Is there anything i am doing wrong?
This is one of my normal days [literally]:
- I wake up and ask myself "Am i dreaming?" without any emotions.
- I look around my room and see if there is anything out of the place, i finish observing and do a few reality checks.
- I see my mom after leaving my room and do a few reality check without any emotions (since she is one of my dream signs)
- I go to school and do a few reality check from outside (Kinda strange, because on my dreams i am always in some classroom, so i should starting to do reality checks in classrooms too?)
- About some time later when i have a necessity to ask my reality, i do it, and look around the classroom, i finish observing and do a few reality checks. (I try to do it discretly, since it's kinda embarassing)
- I do this about 2-3 times while i am in school.
- My mom go get me at school, and i perform a reality check again.
I don't count how many times i question my reality, but i have a feeling
it's about 7-8 times a day.
Well, the only problem i see here is, i don't even take 1 minute to ask my reality.
I look around to try to notice if there is anything strange, or anything is out of it's place, i perform a few reality checks
and tell myself i'm not dreaming.
When i go to sleep:
- I lay down and let my mind "wander" for about 1 minute.
- I start to speaking my mantra on my mind: "I know that i am dreaming"
I can't feel any excitement, motivation or any other feelings when i am trying to fall asleep.
because when i am sleeping i like to "empty" my mind. My visualization skills are very awful so, i call my mantras "black mantra" since i can't
visualize anything or have any idea to fill that mantra with some lucid-related "images".
On week-end [I always do WBTB]:
- I go to sleep around 01:30 am
- I set my alarm on my phone to wake me up 6 hours later.
- After 6 hours i wake up, and start to question my reality, and after observing i do a few reality checks.
- I turn on my computer, and get on DreamViews to try to get motivation through dream journal entries or anything else
- Unfortunatelly i never can't feel motivated, sometimes i even "fake" my emotions, i pretend to be motivated but i know i am not.
If there is anything i am doing wrong, i would kindly ask to someone telling me what is it.
I found that everytime i do a WBTB, i can remember more dreams, while
on a normal day i remember barely 1 dream, when i do WBTB, i remember about 2-3 dreams, which i find awesome.
Oh and i sleep about 8-10 hours everyday.
Thanks for your help and time reading this.
Happy dreams :)