Scared of My Free Will, Paranoid-- Help!
I get scared of my freewill sometimes. Like right now.
I was watching this scary thing of a fire in a club. I'm alone at home for a few days, family coming back tomorrow night. Suddenly had a horrible thought if there was a fire here, how it would ruin my life and be horrible and we'd lose everything. Then I thought about how right now, I could get up and set fire to everything. I don't want to, I'm just scared of the idea that I could.
I went to the kitchen to make a drink, saw the matchbox in the cupboard, held it and just thought "How pathetic. I never would, ever. Its not even a possibility." and found myself trying to put the matchbox somewhere awkward because I became worried I'd sleepwalk and cause a fire.
Its a horrible paranoia. Am I going insane or what? WHAT CAN I DO. D: