Ok, so I have no real plan on how to talk about this so I’ll just randomly write about what I know. Feel free to ask questions, help me or anything. I made a small list of things to talk about.
First, I started to practice learning more about the dream state when I was 15 or 16. I’m 32 now. I’ve heard that being on opiates intensifies these things. I was t-boned by an elderly person about 5 years ago. She broke my back and ruptured 3 discs. I’ve been handicapped since only now getting back to normal. I was on methadone, Norco, Soma etc. I’ve been told that these drugs intensify dreams. However, I’ve been off these drugs now for over 6 months and my dreams have become more lucid, more real and more intense.
A few new things started happening. First, I’ll wake from a dream only to be in another dream only to wake in another dream.
When I first saw the movie ‘Inception’, it was almost like an account of my life in regards to dream reality without the drama and action. I saw the movie knowing they were making fiction but feeling like my dreams were more close to their story than most people could imagine.
As I became lucid close to 90% of the time, I learned techniques to indicate I was dreaming until I was able to realize it within minutes of dreaming on my own. At that point, I started molding them to whatever I wanted.
This was the first problem.
My father died of cancer when I was 17. I enjoyed dreaming of him. I felt like it was him visiting me. When I became entirely lucid, I noticed it was just a shell. There wasn’t much to the personality of the image of my father. It felt like a holodeck on star treck. This wrecked many enjoyments I had of remembering my father. Hence, the first issue where I started to not enjoy my gift.
Other things happened such as what I call “loops” where the same things happen over and over until I decide to wake myself. For example, the other night, I was trying to find the keys to my old car, and I’d lose them and then search and it would repeat over and over. I’d than choose to wake myself. Waking myself is quite easy. In the dream world, I shut my eyes and open my true eyes and I’m awake.
As a matter of fact, one of the oddest things that started happening a few months ago, was that I was able to feel how I was sleeping in reality. For example, I’m in a heavy dream state. I realize I’m dreaming within a few minutes. I think about my conscious or active self, whatever you want to call it and I worry about myself. I then can feel while still dreaming, what position I’m in and how I’m doing. I.e. I was able to feel that I was on my stomach with my arms under my pillow sleeping but it didn’t wake me without my choice. This was new to me.
Other things began about 4 years ago such as problem solving. I was able to work on school issues, mathematical problems, business issues and now most recently, practicing foreign languages that I study such as Japanese, Chinese, Spanish and French. I do have a high IQ, well, a very high IQ but it’s never done me any favors I should say.
While most of my dreams are NOT boring, many can be. I mean, think about it. Think of the movie inception or maybe, a billionaire that could buy anything. What fun is there in that? Sure, I can choose to fly, I can choose to have many beautiful women appear or whatever but when you know it’s a dream, it’s just not the same.
It’s not that I don’t wish for this. I’m proud of the work I’ve done. It’s just become a burden in some ways, that’s all. I thought I was very educated in this subject but I see I have much to learn now.
Feel free to ask anything. I don’t have anything to hide. I just want to learn more. I know I don’t know much. I know I have a gift but it wasn’t easy. I spent 17 years improving this. It just got to a point that was beyond what I wanted.
Oh, and most of the time, I am fully aware of the actual time in the real world. I can wake up knowing within 10 minutes of what the current time is. I’m aware of the time it takes in the dream world.
There’s many great things about this but at the same time, it can get old.
I can’t say much more than what I know. Call me a troll or whatever but I just want answers. Best regards, Cam.
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