I can never get close

Hey guys.

Today I have come to talk to you about a problem I have been having, about my crush. Lets call her SY.

Lots of times when I become lucid, I try to find her. One time, I had this experience.

I was in my house, it was bright and light was flowing in from the windows. I went outside and went next door, asking if SY lives there or if they have seen her.

They all laughed.
They always laugh! Every DC I bring it up too, laughs.

I also had another lucid.

I actually found her this time, at school. She was in a sort of nice victorian dress. She looked amazing, haha.

I asked her on a date, but I said something stupid, a fear from a previous dream. It was a school basketball game, and when it was over I tried to show her a cool dream power using "FUS RO DAH" and I blew a door apart. I turned back, hoping *maybe* to get some action, but she was gone.

I haven't seen her in my dreams since, except lasts nights dream.

Does anyone know why my dreams (or subconscious) is holding this infront of my face, making it seem I can grab it, but I can't?

Maybe always try to go to school in your LD? Or when you're at a door expect her to be there? :o Maybe if those help.