Flying And Awakening

What I find, when i try to fly, is that falling is inevitable. I would begin to fly for a moment, but then just fall again. What i see it as, is that when I'm flying, as soon as i think, "hey! I'm flying, i can go wherever i want!" i fall back down again. I believe this is because there's two sides of a dream, two parts in control, the part that says "This is a dream! go explore!" and the side that makes me cautious of my actions and, in turn sees everything as reality. Its like when i fly, my brain is saying no, this isn't real you shouldn't be flying, and i am pulled back down to earth. I try to confront myself, tell myself that its important that i fly, to no avail. Maybe being only being able to jump large distances has a second meaning? The reason i cant fly is because i still have regrets and i have an emotional barrier i have to cross. It seems i have to fully free myself mentally before experiencing true flight. Someone who understands the true meaning of being human and is not bound by rules and emotions can truly speak of freedom. I feel like when i can stop feeling tied by my past, can i fly and explore further. The only way i can fly for longer periods of time is when i blank everything out and just let my mind take me, but sometimes this results in a total scene change.

Another thing that seems difficult to some, is waking up from dreams. What seems to work for me is closing my eyes tight. I realise when i do this i can still see my created world, so i just keep closing, tighter and tighter, knowing my eyes will always close tighter. Eventually, its like my mind gives up recreating images and allows the dark curtain to be drawn. As soon as this happens i open my eyes as wide as i can. As though opening lots of sets of eyes. Traces of my dreams are still occurring but i just look around me, showing my self that I'm no longer dreaming. My place of freedom slowly fades away, but i will always remember what i experienced, using my new found knowledge in my next dream. If, when your dreaming, you imagine yourself waking up, you will only dream of waking up, waking into another dream, only to be hit by the truth that your efforts were useless.
Have you ever had it where your alarm goes off, and you dream yourself getting up and turning it off, benefiting in an extended second of peace, only to be dragged harshly into another day of rules? This is one of the ways you can awake into another dream.
In all dreaming is a place to escape not a time to be clinging to the past.