Noob lucid dreamer, been studying about 60 days
I have managed to have two completely lucid but short dreams during that time. I have also had severl experiences that I might qualify as semi-lucid. Now I seem to have hit a wall. Maybe someone here can help.
A few facts about me:
1. I am not doing this to try to fly, beat up monsters or anything similar. For me it is all about the benefits I hope to gain by putting conscious and subconscious in direct contact.
2. My study has been fairly intense. Every day I read lucid dream books, watch vids, sleep extra hours if I can, do reality checks.
3. In the two fully successful dreams I have had (I have had maybe a dozen total lucid dreams in my life, but these are the fist I managed to induce in myself) my subconscious seems a bit touchy, kind of like a virgin dealing with an over-eager lover.
In the first one, the dream characters seemed ashamed, as if they were embarrassed tp have been caught by me, and by my announcement that I wanted to meet a wisdom figure, who could tell me how to meet my subconscious.
In the second, it sent out monsters to attack me. Those I was not afraid of, but tried to escape, as I thought they might cause me to lose lucidity. In the end, I did the Laberge thing and, as I was tumbling through the sky with the monsters tumbling about me, I asked my subconscious to show me something important.
I got something very similar to his version (sky starts to crack and go black, probably because I had finished his book recently). Suddenly it turns into a computer monitor, and I am whisked away into a morality play.
Since then, as I said, nothing fully lucid. That was about three weeks ago.
I was overjoyed at the last dream the morning after, though I got the distinct impression that my subconscious was frightened by it, and did not want to do more now. Several nearly successful attempts to enter lucidity since then (actual lucid dreams, but only a second or so long) or non-lucid dreams that contained very lucid elements.
The endeavour has been mildly successful in other ways. I feel much less depressed, and I have not become discouraged or wanted to give up trying. I am prepared for the long haul on this, but I would like to find ways of making it more frequent.
The trouble seems to be that, though my dream recall is good, I simply am not able to wake up in time to write everything down (I always get notes, but seldom more than a short paragraph per dream) and, during most dreams, I simply cannot get myself to look for dreamsigns, even ones that my subconscious makes obvious, such as one in which I was (non-lucidly) inside a pixelated computer similation of aircraft, falling from plane to plane. I just don't seem to be able to say, "I wonder if I'm dreaming."
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
