I write this because I just caught myself rushing through my house to the toilet at 3 am in the morning. I wasn't rushing because I really, really had to pee, but because I felt a great discomfort from the Darkness outside. While rushing through my kitchen my eyes where locked on the windows looking out in the garden where i encountered Charlie 'the demon midget' Chaplin 11 days ago.

I should probably start from the very start.

So basically all my research and motivation caused me to have an interesting experience on the very first night I ever attempted lucid dreaming. This is now 11 days ago and I'm still afraid of the dark.
My "interesting experience" was the most vivid dream I have ever remembered, and the first nightmare i have remembered for years. If you wan't to, you can read the nightmare in detail in my dream journal.
It's kinda hard to explain, cause the nightmare doens't seem like a particular scarry nightmare. But nevertheless I felt genuine deeprooted fear of the sorts I've never even remotely experienced in real life.
Today I'm still can't shake the feeling that whenever it is dark outside, the entity from my nightmare is watching me and I catch myself looking out the windows to make sure he is not.
I can understand why I would have it like that just after the nightmare. But it's only getting worse if anything 11 days after...
When I was in my early teenage years I remember being very much afraid of the dark but I somehow rationalized/suppressed it to eventually make my fears go away. I haven't been afraid of the dark for a lot of years and I can't recall a single nightmare from the time. But now I'm suddenly afraid of the dark again and no amount of rationalization can comepletely shake the feeling.

Guess I didn't really make a point huh... Well mainly I find it interesting that a dream can affect you in such a way. By the way I've pretty muched watched any worthwhile horror movie including the hardcore gore ones that shouldn't be watched by anyone from the under the age of 99... guess it was some kind of challenge for me, anyway none of those movies have affected me like this short dream.

This is really motivating me to learn how to lucid dream. For two reasons: 1) To maybe find out why i had this nightmare 2) this is the main reason, because it has truly opened my eyes to the power of the mind.

Hopefully some of this makes sense even though it's 3 am. here in Denmark. Cheers and goodnight