Your most fascinating lucid experience.
For the past couple years that I have been able to lucid dream I my lucid frequency is based mostly on how much I choose to sleep and how much I choose to apply the techniques. Shortly after first gaining the ability I kept doing the techniques to maximize the chances of going lucid and I was able to go lucid 3-4 times week for a few months, even the times I didn't go lucid I had some strange and interesting dreams and I was going into sleep paralysis regularly. Despite the feelings of accomplishment I felt for achieving something I was obsessing over for so long, I felt ultimately the consequences were beginning to outway the benefits. I was sleeping way to much "13 hours a day", my lucid dreams generally except for a few rare ones consisted of me realizing I'm dreaming and then waking up after a few seconds feeling unable to make anything of the lucid dream. I also was beginning to feel like I was going a little crazy, even when I can't possibly be dreaming I couldn't stop feeling paranoid that it was a dream "it wasn't" and I just in general felt derealized. Since then I have canceled all methods of making lucid dreaming more common I do still use a dream journal but I usually write in it once every few days so much of the details except the main hazy concept remains forgotten. I imagine learning to lucid dream has similarities to learning to ride a bike, once you gain the ability the brains ability to go conscience in a dream becomes permanent. It may be less frequent if you don't try to keep a dream journal and everything but it'll still happen every once in a while. So yes I can still lucid dream but it happens on random when something triggering in the dream happens to happen. In fact the most recent lucid was last Friday it happened when I attempted to turn on the lights in a dark room but they wouldn't turn on.
Despite my limited lucid experience due to what I previously mentioned I am not without a beautiful personal growth experience from my lucid dreams. In the dream I was in my room standing next to my bed, I was aware that there were 3 "bullies" outside my apartment waiting for me to come out so they can fight me. As the pasifist I am I had no intention of confronting them and went into the bathroom. Looking into the mirror almost immediately triggered lucidity then I decided maybe I will confront them after all. So I allowed the dream path to take control of my body again but this time I was following the dream path fully lucid. Keep in mind the rest of my actions were determined by the dream path and were out of my control. Almost immediately after the dream path took control I yelled at the top of my lungs sound waves rippled in front of me. I then stomped the ground 3 times each causing a large hole in the floor and dirt flying around it. My assumption in that particular experience is the dream path was influenced by my lucidity and the dream path itself was exerting absolute control on my behalf over the dream. After that show of incredible power feeling very pumped up I ran to my apartment door slammed the door open ran down the stairs and then swung the door to outside open and stepped outside. I looked around the sky was a beautiful pinkish purple and I saw the 3 guys I recognized them as people from my past. They actually made no attempt to fight me I do know that all 3 of them I had minor issues with here and there but generally got along ok, when they left my life I did feel some regret that I didn't stick up for myself against them more. I soon woke up after that, waking up from the dream I was wondering what there could be to learn about myself from this dream. I think I got it, it is pointless to hold onto the past don't obsess over what could of been because it wasn't and never will be. Keep your eyes forward deal with the present and your future it's called the past for a reason, it's in the past it no longer matters and it will only be a burden that will hold you back if you let it.
