Dreaming of an Ex Husband

I dont know were exactly the dream.started, but from what i can recall. I was called to an apartment were my X husband was living with several other roomates. I had to pick up some string that was red and there i ran into a female friend of mine who started telling me how blue he was before he died, how after i didnt show up to his moms wedding he went very blue and depressed. I cant remember how he died and i never saw him dead in this dream i just felt it, death, sadness, guilt that it was my fault we ended. I held this red string close to me and ventured outside to look for his car. It was a new york looking scene cars parked back to back on the side tall building old era looking i walked and walked the block ran into that girl friend of mine again who seemed to be in a hurry i kept beeping his car beeper and could never find the car i felt anxious a little and searched for blocks didnt know the make or what kinds of car i was looking for but i felt like i had to find it. Then i woke up...

Now let me tell you a little about my x husband history and i, we were highschool sweethearts born in same hospital on the same birthday hours apart never meet eachother till highschool, passion, romance was outta the world, we were younger had two kids life happened and he cheated, after that i just left we put eachother through hell finally he just disappeared had not seen kids in 9yrs. After that long i got.a hold of his new girlfriend and ask if he could sign kids over for adoption to my now husband of 8yrs needless to say he started wanting in kids life again and ive been being super nice allowing it to happen ... what does that dream possibly mean??

Only you can ultimately say what a dream means because the symbols are your creation (putting aside the possibility of shared archetypes). I try to take each element in the dream and ponder what it symbolizes to me.

I suppose i didn't really want to dream of something so old, it just freaked me out but thanks :)

In dreams, symbolically, death can just mean transition. And that seems to fit your story. With the adoption process, you're experiencing a significant transition that involves your children, your husband, and your ex-husband. It's entirely reasonable that this has caused you some stress and influenced your dreams.