First Lucid Dream - Disappointment

**PXUmais** · 08-12-2010 12:19 AM

Alright, So I find out about Lucid dreaming and this website about a week ago and this is my first post so hope you guys don't that I'm being too inpatient.. it's probably not that but actually that I set my expectations to high...

Up until yesterday I hadn't had a Lucid dream in my life... (Not that I've recalled anyway)

Well... I had been 'lurking' around the forum for like a week and I feel that I know quite alot about Lucid dreams: WILD, DILD, DEILD, MILD, Dream Recall and so on...

Anyway, yesterday I had a DILD... And to be completely honest it wasn't the greatest dream ever... In fact it was less vivid then the dream in the beginning from when I wasn't lucid...

Here's how the dream went...:

I start out at some classroom with a bunch of students... and I'm sitting on the side.. I seem to be the one that was picked out of them.. and the teacher starts asking me some questions.. (About I.T... One of my fav subjects but whatever)... I give him the right answers but he looks disappointed, you know, like typical: 'face in hands' disappointed... So I'm like whatever... I leave the classroom feeling mutual about him and suddenly I end up at a Shopping Centre.. This is when I realise I'm dreaming..

-I had been trying to fall asleep anyway to do a DILD but couldn't... So I just kept closing my eyes, and so in the shopping mall I started wondering to myself: "If I was trying to fall asleep a second ago then how did I get here"

At that point there was some sort of epiphany moment and from here on it gets wierd....

So I'm suddenly lucid.. And there's this guy standing a few metres away from.. (I don't notice him first)... And basically the first thing I do is say: "INCREASE LUCIDITY NOW"..
while glancing at my hands for a second.. This is when things get annoying: everything suddenly seems out of place... and not the: "Objects out of place thing".. I mean COLOURS out of place.. Like the visuals infront of me are: Half Picasso Cubism art and Half real... I mean when I concentrate on something I see it fine but when I don't it seems like that.... There is also another problem.. The dream feels.. I guess you can call it unstable... By that I mean.. I can sort of feel my body I mean, I can kind of see the blackness between my eye lids while at the same timing seeing the dream...

Another problem is that: ever since I discovered LDing I've always been like WOW, AWESOMENESS excited.. But I don't know if it's just me.. When I talk about these things they give me goose bump.. MAJOR goose bumps.. (I've had SERIOUSLY bad nightmares in the past) and I guess speaking about Dreams is one the topics I like but I'm scared of...

So as soon as I'm lucid I get goosebumps cos I guess I'm scared of the fact that I'm in a dream and my mind has been known to pull a few terrors on me... So I'm scared by the fact that since my mind is set loose it can create any nightmare I'm scared of and pull it up in front of a version of me that's ACTUALLY concious...

Anyways back to the story... (Getting long)...
The guy that was infront of me suddenly reaches out with his hand and at seems like it's stretching.. I reach up to move it away or cast a spell on him (Sounds kinda goofy I know).... Instead I find it INCREDIBLE difficult to successfully feel my dream body move... So anyway I just run out of the Mall.. and I find myself outside.. next to a road... and I'm wearing this kind of girl school skirt..(WTH, I know).. So I quickly run before anyone sees me.. (This is the only part of the lucidy that was half decent lucidity)...

I grap two people and (Remember I'm getting constant goosebumps cos It feels wierd that I'm grabbing people that are made up)... I just tell them to fly with me...

At this point I felt so UTTERLY disappointed that it nearly put me of LDing completely...

So I fly, (It just happened I asked myself to go up and I did)... And I don't feel ANYTHING... I mean, on this forum I've heard experiences where people can feel the wind past them, even the weird type of feeling when you go down to fast and that things happens in your navel.... All I felt was my point of view/perspective change... So in other words I just saw the floor from a higher perspective and that's it... It was like I didn't feel excited or any wind or the sun....

Then I drop them off... At this point I was like.. Hpmf this Lucid dreaming thing is just 'whatever'..

So I'm like since I'm getting so many goosebumps.. I'll have more fun just following the plotline of the story and forgetting that I'm dreaming...

But before I do, I remember I always wanted to do that Neo flying thing... So I try and when I jump I fall back down... and hit my head.. This felt incredible real.. I felt the bump on my head real hard...

Anyway.. I go to the store and basically gunshots start.. and the typical gunfire scene happens at which point this evil women whose kidnapped people comes and does someting with a bunch of cigarette packets and one of those candy dispensers.. (I know, my logic really does turn off in dreams).. So anyway I lose lucidity somewhere around then and carry on until the end of the plot, at which point the friend of the daughter of the evil woman.. Tells the daughter (Probably five years old or something): "Your mom's so good for turning that timer on"... and the daughter goes: "I know she's so... so.. so".. Suddenly the daughter has this completely dead look on her face.. I remember waking up distincively at this point since I was getting really agitated and scared about this.. And she keeps repeating so..so...so.... Then I naturally wake up to a false awakening at which point I wake up again....

I just wanted to ask some questions..

