A question for some of the more experienced lucid dreamers out there...
Does anybody here experience anything along the lines of opt-in selective lucidity? By that I mean an ability to gain lucidity at any momentary point, but a general tendency not to if circumstances allow.
I would describe this as a sense of lucidity that rapidly emerges as a response to negative emotions that occur mid-dream, that subsides just as quickly once the thread has passed. The lucidity here is not the actual goal... just a mechanism to ensure peaceful dreaming, with total surrender to (safe) unconsciousness being the more important achievement.
I ask this as my lucid dreaming ability rapidly gave way to these later kind of dreams at about the age of 25. Since then I rarely maintain lucidity any longer than necessary to micro-manage the dream narrative.
The direct benefit is that my dream-recollection has seemingly surged to dramatic levels, and I tend to have at least one dream a month that I recall so vividly that I can write 5,000+ words of detail on their subject if I want.
Previously, I might have one such dream a year, and would agonise over half-remembered dreams in immense frustration for days and days. As my lucidity gave way to selective-lucidity, I have enjoyed my dreaming experience significantly more, and never struggle to remember a dream.
Please advise if anybody shares this experience
I am engaged in academic research on this very subject (metacognition of protoconscious states) and would like to know just how unique my self-directed training has been.
Thanks
J