Dreaming Of Having A Lucid Dream
I have had this several times in the past few months. I don't actually lucidly dream, but I dream about having a lucid dream. I dream of a story where I believe I am dreaming and have dream control, but I'm not actually having a lucid dream - I'm not genuinely aware that I am dreaming, nothing is vivid and my conscious mind isn't in the dream - I am simply dreaming of a story/fantasy where my shallower dream self thinks I am dreaming and has certain dream control. They're still at least partially a good sign for me, since it proves to me that I'm thinking and practicing about lucid dreaming so that the idea of thinking the thought of "am I dreaming?" and remembering dream goals has partially carried over to my dreams (in these dream stories I have of dreaming I'm in a lucid dream the first thing my dream self tries to do is try some of the dream goals I've actually set in real life to carry out in actual lucid dreams), but they are still not actual lucid dreams.
In these dreams where I dream about lucid dreaming, my dream self doesn't usually do actual reality checks - I remember my dream self suddenly thinking internally "I am dreaming" (I actually hear the thought words), with no explicit trigger; the trigger that causes my dream self to think "I'm dreaming" in these dreams about lucid dreams is either so obscure I can never remember it upon awakening in spite of practicing keeping my dream recall up or the thought literally comes out of nowhere.
I have heard other people also have this issue. Anyone have tips for how they tried to solve this issue (like perhaps tried to make sure that they reality checked more mindfully/properly in real life so they did so in their dreams so their awareness rose to actual lucidity, or something)?
I have a feeling I might not be doing my reality checks mindfully enough, so the simple idea of trying to have a lucid dream is carrying over to my dreams and I have dreams about lucid dreaming and my dream self believes the environment is a dream based on a reminding thought alone - so I don't do a reality check and if my dream self does reality check it doesn't bring proper awareness, and I just have a normal dream ABOUT lucid dreaming without truly realising or becoming properly aware of the dream.