1) Can LDs get funner than this?

2) Can they get more vivid?

3) Is there any point in continuing?

4) How can I stop getting goosebumps every time I talk about dreams (Like, even while I'm typing this).. How can I stop being so scared of the subject and teach myself that it's all in my head?

5) Is flying SERIOUSLY that boring... Or can I get it to be more vivid... and more Five senses oriented...?

6) Is this typical of a first lucid dream?

Any other thoughts are welcome and I'd be interested in knowing what you thought...
Sorry if I posted this in the wrong section.. it's my first post...

P.S. I hadn't kept a dream journal in my first week that I learnt about lucid dreaming, and I still don't... because I guess I was too scared recalling my dreams as soon as I woke up...

Ignorance is bliss, I guess

Edit: An extra note:
As soon as I woke up I vowed to myself not to LD again but after a few hours I told myself to keep patient and that it was interesting experience nonetheless: being awake that is...

I also found it really interesting how in the dream world I felt energetic while in real life I was sleeping.. It was like I wasn't wasting time at all.. When I woke up it felt any other dream/nap, physically wise... But after realisation of the fact I had never done that in a dream before I concluded it was pretty awesome in it's own nature...

I hear all kind of amazing stories on the forum and I hopefully will soon experience some aswell... Thanks for replying if you do....

**Siphorix** · 08-12-2010 06:14 AM

Sounds like a few things could have happened... If you are scared of dreams, and it triggers goose bumps, your mind could be recognizing the change of skin, and internal temperature, which causes you to waken a little bit (Your mind/bodies way to inform you that something about you has changed, and you need to investigate it), but since you are lucid (already being conscious) it affects you differently then if you were asleep trying to wake you up.

Another scenario is that you hadn't set a line between the real environment, and the dream environment.
I suggest reading this: http://www.dreamviews.com/f25/dream-...utorial-95034/

If you can, do NOT go to where your "real" body is sleeping, do not think about your "real" body. Make your dream body your real body....

Lucid dreams can be AMAZING!! - Since you are devastated from nightmares, LD is a good thing. Since you can control and change any aspect of well, everything.. There will be NOTHING to scare or harm you, unless you make it. ..and if something bad does start to happen, simply turn it into something good, change it at whim. - Live the life of "Tron" having LED and Neon light everywhere, to flying around the city make people catch on fire with your super power you have, while feeling the wind and tingles in/on your body... Do the matrix, run and jump into someones body and turn into them. ANYTHING... Live any movie or game... You are the GameMaster!

Hope this helped..

**Ralij** · 08-12-2010 06:44 AM

I agree, if you have nightmares LD would be an incredibly beneficial thing as far as you being afraid. All of my recent LD's have been in nightmares and having the control to decide to have a new dream entirely, or make whatever was trying to kill me do something goofy, helps tremendously. I'm not a frequent LD'er so I am not the best to answer the post but imho the LD will be only as vivid as the dream itself. I've had dreams where I've only been able to see and hear and nothing else, other's every drop of acid burns and the smell make me nauseated. I wouldn't give up after one go, but its up to you.

**username695** · 08-12-2010 11:04 AM

It'll get better the more you have. Trust me lol

**PXUmais** · 08-12-2010 12:29 PM

Sounds like a few things could have happened... If you are scared of dreams, and it triggers goose bumps, your mind could be recognizing the change of skin, and internal temperature, which causes you to waken a little bit (Your mind/bodies way to inform you that something about you has changed, and you need to investigate it), but since you are lucid (already being conscious) it affects you differently then if you were asleep trying to wake you up.

Another scenario is that you hadn't set a line between the real environment, and the dream environment.
I suggest reading this: Dream Stabilization and Clarity Tutorial

Thanks for replying, I went to the website and checked it out.. I expect it to help out alot more..

I agree, if you have nightmares LD would be an incredibly beneficial thing as far as you being afraid. All of my recent LD's have been in nightmares and having the control to decide to have a new dream entirely, or make whatever was trying to kill me do something goofy, helps tremendously. I'm not a frequent LD'er so I am not the best to answer the post but imho the LD will be only as vivid as the dream itself. I've had dreams where I've only been able to see and hear and nothing else, other's every drop of acid burns and the smell make me nauseated. I wouldn't give up after one go, but its up to you

Thanks for replying, Yeah I think I'll be more patient.. That's what I've heard it requires.. And maybe I'll be able to feel so much that it's almost scary...

It'll get better the more you have. Trust me lol

Thanks for replying, I'm hoping the more I do, the more refined my ability to have a lucid dream will get... For example, last night I had ANOTHER LD.. (Two in a row, WOW).. I'm beginning to think the more attention you pay to detail in real life, the more attention you pay to detail in the dream world... Anyways, in the dream I looked at my hands clearly (I had five fingers, which apparently doesn't happen often), and my hands looked exactly like real life.. So I did the nose reality check and it worked... I'm started to notice the landscape and feel of dreams alot more now... And hopefully I'll continue to do so...