I think I'm quickly losing my mind

**justme** · 09-13-2008 01:43 AM

Lets start with the dream thing first... I recently got a job at Subway. Sometimes at night I have "dreams?" that its night I'm in my bed, and someone wants me to make a sandwhich. I'm bed I'm tired and look at the clock and was like "it's three in the morning we should be closed", but I don't want to get fired so I search around my bed for those plastic gloves and bread and I find nothing so I'm like ugggghhh 'm going to have to get out of bed and get the sandwich stuff. But I just think screw it while I go back to bed while the dude that wants a sandwich (I think the dudes the lamp, I'll get to that in a minute). Anyways a few days ago I had this "dream?" and during the dream while I was looking on the bed for sandwich stuff I moved my stuffed duck to the other side of my bed to get him out of the way, even though he's almost always on the left side of the bed. When wake up I remember that "dream?" and find that my duck it on the right side of my bed. Also other indications that its not a dream s when I look at the clock, usally in dreams when I look at the clock the numbers are out of whack or no numbers at all, but in those types of "dreams?" I looked at the clock serveral times and it remained logical also everything in my room haven't changed, I never do find the bread or gloves. I don't think these are dreams, so do I wake up and start hallucinating?

**drewmandan** · 09-13-2008 03:39 AM

It could be hallucinations you sometimes get if you wake up and your brain is still in partial REM. As an example, just a few days ago I woke up and saw thousands of large cockroach things crawling on the wall opposite my bed. I wasn't dreaming, I was awake and hallucinating.

The way you can tell is the hallucination goes away after several seconds and everything goes back to being normal and logical, without any lapse in awareness. By that I mean you don't "wake up" out of it. You just stay awake and stop seeing things or having the delusions that you were experiencing seconds earlier. If it's a dream, between the dream and being awake there will be a discontinuity, like waking up. So what you have to do is, next time this happens, get out of bed and walk around until you're fully awake. If you can do this without anything weird happening, then it was a (natural) waking hallucination.

**poog** · 09-13-2008 03:46 AM

lol

sorry for laughing, i love how you're like, "it's three in the morning, go make you're own dang sandwich!" like its some crazy customer coming to you for sandwiches in the middle of the night.

lol

hee hee *sniff*

nice platypus too... yo quiero tenir un ornitorrinco por yo un dia...

i think i said that right. anywho, good luck to you!

**antiflag** · 09-13-2008 04:29 AM

last night I randomly woke up and yelled "WHAT!!!??"

then i just started laughing at my self when i realized what i just did

i do that kind of stuff all the time when i am sleeping over at my grandmas or on the couch or something (were im not used to sleeping at)

it usualy happends to me at around 3:00 also
about the time REM slep should be setting in soo...im guessing your subconcius(im pretty sure i spelled that wrong) is still kicking in while your awake

but what do i know...?

**Akashicpasses** · 09-13-2008 06:04 PM

Could also be your mind is in overdrive from the new job for some reason. Any staff turnover/big events happen at your subway lately?

I ask, because a few months ago I was working at a place which was just beginning a peroid of real employee unstability - we lost one and were about to lose a few more. Anyway, three days or so after I started, I woke up one night calling my bosses name, "X - noooooooooooooo!" and saying no. I recall the dream was that I didn't want her to quit, but I forget why.

My hubby had a good laugh about that.

Anyway, I guess the instability was bugging me more than I thought at the time. Might not be instability at all though, and just the effects of nervous excitement within a new job.

Seriously though - I hope noone ever asks you for a sandwich at 3am in bed. That would be too weird for me IRL.

**Forsaken** · 09-20-2008 12:24 AM

The demands of the new job are stressing you out, and you're half waking up during dreams about it. Similar things happened to me when I started a similar job. It will stop when you get more comfortable with the job.

**lucid4sho** · 09-20-2008 01:34 AM

How ironic, someone else is slowly losing their mind
http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...511#post904511

**DNK** · 09-20-2008 09:13 AM

Yeah, Subway will do that to you.

You should work at Panera instead.

I don't know, sometimes right before bed I'll get some of the craziest stuff into my head, but I'm good at getting it out if I need to. If you don't like those dreams, stop having them. Learn some self-control already.

But seriously, don't work at Subway.

**Dreamhope11** · 09-24-2008 09:32 AM

I have had the exact same thing, one time i was going through a resident evil phase and i was like 8, all in one day i watched the film twice, and completed the whole playsation 1 game in one day, it was the worst night of my life, everytime i close my eyes i saw zombies, i heard zombies, i was sweating and having zombie visions, in subway it's very busy and this could be a shock to your brain..

