Feeling of getting pushed back, sleepy in LD?
I'd like to write this while it's still fresh in mind. I was attempting to WILD during a nap, using my newly created mantra which says " my hands will appear right in front of my eyes".
I chose this mantra because:
1) Looking at my hand details is my favorite reality check, the first one I've ever used in dreams, the most one I've performed in real life, and the most one I've had success with in general.
2) the mantra rhymes in my native language :D
I kept mentally repeating the mantra until i lost consciousness.
Suddenly I regain consciousness, my eyes are closed, I think I must have failed the WILD, didn't see any imagery, no sensations, no sounds just nothing... Suddenly I'm in my room and the first thing i see is my hands. I forgot all about the mantra at that time. All i could think about was where these my real hands and have I failed my attempt or were these my Dream Hands. I focused more on the hands, They started to Shine! and woop! colors, rainbows, flashing lights pop out everywhere, so brightly and fascinatingly that I thought I was going to lose lucidity. If you've read one of my posts before, all my LD's are dark, but this one was different. I get up everything is bright, I go out to the balcony, and attempt to fly, I start "floating" in the air but for some reason I fear failing. (not falling just failing in general ) I get pushed back into my room right into my bed. Strangely, Everything repeats itself. I'm on my bed again, I look at my hands just to sink the idea that I'm dreaming into my head more. I go out to the balcony again, attempt to fly, get pushed back. I feel so tired and exhausted, like i need to sleep in my dream. Soon the feeling of exhaustion overwhelms me and the dream fades away. I attempt to DEILD since i didn't open my eyes but I couldn't, I was just thinking about how intense that dream was and my heart was beating dead fast... I opened my eyes, I had to reality check again which shows, how realistic the dream actually was in cloning my room and imitating reality. Has anyone experienced anything like this? (a force pushing him back or exhaustion like you really want to sleep in the dream.) I'm still mind-blown my how my mantra worked for me, I mean it worked perfectly the first time i tried it! My eyes appeared in front me exactly as I wished. Can LDs get anymore awesome than that! :awesomed:
