I write what i can because the fear is eating me up and at least i know that i took a risk of sorts.This things keep circulating in my head and they strike me hard some times and i feel it is better to tell them.
Last night i had a dream were i was with friends and stuff and it is christmas time and people are talking to me and i speak to my sister but notice that i am mentally ill. Then i start crying to my sister who seems to be the only one who understands me. Then i slowly wake up crying. I cant descibe it but i know that all these things in my life are connected.
Ive also had a dream had me in the future were i was a like retired soldier and people kept telling me about there being missing plates of sorts. It stikes me as wierd because also in that dream it showed a young me and an old me in some training enviroment. Then i see my sister bring in some movies where i for me to watch. For some reason it feels as though they are rying to reboot my memory. At the end of that dream my sister thinks i dont know who she is but i tell her i love her and i will always know her. Even writing this hurts me inside and brings tears.
Those experinces also have feeling of notebook where i seem to blank out with only a single sense of clarity.
Then in the last creepy one where i got sucked into this hole and in the mirror i am this disfigured looking guy from Vailla sky but before i see this part i have this video in my head where im in this office where there is this meeting going on and this one guy gets shot. Then i wake up into this hospital.
The one about the meeting freaks me out the most because i read an article somewhere after that with many things related to my dreams but that one had such deja vu like feel to it.
I have more but really cant type any more at this time time.