**justme** · 10-12-2008 05:34 PM

Originally Posted by drewmandan

It could be hallucinations you sometimes get if you wake up and your brain is still in partial REM. As an example, just a few days ago I woke up and saw thousands of large cockroach things crawling on the wall opposite my bed. I wasn't dreaming, I was awake and hallucinating.

The way you can tell is the hallucination goes away after several seconds and everything goes back to being normal and logical, without any lapse in awareness. By that I mean you don't "wake up" out of it. You just stay awake and stop seeing things or having the delusions that you were experiencing seconds earlier. If it's a dream, between the dream and being awake there will be a discontinuity, like waking up. So what you have to do is, next time this happens, get out of bed and walk around until you're fully awake. If you can do this without anything weird happening, then it was a (natural) waking hallucination.

Ewwwwwww bug things crawling on the wall? I'm actually quite happy with making the sandwhiches now 0.o. And by hallucinating I don't actually "see" the box of gloves or the customor (its just the shape or the lamp, it would be freaky if it wasn't 0.o) its just that my mind thinks its like there. But that was a pretty good explanation, my mind is pretty messed up so hallucinations shouldnt be a surprise.

Originally Posted by Akashicpasses

Could also be your mind is in overdrive from the new job for some reason. Any staff turnover/big events happen at your subway lately?

I ask, because a few months ago I was working at a place which was just beginning a peroid of real employee unstability - we lost one and were about to lose a few more. Anyway, three days or so after I started, I woke up one night calling my bosses name, "X - noooooooooooooo!" and saying no. I recall the dream was that I didn't want her to quit, but I forget why.

My hubby had a good laugh about that.

Anyway, I guess the instability was bugging me more than I thought at the time. Might not be instability at all though, and just the effects of nervous excitement within a new job.

Seriously though - I hope noone ever asks you for a sandwich at 3am in bed. That would be too weird for me IRL.

Its actually my first job so that could be it, and also with high school starting and having some college classes on the side and trying to participate in some honor society thing to get some scholarship I'm pretty busy. Actually, now monday is my favorite day of the week because after high school is done I dont have to go to work or a college class. So I have like over 6 hours of nothing going on (except catching up homework). I actually had a dream last night about how my boss was in a cult. Lol.

Originally Posted by lucid4sho

How ironic, someone else is slowly losing their mind
http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...511#post904511

Thats where I got the idea to name the post quickly losing my mind, ^__^

Originally Posted by DNK

Yeah, Subway will do that to you.

You should work at Panera instead.

I don't know, sometimes right before bed I'll get some of the craziest stuff into my head, but I'm good at getting it out if I need to. If you don't like those dreams, stop having them. Learn some self-control already.

But seriously, don't work at Subway.

Ii have to work somewhere you know, >.> and Walmart didnt want me :-( I like my crazy dreams actually, I just dont want to get in the habbit of hallucinating when Im awake as we 0.o

Anyway sorry for bringing back up an old post. I havn't had much free time. I actually have to go to work in about 10 minutes,then when I get back to work I'll probaly just go to bed because I'm not use to working for 9 hours straight. Kind of wears me out a bit. But I havn't had the hallucinations latly, so thats good. ^__^ Thanks for the replies.

**drewmandan** · 10-13-2008 02:29 AM

Originally Posted by justme

Ewwwwwww bug things crawling on the wall? I'm actually quite happy with making the sandwhiches now 0.o. And by hallucinating I don't actually "see" the box of gloves or the customor (its just the shape or the lamp, it would be freaky if it wasn't 0.o) its just that my mind thinks its like there.

Yeah, that's how they sometimes work. Sometimes I see stuff, other times I just misinterpret. Sometimes, for example, I wake up and my window seems like it's too tall or too long. Obviously I'm just looking at my window, but in my mind the dimensions are somehow wrong. And then a few seconds later they go back to normal but I don't "see" anything changing, it just 'feels' more normal.

**Cacophony** · 10-13-2008 08:42 PM

Well, I'd like to tell you you're not crazy - but the cold harsh reality is that there's no such thing as sanity and people are slowly driving themselves more insane than they should trying to convince themselves that they ARE sane even though, as we all know, there is no such thing.

With that said - I think you're fine. Working customer service just really SUCKS. Guh.

Man, my first job I was a bagger at a grocery store. This one time some customer threw her grocery bags at me because I put two bottles of water in the same bag. Crazy people. Anyhow - I think our worst nightmares take place in our work spaces (at least, that's what I think for me personally).

