Baby in Bin dream

Hi All

I had a dream a couple of nights ago that felt strong to me, though I don't know what its about. If anyone has any ideas I'd appreciate

"Baby in Bin

I have a bay, I put it in a brown and and into the bin (bin is outside mothers house where I sometimes stay)(rememberin now its the recylin bin) (Baby not much bigger than a beer can). I put my hands on bag, saying sorry, if I meet you in whatever happens after (afterlife), I want to hug and hold you- I'm v sad and cying I go back in to bed then sit up, thinking should I take the baby out? How will it die? hopefully just 1 night and cold will take it"

I woke at 6 and had to write this, I felt concerned what baby (psychologically)am I letting die? Is it actually not the right time for this baby? By sitting up and wondering should I take the baby out- is it still alive? What is the baby?

I had other dreams that night, I never know if they are all connected or how much so., I dreamt of a sparrow hawk flying into a silver water fall, and then I fought with two people in a doorway so to protect the waterfall

A couple of nights before I had a dream in which something had happened and a baby was lost, there was a public talk, some speakers talking defensively, to a Doula (women who assists births), the doula says as much she is allowed, I read some piece about it, hard to see the letters, I'm moved to tears. After this I try and infiltrate this closed groups gathering

When dreams are strong like this, I don't feel I should attempt lucidity as it feels my unconscious is processing something, and in lucidity I have difficulty not just looking for sex or going flying.

Thanks

Patrick