First time speaking to my subconcious
So last night I woke up around 3am because my stomach was hurting out of hunger. I had a small snack and drink and decided I would try to WILD again, since it had been quite some time since my last. I lied back down in bed and focused on/chanted about WILDing. It worked, I didn't really feel the transition so much as I felt that what I was imagining was no longer just a thought but I could feel my surroundings in the dream state. I did a quick RC with sticking my finger through my palm, before I was going to jump out the balcony door, just to make sure.
So I open the door and walk out, instead of a balcony it leads to a courtyard. I stand there in the courtyard and call out "I want to speak to my subconscious." From all angles I hear a voice, "this is I, I am coming." It honestly terrified me and I woke up, heart racing... but it was a FA. Not realizing this I focus on falling back into the dream and lucid back into the room before the courtyard. I walk back out into the yard and behind me I hear the same voice, "I am coming." Once again this scares me out of my lucid state into a FA. I focus again on what I was trying to do and roll out into the room again. This time the door out is open, and I feel that there is someone right around the corner. I watch intently as I see myself walk through the door into the room and sit down. My subconscious is in my own image, same voice, same body, same everything. I calm my nerves and sit on the end of the bed facing myself. I say hello and receive a hello back accompanied by a slight smile.
I think for a moment what I am going to ask, what my greatest fear is, what would make me happier, what I should do with life. I decide to start at the top with my greatest fear. As I open my mouth to speak I am cut off by him, he says "I do not want to answer that right now." I am taken back as I hadn't even verbalized the question yet, so I decide on something a little less extreme. I ask how he feels about my wife, he responds "I think she fits us very well." I smile and agree with him. since I am on the topic I try to summon a previous relationship that had gone very poorly. She wont appear for me and my subconscious frowns at me, telling me "we don't need to bring her into this right now." and waves dismissively in the direction she would have entered. We talk for a few more minutes before I lose my lucidity and drop out of the dream. The exact conversation I don't even remember.
But, what I would like to ask is has anyone else contacted their subconscious and been say declined on a question, or dominated in conversation by them? I didn't feel like I could control the conversation in the sense of asking and receiving an answer always. It was like my subconscious decided what it did and did not want to talk about. I plan on talking to him again when I lucid next, any ideas on what to ask? or how to get an answer when it does not want to give one?
