Originally Posted by
Spamtek
And counting. The trick is mostly in how you define 'trying', since someone can ingest some calea Z for the night, spend two hours meditating with autosuggestion and affirmations, fall asleep follow a HILD, then WBTB twice in the night and WILD out of both of them, and call that trying for a day, while another person might do a couple RCs and think it a done deal.
Incidentally I'm in neither of those camps, the word I used was meaning, not trying. While I've certainly tried a lot over the years, it was sporadically and certainly not every day. Of course, some people can hear about LDs for the first time and mean to have one based off of that experience and lo and behold, do have one that night, so I guess for some people meaning to is all the effort they need, in which case a track record of seven years and running with nothing on the scoreboard does start to look pretty dire.
Most of that time was spent in a petty state of mind from which to approach lucid dreaming though. While I was certain of their existence, and certain of the neurological possibility of one happening to me, I was still approaching the issue from a stance of "well I've failed in the past, there's no precedent for my having one tonight either, I guess we'll just see what happens," which is a statement of skeptical empiricism devoid of faith in my abilities, a hollow, empty, and futile way to attack the problem. I think I've deserved the dry spell (is it a dry spell if it's never rained?) I've got, even if I don't like having had it: my defeatist, skeptical, fatalistic attitude could have generated nothing but failure.
But I'm getting better, and I can feel rain on the winds; it's coming sometime soon. I have to, because complete faith in the imminence of my lucid breakthrough is a predicate condition - the predicate condition - for it ever possibly occurring.[/b]