Next time you're asleep and someone asks you to make them a sandwich, you tell 'em! You tell 'em for me! Here's what you tell 'em:

"HARK DEMON! Behold, I have the gift and power of the sandwich gods that has been bestowed on me. I now transfer this power of RESPECT for those in customer service that are not getting paid to roll over in their bed and jump to their sleepy toes at your every whim! Be gone demon!"

Let me know how it works out.

**uTklw** · 10-14-2008 04:28 AM

Originally Posted by Dreamhope11

Absence of Evidence isn't Evidence of Absence

Depends if you are thinking inductively or deductively.

**rojerton** · 10-16-2008 02:07 AM

I know I'm a newbie, but I think I have similar experiences.

I don't work at subway, or... try to do work in bed, but essentially all I do is get up, stare at the alarm clock and try to figure out what time it is. The numbers almost never make sense to me. Once I got so confused by the alarm clock that I got up in a panic (thinking I was late), packed my stuff for work, and was about to leave when I heard my alarm screeching back in my room.

A few times I'll get up and figure that I have to do something outside, so I go to the back yard... and.... yep... go back to bed.

I think that routine tasks somehow get embedded into your mind so that when you're "out of it" you default to thinking you have to do that routine task, but you're not awake enough to recognize what's going on around you, so you get confused.

Anyway, here's what I do, I sleep backwards now. Feet at the headboard. Somehow.... it makes.... some kind of difference. Give it a try.

**Dash** · 10-16-2008 05:09 AM

You may be sleepwalking, but never leaving your bed. You're doing this things, but are half-dreaming, half-awake. You're not going crazy.

I've had times where I've gotten up in bed and had some bizarre thought that made absolutely no sense (like, "I've got to go out and water the TVs or they wont grow", or something stupid like that), and then I snap out of it and realize that what I just thought made absolutely no sense. You're never 100% awake right when you wake up.

**Balestar** · 10-21-2008 11:33 PM

You try working the night shift, then the dream shift then the day shift... that's horrible! It's like working a 20 hour shift!

I've done it 0_o

Customers coming in with really old computer they bought other places and demanding I fix them because they buy pencils where I worked....
Or a customer complaining one of the other staff members told him where to shove it!

You get over it. Try to have a few hours of relaxation time before bed (play a game, watch a movie)

Dont worry it's just a life adjustment you'll stop dreaming about it eventually.. but do the relaxation for atleast 2 hours before sleep if you can!

**justme** · 10-22-2008 12:59 AM

I never really minded going crazy, or try and deny... my psychologist says I'm interesting ^__^ but I am fearful of my mind, having early alzehimers or something. Its like I cant remember anything anymo everything that happened over 10 minutes ago is as real to me as my dreams. I get de ja vue all theime and then try and trace it back to its source, trying to figure out if that was a dream or real life. Of course I'm not too troubled by losing my memories, as long as I keep my knowledge. But then I have knowledge and I cant remember where I got it from... Thats besides the point though. Oh and I actually did have another subway dream, but I was able to realize it was a dream, mostly though laziness because I dont wanna get and make a sandwich. My mom actually has some sleep talking and walking without leaing bed. But she doesn't remember them, she doesnt remember her dreams ethier though... relaxing a few hours before sleep is a good idea, but I dont have that kind of time mangement skills, I actually think Im gonna have a post asking about time manegment.

**Balestar** · 10-22-2008 01:03 AM

If you want a real cure for going to bed too early it's called "Stumbleupon"
http://stumbleupon.com
Now THAT will ruin your time keeping skills.

**drewmandan** · 10-22-2008 01:04 AM

Originally Posted by justme

But then I have knowledge and I cant remember where I got it from... Thats besides the point though.

Sorry to burst your hypochondriac bubble, but this is a normal phenomenon known as "source amnesia", and it occurs as a memory transitions from the episodic to the semantic regime. And if your psychiatrist thinks this isn't normal, get a better psychiatrist, preferably one that doesn't just collect money to pander to your neuroses.

**shotbirds** · 10-22-2008 02:11 AM

I've had dreams where I had a girl in my bed, but I would wake up and I would look around for her for a few seconds then i would be let down because I was awake :/

**justme** · 10-27-2008 04:05 AM

Originally Posted by drewmandan

Sorry to burst your hypochondriac bubble, but this is a normal phenomenon known as "source amnesia", and it occurs as a memory transitions from the episodic to the semantic regime. And if your psychiatrist thinks this isn't normal, get a better psychiatrist, preferably one that doesn't just collect money to pander to your neuroses.

Oh thats not why they find me "interesting". And my mom brought me to him only once, to get my IQ checked out agian >.> he made me look up "eccentric" in the dictionary... and I should have know the name for that "source amnesia", I read it in one of my psychology books but forgot which one