Lucid dreamer begginer w/ sleep paralysis
EDIT: im writing this as i was writing my story, i was expecting to write a short paragraph for help but im writing alot and its hard to summarize and i hate reading long stories like this but please bare with me and read every line .
Hi im new to lucid dreaming and ive never had a lucid dream. But just to get this strait, i have had a couple dreams were i didnt know i was in a dream but i felt VERY slight control for example, i was a super hero and i had to hop like 3 timse to fly and i had to concentrate ALOT. however is this LUCID? i just woke up Rembmering that i had to try hard but i didnt know i was in a dream, it was if it was real.
Second, i have sleep paralysis and just happened to to get sleep paralysis about a year or 2 ago. whenever i go into sleep paralysis its ALWAYS ALWAYS 100% if i get home from school around 3:00 or so, i sleep normally, i wake up play games for a while till about 12 am THEN, when i fall asleep i go into sleep paralysis. ALSO very important ive never "Woken up" in sleep paralysis i ALWAYS know when sleep paralysis is going to happen its right before im about to go to sleep its VERY weird i just know im gonna go into it because i hear noises and buzzing , at the point of buzzing i can still move around but its VERY VERY HARD and if i just freeze i end up in sleep paralysis.
ive only had about 10 sleep paralysis nights and only about 2 of them i can see anything, the rest were i knew for sure i was awake but everything was black, ( my room is dark ). and one of the scary ones was just so frightening... i saw a small figure with horns like a miget maybe even looking like a devil sheep and it was just standing there STaring at me but i could not see its face it was just a shadow, and i felt breathing on me my neck and it felt so real and i was so scared. But most of my sleep paralysis terrors are just DARK i cant see anything and i close my eyes and my hearts beating really fast but im not really scared of it anymore i jsut say to my self oh god another sleep paraylsis episode and after a couple minuts im out of it.
WHAT I NEED HELP WITH:
so basicly the paragraphs above just show what experience i have with dreaming i have never tried, but im pretty sure i can trigger a sleep paralysis episode whenever iwant by going to sleep right after school, waking up then sleeping again almost everytime i fall into sleep paralysis. That said i want to LEARN TO LUCID DREAM.
I know this sounds wrong and it says everywhere you shouldnt focus on sex when learning to lucid dream but thats honestly all i want lucid dreaming for but of coruse after i acheive it ill move on to other things like flying and stuff. So last night was my first attempt in trying to lucid dream, before this attempt i done a shit ton of reality checks like the nose plug and hand stuff and i beileve i tried doing the WILD techqniue wrong. I tried doing WILD when i first went to bed but i guess ur suppsoe to do it after 5 hours of deep sleep, wake up then go back to sleep.
Anywways this is what i expereinced on my first attempt:
1. i kept using a mantra saying " im in a dream, im in a dream"
2. then i started visualing kate upton in a beach ( a real beach in my area)
3. after that i started seeing white sparkles on my eyelids ( like what you see when you rub your eyes somtimes)
4. with my first night i was kind of excited/ scared, i was just really paranoid last night of going into sleep paralysis so my heart rate and beat was going crazy so i could not accomplish it.
Anyways, does anyone experience this type of white sparkles in the early stages of trying to WILD? i couldnt get past anything and after like 30 minuts of staying still i just gave up and went to another position and tried again and i ended up not falling asleep.
After numerious attempts of trying to WILD, i just couldnt fall asleep so i just went to sleep normally.
