Thread: I feel alike that my dream are very different

Hey I'm very new to this DV but first I gonna explain you little but about my experience with my dreaming and stuff, my name are Brandon and I am 18 years old but I'm deaf (that's mean I can't hear at all) anyway when I was little I was dreaming/imaginery lot so it help me lot to get strange things alike if monster try attack me but in dream I will try make it become my friends but if not work then I will try get to anyplace that could protect me but often if not work I have 2 choice so one choice is let myself die by monster but second choice (that happen rarely) I have to go to any bed in my dream an sleep there then I woke up there either I woke up but sometime I got false awakening and but right I'm start confused with my own dream because I feel alike my dream not work right so I will sleep as normal but woke up I feel alike I still dreaming but I actually not but this part that where I want find an answer so my problem is I mostly sleep good then dreaming normal but when near to ending of my dream everything start go blurring and I can't see very well but when I wake up then I usually thinking about dream but I start see them as imaginery but not dreaming but right now I not sure what is the real dream look alike because I woke up and I remember it as black figures mix with real visual dream, so that what my most problem and I even do dream journal but it always make me wonder...is the dream real or fake? Because I feel alike I have different than dream. So I did try several method but off and on so I am still young so I want keep my imaginery big and I still love it but dream are only who bother me and please help me to get real colorful dre not bored black figures I usually can't see who they are but in my mind I does know who they are so my dreams are always againist monster or nightmare but I used to it but I usually force my nightmare into regular dream because I get probably over 1000 nightmare when I was kid so I could pleasure if you help me remember dreams as colorful but not blurring or black figures (that's start very recently and they sometime freak me out because I couldn't see who