False awakenings are my nightmare. I began to explore the world of lucid dreaming after I had horrible experience with false awakening years ago. To this day, I find it hard to deal with those. When I experience usual DILD, I enjoy it and manage to control it, more or less. Mostly I just fly above the city. But, when it comes to false awakenings, I always get scared so I don't even try to control the dream. I just wanna get out of it because it feels sickening!
This morning after I woke up at exactly 8, I had no intention of getting up, I knew I'll fall asleep again and I just knew I'll have a lucid dream, no doubt at all. It was more of a decision. I tried with WILD, but I'm not sure what happened. I fell asleep, no sleep paralysis experienced, I just found myself in a vivid non lucid dream, but very soon I realized I was dreaming. Then everything went wrong. Instead of stabilizing the dream, I had a first false awakening. It confused me, I got scared cause of the sensations I always experience during this, such as this horrific static and something like a vacuum force in my head. I know this is a normal phenomena, just don't know how to deal with it. I wanted to wake up, then again had a false awakening and from that point on things got shitty and messed up, Christopher Nolan would easily get confused... My awareness was floating between being awake and being asleep, my balance was messed up, I could barely move in my dream bed. So it was very hard to stabilize myself in a dream, and being unable to do so, I wanted to get out! But I couldn't. I kept telling myself I would wake up when I counted to three. And every single time I did so, my awareness shifted and I felt I had awoken, but guess again.
I was exhausted and terrified, mainly because of what I mentioned before - my awareness was messed up, I was disbalanced and hallucinative. I think that I finally woke up when the REM ended. I opened my eyes and knew this was for real this time. It was 8:40; cca. half an hour of madness. I'm still shaken up with this experience.
I would like to know, do you have similar problems with false awakenings and how do you deal with it? I know this is going to happen again, cause it happens every now and then, so I would like to talk about it.
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