Thank you

The most basic would be a positive affrimation mantra. Come up with a sentance that states how you want things to be. In your 5 minutes of meditation repeat it a few times. Make it worded as if it was already true. Something like this, "I am a complete and indipendant person, who knows what I want and the right way to get it."

thanks i meorize my affirmation which is "I am a self aware, courageous, confident, and happy person. I allow my inner child to express it's innocent and loving nature. I love and accept my self completely as I am now" I'll keep you updated thank you

That is a great affrimation, good luck.

Hi Sivason, I know it has been a while since my last post but I was reading through this old work book today and decided I'd like continue practicing dream yoga. i feel lately i have been having trouble tuning into my intution and i think dream yoga can help me follow my inner compass a little more closely. so if it is okay with you i would like to resume. What do you say?

hello, i am going to just go ahead and take the lead on this one...i hope you approve though

a noisy world level 1

i noticed a lot of sounds in this morning meditation that i usually don't pay attention to. there was a plane that seemed to travel slowly over me for a long time. it was very crazy and i imagined a bird on fire flying over me. i also hear a chouir of birds and sounds from inside the house. i noticed my mind has a tendancy to wander about and think about the sounds, but i was (at least a couple times) able to bring my attention back to the task. by the end of the 8 minutes however, i was quite exhausted

ANW 1

this morning i spent 8 minutes attempting to listen to my surroundings. I heard the sound of a bus/car outside my window accompanied by several birds chirping. i noticed a feeling of sickness in my stomache. i think it is because i did not sleep enough and at too much this morning. however, i was able to take a couple deep breaths during the meditation and relax. the sounds around me were like reminders for me to stay relaxed.

here is progress on stage 1...i am going to compose it in big clumps to save space on the forum

September 4th

I meditated 8 minutes after warming up with some yoga. I heard 3 sounds: bird chirping, car honking, and a car driving by. I imagine the bird when it skawked flashing it’s wings and talking to another bird.I find my mind was plannin about what future things i would do with meditaiton.

September 5th

september 10th. BACK ON TRACK

first time i have meditated in a while. getting high as prevented me from following through with a lot of meditation. i wake up to late in the morning and need to save medicating for bed time purposes only. in the morning it just makes me to lazy. also dont use it for parties
1 time a day maximum. should be used wisely. anyway

the meditation was lots of thinking about how getting high is getting to be to much. i definetly want to calm it down and re-focus on myspiritual development. that is alot more important then weed. i was able to sometimes hear the birds chirping but mostly it was brief phases. from now on i will put my legs on the wall to stretch my hip flectres, i will close my eyes and try and just listen to sounds while being still

September 11th

tried meditating on the wall with my legs up to stretch my ham strings and it was really difficult to concentrate. also its 1pm and im just getting it started. i feel a lil bad about that. but anyway…fuck its time to get it going. sivason was right, this journey is more complicated while on drugs and stuff

September 12th

meditated for 8 minutes. this meditation was on time in the morning cause i went to bed on time. i felt deeply connected in some moments of the meditation. i could really see the blackness in my eye lids. i felt that the biggest distraction was the noise from my thoughts. the ooutside world noises were a nice reminder to return to the present moment

September 14th

Meditated 8 minutes. very little focus on sounds but it definetly calmed me down. i was all upset and depressed cause i thought that i was smoking to much weed. the meditation helped me return to the moment and accept exactly where i am at now. still i need to smoke less weed. this is ridiciulous