I Gave Up

Maybe four months ago I was all hooked on this idea to be awake a 100% within a dream. To be able to live your dream, while being asleep, and wake up, like as if nothing happened. To have some sort of second life every night. Just for a few minutes.
And I can almost swear that I was lucid some times. Like, maybe 5 times. But they were damn short.
But then I got a mail from this forum, who asked If I had forgotten about them?

The problem is:
When you're not getting anywhere, when you're not getting enough results, you kinda let go? You give up?

That's what happened to me.
I still LOVE the idea. But, I just can't get myself back to where I was.
I don't even know if this is real or not. I mean, everytime I went lucid (or, think I was lucid), I wasn't a 100% clear in mind. There was a bit... Fuzzyness, if you will.
I'm not quite sure what I'm asking. Frankly, I don't even know why I'm writing this here.

But, you know, the dream of a dream being real, is just... Amazing, to me.

I have a simple explanation for you as to why you're not having success: DOUBT. I think this is common for those who really haven't had a good LD yet. If you have doubts about the ability and don't have confidence you'll have one, then you won't. I'm sorry but I think that's just how it works. I know I had similar thoughts before I had a good LD, but let me tell you, once you do, you'll crave more and more and you won't hesitate to keep trying.

Anyway, I guess what I'm saying is: Don't Give Up!

Winners never quit and quitters never win.

For some it is hard work, but hey, after a hard work, prize is always sweeter. Besides, training your general awareness benefits you even if you didn't know what lucid dreaming is. Might save you from being flattened by a car or might help you notice many things you earlier just walked by. Now, if you just add the idea of questioning the reality you are in, you eventually get to lucid dreaming.

What you said about your dreams that is normal. You can get dreams where you have control, but they aren't always genual lucid dreams. Lucid dream is when you realize that you are dreaming and you cannot miss that feeling. You just know when that happens :)

Keep trying. It is only when you fall that you learn if you are able to fly.

Thank you all for kind words, they really do help :)

It's scientifically proven that Lucid Dreaming is real, so it's real alright. Your time will come, as long as you try. Paying attention to your regular dreams might help you with that motivation. Also, I'm almost retarded in some lucids, and in some I have no memory of what I should do. In others, I'm 100% clearheaded, know I'm in a dream and have memories from real life. The quality you get is a bit random.

The quality does differ. If you keep practicing though, you'll suddenly get that one awesome lucid that just makes you want to keep going. When I just sit around I usually play out something I'd want to dream about it my head, and it actually helps! Reading old good dream experiences from your own dream journal or others helps as well.

Ironically, the key to lucid dreaming is to NOT GIVE UP.

does your dream always vivid.I know some of them are vivid as real and some of them are not.Same happens in lucid dreams.Keep on trying.

Ha ha, you would not believe how much I can related to you giving up. About a month or so ago I got really really tired of getting nowhere and watching everyone else get loads or complain about not having them straight away. I had been trying for 4 months, and seeing people come on after me, and get their first in a week is a real fucking downer.

I somehow made myself get back into it, and my first was pretty rubbish. Only lasted a few seconds and I wasn't in control that much.
It's been three weeks and still no seconds LD, even though they were supposed to flood in after that first taster.

What keeps me going? Well... hope really, that and the fact that it is easy to at least attempt. Getting up in the night? Simple. Doing R.C.s? Not a problem. But after a while or nothing happening even though you follow the instructions perfectly you do get doubts and feel bad.

I think this is the number 1 cause of failures for people like me. Don't give up, but most of all try to feel happy about the subject. You will NEVER LD if it's a chore.