Dream ADD

Hi everybody it's been a while. :D

Anyway, as usual I'm very un-disciplined when it comes to my lucid nature. It comes and it goes. But lately I've been reading up on lucid dreaming and I suppose that triggered something in my sleeping mind and I've been having several dreams in which I go lucid for a few minutes and then totally drop it.

The most recent one I had last night. As it went, I was at a doctor's office and went to the bathroom. While inside a stall, I realized I was dreaming and the room started to shake, but I told myself that I would remain in the dream if I remained calm. I tried to focus on a tile on the floor as if I were to suck myself into it and rebuild my dream world from there (that was my intention). When this didn't happen I simply walked back into the doctor's office. Realizing that I was asleep, I decided to form a knife and slit the doctor's throat (yes, very morbid, but I was aware I was dreaming so it didn't make a difference).

After this, I just seemed to get bored with the dream and gave myself up to it. I really don't understand why I let this happen, if I were awake I would have been overjoyed at the occasion. Up until now, my main problem with lucids has been that I get too many ideas at once and I wake myself up. In this case, I seemed to just lose interest.

My question is; was it just me, or is this some sort of dream control thing everyone goes through?

It takes time to gain critical thinking in your dreams. Many times you just get absorbed by what is happening at the very moment you are dreaming. Try focusing on your dream goals while you are awake. And if you reality check you can think of your goal(s) every time you RC.