Failed WILDs blurring reality of waking life!
Okay, I dunno if this has been discussed before, but anyway, here goes.
I've tried to have a WILD about 7 times now, and I'm quite confident things are progressing.
BUT every time I "wake" from a WILD attempt, or if I decide to pull myself out of it after an hour (or three, in one case) of deep sleep paralysis, I awake to find the realworld blurry, hazy, and I've gotta concentrate to make stuff clear. Also, I walk around the house in my dressing gown, staring at stuff occaisionally and thinking it's not real. I also can't seem to shake this profound feeling that my mind's tricking me... A good example is that I see a mirror on the wall above the lounge TV that wasn't there. I squint, and think to myself "hey, I'm dreaming!" and the mirror seems sort of surreal. But then I get closer and realise the mirror is actually just an especially reflective glass painting-frame which I obviously forgot was there... just lots of things like that keep hapening.
Suffice it to say, I'm getting VERY suspicious of my waking mind, and find myself checking my reality a fair bit. On NONE of these occaisional did I have a false awakening... I actually DID wake, so I haven't successfully WILD-ed without realising it, if that's what you're thinking reading this...
Do other people who have tried WILDs get this after waking from a failed attempt? Could it be anything to do with the fact that I sleep very deeply, and this is like waking out of incredibly deep meditation...? Thoughts?
