Starting to give up on DILDs..
Out of the few LDs I've had, only like 3-4 have been DILDs. And only one was a normal non-lucid where I suddenly realized I was dreaming and became lucid. The rest were like, I simply "woke up" in a dream already lucid without even trying to WILD. No pre-WILD sensations, just went to sleep and woke up in a dream lucid.
Here's what's going on
-I have great dream recall again and write them all down in a DJ
-I do over 15 reality checks per day, which include pinching my nose and trying to breathe, and also reminding myself of my dream signs and to recognize them
-I've been practicing (self) awareness for weeks. Granted, I'm not aware 100% of the time because I find it so difficult, but still
-I repeat mantras before going to sleep
-I wake up once or twice during the night to write down dreams
-I meditate 45 minutes per day (been doing it for 5 days now, it greatly increased my recall but no awareness in dream results yet)
I'm starting to give up hopes on DILDing, nothing seems to be working, even though I've been doing most of the above for months.. Am I doing something wrong or what? All my effort have been futile so far, almost no progress when it comes to DILD.