Okay. I have, for some reason, decided to try the version #3, as of yesterday. Wanted to put in practice something I really am lacking, called discipline. When life is challenging, I guess that is the best time to put it in practice. I have vowed to myself that I will do 7 days of technique #3, level 1, and this would be day 2. I also tried to include my husband into this, because he is good at meditation, among other things.
Day 1.
Explained my husband the technique, and we both took some eucalyptus candy - was the only strong flavored candy in the house-.
First I have felt the nice flavor, then my tongue started numbing down. We were still talking, my husband and I, while lying in bed, telling each other what we feel. We wasted the first candy just talking about random things, I think he was able to maintain awareness, while I could not. My mind, as the topics i would throw to debate, would be various. I recall anything would help to take my mind of the candy. listening to all noises i could hear, visualizing, anything really. I was better at hearing that at any point, i could shift focus on any sound, lose myself in it, anything but feeling the candy. It was, anguishing. After I have finished it, I took candy nr 2, 10 minutes after candy nr 1. The exact thing happened. I was amusing myself, laughing at the noises my stomach made. I remember with this candy piece, I was holding it with my teeth, because I could not bare having it in any place in my mouth, and just touching it with my tongue, every single time my mind would try and drift from the flavor. Started detecting sounds again, or feeling body parts tired, or anything really. Took a half an hour break, came to computer, read again instructions, and then took candy nr 3 and laid back in bed. Because I felt hubby was doing well with drifting off, decided to tell him about level 2 of the exercise, and he took it as a challenge.
This time we decided not to speak with each other, unless there's an important sensation we feel, and even then, just to word it out. With candy # 3 it felt a lot better.
Somehow the anguish came, but faded. I re-discovered the candy. The flavor was not only very refreshing, but its taste was somehow enhanced. I could hold it in my mouth again. I noticed how my tongue was super-saturated , so that's why I had to shift its position now and again. The texture was very smooth, soft in places saliva already partially dissolved it, like the edges, and thinner in the middle, where the tongue would rub the softer part again. Mid way, I have heard my husband say the following. "I feel I am spinning. Its like my brain is spinning with the speed of my fingers rotating. Its not my brain, its like its my eyes, but I know it is not my eyes", and shortly after he entered some sort of trance, he seemed very stiff, and his breathing was not the normal breathing while he is sleeping.
Day 2.
Here some questions have risen. I would really like some sort of elucidation on what just happened.
We had a nice day in the park, and after we talked a lot about his previous experiences while "dreaming" during dinner . I have had him read all the techniques used in this particular class, and he recalls doing some of them in the past. He recalls getting lucid, as in, his goal was to see his own hands in his dream, and he recalls the clearest OBEs. He has put 5 years of his life into this, and I was just so happy he shared more, as this was a topic he was never able to discuss with anyone. I tried to point out some things he has been doing "wrong" in my view, as in, same in my case, lack of discipline.
We both went back to bed, and took our candies with us. We discussed again, what should we do, if we should keep on talking to each other, or not. And what should I do if he gets the trace-like again. Should I wake him up and have him recall? Should I wake him up after a while? He just told me to question him . Which I did. We both started on our candies, and then, After a while, he again reporting something. He told me he is seeing his nose. I asked him, if he is sure it is his nose, and he said "i dont know" He told me the nose did not have skin, and there was also a mask. Then, some more minutes of silence. Then he started reporting again . He said he sees a hallway, a wall, and a door. At that point I started questioning him. I asked him "where are you" he told me he entered the room. I asked him to tell me what is in it, he said that he can only see a window. After about a minute, he said he saw a piece of furniture, which he opened, and this point was abit unclear to me, because he switched to spanish and my spanish is not very good. He then said there is also a chair, and a bed. I asked him to look outside the window and tell me if it is day or night. He said it is raining, that there are clouds. He also said that it is night. The next thing he said that there is a tree. I asked him again where is he, he said he went out the window, and his tree was there. I asked him details about the tree, he could not give me. I asked him what else he sees, he said a tractor. I asked him if he sees the window he came in, he said it is gone now, and there is a house, a door and two windows, but the windows are not the same windows he came in through. I asked him what else is there, and he said a dog house, but there is no dog, and there is a silver metallic dog bowl. I asked him if the dog bowl had a name, but it didnt. I asked him then if the tree is still there, and he said yes. He also said there was a fence. I asked him if he can see what is beyond the fence, and he said there is nothing. At that point he started complaining about pain in his left hand, and I was holding his right hand with my left. I asked him if the tree was still in sight, he said yes, and there is an apple there. I asked him if it is an apple tree, he said he doesn't know. I asked him, that if he climbed the tree, would he get a better view of what is beyond the fence, he said he cannot. He complained about the left hand again. I asked him, if he can locate the pain, he tried, but was unable to. I asked him how does his right hand feel ( I was trying to shift attention from his left to his right, so that it maybe not bother him anymore). He told me his right hand feels very nice. I asked him to try and shift some of the good feelings from his right to the left hand. There was a silence. I asked him if he is able to do so and he said yes. At that point, I felt my own right hand, numb. As in I had to shake it again and again, to get rid of the numbness. I asked him if his left hand felt better, then he reported pain in his eyes. I asked him where is he, he said he doesn't know. I asked him what is it he sees around, he said light. I asked him if the light had any colors, he said no. I asked him if the light was like sunlight, he said no. Then he told me he sees a seed, an apple seed. I asked him where he is again, he said inside the apple. I asked him what he was, he said he doesent know. He reported pain in the hand again. I asked him again, where was he, he said in the tree. That he sees the house, but it is very large now, because he is very small. I asked him if he can see over the fence, he said again there is nothing over there. I asked him if he wants to enter the house, he said no, that he wants to go over the fence. He said the dog house and the dog bowl were still there, and there is water in the dog bowl. He said that he is touching the water with his right hand, and it feels nice. The pain in left hand appeared again. I asked him if he can see his left hand he said it is not there. I asked him to try and grab his left with his right, and shake it gently, he told me he cannot because his right is in the water. He woke up because he almost choked on the candy and I was actually very happy. This , took about 1h. He recalled only the nose, and was abit freaked out, because he knew it wasnt his nose, and then, the water sensation, and there was pain in his left shoulder.
I do not know what to think of this. What kind of dreaming this is? Was I right to question him? I felt like sinking in deep waters doing that. I had no ideea what I was doing. And most of all, how can my hand go numb like that EXACTLY as he was trying to charge with good vibes his left hand? Some sort of answers and guidance would be nice at this point.
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