I have died a lot in my dreams, usually in very vivid horrible detail. I don't hate these dreams because I get to process feelings and experiences with no physical harm to my body, which is an unbelievable gift.
In an early dream I fell into a swamp, the dream immediately went into third person. In a moment other people pulled my body out of the water, but I had been killed and half devoured by piranhas! I was a ghost and no one could see me. This dream was only horrifying for a moment until I realized my best friend could see me and we played pranks on people together.
In one, me, my brothers, and sister were in a car that lost control and went over a cliff, we were falling for a long time and the terror was sickening, seeing most of my family about to die and having no way to stop it. I hugged my sister tightly and turned so that my back would hit the ground first, I had the vain hope that she might live if I cushioned her with my body. (The car seemed to disintegrate as we fell) I hit the ground, there was a feeling of painful compression, but it only lasted a moment, and then I was floating in endless blackness with no body. I had a horrible sickening fear that I would exist forever in the emptiness but I woke up very slowly.
In another, I purposely cut my wrist with a knife (this was lucid, I was trying to wake up). The knife slicing was incredibly realistic feeling, the dream tilted and I realized I was laying down without having felt myself fall. I couldn't move at all and found myself staring at the "X" I had carved in my wrist. Then, strangely, grass began to grow over my hand and my flesh slowly broke apart and sank into the ground, I felt the thousands of tiny roots of the blades of grass bury themselves all over my body, but it wasn't painful anymore. I was then floating above my body, and saw my corpse completely decompose into the grass, I awoke into an FA in a few moments.
Once I immediately transported to The Fade (a concept from the game series Dragon Age) and was accosted by invisible demons.
I had another similar death dream that had to do with tarot, and one specific demon ghost that wanted to devour my soul.
In probably the most gruesome and gory dream I have ever experienced, I was in a horrific fight with Freddy Kruger. (don't read if you are sensitive):
I sliced his head and chest up into hamburger meat with a machete, but he just laughed through it and reformed his body, I split open his stomach and his rotting entrails fell onto my feet, making me slip and slide giving him even more of an advantage. He dragged me to the edge of a cliff to throw me into a lava pit when I decided I was going to take the bastard with me. With his razor claws at my ribs I put all my energy into a head butt, snapping his neck back, but at the same time letting his claws stab me and pierce my lungs and heart.
I knew by then it was just a matter until I was dead.
There is a bit more struggle, but he falls into the lava, dying.
I spent the next few minutes slowly getting stiffer and quickly losing the ability to breath as my sheared heart pumped blood directly into my torn up lungs. This was incredibly painful and I felt my body contracting into a smaller and smaller ball, every muscle cramping, until I slowly lost feeling and faded to waking.
What have I learned from these dreams about myself? Well, for one, I am terrified of dying. I am obviously very inconsistent on what the afterlife is, and fear both that there will be nothing after death, or that if there is something, my soul will be vulnerable to all sorts of malicious things. Sorry for the wall of text.
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