Hello everybody!
So I'm just gonna get to the point and say that I am very excited to have finally found out why all my dreams are so "muddy" and "look like a distant memory in your side vision"
The secret was, (and warning this may be a little weird/unexpected), but it was because of.....
Masturbation
How did I come across this?
Well one day I was researching into my lifestyle (theistic by the way) and I concluded that my addiction to adult entertainment was demonic. I essentially believe that it was the cause for my depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, heavy spontaneous anger (almost like i'm possessed type anger) and not being happy when I get stuff that I really wanted. I even broke down one time. So I confessed to myself that I'm addicted to it.
Then I decided to stop watching this stuff for 4 days and the results were amazing....
I felt extremely powerful and energetic, I was happy at the slightest stuff, It felt so good that I almost compared it to feeling like the best year I had (2010), and to top it all I had vivid dreams! and even a lucid one too!(i was so excited about this that i noted it on my first DJ post on this website ), dreams that didn't feel foggy or groggy, dreams that actually felt like SOMETHING! it was amazing, all until i relapsed.....
I instantly went back to that depression, anxiety, super angry, weak feeling and my dreams returned to it's "hell" state.....
So this time around I'm gonna quit cold turkey, because I am super motivated to lucid dream and i'll do anything to reach my goal.
Thanks for reading
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