I can't seem to LD lately, which is starting to bother me. I'm getting less sleep, so less chance to LD, but even when I sleep for a long time, I don't usually LD. I have had a few "near-misses" with LDs, for instance:
I was at a site, the like of which I've had many encounters with in previous dreams, that was like a campsite (I say "like", because I don't think it was for camping). I was beside the path, and there were large, flat-topped rocks for stepping up, almost like an enlarged staircase (which is a natural formation in reality, too). However, the rocks were still steep enough that I had to climb here and there to get up. While I was climbing, I had the realization that I was dreaming and the urge to start doing things all in the same instant. The odd part was, I wasn't very conscious, because I thought something like "I don't want to start doing things here, it's hard to be relaxed here. I'll climb just a bit more to the top, so I can start getting a grip while overlooking this beautiful lake". Wouldn't you know it? I get to the top and get woken up by.. something I can't remember (I think it was a noise). By the time I drift back to sleep, I've lost my grip on what I was trying to do, and have a non-lucid dream.
Also, yesterday I had a semi-lucid dream. When I say semi-lucid, I mean that I often get my lucid-dream powers, without going through the whole process of becoming lucid. That's not to say it's entirely non-lucid, but it's more expressed in feelings that I control the world than full-blown thoughts of "hey, I'm dreaming. Therefore, I control the world. Bwa ha." I suppose it's most akin to another of my hobbies: hacking. When you hack a game, you're still very much a part of the game, and you don't think "This game isn't real" every step of the way. In fact, you most likely won't think it. However, you also have the feeling of what you can and can't do to break the rules that everyone seems mindlessly subscribed to, and you remind yourself that the world isn't exactly what it seems. That's what I mean by semi-lucid.
Basically, we were playing tag with death. I blame Supernatural (S01E12) for that. Anyway, at some point, I started thinking something like "shouldn't I have powers? Situations like this usually have me with powers." I tried flying and failed, but it didn't discourage me. I knew it was just something I'd have to think properly about. After the third or fourth try, I managed to get a strange sort of flying working, where I would try to feel wind under my arms, which would then create a pocket of air that pushed me up by four or five feet, and I could glide around. I never really tried to push up any further, but I wish I had.
Anyway, I'm having these near-lucids, but no full lucids anymore. Anybody have any idea why? I've just started school, I'm sleeping less, and I've been taking melatonin to sleep better, but not regularly.
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