My Mind is playing tricks on me!

**KenRay** · 01-19-2014 10:18 PM

Hi all,

so I just recently started to put my mind to this subject again. I started my dream journal, at first I only remembered snippets, then a couple of days ago after watching Inception for the second time, I meditated to a video I found on YouTube. I drifted of to sleep and this time I remembered the entire dream, vivid colors, details and everything.

The following day I was able to remember 4 of my dreams. They were also very vivid and in the last one of these I looked at my hands, said to myself I'm dreaming and then I got a really exited feeling and woke up. Well, I thought for starters this is not bad.

This morning I did several reality checks in my dream, it's like my mind is mocking me. I tried to read something, focused on it and it changed, I realized I was dreaming but didn't become Lucid. I dreamed about dreaming, I really thought I wrote something in my dream journal, only to find it empty.

Prior to that around 4 AM I meditated, I felt myself slipping into dreaming and back to reality several times. I experienced several exiting emotions but once the mp3 was over I just woke up again. I just don't become conscious so I can control the dream, if I realize I'm dreaming I just notice and go along with the dream.

Well, I know I have only been at it for 2 weeks now, but I'm a little impatient. Is this a normal phase? What are your experiences? Did some of you start of like me, with several failed reality checks?

I would be very happy for any suggestions, thanks!

**sparkley** · 01-19-2014 11:38 PM

You should practice your awareness, or test idk. But awareness is mainly the thing that causes you to do a RC because you'll notice somethings not right. In dreams everything is normal but once you have like awareness or something you'll do RCs more in your dream

**KenRay** · 01-19-2014 11:49 PM

Originally Posted by sparkley

You should practice your awareness, or test idk. But awareness is mainly the thing that causes you to do a RC because you'll notice somethings not right. In dreams everything is normal but once you have like awareness or something you'll do RCs more in your dream

Right, I guess the problem is that I do realize I'm dreaming but don't become Lucid. Like I do all these checks, but then I just go along with the dream. I'm just going to continue practicing.

**SinisterDezz** · 01-21-2014 01:33 AM

It would look like you haven't been doing RCs correctly.

Have you been doing them out of habit,(Or trying to make them a habit), or are you actually

TRULY questioning your reality?

That's the way it should be done, truly question.

**KenRay** · 01-21-2014 06:48 PM

Originally Posted by SinisterDezz

It would look like you haven't been doing RCs correctly.

Have you been doing them out of habit,(Or trying to make them a habit), or are you actually

TRULY questioning your reality?

That's the way it should be done, truly question.

I have an app that reminds me to do reality checks. I will check my hands, read some text twice, or try to breath through my nose.
I just recently started to do this though.

Funny thing, last night I could recall most of my dreams. I woke up in a bed in my dream and then I was lifted up and everything started moving including the ground. I said:"Please tell me I'm dreaming" and whoever was in that house said no.

In another scene, I tried to climb a bridge with interesting architecture. I was scared to move as I was so high up, and then the classic music I was playing on my laptop was coming through, and I heard it in my dream and felt more confident.

You'd think I realize I was dreaming??? No..again I just went along with the dream.

I'm in mid air above my bed, there is some kind of earth quake going on..You'd think I question my reality? Well I kind of did, but just believed whatever the DC said in my dream.

OF course I will continue practicing. Maybe I should increase the reality checks, eventually one will slip in my dream, hopefully