Is it normal..no rush of awareness and forgetting reality

I wasn't sure where to post this, so I posted in 2 forums. I'm not sure if that is ok, so if there is a problem please let me know and how to change it.

So the past two times I've had a [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]lucid dream[/COLOR], I have not gotten that rush of awareness/euphoria that accompanied my previous ones. Like my first two, I of course wen't around screaming "I'm dreaming!" and had to work at calming myself down. [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]Last week[/COLOR], I was in a creepy scene and realized it didn't look normal, then realized I was dreaming, and usually I take flight right away, but because it was creepy, I was panicked and couldn't so the panic woke me up.

Then last night, it was a [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]birthday party[/COLOR] for me, and I was [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]talking to[/COLOR] my grandmother and grandfather, after they left I realized that they were dead, and therefore; could not have been there. I realized I must be dreaming. Again, no euphoria or ruch of awareness, which I even thought about right after I became lucid. I was like where is that damn rush, I also thought I always fly right away so I will have to make sure to make my intent clear, since [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]I want[/COLOR][COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]to stay[/COLOR] here. I then walked to the [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]front door[/COLOR], and wanted my grandfather to walk back in so I could see him again. I knew that I needed to believe it and it would happen. It did he walked back in and I was hugging him, and crying saying how much I missed/loved him and could he believe I was already 26 (I'm really 30). All the crying woke me up and I was crying [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]in real life[/COLOR]. I did wake up in sleep paralysis.

Now two [COLOR=#1B8EDE !important]questions[/COLOR]: does that rush of euphoria/awareness not happen all the time or does it wear off? or was it the strong emotions of the dreams that didn't allow for it to happen?

Second: I was lucid but I went along with the idea that I was 26th since that was what number the party was about, but I'm really 30. Shouldn't I have changed it, since I should have had all my awareness with me?

Not getting Euphoria could be a benefit, your less likely to wake up by getting too excited. Most of the lucid dreams I have had, even though I know I'm dreaming, I'm still not completely aware. But in two of my lucid dreams I have been completely aware and got that rush you talk about, I don't think there's much you can do about the awareness, sometimes you are very aware other times you are not. I'm sure even people who regularly have lucid dreams have some dreams where they are not as aware as others.

Yea it does seem random with awareness especially if you start the dream non lucid like a dild, you sometimes get lucky and realize the full implications of you being in a dream and other times you know it's a dream but just can't quite realize what that means to you. For me sometimes I get that rush and alot of times I don't aswell I think it's normal for no two lucids to be quite the same with awareness and alot of other factors that affect you're dreams.

Not getting a rush is something positive, a rush will wake you up. Just blend and sync in with the reality of the lucid dream, anchor yourself and enjoy it to the fullest. You will feel more bliss rather than rush and that won't awaken you.